Nothing but a Broken Man - Momentary Hiatus
Posted: Mon May 14, 2012 3:58 am
Prologue
Arrival
“Isn't it nice, Hayate? We'll have the weekend to ourselves! Just you, me and the wilderness. Have you ever been camping before?”
A bright smile. That's all I can ever remember distinctly. Her smile. I struggle to see past the fog in my mind, to see her features once and for all, but they shift and fade, leaving behind a smile and the sweet sound of her voice.
“I'm dreaming again,” I tell myself. She smiles once more.
“Indeed you are.”
I grimace.
“Is it at all possible for you to stop smiling? I know this is a dream and all, but it's starting to creep me out.”
She frowns. Her blurry eyes look downward. If I could see more of her face, I would say she looked sad.
“I'm sorry, Hayate. I truly am. Unfortunately I cannot dictate what happens in your dream.” Her frown curves back upward, turning into a weak smile reflecting her regret.
“I'm tired of these dreams. I just want to go back. I want to remember. I don't want you haunting me anymore.” My voice cracks, and tears stream down my face. I glare at her blurry form as she looks back up at me.
“Then why not wake up?”
And just like that, it's over. My head snaps up quickly. Another dream, and it's the same one, again. The bus rumbles quietly as it advances up the curving mountain road. As I look out the window, which is now covered in morning dew, I can vaguely see the town where I'll be staying for the rest of the school year.
“Yamaku.”
The name for the city sounds odd as it tumbles out of my mouth. It sounds Japanese, but I'm not even sure it means anything. I run a hand through the front of my rather lengthy hair as I remember the reason I'm even here. I'm coming to Yamaku to attend the Academy there. A school for students with disabilities. How quaint. As nice as it is to go back to a functional school instead of getting lectures from my dad on various subjects, I can't help but feel a little angered at my predicament.
“Is that all I am now? Just another disabled kid sent away so their parents can live a normal life?” I frown as I think about what I've just said. I know it isn't true. I don't know why I've become so bitter about this. It's a good decision on my parents' parts, but for some reason, I feel like I'm being abandoned.
I yawn distractedly as the bus pulls up to the wrought-iron gate of the school. The change in momentum as the bus stops snaps me back into reality. I notice my left thumb rolling over my first two fingers. I clench my fingers into a fist and release it several times, stretching my fingers out.
'Damn it,' I think to myself. 'I'm getting distracted again.'
I stand and stretch the rest of my body. My back is stiff from sleeping in the bus seat like that. It's unfortunate but really unavoidable considering how far away I live from Yamaku. I reach up to the storage rack and gather my bags. I step out onto the curb after giving the driver a mumbled “Thanks,” and stare blankly at the gate before me. The bus rumbles off down the road, and I'm suddenly there alone. I close my eyes and breathe deeply, calming my nerves, and I step through the gate onto the grounds.
The school is rather small, with only three main buildings, but it still manages to have a beautiful campus. The trees stand bright green in the Spring air, and a soft breeze picks up as I stand motionless on the main pathway. I smile contentedly and, pausing a moment to pull my hair into a loose tail, walk forward, keeping a nice pace as I enter the main building. It's still early, and classes haven't yet begun. A tired-looking man stands front and center in the large hallway. His eyes brighten slightly as I walk in, and I hope to myself that I haven't kept him waiting long. He walks forward and extends his hand to me.
“Matsushita, correct? Hayate Matsushita?” he asks with a rather flat voice, fitting the tired face he's currently wearing. I set one of my bags down and shake his hand, nodding. “Ah very good. I'm Mutou, the science teacher here at Yamaku. I've been sent to welcome you officially to Yamaku Academy. Now, you've gotten here rather early, so there's still time for you to go unpack and maybe catch a shower and breakfast before classes start.” The small smile I've been wearing flattens as he says 'classes.' Thankfully, he notices this and laughs slightly. “Now now, don't worry about classes today. You'll be attending them but you won't be responsible for any of the homework tonight. I'll have the Class Representative show you around today. Your homeroom class will be with me, Class 3-3. I also have your room key and student ID. You'll be staying in room 109 in the boys' dorm. Just follow the signs and you'll get there. Oh, and make sure you see the school's nurse after class today. He mentioned to me that he wanted to see you and set up your prescriptions.”
I nod slowly, letting him know that I'm keeping track with what he's been saying. He smiles and hands me the key to my room before sending me off on my way. I pick up my other bag again and slowly walk to the boys' dorm. I notice the signs that point me in the right direction, and follow the path through the campus. As I get closer to the dorms, I notice a few students out and about, despite the early hour. A short brown-haired girl with two prosthetic legs jogs lightly down another pathway towards the school's track, dressed in what I can only assume is the school's gym uniform. A blonde boy with sunglasses and a cane walks arm-in-arm with a shorter dark-haired girl with bandages around her eyes. An albino girl sits leisurely in a tree branch, staring off into the distance. I try not to stare at the various people, but the sight of them reminds me that I'm in someplace new, somewhere completely separated from the outside world. I try to swallow the feeling that I'm a fish out of water here, that I really won't feel this way for long. Shrugging off my doubts, I saunter casually into the boys' dorm and, finding room 109 easily enough, proceed into my room.
It's nothing special. A desk, some drawers, a closet, and a bed. Standard university single-dorm style room. The room is rather blank and dull, but the crisp, clean atmosphere of the place suggests room for decoration.
'I'm glad I decided to bring those posters,' I think to myself solemnly as I start to unpack my things. I put away my casual clothes into the closet and take down one of the uniforms the school has provided for me. It looks fairly comfortable despite the formal nature of the uniform. I set it aside with a towel on my bed, pausing a moment to take my morning pills, before grabbing them again and walking down the hall to the bathroom.
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It wasn't long before I trudged solemnly back into my room, hair still damp from the shower. I stumble through the doorway, not quite able to see through the curtain of hair that hides my face.
I dress quickly, pulling on the Yamaku uniform with an air of indifference. Again I pull my hair into a loose pony tail, leaving a few stray strands to hang in front of my face once more. As I adjust the uniform's red tie in the mirror, I look at my reflection and stop again to look myself over. My dark auburn hair frames my face well, and compliments my modest build. '177 centimeters, 77 kilos,' I think to myself absent-mindedly, calling back the numbers I was told at my most recent visit to a doctor. My skin is light, reflecting my father's nationality. He was American, and had moved to Japan to live with my mother after ending his career. He kept his own name for legal purposes, but insisted that I take my mother's surname. A flash catches my eyes, and curiously enough, it was my own eyes that was the source. Hazel in color, they're one of the few features I carried over from my mother.
Satisfied with my own vanity, I pull out the brand new messenger bag from my suitcase and start packing it with my various school supplies. I've always like orderly and menial tasks like these. There's something about the freshness of new things that sparks something in me, but I'm not quite sure why. I finish packing the last bit of new school supplies into my bag and breathe deeply, going over one final checklist of things I need to do this morning. I smile, checking through everything, and leave my room, heading towards the cafeteria for breakfast.
I manage to find something somewhat edible in the cafeteria, a waffle and a couple of slices of bacon. Content with the slim pickings in Yamaku, I settle down at a table by myself. The cafeteria isn't exactly crowded, but the soft roar of people talking fills the air.
Crunch. Crunch. Crunch. Squish.
Squish? I grimace at my choice of breakfast. On top of being bland and tasteless the waffle is soggy and the bacon is entirely too overcooked. I finish what I can of it and then put it aside, deciding to fill myself on the orange juice I got from the drink counter. It's surprisingly good considering the rest of my meal, so I finish it happily and return my tray. I find my way through one of the doors in the cafeteria to a small sitting area outside. I fumble with the headphones to my media player, and put the left one in my ear, leaving one empty so I can hear the class bell when it rings. I sit at a bench and relax a bit, sinking into one of my favorite songs.
“Balance. Repetition. Composition. Mirrors.”
I close my eyes and sigh contentedly. I needed this moment. I haven't listened to music in entirely too long.
“Most of all the world is a place where parts of wholes are described...”
I try to follow along with the lyrics in the first verse, but the way the singer accentuates syllables throws me off.
“And meanwhile, the statues are bleeding green...”
The slight tremor in my hands fades as the song switches into a finger-tapped bass solo, fast-paced but peaceful.
“And therein lies the garnered wisdom that has never died.”
I find myself tapping the rhythm to the song on the bench. The dulcet tones of the two bass guitars starts to overwhelm me, and I slip away into a unique calmness.
“Expectation... leads to disappointment.”
'How right you are,' I think to myself, anticipating the song's end.
“If you don't expect something big, huge, and exciting... usually... I don't know...”
The bell to class cuts out the rest of the song. I frown as I put away the player, making sure to pause and lock it before I do. I stand and follow the crowd back inside and drudge my way up the stairs into Class 3-3.
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I almost immediately regret my decision. The class is almost completely full, despite the bell having just rung. Everyone's gaze snaps to me, and I'm caught lie a deer in headlights as I walk through the doorway. Mutou looks over at me, and quickly sets things into motion.
“Ah yes, good. Class, we'll be welcoming a new transfer student to Yamaku today, so please, give him your attention, I'm sure Mr. Matsushita has a few introductory words for us.” He finishes his short little speech and looks over at me expectantly.
'You sneaky son of a--' I cut my thought short and snap back to the task at hand. I notice my left hand rolling again and flex it to quell the tremor. I grin nervously, and begin. “Ah, hi everyone. I'm Hayate Matsushita. I'm 18 years old, and I'm glad to be here at Yamaku. You can call me Hayate or Matsushita, I'm fine with either. I'm very interested in music, reading, and soccer, so I hope to make a few quick friends here.” As I finish, the air fills itself with an almost deafening silence. Mutou picks up on the fact that I'm done and starts talking again.
“Thank you very much Mr. Matsushita. You can take a seat in between Mr. Maeda and Ms. Hakamichi there. She's the Class Representative, so she'll be showing you around Yamaku today.”
He points towards a dark-haired girl with glasses who looks at me with a rather off-putting triumphant grin. An empty seat occupies the space immediately to her right. I nod at him and voice a small “Thank you” before quickly moving toward my seat. As Mutou starts the lesson and I sit down in the surprisingly comfortable desk, I turn to talk to Hakamichi. Before I can even say a single word, Hakamichi throws her thumb over her shoulder, pointing at a pink-haired girl with drills. The girl looks brightly at me and turns to speak to me.
“Hi!~ I'm Misha. I'll be speaking and translating for Shicchan here.” As I open my mouth to ask why Hakamichi needs a translator, I notice Misha moving her hands with very articulate gestures. I nod in understanding.
“Right then. I'm Hayate, it's nice to meet the both of you,” I say casually. Hakamichi gives a quick glare and throws a few sharp signs to Misha.
“Oh what? I'm sorry Shicchan!~ Um, Shicchan would like you to know that she would prefer that you call her Shizune. Shicchan might be a bit too personal, wahaha!~”
I blink quickly, trying to regain my hearing after that little bit of raucous laughter from Misha. I glance at Shizune. I almost envy her for being deaf right now. It would be difficult spending a lot of time with Misha if she laughed like that all the time.
“Oh okay. I'm a bit more comfortable addressing people by their first names anyway. Shizune it is then.”
Shizune grins and readjusts her glasses. She signs very dramatically to Misha who translates almost immediately.
“It's very good to meet you as well Hacchan. Oh, now she's mad at me for embellishing her words~.”
'Hacchan? Really? This girl's a handful. Shizune must have the patience of a saint,' I think, but I smile and roll with it. “Hacchan eh? It's been years since anyone's called me that. So, how does this whole tour thing go?”
Misha smiles brightly. “Shicchan and I will show you around after class. We can't have you getting lost on the first day now can we? Wahaha!~”
A rather loud cough from Mutou immediately silences Misha, who gives an embarrassed smile and a quick apology. Taking a note that our conversation was over for the moment, I shift my attention towards Mutou's lecture. 'Chemistry? I think I'll like this Mutou guy after all.' Setting aside my thoughts, I pull out one of the composition books from my pack and, with the satisfying click of a new pen, start writing down notes.
As Mutou explains the process for alkane nomenclature, I relax a bit. This is what I excelled at at my last school, or at least, that's what I'm told. The material is familiar, and it's coming back to me like I've already learned it, but I don't remember learning it.
Two years. Gone in the blink of an eye.
'Damn it Hayate, don't do this now. You have better things to be doing than brooding on the past.' I try and calm myself back down, focusing my thoughts on Mutou's lecture. My hand is writing the notes down, but I'm not even really hearing Mutou anymore. My mind's in a different place.
A soft beeping noise. The smell of disinfectant. Plain walls. Uncomfortable bed.
I'm back at the hospital once more. Even though it was well over a year ago, I can still perfectly remember my confusion. I try to shift my weight to get more comfortable, but my left arm explodes in pain. Stars flash behind my eyes as I immediately try to correct my fault, only to have the same thing happen in my right leg. My head is bandaged, and I'm hooked up to oxygen, an IV drip in my right wrist. I return to my original position on the bed, and I'm doing my best not to move, not to make the pain any worse. A nurse walks into my room with a new drip for my arm. I lock eyes for her for a moment, and she freezes, dropping the bag. Before I can ask what happened, she's already back out the door, calling for a doctor.
The EKG picks up its pace as my heart speeds up. The doctor comes rushing into the room, and looks at my broken form on the hospital bed. He walks over to me and shines a light in my eyes for a moment.
“Hayate? Can you hear me? Try not to move okay? You're in a hospital, and you're very injured. Right now, I want you to tap your right index finger twice on the bed if you can hear me.”
I respond with the finger-tapping, but as I turn to look at him my vision starts to fade.
“Hayate? Hayate! Stay with me Matsushita, come on. Matsushita? Matsushita!”
“Matsushita!”
I jolt back a bit from my seat, and try clumsily to keep my balance in the chair. Mutou is looking at me, and Misha and Shizune are standing by the door waiting for me.
“Class has ended Matsushita. You might want to follow Ms. Hakamichi and Ms. Mikado out now.”
I look at the clock, and indeed, class has been finished for two minutes now. I shake my head quickly and apologize to Mutou before quickly gathering my things and rushing out the door with Misha and Shizune.
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Lyrics from "Smells Like Content" by The Books
Arrival
“Isn't it nice, Hayate? We'll have the weekend to ourselves! Just you, me and the wilderness. Have you ever been camping before?”
A bright smile. That's all I can ever remember distinctly. Her smile. I struggle to see past the fog in my mind, to see her features once and for all, but they shift and fade, leaving behind a smile and the sweet sound of her voice.
“I'm dreaming again,” I tell myself. She smiles once more.
“Indeed you are.”
I grimace.
“Is it at all possible for you to stop smiling? I know this is a dream and all, but it's starting to creep me out.”
She frowns. Her blurry eyes look downward. If I could see more of her face, I would say she looked sad.
“I'm sorry, Hayate. I truly am. Unfortunately I cannot dictate what happens in your dream.” Her frown curves back upward, turning into a weak smile reflecting her regret.
“I'm tired of these dreams. I just want to go back. I want to remember. I don't want you haunting me anymore.” My voice cracks, and tears stream down my face. I glare at her blurry form as she looks back up at me.
“Then why not wake up?”
And just like that, it's over. My head snaps up quickly. Another dream, and it's the same one, again. The bus rumbles quietly as it advances up the curving mountain road. As I look out the window, which is now covered in morning dew, I can vaguely see the town where I'll be staying for the rest of the school year.
“Yamaku.”
The name for the city sounds odd as it tumbles out of my mouth. It sounds Japanese, but I'm not even sure it means anything. I run a hand through the front of my rather lengthy hair as I remember the reason I'm even here. I'm coming to Yamaku to attend the Academy there. A school for students with disabilities. How quaint. As nice as it is to go back to a functional school instead of getting lectures from my dad on various subjects, I can't help but feel a little angered at my predicament.
“Is that all I am now? Just another disabled kid sent away so their parents can live a normal life?” I frown as I think about what I've just said. I know it isn't true. I don't know why I've become so bitter about this. It's a good decision on my parents' parts, but for some reason, I feel like I'm being abandoned.
I yawn distractedly as the bus pulls up to the wrought-iron gate of the school. The change in momentum as the bus stops snaps me back into reality. I notice my left thumb rolling over my first two fingers. I clench my fingers into a fist and release it several times, stretching my fingers out.
'Damn it,' I think to myself. 'I'm getting distracted again.'
I stand and stretch the rest of my body. My back is stiff from sleeping in the bus seat like that. It's unfortunate but really unavoidable considering how far away I live from Yamaku. I reach up to the storage rack and gather my bags. I step out onto the curb after giving the driver a mumbled “Thanks,” and stare blankly at the gate before me. The bus rumbles off down the road, and I'm suddenly there alone. I close my eyes and breathe deeply, calming my nerves, and I step through the gate onto the grounds.
The school is rather small, with only three main buildings, but it still manages to have a beautiful campus. The trees stand bright green in the Spring air, and a soft breeze picks up as I stand motionless on the main pathway. I smile contentedly and, pausing a moment to pull my hair into a loose tail, walk forward, keeping a nice pace as I enter the main building. It's still early, and classes haven't yet begun. A tired-looking man stands front and center in the large hallway. His eyes brighten slightly as I walk in, and I hope to myself that I haven't kept him waiting long. He walks forward and extends his hand to me.
“Matsushita, correct? Hayate Matsushita?” he asks with a rather flat voice, fitting the tired face he's currently wearing. I set one of my bags down and shake his hand, nodding. “Ah very good. I'm Mutou, the science teacher here at Yamaku. I've been sent to welcome you officially to Yamaku Academy. Now, you've gotten here rather early, so there's still time for you to go unpack and maybe catch a shower and breakfast before classes start.” The small smile I've been wearing flattens as he says 'classes.' Thankfully, he notices this and laughs slightly. “Now now, don't worry about classes today. You'll be attending them but you won't be responsible for any of the homework tonight. I'll have the Class Representative show you around today. Your homeroom class will be with me, Class 3-3. I also have your room key and student ID. You'll be staying in room 109 in the boys' dorm. Just follow the signs and you'll get there. Oh, and make sure you see the school's nurse after class today. He mentioned to me that he wanted to see you and set up your prescriptions.”
I nod slowly, letting him know that I'm keeping track with what he's been saying. He smiles and hands me the key to my room before sending me off on my way. I pick up my other bag again and slowly walk to the boys' dorm. I notice the signs that point me in the right direction, and follow the path through the campus. As I get closer to the dorms, I notice a few students out and about, despite the early hour. A short brown-haired girl with two prosthetic legs jogs lightly down another pathway towards the school's track, dressed in what I can only assume is the school's gym uniform. A blonde boy with sunglasses and a cane walks arm-in-arm with a shorter dark-haired girl with bandages around her eyes. An albino girl sits leisurely in a tree branch, staring off into the distance. I try not to stare at the various people, but the sight of them reminds me that I'm in someplace new, somewhere completely separated from the outside world. I try to swallow the feeling that I'm a fish out of water here, that I really won't feel this way for long. Shrugging off my doubts, I saunter casually into the boys' dorm and, finding room 109 easily enough, proceed into my room.
It's nothing special. A desk, some drawers, a closet, and a bed. Standard university single-dorm style room. The room is rather blank and dull, but the crisp, clean atmosphere of the place suggests room for decoration.
'I'm glad I decided to bring those posters,' I think to myself solemnly as I start to unpack my things. I put away my casual clothes into the closet and take down one of the uniforms the school has provided for me. It looks fairly comfortable despite the formal nature of the uniform. I set it aside with a towel on my bed, pausing a moment to take my morning pills, before grabbing them again and walking down the hall to the bathroom.
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It wasn't long before I trudged solemnly back into my room, hair still damp from the shower. I stumble through the doorway, not quite able to see through the curtain of hair that hides my face.
I dress quickly, pulling on the Yamaku uniform with an air of indifference. Again I pull my hair into a loose pony tail, leaving a few stray strands to hang in front of my face once more. As I adjust the uniform's red tie in the mirror, I look at my reflection and stop again to look myself over. My dark auburn hair frames my face well, and compliments my modest build. '177 centimeters, 77 kilos,' I think to myself absent-mindedly, calling back the numbers I was told at my most recent visit to a doctor. My skin is light, reflecting my father's nationality. He was American, and had moved to Japan to live with my mother after ending his career. He kept his own name for legal purposes, but insisted that I take my mother's surname. A flash catches my eyes, and curiously enough, it was my own eyes that was the source. Hazel in color, they're one of the few features I carried over from my mother.
Satisfied with my own vanity, I pull out the brand new messenger bag from my suitcase and start packing it with my various school supplies. I've always like orderly and menial tasks like these. There's something about the freshness of new things that sparks something in me, but I'm not quite sure why. I finish packing the last bit of new school supplies into my bag and breathe deeply, going over one final checklist of things I need to do this morning. I smile, checking through everything, and leave my room, heading towards the cafeteria for breakfast.
I manage to find something somewhat edible in the cafeteria, a waffle and a couple of slices of bacon. Content with the slim pickings in Yamaku, I settle down at a table by myself. The cafeteria isn't exactly crowded, but the soft roar of people talking fills the air.
Crunch. Crunch. Crunch. Squish.
Squish? I grimace at my choice of breakfast. On top of being bland and tasteless the waffle is soggy and the bacon is entirely too overcooked. I finish what I can of it and then put it aside, deciding to fill myself on the orange juice I got from the drink counter. It's surprisingly good considering the rest of my meal, so I finish it happily and return my tray. I find my way through one of the doors in the cafeteria to a small sitting area outside. I fumble with the headphones to my media player, and put the left one in my ear, leaving one empty so I can hear the class bell when it rings. I sit at a bench and relax a bit, sinking into one of my favorite songs.
“Balance. Repetition. Composition. Mirrors.”
I close my eyes and sigh contentedly. I needed this moment. I haven't listened to music in entirely too long.
“Most of all the world is a place where parts of wholes are described...”
I try to follow along with the lyrics in the first verse, but the way the singer accentuates syllables throws me off.
“And meanwhile, the statues are bleeding green...”
The slight tremor in my hands fades as the song switches into a finger-tapped bass solo, fast-paced but peaceful.
“And therein lies the garnered wisdom that has never died.”
I find myself tapping the rhythm to the song on the bench. The dulcet tones of the two bass guitars starts to overwhelm me, and I slip away into a unique calmness.
“Expectation... leads to disappointment.”
'How right you are,' I think to myself, anticipating the song's end.
“If you don't expect something big, huge, and exciting... usually... I don't know...”
The bell to class cuts out the rest of the song. I frown as I put away the player, making sure to pause and lock it before I do. I stand and follow the crowd back inside and drudge my way up the stairs into Class 3-3.
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I almost immediately regret my decision. The class is almost completely full, despite the bell having just rung. Everyone's gaze snaps to me, and I'm caught lie a deer in headlights as I walk through the doorway. Mutou looks over at me, and quickly sets things into motion.
“Ah yes, good. Class, we'll be welcoming a new transfer student to Yamaku today, so please, give him your attention, I'm sure Mr. Matsushita has a few introductory words for us.” He finishes his short little speech and looks over at me expectantly.
'You sneaky son of a--' I cut my thought short and snap back to the task at hand. I notice my left hand rolling again and flex it to quell the tremor. I grin nervously, and begin. “Ah, hi everyone. I'm Hayate Matsushita. I'm 18 years old, and I'm glad to be here at Yamaku. You can call me Hayate or Matsushita, I'm fine with either. I'm very interested in music, reading, and soccer, so I hope to make a few quick friends here.” As I finish, the air fills itself with an almost deafening silence. Mutou picks up on the fact that I'm done and starts talking again.
“Thank you very much Mr. Matsushita. You can take a seat in between Mr. Maeda and Ms. Hakamichi there. She's the Class Representative, so she'll be showing you around Yamaku today.”
He points towards a dark-haired girl with glasses who looks at me with a rather off-putting triumphant grin. An empty seat occupies the space immediately to her right. I nod at him and voice a small “Thank you” before quickly moving toward my seat. As Mutou starts the lesson and I sit down in the surprisingly comfortable desk, I turn to talk to Hakamichi. Before I can even say a single word, Hakamichi throws her thumb over her shoulder, pointing at a pink-haired girl with drills. The girl looks brightly at me and turns to speak to me.
“Hi!~ I'm Misha. I'll be speaking and translating for Shicchan here.” As I open my mouth to ask why Hakamichi needs a translator, I notice Misha moving her hands with very articulate gestures. I nod in understanding.
“Right then. I'm Hayate, it's nice to meet the both of you,” I say casually. Hakamichi gives a quick glare and throws a few sharp signs to Misha.
“Oh what? I'm sorry Shicchan!~ Um, Shicchan would like you to know that she would prefer that you call her Shizune. Shicchan might be a bit too personal, wahaha!~”
I blink quickly, trying to regain my hearing after that little bit of raucous laughter from Misha. I glance at Shizune. I almost envy her for being deaf right now. It would be difficult spending a lot of time with Misha if she laughed like that all the time.
“Oh okay. I'm a bit more comfortable addressing people by their first names anyway. Shizune it is then.”
Shizune grins and readjusts her glasses. She signs very dramatically to Misha who translates almost immediately.
“It's very good to meet you as well Hacchan. Oh, now she's mad at me for embellishing her words~.”
'Hacchan? Really? This girl's a handful. Shizune must have the patience of a saint,' I think, but I smile and roll with it. “Hacchan eh? It's been years since anyone's called me that. So, how does this whole tour thing go?”
Misha smiles brightly. “Shicchan and I will show you around after class. We can't have you getting lost on the first day now can we? Wahaha!~”
A rather loud cough from Mutou immediately silences Misha, who gives an embarrassed smile and a quick apology. Taking a note that our conversation was over for the moment, I shift my attention towards Mutou's lecture. 'Chemistry? I think I'll like this Mutou guy after all.' Setting aside my thoughts, I pull out one of the composition books from my pack and, with the satisfying click of a new pen, start writing down notes.
As Mutou explains the process for alkane nomenclature, I relax a bit. This is what I excelled at at my last school, or at least, that's what I'm told. The material is familiar, and it's coming back to me like I've already learned it, but I don't remember learning it.
Two years. Gone in the blink of an eye.
'Damn it Hayate, don't do this now. You have better things to be doing than brooding on the past.' I try and calm myself back down, focusing my thoughts on Mutou's lecture. My hand is writing the notes down, but I'm not even really hearing Mutou anymore. My mind's in a different place.
A soft beeping noise. The smell of disinfectant. Plain walls. Uncomfortable bed.
I'm back at the hospital once more. Even though it was well over a year ago, I can still perfectly remember my confusion. I try to shift my weight to get more comfortable, but my left arm explodes in pain. Stars flash behind my eyes as I immediately try to correct my fault, only to have the same thing happen in my right leg. My head is bandaged, and I'm hooked up to oxygen, an IV drip in my right wrist. I return to my original position on the bed, and I'm doing my best not to move, not to make the pain any worse. A nurse walks into my room with a new drip for my arm. I lock eyes for her for a moment, and she freezes, dropping the bag. Before I can ask what happened, she's already back out the door, calling for a doctor.
The EKG picks up its pace as my heart speeds up. The doctor comes rushing into the room, and looks at my broken form on the hospital bed. He walks over to me and shines a light in my eyes for a moment.
“Hayate? Can you hear me? Try not to move okay? You're in a hospital, and you're very injured. Right now, I want you to tap your right index finger twice on the bed if you can hear me.”
I respond with the finger-tapping, but as I turn to look at him my vision starts to fade.
“Hayate? Hayate! Stay with me Matsushita, come on. Matsushita? Matsushita!”
“Matsushita!”
I jolt back a bit from my seat, and try clumsily to keep my balance in the chair. Mutou is looking at me, and Misha and Shizune are standing by the door waiting for me.
“Class has ended Matsushita. You might want to follow Ms. Hakamichi and Ms. Mikado out now.”
I look at the clock, and indeed, class has been finished for two minutes now. I shake my head quickly and apologize to Mutou before quickly gathering my things and rushing out the door with Misha and Shizune.
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Lyrics from "Smells Like Content" by The Books