Just to let you all know, my grandma is out of the hospital now. I know why she was there now, but, for her own privacy, I won't say it.
The few replies that I have below are actually stories of mine that I thought related in some way.
AdventSign wrote:I feel like I don't belong anywhere and a part of me wants to and a part of me doesn't. Sometimes I don't even know who I am...all I know is to listen to people and that is it. It is hard making friends because I am so open one minute and then really hostile and non trusting the next. I am in college working on my studies content with what I am doing and in a minute or so I suddenly don't want to work and think the field that I am taking is worthless and stupid. It's taken a toll with my girlfriend and the few friends that I have and I really don't know how to handle it. I feel like there are two people living inside of me and it scares me a bit.
In a way, I can be the same way. When I'm with my friends, I'm fairly talkative. When I'm at school, I keep to myself and (don't) focus on work. When I'm at home, I only really respond to my parents and sister monosyllabic-ally. When I'm at church, I'm the guy that tries to just show up without anyone noticing, which fails. This isn't exactly what you were talking about, but I guess the point is that I sometimes don't know who I am either.
Ciclo wrote:I'm not too good at writing, but I'll give it a whack. Around a couple years ago, I received major surgery for scoliosis. I was in the hospital for a couple weeks, and I couldn't really do much in the way of exercise for a solid year. Up until my hospital visit, I had been saying some goodbyes and hanging out with friends, although this surgery wouldn't have permanently put me out of my school but just long enough to leave school half a semester early. Everyone was acting normal as they usually did, and we had some great times winding down to my surgery date. Then, my surgery was over with and I was laying in a hospital bed, back fixed. My parents rarely showed up because of work, as to be expected. But my friends never showed. I did manage to make a call one day, I had called one of my friends from high school. The call was astonishingly quick, and consisted of me telling him my surgery done and him giving a generic "get better". Months later, I was enrolled in an independent study school due to my condition being unsafe for a public school, apparently. I never did talk to any of my previous friends after that.
TL;DR: Friends abandoned me.
When I was in elementary school, I had two friends. We'll call them Greg and Pete. At recess, we would always play together. At lunch, we would eat together. Usual friends stuff for elementary school. However, in the third grade, I was told that next year, I was going to be switched to a new school. On top of that, Greg was going to move at the end of the school year. Pete was the only one that was going to stay. Greg and I tried to stay in touch, but we eventually stopped calling each other. When I was going to middle school, I was excited. I thought that, since Pete and I went to the same elementary school at one point, then we would be going to the same middle school. I was wrong. I figured out, when I looked him up in the phone book, that he was put into the "Talented and Gifted" program, which was at a different school. I think I saw him a couple times at high school, but everything was so different that I couldn't believe it. I managed to get in touch with Greg in February on FaceBook, but things are kinda awkward now. I haven't actually seen him for 11 years now. I tried saying that we should meet and catch up, but the topic was quickly changed.
I have no idea what the point was of me posting this stuff was.
it's like I adjust to anyone I'm with and that makes me a bit different every time.