Story time. Preety long..
Posted: Thu Jul 19, 2012 6:54 pm
Soo Hello.
I saw the name of the novel in a /v/ thread. I never played VNs or didn't new they existed! Still I was kinda into horor manga and some anime series. But my first VS was this. And I panicked! I downloaded it yesterday,I spent straight 4 hours on Emis story,and tonight finished it. I GOT DEM FEELS BAD. Really bad... I already read some threads here and saw responses. And Im like most of you. Im really in despair for a person like the girls in the series. You see the town I live in is a small place. People here are very weird. Teens unfriendly. We just do not know how to behave at home,in public,it seems to me that people are without personality's!
All lookin for themslef and just want to get in every story and just know everything. Of course there are different people but they rare. And I know people here well.
I know my hole city,Im a friendly person,really kinda silly and open to things. And here thats really different,but really really. People think thats strange.
Older ones appreciate that,and Ive got comments from very nice and interesting older people that I shouldnt change. Mostly from the folk I meet at various meetings (Im the School Council and I work for some organizations mostly humanitarianism work). I do fit in and Im likable,I have much freinds,only few are really close to me. And my best bro is a metalhead. (diffrences attract each other i guess) But still in a town of maybe close to 15.000 pepl,I DO NOT KNOW ONE PERSON THAT HAS SIMILAR INTERESTS.
Of course I found them in other cities and met them online,but Im in search for one that is close. I know,the town is small. Second world country. Still how? And I know its kinda a stupid question and I know il prolly find someone in life or college. Still the possibilities are so small in this country,there aint a person that listens to one band doesnt exists,just the type of music that I listen is hard to find THERE ARE NONE. They dont know what that means or what is it,or tell someone to dance to house or electro,they will make fun of you.
You should see the situation in a club where I go out. 30 Guys on this side. 30 girls on this side. And in the middle are the regular sluts. Its hilarous. They spend the evening in drinking. I dont get it. THEY DONT DANCE. THEY DONT KNOW HOW TO DANCE. AND THE WOMEN. THEY DONT KNOW WHAT IS ROMANTIC AND WHAT NOT,JUST HOW TO TALK.
You should see the relationship here. PURE DRAMA. ONLY PURE DRAMA. I laugh most of the time...at them. Im a romantic person. I got rejceted few times cuz of my "weirdness". Maybe 3 times. Why? "Cuz you are not like the other boys". Thats what they said. Im not gay for fu??es sakes,or a pervert or something worse.
And slowly,I dont want a romance...and this novel just empowered these feelings.I met few girls that I could love. I didnt succeed to get them.(thats another story) Im having meaningless dates with girls that just turn me on,and I really want to just have some fun and get it over. Im kinda bad too cuz of that. Im a sugar talker really and Im to sweet when it comes to words still Ive never done anything to hurt a girl IN ANY WAY,were they hurt sometimes,maybe? And I KEEP all my promises. But still I feel isolated not in a social way(I hang out with many people mostly older in means of 2 years or up)...in a way where I cant find a person close to me. That will understand me really easily. Or just say yes,il play this novel. 99% would say Im not normal or too bright if I asked someone to play this masterwork. I would be ridiculed!!
Im 17 only and like some smart person said here: You cant know what will you get later in life or you cant be depressed cuz your too young and didn't met the world" or something similar like that. Still I got the message,and Im trying my best to be a good person. Helping,obeying my parents,dont do crap when Im out,not drinking,heath living in general. I know I need that,and a good life is my final goal...still all this already mentioned just kills my faith in my people in general and the society and final my goal for love for life. All the Serbs. How can anyone change this? Maybe I am dramatic but this is the first time Im writing so much text and express my feelings on the interwebs.
And SORRY for the wall of text. I just had to let it out.
F**k me if anyone on the big Balkans played this novel.
I saw the name of the novel in a /v/ thread. I never played VNs or didn't new they existed! Still I was kinda into horor manga and some anime series. But my first VS was this. And I panicked! I downloaded it yesterday,I spent straight 4 hours on Emis story,and tonight finished it. I GOT DEM FEELS BAD. Really bad... I already read some threads here and saw responses. And Im like most of you. Im really in despair for a person like the girls in the series. You see the town I live in is a small place. People here are very weird. Teens unfriendly. We just do not know how to behave at home,in public,it seems to me that people are without personality's!
All lookin for themslef and just want to get in every story and just know everything. Of course there are different people but they rare. And I know people here well.
I know my hole city,Im a friendly person,really kinda silly and open to things. And here thats really different,but really really. People think thats strange.
Older ones appreciate that,and Ive got comments from very nice and interesting older people that I shouldnt change. Mostly from the folk I meet at various meetings (Im the School Council and I work for some organizations mostly humanitarianism work). I do fit in and Im likable,I have much freinds,only few are really close to me. And my best bro is a metalhead. (diffrences attract each other i guess) But still in a town of maybe close to 15.000 pepl,I DO NOT KNOW ONE PERSON THAT HAS SIMILAR INTERESTS.
Of course I found them in other cities and met them online,but Im in search for one that is close. I know,the town is small. Second world country. Still how? And I know its kinda a stupid question and I know il prolly find someone in life or college. Still the possibilities are so small in this country,there aint a person that listens to one band doesnt exists,just the type of music that I listen is hard to find THERE ARE NONE. They dont know what that means or what is it,or tell someone to dance to house or electro,they will make fun of you.
You should see the situation in a club where I go out. 30 Guys on this side. 30 girls on this side. And in the middle are the regular sluts. Its hilarous. They spend the evening in drinking. I dont get it. THEY DONT DANCE. THEY DONT KNOW HOW TO DANCE. AND THE WOMEN. THEY DONT KNOW WHAT IS ROMANTIC AND WHAT NOT,JUST HOW TO TALK.
You should see the relationship here. PURE DRAMA. ONLY PURE DRAMA. I laugh most of the time...at them. Im a romantic person. I got rejceted few times cuz of my "weirdness". Maybe 3 times. Why? "Cuz you are not like the other boys". Thats what they said. Im not gay for fu??es sakes,or a pervert or something worse.
And slowly,I dont want a romance...and this novel just empowered these feelings.I met few girls that I could love. I didnt succeed to get them.(thats another story) Im having meaningless dates with girls that just turn me on,and I really want to just have some fun and get it over. Im kinda bad too cuz of that. Im a sugar talker really and Im to sweet when it comes to words still Ive never done anything to hurt a girl IN ANY WAY,were they hurt sometimes,maybe? And I KEEP all my promises. But still I feel isolated not in a social way(I hang out with many people mostly older in means of 2 years or up)...in a way where I cant find a person close to me. That will understand me really easily. Or just say yes,il play this novel. 99% would say Im not normal or too bright if I asked someone to play this masterwork. I would be ridiculed!!
Im 17 only and like some smart person said here: You cant know what will you get later in life or you cant be depressed cuz your too young and didn't met the world" or something similar like that. Still I got the message,and Im trying my best to be a good person. Helping,obeying my parents,dont do crap when Im out,not drinking,heath living in general. I know I need that,and a good life is my final goal...still all this already mentioned just kills my faith in my people in general and the society and final my goal for love for life. All the Serbs. How can anyone change this? Maybe I am dramatic but this is the first time Im writing so much text and express my feelings on the interwebs.
And SORRY for the wall of text. I just had to let it out.
F**k me if anyone on the big Balkans played this novel.