Listen to your Heart. Hisao x Misha. Contains sex.
Posted: Sat Feb 11, 2012 1:00 pm
I want to thank Mirage_GSM for proof reading this for me. The story contains sex. It's pretty long, almost 6400 words, so I'm splitting it up into three posts to make it a bit easier for you to read it. I am not sure if this is a oneshot or if it will be continued. Constructive criticism, as well as questions and comments are always welcome.
Enjoy!
~Listen to your heart~
I should be out there and have a good time with the other students: get to know people and form friendships. I should, yet here I'm still in my dorm. If I were to leave my room, I would only feel out of place, an invisible and intangible ghost walking amongst the living. Unseen and unheard of.
It's a late Friday evening and I have been at the new school for two weeks. I sit on my bed, leaning against the padded headboard. My room has been nearly enveloped by a thick veil of darkness. Only the moonlight seeping through my window provides a light blue illumination, just enough for me to see some vague contours of my furniture. In silence, I observe a glass bottle full of whiskey in my hand, turning it around to look at it from all directions. The bottle was a welcome gift from the person living across my room, Kenji. I remember his words when he gave it to me.
"In times like these, bros must watch out for each other and cover the other's back, lest a stealthy feminist assassin decides to sneak up on you from the shadows and plunge a poisoned dagger into your back when you least expect it. Call it a generous gift from the Brotherhood, the last defenders against the evil feminists."
Kenji surely enjoys spicing up his own speeches to make them sound melodramatic. He mentioned a brotherhood, as if there are more guys who support his delusional cause. I haven't known him for many days, but I can't really think of him as having many friends, if any at all. His unfriendly, antisocial, and paranoid attitude would scare everyone away. I'm surprised he and I have exchanged so many words with each other. Most of the time it's just him ranting his angry words of misogyny all over me. Still, I have to give it to him; Kenji has guts for managing to smuggle in a full whiskey bottle into school. My mind suddenly goes blank as I realize a sad truth about myself; I assumed Kenji to have no friends...but when I look at myself, I realize I don't really have any friends here either.
I tried to get to know people here at the school. I remember some of their faces and names. There was Rin, the skilled but aloof artist. Lilly, the well-mannered caring girl from Scotland, who was friend with the awkwardly shy Hanako. I had bumped into the energetic and athletic Emi in the hallway. Shizune, the strict and fair head of the Student Council, and her overly cheery friend, Misha, had guided me around at school and informed me how things work around here. I believed myself to have felt a vague connection with every one of them. I was wrong. I asked them for plans during the weekend. Lilly and Hanako politely explained they had their own plans. Rin was nowhere to be found. Emi was apparently going to visit her mother. Shizune and Misha had work to do for the upcoming festival. Therefore, I was left to myself.
Finally, I open the bottle and take a deep sniff from it. The spicy aroma of the copper colored liquid from within fills my nostrils. It makes me curious to taste it. Thus, I lift and tilt the bottle to pour some whiskey into my mouth. It is not my first time drinking alcohol. I have tried a few beers and a bit of wine before, but I was not fully prepared for the burning, acid like taste of whiskey. I cringe slightly, and manage to swallow it without much problem. A moment passes, while I drink a bit more. The consumed alcohol is absorbed and spread out through my blood stream. The intoxicating effect sneaks up on me and spreads through my body and mind. I welcome it by drinking some more. This time, it doesn't taste just as bad.
I sigh heavily. What a depressing moment. Here I am, sitting by myself within the shadows with only a whiskey bottle to keep me company. Sinister feelings of loneliness, regret for the past and doubts of the future begins to distort my mind. Is this what I have become? I don't remember being like this at all at my old school. However, back then I didn't have a serious heart condition either. Is this my first step to my new future, to become a lonely and miserable alcoholic who can only find comfort and company from the content of a bottle? I thought the drink would dampen my depression. I was even willing to have a strong hangover the next morning if it could wash away this bad mood of mine. Instead, it seems to enhance my gloomy mood further. I bite my lower lip so hard I almost puncture the soft skin. The pain barely even registers in my mind.
I bury my face into my palm and groan, rubbing my temples. A mild headache now also accompanies me. This night isn't getting any better at all. Might as well go to sleep. I close the bottle, let it rest next to me and close my eyelids, not bothering to undress or brush my teeth. It doesn't take many seconds for my mind and body to relax and slip away towards sleep. Before I can fully doze off, I'm abruptly woken by a loud, banging noise. I gasp, as if waking up from a terrible nightmare. Fully awake again, I look at my door and hear the banging again. Who can it be at this hour, I wonder. To be honest, I don't know and I don't care. It's probably Kenji wanting his bottle back and telling me the latest news of the so-called upcoming attack of the feminist army. As eager as I'm for company, Kenji is not exactly what I'm looking for. I hear the banging a third time.
"Go away. It's late," I groan tiredly. I quickly regret saying that. Now I have given my presence away. I should have stayed quiet and waited until he left. There is no response heard. Did I win? I managed to send the visitor away with four simple words? I enjoy every second of the victory and the peace that follows it. For a short moment, the only sounds I hear are my slow and strong heartbeats and my drawn out breathing. I hear something else now coming from the door. Not a banging noise, instead a young, female voice, which I recognize too easily.
"Hicchan! Why won't you open the door?" the girl sounds slightly upset, not appreciating being ignored, and told to go away. I expected as much. What is Misha doing here at this time?
"I said go away, Misha. I want to sleep."
"Nuh-uh. You will open the door...or...or I will tear it down!"
I chuckle sardonically at her empty threat. I can't ignore her. I have to retort with sarcasm.
"I would like to see that. Are you going to huff and puff and blow my door down?" Even though she is not present in my room, it somehow feels pleasant to talk to someone during my current, gloomy situation. I smile to myself, as I can imagine Misha puffing her cheeks and chest out and scowl at me through the door. Did she perhaps leave? I'm wrong; however, as I'm about to take another sip of the whiskey I hear a distinct mechanical sound from the door, before it is pushed open. How stupid of me to leave the door unlocked. A draft of fresh and cold air washes over me.
The alcohol has somewhat distorted my vision, turning my dark surroundings into a blurry mess. I find it difficult to focus my gaze on Misha's familiar outline as she stands in the doorframe. The hallway outside my room is dimly lit. The light invades my room and does battle with the darkness, with Misha caught right in the middle. She is clad in the girls' school uniform; the blouse, so white it almost glows faintly in the darkness. The decently short and olive green skirt is harder to pick out though. Her legs are almost bare, save for the long, white socks.
"Hicchan, how rude of you," she crosses her arms over her chest and frowns at me, "Why don't you open the door when a friend visits you?"
Friend? I'm surprised she refers to me as that so easily. I have only been here for a few days. I barely know anyone. However, I have talked with Misha at several occasions since I came to this school. Nevertheless, she is still pretty much a stranger to me, an enigma. Pretty much just another schoolmate.
Determined to stay, Misha strides into my room without my permission and closes the door behind her. The light from the hallway is cut off, and once again, my room is dominated by the perpetual darkness and the faint moonlight. She stops before me.
"Hey, are you listening to me?" She leans in closer and bores her gaze into. She tries to get my attention, and fails. Casually, I lean my tired and aching head against the wall, hoping my ignoring will send her away. I am wrong, again. I should know by now that Misha is not someone who gives up easily. The object in my hand does not go unnoticed.
"Is that a bottle of ALCOHOL in your hand?" Her glare shifts back and forth between my uncaring face, and the bottle in my lap. She does not sound approving at all of my gift from Kenji. "You know that sort of thing is not allowed at school. Where did you get it? How did you smuggle it in?" Misha tends to speak louder than normal, and this moment is no exception. I shoot her a disapproving look. Geez, why don't you say it louder and let the whole school know that Hisao Nakai has a bottle of alcohol in his room. Why not also say how miserable he feels. The only response she gets out of me is an annoyed grunt and dismissive wave of my hand, gesturing for her to get out of my room.
The alcohol has slowed down my reflexes, and I become aware of that when Misha grabs the bottle and yanks it out of my hand, spilling a few drops on the carpet. Great, now I will have whiskey stains on the carpet that stink of alcohol.
"Hey, give it back, Misha. That's not yours," I reach out in a clumsy attempt to retrieve my precious bottle. Misha is already far out of reach. She looks like an upset mother who has caught her son in the act of underage drinking.
"Are you not smarter than this, Hicchan? You know this is bad for you. Liquid poison." Great, now she also SOUNDS like my mother. I pity any children she will have in the future. I observe Misha observing the bottle just as I have done earlier. Despite her disapproval of my drinking, she seems quite curious about the bottle itself. Suddenly, to my surprise, she lifts it up to her mouth. I protest.
"Hey, you have no right to drink what's mine," my words stop her in mid action, though only temporarily.
"Don't overreact. As a professional member of the Student Council, I must thoroughly test this substance to confirm that it is indeed alcohol," she says with a less than professional grin.
I scoff at her and shake my head in disapproval. I bet she does it only to get a bit of free liquor. Despite that, I say nothing, and quietly watch the pink haired girl before she raises the bottle and takes a single sip, a surprisingly big sip I must add. I break my stillness as I chuckle softly, not able to contain myself watching Misha's reaction. Her pretty and round face grimace out of disgust from the liquid burning her lips, tongue, and throat. At least she managed to swallow it.
"Ugh, my suspicions...were correct," says Misha after licking away as much as she could of the lingering and nasty aftertaste left within her mouth. It looks like it was her first time drinking whiskey. Maybe it even was her first try at alcohol at all. At least I can have some pride in myself for having a better grip of alcohol than she has. She puts the bottle aside, and then sits down next to me on the bed. If she's here to stay, I might as well converse casually with her.
"So, where is Shizune?" I curiously inquire without even looking at Misha. It feels odd to see her apart from Shizune. The two of them are always seen close together all the time, as if they are conjoined twins.
"Oh, poor Shicchan suddenly got a terrible stomach ache, so she decided to go and sleep."
I nod. Food poisoning perhaps? That's too bad for Shizune. I wonder how she'll feel tomorrow.
"I suppose you're going to tell me why you came here?"
"Do I need a reason?" Misha teasingly retorts. Her expression changes, as she puts on a more serious face with traces of sadness in it. Her concerned voice sounded motherly. "I saw you earlier today. You were being by yourself at the cafeteria, and you looked sad. I don't like watching my precious friends feeling down. I came here...because I wanted to check you up, to see if there was something, I could do for you. Do you want to talk, Hicchan? I understand if you want to be left alone," her compassionate attitude takes me completely by surprise. This must be Misha's better half.
"I..." I speak up, but am not able to find the words I was looking for, "I guess I'm still trying to settle down with my new life. It takes time to get adjusted again. I spent four months at a hospital before I came to this school."
"You have only been here for a couple of weeks, Hicchan. Give it more time. You are always welcome to spend time with Shicchan and me. We enjoy your company. I like to think of you as a friend."
"Some 'friend' you are. Barging in without permission and stealing alcohol," that could have been said a bit better. My voice sounded too stern.
Enjoy!
~Listen to your heart~
I should be out there and have a good time with the other students: get to know people and form friendships. I should, yet here I'm still in my dorm. If I were to leave my room, I would only feel out of place, an invisible and intangible ghost walking amongst the living. Unseen and unheard of.
It's a late Friday evening and I have been at the new school for two weeks. I sit on my bed, leaning against the padded headboard. My room has been nearly enveloped by a thick veil of darkness. Only the moonlight seeping through my window provides a light blue illumination, just enough for me to see some vague contours of my furniture. In silence, I observe a glass bottle full of whiskey in my hand, turning it around to look at it from all directions. The bottle was a welcome gift from the person living across my room, Kenji. I remember his words when he gave it to me.
"In times like these, bros must watch out for each other and cover the other's back, lest a stealthy feminist assassin decides to sneak up on you from the shadows and plunge a poisoned dagger into your back when you least expect it. Call it a generous gift from the Brotherhood, the last defenders against the evil feminists."
Kenji surely enjoys spicing up his own speeches to make them sound melodramatic. He mentioned a brotherhood, as if there are more guys who support his delusional cause. I haven't known him for many days, but I can't really think of him as having many friends, if any at all. His unfriendly, antisocial, and paranoid attitude would scare everyone away. I'm surprised he and I have exchanged so many words with each other. Most of the time it's just him ranting his angry words of misogyny all over me. Still, I have to give it to him; Kenji has guts for managing to smuggle in a full whiskey bottle into school. My mind suddenly goes blank as I realize a sad truth about myself; I assumed Kenji to have no friends...but when I look at myself, I realize I don't really have any friends here either.
I tried to get to know people here at the school. I remember some of their faces and names. There was Rin, the skilled but aloof artist. Lilly, the well-mannered caring girl from Scotland, who was friend with the awkwardly shy Hanako. I had bumped into the energetic and athletic Emi in the hallway. Shizune, the strict and fair head of the Student Council, and her overly cheery friend, Misha, had guided me around at school and informed me how things work around here. I believed myself to have felt a vague connection with every one of them. I was wrong. I asked them for plans during the weekend. Lilly and Hanako politely explained they had their own plans. Rin was nowhere to be found. Emi was apparently going to visit her mother. Shizune and Misha had work to do for the upcoming festival. Therefore, I was left to myself.
Finally, I open the bottle and take a deep sniff from it. The spicy aroma of the copper colored liquid from within fills my nostrils. It makes me curious to taste it. Thus, I lift and tilt the bottle to pour some whiskey into my mouth. It is not my first time drinking alcohol. I have tried a few beers and a bit of wine before, but I was not fully prepared for the burning, acid like taste of whiskey. I cringe slightly, and manage to swallow it without much problem. A moment passes, while I drink a bit more. The consumed alcohol is absorbed and spread out through my blood stream. The intoxicating effect sneaks up on me and spreads through my body and mind. I welcome it by drinking some more. This time, it doesn't taste just as bad.
I sigh heavily. What a depressing moment. Here I am, sitting by myself within the shadows with only a whiskey bottle to keep me company. Sinister feelings of loneliness, regret for the past and doubts of the future begins to distort my mind. Is this what I have become? I don't remember being like this at all at my old school. However, back then I didn't have a serious heart condition either. Is this my first step to my new future, to become a lonely and miserable alcoholic who can only find comfort and company from the content of a bottle? I thought the drink would dampen my depression. I was even willing to have a strong hangover the next morning if it could wash away this bad mood of mine. Instead, it seems to enhance my gloomy mood further. I bite my lower lip so hard I almost puncture the soft skin. The pain barely even registers in my mind.
I bury my face into my palm and groan, rubbing my temples. A mild headache now also accompanies me. This night isn't getting any better at all. Might as well go to sleep. I close the bottle, let it rest next to me and close my eyelids, not bothering to undress or brush my teeth. It doesn't take many seconds for my mind and body to relax and slip away towards sleep. Before I can fully doze off, I'm abruptly woken by a loud, banging noise. I gasp, as if waking up from a terrible nightmare. Fully awake again, I look at my door and hear the banging again. Who can it be at this hour, I wonder. To be honest, I don't know and I don't care. It's probably Kenji wanting his bottle back and telling me the latest news of the so-called upcoming attack of the feminist army. As eager as I'm for company, Kenji is not exactly what I'm looking for. I hear the banging a third time.
"Go away. It's late," I groan tiredly. I quickly regret saying that. Now I have given my presence away. I should have stayed quiet and waited until he left. There is no response heard. Did I win? I managed to send the visitor away with four simple words? I enjoy every second of the victory and the peace that follows it. For a short moment, the only sounds I hear are my slow and strong heartbeats and my drawn out breathing. I hear something else now coming from the door. Not a banging noise, instead a young, female voice, which I recognize too easily.
"Hicchan! Why won't you open the door?" the girl sounds slightly upset, not appreciating being ignored, and told to go away. I expected as much. What is Misha doing here at this time?
"I said go away, Misha. I want to sleep."
"Nuh-uh. You will open the door...or...or I will tear it down!"
I chuckle sardonically at her empty threat. I can't ignore her. I have to retort with sarcasm.
"I would like to see that. Are you going to huff and puff and blow my door down?" Even though she is not present in my room, it somehow feels pleasant to talk to someone during my current, gloomy situation. I smile to myself, as I can imagine Misha puffing her cheeks and chest out and scowl at me through the door. Did she perhaps leave? I'm wrong; however, as I'm about to take another sip of the whiskey I hear a distinct mechanical sound from the door, before it is pushed open. How stupid of me to leave the door unlocked. A draft of fresh and cold air washes over me.
The alcohol has somewhat distorted my vision, turning my dark surroundings into a blurry mess. I find it difficult to focus my gaze on Misha's familiar outline as she stands in the doorframe. The hallway outside my room is dimly lit. The light invades my room and does battle with the darkness, with Misha caught right in the middle. She is clad in the girls' school uniform; the blouse, so white it almost glows faintly in the darkness. The decently short and olive green skirt is harder to pick out though. Her legs are almost bare, save for the long, white socks.
"Hicchan, how rude of you," she crosses her arms over her chest and frowns at me, "Why don't you open the door when a friend visits you?"
Friend? I'm surprised she refers to me as that so easily. I have only been here for a few days. I barely know anyone. However, I have talked with Misha at several occasions since I came to this school. Nevertheless, she is still pretty much a stranger to me, an enigma. Pretty much just another schoolmate.
Determined to stay, Misha strides into my room without my permission and closes the door behind her. The light from the hallway is cut off, and once again, my room is dominated by the perpetual darkness and the faint moonlight. She stops before me.
"Hey, are you listening to me?" She leans in closer and bores her gaze into. She tries to get my attention, and fails. Casually, I lean my tired and aching head against the wall, hoping my ignoring will send her away. I am wrong, again. I should know by now that Misha is not someone who gives up easily. The object in my hand does not go unnoticed.
"Is that a bottle of ALCOHOL in your hand?" Her glare shifts back and forth between my uncaring face, and the bottle in my lap. She does not sound approving at all of my gift from Kenji. "You know that sort of thing is not allowed at school. Where did you get it? How did you smuggle it in?" Misha tends to speak louder than normal, and this moment is no exception. I shoot her a disapproving look. Geez, why don't you say it louder and let the whole school know that Hisao Nakai has a bottle of alcohol in his room. Why not also say how miserable he feels. The only response she gets out of me is an annoyed grunt and dismissive wave of my hand, gesturing for her to get out of my room.
The alcohol has slowed down my reflexes, and I become aware of that when Misha grabs the bottle and yanks it out of my hand, spilling a few drops on the carpet. Great, now I will have whiskey stains on the carpet that stink of alcohol.
"Hey, give it back, Misha. That's not yours," I reach out in a clumsy attempt to retrieve my precious bottle. Misha is already far out of reach. She looks like an upset mother who has caught her son in the act of underage drinking.
"Are you not smarter than this, Hicchan? You know this is bad for you. Liquid poison." Great, now she also SOUNDS like my mother. I pity any children she will have in the future. I observe Misha observing the bottle just as I have done earlier. Despite her disapproval of my drinking, she seems quite curious about the bottle itself. Suddenly, to my surprise, she lifts it up to her mouth. I protest.
"Hey, you have no right to drink what's mine," my words stop her in mid action, though only temporarily.
"Don't overreact. As a professional member of the Student Council, I must thoroughly test this substance to confirm that it is indeed alcohol," she says with a less than professional grin.
I scoff at her and shake my head in disapproval. I bet she does it only to get a bit of free liquor. Despite that, I say nothing, and quietly watch the pink haired girl before she raises the bottle and takes a single sip, a surprisingly big sip I must add. I break my stillness as I chuckle softly, not able to contain myself watching Misha's reaction. Her pretty and round face grimace out of disgust from the liquid burning her lips, tongue, and throat. At least she managed to swallow it.
"Ugh, my suspicions...were correct," says Misha after licking away as much as she could of the lingering and nasty aftertaste left within her mouth. It looks like it was her first time drinking whiskey. Maybe it even was her first try at alcohol at all. At least I can have some pride in myself for having a better grip of alcohol than she has. She puts the bottle aside, and then sits down next to me on the bed. If she's here to stay, I might as well converse casually with her.
"So, where is Shizune?" I curiously inquire without even looking at Misha. It feels odd to see her apart from Shizune. The two of them are always seen close together all the time, as if they are conjoined twins.
"Oh, poor Shicchan suddenly got a terrible stomach ache, so she decided to go and sleep."
I nod. Food poisoning perhaps? That's too bad for Shizune. I wonder how she'll feel tomorrow.
"I suppose you're going to tell me why you came here?"
"Do I need a reason?" Misha teasingly retorts. Her expression changes, as she puts on a more serious face with traces of sadness in it. Her concerned voice sounded motherly. "I saw you earlier today. You were being by yourself at the cafeteria, and you looked sad. I don't like watching my precious friends feeling down. I came here...because I wanted to check you up, to see if there was something, I could do for you. Do you want to talk, Hicchan? I understand if you want to be left alone," her compassionate attitude takes me completely by surprise. This must be Misha's better half.
"I..." I speak up, but am not able to find the words I was looking for, "I guess I'm still trying to settle down with my new life. It takes time to get adjusted again. I spent four months at a hospital before I came to this school."
"You have only been here for a couple of weeks, Hicchan. Give it more time. You are always welcome to spend time with Shicchan and me. We enjoy your company. I like to think of you as a friend."
"Some 'friend' you are. Barging in without permission and stealing alcohol," that could have been said a bit better. My voice sounded too stern.