ZtotheT wrote:This is the only fanfic to date to illicit a physical reaction from me as I was reading, hell it's the only literature to do so. Amazing, keep it up you guys!
I will never claim to be a great writer, or even "good," when professional authors who blow me out of the water exist now, and throughout history. By an unspeakably wide margin, to boot. All I know is my intentions in writing this story are as pure as they get: I want to help people, to invite them along a path of catharsis and healing. It's been my highest hope to succeed at that, even if I look at what I'm editing and see millions of technical flaws. Self-critical thinking can be a crippling thing that can completely prevent one from producing any art, so I always have to work up the courage to keep trying, improving, and not let anything stifle my voice.
One of the things that's become apparent to me, though, is that a truly emotional story cannot avoid being flawed; it's not purely intellectual, after all. If I literally break down sobbing while I'm writing a scene, I'm obviously distracted, and my vision's blurred. I can't keep every academic data-point in mind, and even going back to edit it...I just can't take out some flaws without making the scene no longer be a truly human experience. Creative writing is an interesting balance, because you want to avoid flaws, yet a character without flaws would usually be poorly regarded. So, I just try to make my own flaws as a man interesting and well-felt, I suppose.
inthewind wrote:Tell me about it. I do have an arrhythmia, as noted in the other thread, but it's more an annoyance than an actual problem - until sporadic medication interferes. Ugh. Best wishes, and thanks for sticking it out.
Mine's been a real problem, but I'm a tough guy. I have a strong will to survive. Not being able to write KA feels not unlike death, so I won't let anything take that from me as long as I have a say in the matter. It's funny because, as I said, I don't regard myself as a really good writer, yet writing this has very much come to feel like my life's greatest calling yet, at least at this point of my existence.
Nothing like some real tough times to make me a little overly dramatic, ha. Nevertheless, it's what I really feel. I'm beyond grateful that, in a generation where some people will say "too long, didn't read" to shorter and shorter forum posts, even, that some people have read such a long series. I suppose if anyone feels they want to make a gesture of gratitude, you can do that by making a conscious effort to make this world a better place, however you can. Not just for others, but for your own self, too. Live a fulfilling life. The small touches are deceptively, supremely important, like being good and fair to the people around you. I'm rooting for all of you.
Every day is a miracle.