How is KS similar to your life?
Posted: Wed Jul 17, 2013 1:52 am
Hello, i'm recently new here, if there is already a topic about this. I sincerely apologize.
But is there a part of your life you can't help but to notice that is similar to KS. For me, it is I am technically disabled. I feel a lot like the characters at times. If you don't want to read my life story, skip to the second last paragraph, it's the best part.
I have a nerve disorder and my hand shakes terribly and on top of that Aspergers. That might not seem like much but I can't even draw a straight line or hold my hand still. It always has to be moving. I am almost 20 years old and I have never driven a car, it's due to lack of interest really. I am socially awkward like Hanako is. I'mm worried what others think of me a lot, even though I don't show it. I want to act strong and mighty.
Around where I live, I am treated like i'm dumber than most, I do my best to prove them wrong. Where I sucked in art class, I felt weaker than everyone else because I couldn't draw any shapes(My kindergarden drawings tops my highschool ones, sadly) I film my own short films in my spare time. It's my way of showing my artistic side. I was taught at a young age that my Aspergers made me look different than others. And this is true. I always wore A winter coat, even in summer. I just liked the look of it on me and I loved the extra pockets.
Emotionally, I am loving yet cold. I don't try to make friends as I seem to only be betrayed by them. I only give people one chance as a freind, they hurt me, I isolate them from my life permanently, I have made a lot of hurtful decisions in my life and ran off what could have been great friends. I feel a lot like Emi in that stance. I do not believe in relationships as the ones I have seen personally ended horrible and made both parties more bitter and I do not wish to suffer that fate.
This is the part I was telling you about. I was offered to go to a college for disabled teens, Like Yamaku! They'd teach me to drive, help me make friends and treat me as equal. But sadly, I didn't take the offer. Mostly because I would be forced to have a roommate and I am extremely paranoid when others are around my belongings. I was worried about being bullied(Trust me, the disabled kids in my classroom picked on me and treated me like dirt.). And I don't want to belong. I am more of a lone wolf, so to say. Easier to live and not having to worry about other's emotions. I regret declining sometimes. I feel there is still hope in humanity but there are times where i'm glad I stayed here instead.
Anyways, sorry for my rambling. Is there anybody who feels like their life is somewhat similar to KS?
But is there a part of your life you can't help but to notice that is similar to KS. For me, it is I am technically disabled. I feel a lot like the characters at times. If you don't want to read my life story, skip to the second last paragraph, it's the best part.
I have a nerve disorder and my hand shakes terribly and on top of that Aspergers. That might not seem like much but I can't even draw a straight line or hold my hand still. It always has to be moving. I am almost 20 years old and I have never driven a car, it's due to lack of interest really. I am socially awkward like Hanako is. I'mm worried what others think of me a lot, even though I don't show it. I want to act strong and mighty.
Around where I live, I am treated like i'm dumber than most, I do my best to prove them wrong. Where I sucked in art class, I felt weaker than everyone else because I couldn't draw any shapes(My kindergarden drawings tops my highschool ones, sadly) I film my own short films in my spare time. It's my way of showing my artistic side. I was taught at a young age that my Aspergers made me look different than others. And this is true. I always wore A winter coat, even in summer. I just liked the look of it on me and I loved the extra pockets.
Emotionally, I am loving yet cold. I don't try to make friends as I seem to only be betrayed by them. I only give people one chance as a freind, they hurt me, I isolate them from my life permanently, I have made a lot of hurtful decisions in my life and ran off what could have been great friends. I feel a lot like Emi in that stance. I do not believe in relationships as the ones I have seen personally ended horrible and made both parties more bitter and I do not wish to suffer that fate.
This is the part I was telling you about. I was offered to go to a college for disabled teens, Like Yamaku! They'd teach me to drive, help me make friends and treat me as equal. But sadly, I didn't take the offer. Mostly because I would be forced to have a roommate and I am extremely paranoid when others are around my belongings. I was worried about being bullied(Trust me, the disabled kids in my classroom picked on me and treated me like dirt.). And I don't want to belong. I am more of a lone wolf, so to say. Easier to live and not having to worry about other's emotions. I regret declining sometimes. I feel there is still hope in humanity but there are times where i'm glad I stayed here instead.
Anyways, sorry for my rambling. Is there anybody who feels like their life is somewhat similar to KS?
. I think the scenes that remind me most of that time of my life are the ones where Hisao and Lilly are in town, with her holding onto his sleeve or elbow for guidance. Good memories.