Two Hallways - Hanako's Perspective (Updated 1/7)
Posted: Sun Jan 06, 2013 7:36 am
Hi, KS forums. I hail from KSG, and I was told by a couple of people that I should post my works so far for you lot.
So, uh. Here. I've got the first two bits done, and the third one is on it's way. It will likely be a three-parter, maybe a four parter.
**DISCLAIMER** SEXUAL CONTENT AHEAD
I tried my best to make all of physical actions taken by the characters in addition belong to their speech as accurate as possible, excluding what Hisao does not see.
I'm not sure if anyone's done this setting before, but it seems like someone should have by this point. Anyway, here we go.
TABLE OF CONTENTS:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4 (Unreleased)
Epilogue (Unreleased)
Two Hallways (Part One)
~*~
Light begins to seep through the window of my room. No, this isn't my room. It's a room at Lilly's summer house.
I hate waking up in unfamiliar rooms.
Yesterday was not a good day. Hisao hurt himself when we were walking, just because I wanted to go shopping.
He's okay now, but I wouldn't blame him if he was upset with me. I should try to spend time with him today.
I crawl out of bed and run a brush through my hair. I decide to leave my pink pajamas on, because Lilly will probably leave hers on too. Why is she so much prettier than I am?
Slowly, I make my way outside of my room. I walk down the hallway and see Hisao sitting on the futon. He takes short a glance at me and I get ready to smile at him, but he looks away and lifts his hand to his mouth and later runs it through his hair. Why won't he ever look at me for more than a second?
It's okay. I can take the initiative too.
"Good morning, Hisao."
That's so simple. I could've said something better.
Hisao turns to me again and begins to return the formality
"Ah, go-- ack!"
He starts to violently gag. What happened? Is he having another heart attack? Did I do something wrong?
"Ah, Hisao!"
He lets out a series of guttural sounds while dislodging whatever was in his throat, and taps his chest a few times.
"I'm fine. Sorry, forgot I was swallowing."
No, you didn't. It was my fault again. I'm so stupid, of course you were swallowing pills. Why didn't I get that? I need to apologize...
"Sorry, I didn't mean to-"
He holds his hand up, gesturing me to stop.
"I gagged. It's my fault. 'Morning, Hanako."
Great. Now I've gone and made him feel bad. I manage a halfhearted bow in response, hopefully that will work.
I look behind me and see Lilly stagger into the room. I watch to see how Hisao reacts, and as expected, his gaze is fixed on her body, making no effort to disguise his actions. He must think I don't care, since Lilly is blind and I'm the only one here who can see him do that. Why does he have to ogle her in front of me?
Before I can think any further, Hisao begins to speak.
"Hi, Lilly."
"Good morning... Hisao."
That's strange. She hesitated. Lilly rarely hesitates in her speech, especially in simple greetings.
I expect them to break the silence, but nothing happens. What's going on? Was there a fight? Are they upset at each other? Maybe... maybe I should ask Hisao about it later. Maybe I could even get the opportunity to hug him. Maybe I could...
No, stop thinking those thoughts, Hanako. That's not going to happen; and even if it could, I wouldn't want to do that to Lilly if that was the case. I know she wouldn't do that to me, especially since I told her how much I liked him.
"Um, I'll start making breakfast."
Hisao's sudden statement is met with a quick response from Lilly.
"I'll help. Hanako, could you set the table?"
I suppose that means they're not annoyed with each other.
Why didn't I think to ask to help first? Now Hisao can steal as many glances as he wants at her, and not me. I nod, and walk in the direction of the cupboard to place dishes and silverware in their respective areas.
It's quiet again, and Lilly and Hisao start making whatever meal they are making. I set the table as slowly as possible, plate by plate and fork by fork, in an effort to avoid awkwardly sitting down while they do all the work.
Just as I begin to suspect the rest of the day will be as excruciatingly silent as it is now, I notice Hisao turn to Lilly and begin to whisper. Why is he whispering? Lilly nods sagely, as if she's thinking heavily about something.
What the hell is going on?
They begin to whisper at each other some more. I can't tell what they are saying, but Lilly looks apologetic almost, and Hisao has that coddling look on his face that he always has when he looks at me. When he feels like he needs to "protect" me. I don't like that look, even if it's from him.
My train of thought is immediately derailed as Hisao grabs ahold of Lilly and pulls her into his warm embrace.
What were they whispering about that made him hug her? I wish he would hug me like that too. Why won't he hug me like that?
The seconds that Lilly rests in his arms feel like an eternity. Not because it's her, but because it isn't me. My heart feels like it's being torn apart like a steak thrown into a pen of ravenous lions.
Get a grip, Hanako, it's only a hug.
My piercing gaze towards the two of them is met with his when he notices me looking at them. I start to blush as It becomes apparent that I've been observing them the whole time, halfway through setting a plate down. I hope he doesn't think I'm acting strange.
I finish setting the table and we begin to eat. It's quiet again, but I suppose it's better than another hug.
I take frequent glances at Hisao throughout the course of the meal, and he looks troubled. I debate putting my hand on his shoulder and asking him what's wrong, but that would be silly. No, maybe it wouldn't be silly. Okay, it would be silly.
Suddenly, he speaks up.
"Lilly..."
What now?
Lilly nods, setting down her silverware parallel to her plate. Hisao looks at her and back to me, and Lilly raises her head. It looks like they're preparing to tell me something. Lilly's face is coiled in a smile, but I know better. It's one of her many fake smiles, and this one tells me she's about to tell me something I'm not going to like.
I'm already upset.
She begins to speak, and my world shatters.
"This might seem abrupt but... I've confessed to Hisao."
No.
No.
WHY?
If my heart felt torn apart before, then now it's been shattered into the finest shards of pain possible. She...
She confessed to him. How could she do that? Why did she not tell me that she liked him too? HOW COULD SHE BETRAY ME LIKE THIS?
Years of therapy have prepared me on how to act in these situations. I know how I need to respond, but I don't want to. I want to yell at her, I want to strike her across the face. I... I...
I manage a nod, and realize the whole time my spoon was still in my mouth.
This is my worst nightmare. My best friend, a beautiful girl, has taken the only boy who ever looked at me with something other than disgust or apathy, and my only other friend. And now I have no one.
Unless... He could have refused?
Before debating with myself the likelihood of that situation, I quickly blurt out the question to him.
"Did you accept?"
Funny. Lilly's mouth loses a fraction of it's smile, as if she expected me to ask her if he accepted, and not him. I probably would've asked her first, too, in any other situation involving the two of them. But not this. This time, it's a plea.
"I did."
I knew it. Why wouldn't he? She's the most beautiful girl in the world. I know what I have to do.
Smile. Just like I was taught to.
My face turns red with blood. Anger. Hisao probably interprets it as a blush, and I suppose that's part of the façade.
My smile stretches so wide that It's almost painful. I tell the biggest lie I've ever told in my life.
"Then I'm happy. I'm really, really happy."
Nothing could be further from the truth.
So, uh. Here. I've got the first two bits done, and the third one is on it's way. It will likely be a three-parter, maybe a four parter.
**DISCLAIMER** SEXUAL CONTENT AHEAD
I tried my best to make all of physical actions taken by the characters in addition belong to their speech as accurate as possible, excluding what Hisao does not see.
I'm not sure if anyone's done this setting before, but it seems like someone should have by this point. Anyway, here we go.
TABLE OF CONTENTS:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4 (Unreleased)
Epilogue (Unreleased)
Two Hallways (Part One)
~*~
Light begins to seep through the window of my room. No, this isn't my room. It's a room at Lilly's summer house.
I hate waking up in unfamiliar rooms.
Yesterday was not a good day. Hisao hurt himself when we were walking, just because I wanted to go shopping.
He's okay now, but I wouldn't blame him if he was upset with me. I should try to spend time with him today.
I crawl out of bed and run a brush through my hair. I decide to leave my pink pajamas on, because Lilly will probably leave hers on too. Why is she so much prettier than I am?
Slowly, I make my way outside of my room. I walk down the hallway and see Hisao sitting on the futon. He takes short a glance at me and I get ready to smile at him, but he looks away and lifts his hand to his mouth and later runs it through his hair. Why won't he ever look at me for more than a second?
It's okay. I can take the initiative too.
"Good morning, Hisao."
That's so simple. I could've said something better.
Hisao turns to me again and begins to return the formality
"Ah, go-- ack!"
He starts to violently gag. What happened? Is he having another heart attack? Did I do something wrong?
"Ah, Hisao!"
He lets out a series of guttural sounds while dislodging whatever was in his throat, and taps his chest a few times.
"I'm fine. Sorry, forgot I was swallowing."
No, you didn't. It was my fault again. I'm so stupid, of course you were swallowing pills. Why didn't I get that? I need to apologize...
"Sorry, I didn't mean to-"
He holds his hand up, gesturing me to stop.
"I gagged. It's my fault. 'Morning, Hanako."
Great. Now I've gone and made him feel bad. I manage a halfhearted bow in response, hopefully that will work.
I look behind me and see Lilly stagger into the room. I watch to see how Hisao reacts, and as expected, his gaze is fixed on her body, making no effort to disguise his actions. He must think I don't care, since Lilly is blind and I'm the only one here who can see him do that. Why does he have to ogle her in front of me?
Before I can think any further, Hisao begins to speak.
"Hi, Lilly."
"Good morning... Hisao."
That's strange. She hesitated. Lilly rarely hesitates in her speech, especially in simple greetings.
I expect them to break the silence, but nothing happens. What's going on? Was there a fight? Are they upset at each other? Maybe... maybe I should ask Hisao about it later. Maybe I could even get the opportunity to hug him. Maybe I could...
No, stop thinking those thoughts, Hanako. That's not going to happen; and even if it could, I wouldn't want to do that to Lilly if that was the case. I know she wouldn't do that to me, especially since I told her how much I liked him.
"Um, I'll start making breakfast."
Hisao's sudden statement is met with a quick response from Lilly.
"I'll help. Hanako, could you set the table?"
I suppose that means they're not annoyed with each other.
Why didn't I think to ask to help first? Now Hisao can steal as many glances as he wants at her, and not me. I nod, and walk in the direction of the cupboard to place dishes and silverware in their respective areas.
It's quiet again, and Lilly and Hisao start making whatever meal they are making. I set the table as slowly as possible, plate by plate and fork by fork, in an effort to avoid awkwardly sitting down while they do all the work.
Just as I begin to suspect the rest of the day will be as excruciatingly silent as it is now, I notice Hisao turn to Lilly and begin to whisper. Why is he whispering? Lilly nods sagely, as if she's thinking heavily about something.
What the hell is going on?
They begin to whisper at each other some more. I can't tell what they are saying, but Lilly looks apologetic almost, and Hisao has that coddling look on his face that he always has when he looks at me. When he feels like he needs to "protect" me. I don't like that look, even if it's from him.
My train of thought is immediately derailed as Hisao grabs ahold of Lilly and pulls her into his warm embrace.
What were they whispering about that made him hug her? I wish he would hug me like that too. Why won't he hug me like that?
The seconds that Lilly rests in his arms feel like an eternity. Not because it's her, but because it isn't me. My heart feels like it's being torn apart like a steak thrown into a pen of ravenous lions.
Get a grip, Hanako, it's only a hug.
My piercing gaze towards the two of them is met with his when he notices me looking at them. I start to blush as It becomes apparent that I've been observing them the whole time, halfway through setting a plate down. I hope he doesn't think I'm acting strange.
I finish setting the table and we begin to eat. It's quiet again, but I suppose it's better than another hug.
I take frequent glances at Hisao throughout the course of the meal, and he looks troubled. I debate putting my hand on his shoulder and asking him what's wrong, but that would be silly. No, maybe it wouldn't be silly. Okay, it would be silly.
Suddenly, he speaks up.
"Lilly..."
What now?
Lilly nods, setting down her silverware parallel to her plate. Hisao looks at her and back to me, and Lilly raises her head. It looks like they're preparing to tell me something. Lilly's face is coiled in a smile, but I know better. It's one of her many fake smiles, and this one tells me she's about to tell me something I'm not going to like.
I'm already upset.
She begins to speak, and my world shatters.
"This might seem abrupt but... I've confessed to Hisao."
No.
No.
WHY?
If my heart felt torn apart before, then now it's been shattered into the finest shards of pain possible. She...
She confessed to him. How could she do that? Why did she not tell me that she liked him too? HOW COULD SHE BETRAY ME LIKE THIS?
Years of therapy have prepared me on how to act in these situations. I know how I need to respond, but I don't want to. I want to yell at her, I want to strike her across the face. I... I...
I manage a nod, and realize the whole time my spoon was still in my mouth.
This is my worst nightmare. My best friend, a beautiful girl, has taken the only boy who ever looked at me with something other than disgust or apathy, and my only other friend. And now I have no one.
Unless... He could have refused?
Before debating with myself the likelihood of that situation, I quickly blurt out the question to him.
"Did you accept?"
Funny. Lilly's mouth loses a fraction of it's smile, as if she expected me to ask her if he accepted, and not him. I probably would've asked her first, too, in any other situation involving the two of them. But not this. This time, it's a plea.
"I did."
I knew it. Why wouldn't he? She's the most beautiful girl in the world. I know what I have to do.
Smile. Just like I was taught to.
My face turns red with blood. Anger. Hisao probably interprets it as a blush, and I suppose that's part of the façade.
My smile stretches so wide that It's almost painful. I tell the biggest lie I've ever told in my life.
"Then I'm happy. I'm really, really happy."
Nothing could be further from the truth.