In Loving Memory. (possible spoiler!)

[bluetopaz]

THIS HAS A GOOD CHANCE OF SPOILING THE STORY FOR YOU IF YOU HAVE NOT BEEN DOWN THIS PATH! PLEASE READ THE FOLLOWING AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Comments are welcome.

I could not figure out where the best place to post this would be but the story of Lilly hit me so hard I was literally sad and ready to cry for several hours afterwards. The only way I found to get over it was to start reading again.

This is my first post of course so if I put this in the wrong category, I am truely sorry. Please move this thread if needed, thanks!
Now for my reply to Lilly. This is kind of my reply through Hisao. (yes i know it's not the same context in which Hisao would use. But then again I am not the writer of Hisao either and this is my rendition)


Lilly, My love.
My beautiful golden haired dove, with eyes so blue. I told you I love you and I still do. It may be silly to you. But my broken heart remains true, Lilly. I can't forget our time together and as hard as I try not to cry, I can't help but miss you. The fun we all had together, I want you here with me. Why did you have to leave? Couldn't you see that it would all have worked out with us? Couldn't you just believe? You told me you loved me Lilly. You told me you didn't want to lose me. I came to trust you and to have faith that our love could always be. You were my golden sunshine and to me, blind and all, you were perfectly divine. Having tea together, the three of us how the time would carefully unwind as I admired your beauty, time after time. You may not have known it then. But I was ready to take your hand and gently slide on a wedding band onto your beautiful slinder finger. The thought of your loving touch still lingers. I lay in bed at night and just close my eyes viewing your beautiful face in my memories. Being in the tub together, there was nothing better. My heart singing while feeling your soft skin against mine. How could you just leave that all behind? You really did have my heart, my dear. I thought you knew, I thought I made that clear. Lilly, I do still love you, my blue eyed angel. I miss you in that red dress, I can't help but confess. I wish you would have stayed. The love between us was far more than just getting laid. I wanted my life to end with you. I thought you never wanted to lose me. But you left me.

I write to you, to show my heart is still here for you and I hope in time you will see the mistake that was made and come back to me. You are my life Lilly. With out you, there is only rain soaked days with no sunshine to brighten my day. Hanako can't collect herself and I find myself wiping tears at night. I wish you would come back and make everything alright. Nothing takes our mind off of you and I miss the gentle conversations between us two. My books lay by the bed collecting dust since you have been gone. I tear up and my chest gets tight when I try to open them now as if reading is wrong. You have been away for far too long. Your cane gently tapping the ground as we walked through town still echo's like a silent song in my hollow mind. Filled with sorrow and beautiful memories of you broken in time. Lilly, please listen, you have touched us in more ways than anyone can possibly comprehend. If all is fair in love and war, then, my beautiful angel, you win. Lilly just come back to us. Please with out any more fuss. We miss you dearly, I speak to you from the bottom of my heart wholey and sincerely. I hope this letter shows how much we really do care. It doesn't matter how many turn and stare, you will always be my sunshine flare. In my eyes, Lilly, rainbows flow from your beautiful soft blond hair and no other woman could ever compare. This is why we need you here and not there. Lilly don't be silly, we are your family and we will always be here. You will never become lost or forgotten, remembered always as my blue eyed angel, endearingly sincere.

With tear soaked eyes,
this is for you my dove.
Always loved and never forgotten,

With all my heart,
Hisao Nakai

**In loving memory of Lilly Satou**

[fcd15]

Thank god there's the happy ending. If there was only that 'neutral' ending and I'd read this, I would be drowning myself in tears by now. I can feel his pain like it is real. I kind of know how this would feel, since I've been on a similar situation (not anywhere as bad though) and this really struck me. The sad thing is that it would never happen. He's never that romantic when he's not by her side, just the two of them.

Good job. I wouldn't have said it better myself if I was Hisao.

[bluetopaz]

lol. Yes.. Thank god.. lol At the time I wrote this I didn't know there was a different ending. I thought that was the true end of the story like there was no better ending and boy it hurt like getting slapped in the face with a tadpole. Thank you for the wonderful comment. I am glad I have learned since then that there is a better ending. I praise the writers of this VN as this is only the SECOND book I have ever read in my life. (I'm a writer.. not so much a reader as for books anyway) and this one was good enough I read it TWICE! lol Of couse I will be reading it more. But now I have calmed down some and it's on my laptop. So if i don't grab up the "book " again before long I will have some entertaining stories when the power goes out.. lol it is good enough I am holding myself back from sinking another week into it for 2 more reads lol. it's tough* but I'm holding steady.. lol.

This was my very first VN and I collected it by accident. I wasn't expecting what I got when I got it. But WOW I'm glad I got it.. lol

Again thank you for the comment. I am super glad you enjoyed my work.

*-edited

[fcd15]

Damn, if the neutral ending were the only possible one I don't know how I would be right now. Maybe you could have found out about the better ending by playing the game yourself, so I think I should apologize for kind of giving you a spoiler

Your epilogue is really well-written, and I thought about the possibility of Hisao saying or writing something like this, which at first seemed really unlikely since he's not the most romantic guy, but seeing the loved one going on a one-way trip to the other side of the world and being all alone may really put a dent on any heart, no matter how cold or reserved it might be, so it wouldn't be totally impossible for this letter to actually be written by Hisao. He was fucking desperate, too. That's why I liked it so much. You're welcome to do something about the good ending too, if there's any way to get things to be better than that

[bluetopaz]

Oh no. You weren't the one that handed over the spoiler. My own curiosity and nosiness into the rest of the forum gave me the spoiler. I knew about the other ending after I read through the forum and well.. never mind. Just know I learned the sky wasn't falling.. lol

I had to laugh at your statement about him being "fucking desperate". lol That was funny. lol However I do not understand what you mean about the good ending? Do you mean write something about the good ending? I could probably do that. In all honesty what I wrote was actually how I personally felt but considering what I'm feeling this about, I thought it best to put it in hisao's name.

Don't get me wrong.. I'm not hot for a cartoon (much). But the situation as it was and how it was protrayed was.. Absolutely stunning. In contrast to the novel though. I do personally seek a female like Lilly. Not exactly like her, but more of her additude.

That seems to be a fear of everyone here on the forums. That we will actually get attached to the females in their cartoon form and ruin our lives for any real relationships. I personally take this as hope I suppose. As if the lady can be imagined. Then one has to exist. Lilly is realistic enough to me to a humans normal personality scope that I could actually see finding a lady like her.

Thank you for the compliment about my writing. May I ask what attracts you to Lilly?

In real life Lilly fits my personality very well. She always has a reason for her actions and diliberate train of thought on how to execute her actions. We both have a reason for everything we do. That is what really hit home with me for her over the others.

[fcd15]

Yeah, I think you write well enough to be able to further improve that ending, don't know, maybe something about their graduation, where they'll be going, something about Hanako and Akira, possibly Shizune too. Or maybe years later, them living together or their work, possible pregnancy and/or marriage. Lots of ideas here. Maybe I might write something myself, but for now I'm just suggesting

I'm not really sure if Lilly has some specific quality that makes her so special. Maybe it's a blend of every good quality a girl can have. But if I had to point one, it would be the fact that she's calm, collected and very reasonable, sometimes being too kind to someone who doesn't deserve it (Shizune? Lilly took her jabs for quite some time before that cold war exploded ) but she knows what to do when she reaches a crucial point in her life. She's that innocent, angelic girl that can still exchange fun jabs with you while being able to fully understand the thoughts and actions of a man. She's not that scared cat that retreats at the first sign of danger, even though she's blind and fragile.

I thought about her disability, and I think it just makes her all the more special. Even though it will always be an obstacle of sorts, it also helps to keep things interesting and enigmatic. That's how I think I'd feel if I dated a blind girl. I wouldn't want her to stop being blind, even if it was possible.

The fun thing is, I'm in love with a girl whose personality is almost a carbon copy of Lilly's. Before that, I dated her friend who's pretty much like Emi. I did Emi's route first and I absolutely loved it, but then I did Lilly's and it was the best thing I've seen in quite a while. I loved the girl that reminds me of Emi, but I'm sure I'll have the greatest time of my life if I date this girl who I'm in love with. KS reminds me of myself, and that's why I love it so much

[bluetopaz]

I must agree with you. The writing style is very very similar to my own writing style so to pick up on the feeling like it was myself going through those events was nearly as close as breathing air. If you ever find another Lilly, please send her my direction.. lol

For writing a further ending, I'm not so sure.. I'll have to look into that when I get to finish. I would hate to write something that would never be implemented into a real purpose though. My writing comes from the heart so I would like to see something more come of it then just.... A dead epilogue. It may be worth looking into if I an idea that it would be enjoyed. But this is all stipulation as I haven't even got to the good ending yet! lol

[Snow_Storm]

Wait, Lilly dies in her route?

[bluetopaz]

Wait, Lilly dies in her route?

I have reason to believe this is false. But I believe you will have to look into that information yourself. I can not say one way or another until I have finished her path. But even if I did have that information, I wouldn't share that here as your question also informs me that you have not finished her path, which I fully recommend you do if you wish to know what happens to Lilly.

[Mirage_GSM]

Would Hisao write her a letter if she had died?
Using sentences like "Please listen" or "Come back to us"?

[charmisokay]

Would Hisao write her a letter if she had died?
Using sentences like "Please listen" or "Come back to us"?

Maybe if he's a necromancer!
Haha, joke aside: (Minor Lilly spoiler) No she doesn't die. Not in her bad end or the good one.

[fcd15]

If Lilly died I wouldn't be posting here.
The forum would also be about 30% emptier.

True story.

[bluetopaz]

If Lilly died I wouldn't be posting here.
The forum would also be about 30% emptier.

True story.

I think there would actually be more forum activity by about 15% above what there is now due to VERY angry readers if Lilly died.