Hanako's Broken Heart Club

[Walrusfella]

That fuckin' wrecked me for a bit. I had literally kicked it with him the day before I bounced up north.

I'm really sorry to hear about your friend. It's horrible when somone dies too young like that. Like Gandara said, mortality's a piss-off. Grief is important, and I'm glad you're moving through it. It's good to see you post again.

I lost a friend in high school under similar circumstances. I had seen him at school on a Thursday, and on Saturday morning his little brother called me and asked if I would be a pallbearer. I didn't have that premonition that anything was wrong. They weren't able to figure out for sure whether it was intentional, but I think it was. I tormented myself for a long time with "what if" this and "what if" that.

I know I shouldn't, but I get angry at his shade sometimes. "You numpty. If you'd just held out a year or two life would have got better. We'd be having so much fun now. You'd have met a nice girl or several; you always were more charismatic. You'd be off doing something you love. But you just had do go and balls it up."

Of course that's not fair at all. Neither of us had any perspective at that time; our worlds were so tiny and bleak and what he was going through must have been hell. Still, I can't help feeling that way sometimes.

I'm not sure exactly why I brought that up. Again, it's good to see you post, even with such sad news.

I also think that I might be even more vulnerable for another (or other) heartbreak. I think I should be more stronger and maybe leave a message to future's me, to not lost hope, yourself or even life to love. (I fear my future's self to commit suicide on such thing. I think my life still has way too much to die by or for someone. But I always tell myself that no insane man think he is insane. For example, Kenji)

For God's sake, don't. Not ever. See the above.

Like you said, nobody is worth that. Maybe you should write that message to your future self. I've never thought of that.

Congratulations on starting Couch to 5k! It does get fun eventually, though it may be hard at the start. I can't recommend it enough, it's done wonders. Feel free to update us on your progress over here!

[Exbando]

Total Destruction: Sorry to hear about your friend. Not sure if this'll help, but Only the Good Die Young.

As for me, I'm trying to change things up. I'm going back to school this semester, but not for video game design. I'm gonna try mechanical engineering, like my uncle was. I'll only take a couple classes at a time, though, so as to not overload myself. I'm also going to bed earlier. I was going to sleep at 7 am, but now I'm hitting the hay at about 5 am, with an end goal of between 2-3 am.

As for the girl I've got a crush on, she did go back to school, which leaves me three options to tell her how I feel. I can a) go to the school and try to find where she is (the school is fairly close), b) text it to her, or c) wait for her to come back to town. Shoulda tried harder to hang out with her beforehand, but I can't change that now.

[OtakuNinja]

Well, a few days after being back home, I run into a friend of mine while I'm out for a jog who tells me that while I was away, my good friend that lived on my street up and died. The guy's always been a bit nuts, and had been off and on meds for what I was thinking might be borderline schizophrenia, but was otherwise a cool dude. Had NO idea that he'd been taking Benadryl to fall asleep for the past few months, and apparently, his father came home, found the house flooded, and discovered my buddy had drowned in the bathtub after ODing.

[Nyzer]

I know I shouldn't, but I get angry at his shade sometimes. "You numpty. If you'd just held out a year or two life would have got better. We'd be having so much fun now. You'd have met a nice girl or several; you always were more charismatic. You'd be off doing something you love. But you just had do go and balls it up."

To be fair... Someone in that position, thinking that sort of thing, is not going to believe that if you say it. "Things will get better" is an empty saying. "Things can get better" isn't, but to say that it will get better makes someone think, and not exactly incorrectly, that you're just saying what you think they want to hear.
You do not know the future, and whatever you think of his personality may not match what he thought. It could even have been a facade on his part. Nearer to the end, anyway.
Someone who has managed to get to the point where suicide is a viable idea isn't going to turn their life around and suddenly be happy with it just by a change of attitude - there's probably more than one "trigger" that's set them up to feel that way, and those wouldn't be all that easy to overcome. Even if you as a concerned friend think that they ought to have been. Someone like that can change something about their life, perhaps conquering or escaping those triggers, but I can almost guarantee you that some kind of change needs to happen in their life for them to start seeing it as something enjoyable again.

Of course, this's assuming that suicide is an idea he'd thought on for a while, and not a sort of sudden-impulse thing. That mindset I can't even begin to guess at.

Anyway, yeah, I realize you're upset that he chose to end himself, if that's what the case was. It's totally understandable, I just hope that adds a bit of perspective.

[Total Destruction]

Much appreciated, dudes.

[Xiious]

My heartfelt condolences, TD.... It's never an easy thing to let go when someone you care about passes away too soon.

Someone once told me, you can never get over the pain and shock of losing someone. All you can do is learn how to live with it.

[Pyramid Head]

I've finished sitting through the ungodly torture that is My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic and noticed something unusual about the last episodes. When a sibling gets married, it can be an unusual experience. My little sister is engaged to be married.
That poor bastard doesn't know what he's in for.


HA! Anyway came crawling back to the broken heart club to crack wise and vent some woes after a few job apps fell through. I'm still trying to find some freelance writing work as well, but the local magazines aren't looking for anyone. I'll be getting some aid from a third party organization that is meant to help people find jobs soon, but until then i seek solace in Katawa Shoujo. Even if i'm shit broke, at least i don't have to deal with Hisao and Kenji.

[Wanderingheartache]

a friend of mine asked me to be a part of some Katawa Seiyu project... not sure how to react, I have no experience voice acting and I do not fit the males whatsoever

[Kutagh]

a friend of mine asked me to be a part of some Katawa Seiyu project... not sure how to react, I have no experience voice acting and I do not fit the males whatsoever

Only do it if you are interested into it. No experience isn't that big of an issue, the team can whip you up to an acceptable state with a bit of coaching

[Pyramid Head]

a friend of mine asked me to be a part of some Katawa Seiyu project... not sure how to react, I have no experience voice acting and I do not fit the males whatsoever

Oh for fucking in church... ignore the request, the whole voice acting in Katawa Shoujo thing is a stupid idea, and fan attempts at it can only end badly.

[OtakuNinja]

Short update on what I wrote a lot of pages ago...^^

1. My new high school is great. The people in my class are friendly and I even met some anime fans (Girls! ).

2. OMH!!! I went to return a couple of movies my love interest lent me, and a few moments later I was invited to dine with her family. It was like in the first episode of Clannad, if you count Sanae as Nagisa's sister. Now I can die as a happy man.

3. I have never been as social IRL, as I've been these last couple of weeks.


(OMH = Oh my Haruhi )

[Pseudogenesis]

a friend of mine asked me to be a part of some Katawa Seiyu project... not sure how to react, I have no experience voice acting and I do not fit the males whatsoever

Oh for fucking in church... ignore the request, the whole voice acting in Katawa Shoujo thing is a stupid idea, and fan attempts at it can only end badly.

You'd be surprised, it's very well coordinated thus far.



Besides, technically Katawa Shoujo itself was a 'fan attempt', and we can vouch for how well that turned out.

[Potato]

a friend of mine asked me to be a part of some Katawa Seiyu project... not sure how to react, I have no experience voice acting and I do not fit the males whatsoever

Oh for fucking in church... ignore the request, the whole voice acting in Katawa Shoujo thing is a stupid idea, and fan attempts at it can only end badly.

You'd be surprised, it's very well coordinated thus far.

Well-coordinated does not equate to "good". Any attempt is bound to fail expectations because these voices were all already filled in by the players as they played the game. I've heard some of the demos and such produced by the project and even the stuff that isn't necessarily bad is hardly good.

[Beoran]

OtakuNinja, great to hear it's going well. Have fun, and why not try to get closer to your love interest? Remember: if she rejects you, it's fine too, you saved much time. If she accepts on he other hand, ... . "A no you already have, but a yes you can get, perhaps." as one lady once taught me. If you don't ask, you lose by default.

PyramidHead: remember, to find a job, you'll have to send out at least 100 resumes if not more. Normally it goes like this: 100 resume's sent -> 10 invites to a job interview -> 1 concrete job offered. And that's if everything goes well.

[Walrusfella]

Short update on what I wrote a lot of pages ago...^^

1. My new high school is great. The people in my class are friendly and I even met some anime fans (Girls! ).

2. OMH!!! I went to return a couple of movies my love interest lent me, and a few moments later I was invited to dine with her family. It was like in the first episode of Clannad, if you count Sanae as Nagisa's sister. Now I can die as a happy man.

3. I have never been as social IRL, as I've been these last couple of weeks.


(OMH = Oh my Haruhi )

Wow, that's awesome! You really came up trumps. Keep it going.

Beoran's right, as he's wont to be. Consider telling her how you feel, if you haven't already.

Nyzer, thank you. Points well taken. I'd reached the same conclusions in my head, but my heart gets angry and sad about it sometimes.