“Is this one of those times when I should see the other girl?” I ask with a wince as Saki makes her way towards me. I knew she was in a fight but that looks sore as hell. Her silent, glum expression lightens as she enters my personal space and throws her arms around my neck. Oh. I guess we’re hugging friends now?
“I’ll live… Bitch.” She chuckles quietly into my neck. I hug her back with a smile but it goes on for so long that I start to feel awkward. Two girls hugging in their pyjamas in the girls’ dorms isn’t too weird an occurrence but it feels weird to me…
“You really needed a hug, huh?” I ask gently, patting her back. She nods but releases me from her grasp anyway, probably hearing the awkwardness in my voice. The forced smile falters for a second as she looks down but returns when she looks me in the eye.
“It’s been a week and seeing you up and around is the best damn thing about it.” She answers, almost bitterly but trying really hard to hide it.
“Well that just makes me feel all the more special!” I reply sarcastically, trying to lighten the mood somewhat. “But seriously; are you okay?”
“Ha! I should really be asking you that.” Saki folds her arms as she leans against my doorframe. “But I could really use a girl-friend to talk to if you’re not too drained?”
I look at the digital clock in my room and see it’s only nine-thirty, an hour after Hisao finally got sick of me cuddling and kicking his butt at Tekken and went back to his room.
“Sure thing, Saki.” I smile at her and gesture for her to enter my room. She shuffles past me and I give the hall one last look around before following and closing the door behind me. “Take a seat anywhere.”
Saki plops down in front on the TV, on the cushion I usually sit on so I take a spot on the cushion Hisao usually takes. It feels wrong but she’s clearly going through it.
“Do you wanna play some games while we talk? I find it helps to have something to do with my hands.” I offer, reaching in front of her to pick up my controller and offer out the cheaper, player two controller.
“Considering I can’t smoke in the dorms…” She looks pensive as she takes the controller in her hands. “I’m not really a gamer though.”
“It’s okay; we can try something a little less competitive and a little more chill.” I say, leaning forward and flicking through the basket of games and pulling out Katamari Damacy. It’s not one of my favourites but it’s a fun chill game and I feel this might just be the soothing balm she needs.
“So what do I need to do?” Saki asks as I set up an eternal level then thrust my controller into her hand. “And what’s with this music?”
“Wild, right? So you just have to roll that ball around and get things to stick to it. Start small and you’ll be able to pick up bigger things as you go.” I direct her and Saki looks between the controller and the screen a couple times before it finally clicks in her head. “So who’d you get in a fight with?”
“Wasn’t really a fight…” Saki mutters. Heh, I know that feeling. “I got my shit rocked by Ritsu, the girl with the headband in Hisao’s class?”
I rack my brain and an image appears in my head from the art room and the music room; that orange headband girl I kept seeing… The one who gave me the stink-eye once.
“Okay. Did you get a few jabs in at least?”
“Only the verbal kind… Why is this little alien being a dung beetle anyway?”
“The stuff he rolls into a ball gets turned into a star for the king of space…” I explain and receive an incredulous look. “I know, I know, but the gameplay is fun. We should get you on Super Monkey Ball next.”
“Are all the games you play ball-related?” Saki chuckles and scowls a little.
“Only the ones I break out when I don’t want to kick someone’s ass at Tekken and you’ve had enough of an ass-kicking from the looks of you.”
“Ouch! So this is a baby game with pretty colours to help me relax?”
“Is it helping?” I ask and she smiles, nodding a little, almost in time with the music. “And now you’re in on-campus suspension?”
“I felt like I should be in there too since I started it. I slept with her boyfriend, y’know.” Saki says matter-of-factly, her eyes glancing sideways. Probably gauging my reaction.
“Hence the punch in the face.” I don’t want to sound too judge-y, but that’s pretty shitty. “So what happens now? You stay in OCS for a few weeks and then back to regular classes?”
“I wish. Turns out my Mom cares more than I thought; she wants to see me on Saturday.”
“It’s been like a week though, right? If I got into a fight and got super-detention; my Mom would be down here the same night to chew me out.” I raise a quizzical eyebrow at Saki’s home life. Again, trying not to judge but from what Saki told me about her family, it sounds about on par with their disinterest in anything other than her talents.
“Yuuuup…” Saki sighs deeply. “But I imagine I’m going to be told I’m letting the family name down and will get the third degree about quitting my clubs… Argh, fuck you, mouse!”
I look to the screen and see that Saki’s character is indeed being bullied by a mouse.
“So you don’t want to do music or art any more; have you thought about any other clubs you might want to do?”
“Honestly, no… I’ve got so much going on in my head that I’m having a hard time thinking of anything.”
“Sounds like a typical struggling artist to me.” I shrug. “Maybe a new outlet will help you keep your Mom off your back, at least in the interim.”
“That sounds like giving-in to her though. Like it’s just another thing her and Dad will take credit for or roll out as a party trick.” I can practically hear the flesh of her hands tighten around the plastic controller, like she’s throttling it.
“So choose something that doesn’t put a focus on you. What about the literature club? I know you like reading.” I offer and she shakes her head.
“The club president doesn’t like me because I argued the music club needed more resources than hers did. She got so angry she passed out and banged her leg pretty bad.” Saki frowns a little, maybe feeling guilty about that. “Besides, I like reading trash on my own. It’s just for me.”
I blow air out of my pursed lips as I scratch the back of my head, trying to think of something else…
“Sorry, I’m doing all the talking. Here. Your turn.” Saki holds out the controller and I take it, quitting the level and switching to time attack. “So what’s being in a coma like? Can you really hear people?”
I laugh as I start the level and plan my route whilst also thinking how best to answer. “You know when you sleep and you don’t dream? Kinda like that. And you can sorta hear but it’s not like you can respond to it.”
“Huh. I guess it’s the closest thing to being dead in a weird way…” Saki comments with a pensive look I clock in my periphery.
“Well I was only dead for a couple minutes compared to being in a coma for a week so-” I offer idly but Saki’s hand grabbing my wrist completely derails my progress.
“What do you mean you were dead?!”
“Y-yeah… My heart stopped and I lost blood flow to my brain during surgery. Didn’t Hisao tell you why I was in a coma?” I pull my arm away from the shocked Saki who sits back on her legs, her mouth agape as her eyes dart around, staring the middle distance.
“N-n-no! I just thought you were put into a coma to help heal.” I thought Hisao would have said something about it… Maybe he didn’t want to worry her? I pick up the controller and restart the level again before continuing the topic.
“I mean… Yeah, that’s kinda what it was for but it wasn’t really planned to happen. Between having open heart surgery, complications, and my haemophilia, it was to give my body and mind time to heal and to see what the damage was. If the procedure worked and if I had brain damage.”
“Fuck me… I’m sorry.”
“Rumours of my demise are greatly exaggerated.” I smirk, casting a glance sideways. “But yeah, I can’t really compare the two experiences because they both felt like nothing to me.”
“So you didn’t…” Saki begins before looking worried and averting her eyes. “Ignore me, I’m being stupid.”
I pause the game and turn to face her, tilting my head a little to catch her attention. I offer a reassuring smile but I don’t know how much reassurance Saki could take from what I’m about to say.
“I can guess what you want to as-”
“Ignore me! I was just being silly!”
“It’s not silly at all, Saki! It’s an important question; one people like us wrestle with a lot. Even if we don’t admit it.” I can imagine that’s true for the two of us, anyway.
Saki and I share a moment of quiet understanding before she straightens up, a fresh look of resolve on her face. “What did you see? Was there a… Heaven?”
I take a deep breath and think back. As much as I can think back anyway. It’s a hard question to answer… Like forgetting a dream.
“I don’t know how to answer that in a way that’ll be comforting, Saki.” I admit, sighing a little in defeat.
“Can you at least lie to me?” Saki chuckles half-heartedly with a crooked smirk and a pleading look in her eyes.
“Would you want me to? Even if you knew I was lying?” I ask but Saki looks at the floor, her shoulders tensing up.
“No. Even if I wanted to believe you.”
I shuffle towards her on my knees and give her a hug which she returns.
“Sorry, Saki.”
“No, I’m sorry, Rika. I shouldn’t ask something like that, it’s insensitive.”
“Death isn’t a sensitive topic for me, it’s a daily reality. If you ever feel like you need to talk to someone about it; come find me.”
“You’re really fucking cool, you know that?” Saki smiles demurely and rests back on her butt.
“I really fucking am.” I smirk, picking up the controller again. “Now ask me something sillier while I try to beat this high score. Try to throw me off, gimme a challenge.”
“Okay, okay, lemme think for a second…” Saki ponders as I unpause the game. “Alright; what’s the deal with you and Hisao? I can’t imagine you both having heart conditions is good for… Y’know.”
I grip the controller tight as my skin turns pink. Saki notices and laughs but I simply blow a calming jet of air out of my lips and refocus.
“It’s been slow-going. We’ve managed to do some stuff though.”
“Oooh, you little slut! Stuff! Next you‘ll tell me you’ve done things!” Saki puts on her mocking tone and my blood runs cold. I involuntarily shiver at the thought of how that voice used to torment me. It’ll take some getting used to if she uses it jokingly.
“That’s cheating!” I laugh, trying to focus and failing. Now I’m just thinking about all the stuff and things me and Hisao have done since we started dating.
“So what; Second base? Third?” Saki asks and I blush harder.
“Th-third…” I say quietly.
“So the fun stuff before the really fun stuff. Good for you.” Saki says with a weird air of authority. As far as I know, she’s only slept with one guy…
“What about you and Taro? How’s that going?” I ask and Saki groans, flopping onto her back.
“I like him, he said he finds me attractive and he’s been great through all my bullshit though so I think that means he likes me back but we’ve only really kissed once…”
“So it’s not as physical as you’d like?”
“I like that we can hang out and talk about things but I just want him to pick me up in his big arm and kiss me deeply and aaaargh!” Saki pulls the cushion out from under her to scream into it, leaving it on her face when she’s done. “You should see him without his shirt on, Rika. Don’t let the belly fool you; he’s built!”
“I guess I can see that.” I shrug, trying not to think of another guy shirtless. “So what do you think is stopping you?”
“I was fucking my best friend’s boyfriend. Taro has had that done to him in the past. I think he’s seeing if I can be trusted before he commits.” Saki mumbles into the cushion before she sits up. I give up on the game and rest my back against me bed to look at Saki directly. “And I guess I’m waiting to see if I can be trusted.”
“Woooow… That’s… that’s a real shitty situation, not gonna lie. I don’t know how I’d handle it but I think taking it slow is probably a good idea.”
Saki nods, pulling her knees up to her chest and rest her chin on them. “Yeah… And I think it should be more special with him. Like it’s real.”
“Real what?” I ask curiously and it’s Saki’s turn to blush.
“N-nothing. Have you thought about how you’d do the deed?” She asks and I’ve thought about the deed a lot… But not the lead-up to it.
“I have no idea. All our dates have been super casual so maybe something a little more serious? More… adult?”
“Dinner and dancing? That’s very romantic.” Saki’s lips curl into a big smile from behind her knees.
“Yeah… Romantic… A restaurant, fancy clothes… Don’t know about dancing but a walk along the river…” I sigh, smiling.
“Really putting the girl in gamer girl there.”
We laugh as we continue to talk about dates and boys as we play video games into the small hours.
I yawn loudly as I meet an impatient-looking Fuuka outside of the dorms. She rolls back and forth rapidly while staring at me.
“Sorry, I went to bed late and I overslept.” I yawn again but this time Fuuka looks at me with a devilish smirk. Here we go…
“Hisao keep you up all night, did he?” She thinks she’s caught me out but I’ll show her!
“Saki, actually. She needed some one-on-one girl-time.” I smirk back at her, choosing my words deliberately as Fuuka’s face becomes flustered and confused. “She needed someone to talk to.”
“O-oh! Well… Glad you could help her, I guess.” Fuuka shrugs and turns to roll away.
“Hey! Is the drama club still looking for stage hands and other backstage people?” I ask as I walk parallel to Fuuka.
“I think so but I’d have to ask Satoshi about it later. Why?”
“I was thinking Saki could join the drama club.” Given the look Fuuka throws me, this is going to be a tough sell for her.
“So she’s not happy enough taking centre stage in two other clubs, she wants to do it in mine too?”
“She quit her other clubs, Fuuka. She needs a creative outlet but doesn’t want the spotlight. I think it’d be good for her to help others and a backstage role would do that, right?”
“I mean, I guess… But why the drama club? Can’t she gopher for a sports team?”
“She could…” I ponder, she seems like the type to be a club manager. “Look, I know you two aren’t the best of friends…”
“Or friends at all.” Fuuka interjects.
“Sure, but I think you’d get along if you gave each other a chance and this is a good way to do it!” I smile at the disinterested Fuuka who sighs as she rolls to a stop.
“I know you and her have become ‘friends’ since your little blow-up and all but I don’t have to be friends with your friends. In fact, I don’t want to. Even if she apologised for her crack about my legs, I wouldn’t accept it.” Fuuka states adamantly and I honestly don’t have a counterargument.
I’d like it if they were friends but not everyone is going to be. Like Hisao’s friends. It’s kinda like Mai and Iwanako in a way.
“You’re right. I’m sorry, you shouldn’t have to be friends with her just because I am.”
“Good, because I’m not going to be.” Fuuka replies firmly but her expression soon softens. “But if she needs an outlet that bad, I can ask. No promises though.”
“You don’t have t-”
“You’re my friend and you’re trying to help someone so I will try. To help you, not her.”
“That’s fair. Thank you, Fuuka.”
“You’re lucky I’m in such a good mood.” Fuuka says with a secretive little smile that tells me everything. She got lucky last night.
“Why don’t you tell me all about your evening and what happened to put you in such a good mood?”
“Do you really wanna hear about my sexploits?”
“No, but I know you’re dying to tell me anyways.” I laugh and Fuuka’s smile widens.
My classmates and teachers were all very welcoming to me throughout the day. Many of the teachers went easy on me for my lacklustre answers if they even called on me at all. The toughest question by far was from last period math class, I was already burned out and math is not my strongest subject…
“If angle C is 28 degrees, Rika, and angles A and D are 88 degrees, what is the angle of B and E?” Mrs Usami asked, head tilted upwards slightly but with eyes focused on my as I frantically scanned my notes… I don’t think we covered this… Shitfuckshitfu
“Um, is it…” C’mon, brain! You can frame perfect block a Snake Edge, you can do quick math! “Is it sixtyyyyy-foooour degrees?” There’s a beat of silence as the teacher narrows her eyes before nodding with a small smile.
“Correct. Now can you-” The end of day bell thankfully chimes and she snaps her workbook closed. “I won’t ask you to explain your working this time, Rika but if you find yourself struggling now that you’re back; please come to see me.”
“I will, Mrs Usami, thank you!” I smile as I begin to gather my things. Fuuka leans over and taps my thigh.
“Thank god you were asked; I was still counting my fingers when you gave the answer!”
“I’m pretty sure that was mostly guess work, I can barely think right now…” I groan, letting my head flop limply. “What was Mr Togane’s assignment about again? The Yoshitsune guy?”
“The Heian Period.”
“Guess I’m going to the library… If it wasn’t in a Dynasty Warriors game, history might as well be a different country.” I sigh, slipping the straps of my backpack over my shoulders.
“And yet your literature homework is already paying off!” Fuuka laughs and I look at her puzzled.
“The past is a foreign country? You just paraphrased L.P. Hartley.” Fuuka replies and I’m even more confused.
“I haven’t even touched that yet.”
“Then I guess you’re just an idiot savant.” Fuuka shrugs with a bewildered but amused face as she rolls past me.
“Hey! I actually know what that means!” I scowl playfully at her as she laughs and rolls away from me faster. I chase her out of the classroom and down the hall as she cackles. Oh, I’ll get you, you little… Little…
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My vision returns from white and I find myself braced against a wall. I’m… Good? A high-pitched whine in my ears fades and is replaced with concerned murmurs and the frantic fretting of Fuuka.
“-s gonna be okay, Rika! The nurse is on his way.”
“She alright?”
“What’s happened?”
“Katayama looks paler than usual.”
I scrunch my eyes closed and try to shake the dull thump out of my head. I breathe a slow jet of air out of my pursed lips as I push myself off the wall. I plant my feet, my right further back from my left to maintain balance. I’m good. Opening my eyes again, I see the wall a foot away from me.
I’m still standing.
I’m good.
Except I’m not entirely sure that’s true. I can’t believe the thought as it forms in my mind. I had a flutter, or I think I did anyway, I didn’t fall. I should have fell.
“Holy crap, you okay?!” A worried Fuuka grasps my arm and I look down at her, unable to help a huff of amusement leaving my mouth.
“Yeah… I think I’m okay.” That feels weird to say… I look at my hands as I flex them. They feel a little pins-and-needles-y but I’m pretty sure I’m okay. More shocked that I’m still upright than anything. “Just a dizzy spell.”
“Clear the way! Medical emergency!” A call rings out and the crowd of students almost moves in lock-step as a female nurse and the Doc come to a stop to find me waiting for him. I shrug as we share equally surprised looks with each other.
“I think we should do a quick examination in the classroom, Rika.” He face turns serious and my blood runs cold.
I’m ushered into the nearest empty classroom with Fuuka. The nurse closes the classroom doors as Doc makes me take a seat and pulls up a chair himself.
“Well? What happened?” The Doc asks as he takes my wrist and begins checking my pulse.
“It’s my fault!” Fuuka starts but I quickly interject.
“No it’s not, I got caught up in the excitement and chased Fuuka down the hall. My vision went white but I caught myself on the wall. I’m fine.”
“People who have white-outs after heart surgery tend not to be ‘fine’, Rika.” He frowns at me. Oh boy, judgement, my favourite… I sigh and let him continue his little tests. Pulse, blood pressure, even a visual acuity test. It’s at that point that I ignore the test altogether and look at the Doc expectantly. Nothing hurts, I’m not even out of breath.
“I’m fine, Doc.” I say confidently and the good doctor looks back at me perplexed.
“No chest pain, no heavy breathing?” I shake my head to his questions and his eyebrows rise up his face. Yeah, I’m amazed too.
“I’m inclined to agree, Rika. You seem fine. Pulse and BP are slightly elevated but that can be explained with a sudden rush of adrenaline from the shock of what happened.”
“Are you disappointed that I made you run all this way for nothing?” I smirk a little but his face becomes stoic again.
“Medical emergencies are no joke.”
“No, they’re not, but am I currently in danger of a medical emergency?” I ask glibly and he frowns at me.
“I still want you to come to the office for some more tests.” Doc says, pushing against his knees to rise. I can hear the slight popping of his joints as he does. I stand easily, rolling down my blouse sleeve to just below my elbow and rolling up the other to match.
“Sure thing, Doc. I’ll just go get changed and I’ll be right there.”
“Now, Miss Katayama.” He says sternly and I raise an eyebrow.
“Seriously?” I ask and he nods. “Fiiiine. Fuuka, would you mind telling Hisao… Just tell him I’m doing my check-up before I get changed.” No need to worry him.
Fuuka looks to the doctor and then to me. “Suuure. I’ll see you soon, yeah?”
“Of course!” I smile as I follow the doctor out of the classroom, the nurse following behind me. I allow my shoulders to droop in disappointment as the three of us head towards the Nurse’s Office. What a bummer way to end my first day back…
Once we reach the medical wing, the Doc does the same tests again but with the proper equipment. Same results but he seems happier with the results this time.
“You may have been discharged from hospital but you should be avoiding physical exertion for a while, Rika. I hope this little event will be a learning experience.” He says but it’s not as scolding as I expected. If anything, he sounds more relieved.
“I know, Doc. It’s been a long day and I guess I kinda just forgot in the moment. I’ll be more careful, I promise.”
“I’ll hold you to that.” He smiles warmly as I pick up my things and head towards the door. I stop for a second and look back.
“Hey, Doc? Can you… Not tell my Mom? She’ll probably ask you how I’m doing but I don’t want to worry her.”
“She’ll worry regardless; she’s your mom after all. But I’ll abide by your wishes.” He says, nodding sagely.
I give him a nod of appreciation and head out of the medical building. A flutter without chest pain… Couldn’t be. This has to be a side effect of the surgery. I flex my hands and then hold them together, thinking back to what Hisao said. Circulatory problem, maybe? Might also explain the white-out.
My phone vibrates wildly in my bag as I’m reminded that Hisao and Fuuka are waiting for me. I stop and wonder for a second about whether I should cancel and just rest. It’d be a good idea.
“We have to stop meeting this way!” A voice laughs and I look up to see Saki hobbling towards me on her cane. Nice to see her looking a bit perkier.
“Hey Saki, how’s your day been?”
“Ah, y’know… Shouldn’t be in OCS much longer so that’s something. Just on my way to see the nurse about some… personal stuff.”
“Lady Problems?” I ask sympathetically.
“In a sense. What about you?”
“Had a weird thing happen coming out of class. Not sure what yet. I’m okay though!” I explain but get cheerier when I see Saki’s face turn sour.
“Well you look good so hopefully it was just a one-off. Thank you for last night, bee-tee-dubs. It really helped.” She smiles at me and it fills me with the same kind of pride as when Hisao thanks me.
“Happy to do it. We should hang out again but I’ve got people waiting on me, sorry.” I give her a crooked smile as my phone vibrates and chimes in my hand.
“Go, go! We’ll catch up soon.” Saki shoos me away, laughing. I give her a nod and walk in the opposite direction, thumbing my response to Fuuka. I stop as the motion makes me feel a bit dizzy but I shake it off and finish the message before continuing on my way.
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