Winter writing (xmas story end pg8)
Posted: Thu Apr 29, 2010 4:56 am
Index:
A (Relatively) Bad Day
Dinner and Defeat
Emi's Ensalvement: CH1 CH2 CH3 CH4 CH5
Painful Choices: CH1 CH2 CH3 Lilly End Hanako End
A Demon's Visit: CH1 CH2 CH3
Flurries, a Flower, and crazy Females: CH1 CH2 CH3 CH4 CH5 CH6
Don't ask how I came up with this one, it's pretty much just a random thought that occurred to me while working on something else that I tried to write out.
#1 a (relatively) bad day
Ha:“L-Lilly do you want another cup of tea?”
Li:“No, I have to *beep* ah perfect timing, I’m having dinner with my sister.”
Hi:“Need us to do anything?”
Li:“Just make sure you clean up when you are ready to leave.”
Hi:“Got it, see you tomorrow, say hi to your sister for us.”
Li:“Play nice with each other now.”
She left without making a sound leaving Hanako and I to clean up.
Hi:“Anything you want to do?”
Ha:“N-not really.”
She turns around and begins cleaning the tea cups.
Okay Hisao do it now, the conditions are as good as they're going to get.
Hi:“Uh Hanako-”
Ha:“What is it?”
What comes out is a bunch of nonsense consisting of me stuttering, uh’s and er’s. Damn it man just say it!
Ha:“Is... is something wrong?”
She turns around which only causes me to shut my mouth. Not only is she now worried but she's giving me those eyes that have been turning my legs to mush for the past few weeks.
Ha:“If...if I can help-”
Hi:“No, don’t worry about it Hanako.”
I walk over to the corner and begin hitting my head against the wall. Why the hell can’t I just spit it out?!
Ha:“I-I’m sorry Hisao, b-but if it’s important enough for you to start hitting yourself... then I want to know.”
That’s the whole damned problem isn’t it? If I could say it I wouldn’t be trying to give myself a concussion.
Ha:“C-could you please at least stop trying to injure yourself.”
She manages to get me turned around and I get a close up view of her entire face. I’ve become used to the scarring awhile back ad it doesn’t even faze me anymore.
Unfortunately at about the same time I became really attracted to her, so I still end up averting my eyes so I didn’t turn into a blabbering idiot. This time however, I have no chance to do so, her eyes apparently have magnets embedded in them, every time I try to look away my entire body resists.
Ha:“I’ll... I’ll help anyway I can if you just-”
She stops midsentence. My arms have apparently gained their own mind and have wrapped themselves around her.
Ha:“H-Hisao? Wh-what are you doing”
The comment is almost entirely lost on me. By the time she finishes saying it, my body is on autopilot; well either that or I’m just stopped caring. Her eyes open wide, deer caught in the headlights wide, as my body moves in and or lips connect. I can feel her pushing against my chest, not enough to actually move me or make me think my heart's in danger.
After what seems like a few minutes the arms drop, or that’s what I think happens. I can only feel the pressure stop on my chest and I can’t feel her hands anywhere else. At some point afterwards I release her, step back and open my eyes to a much fuzzier world. Some unbidden instinct tells me to drop to my knees, at the same time I can feel my body fill up with guilt.
Hi:“I’m sorry Hanako, really really...”
Right about then my vision goes black.
I notice one thing as I wake up, I’m definitely on my back, and it’s not how I remember being positioned when I blacked out. I keep my eyes shut for fear of seeing that ceiling again, that room. I can hear the familiar beep of the heart machine, no dripping of an IV tube though, that’s good. I can feel all my limbs too, that means no anesthetic. Okay, time for confirmation. Bland room, hospital curtains, it doesn't smell the same though. I right myself to get a better view.
Ha:“H-Hisao?”
Hanako’s head pokes through the curtain and she... what I’ll forgivingly call a hug. I can tell my heart’s speeding up, not just from the blood pounding in my veins, but from the steady beep turning into a rapid fire.
Nu:“Could you please refrain from agitating the patient Miss Ikezawa?”
The nurse’s voice makes Hanako snap upright. I’m torn between thanking the nurse from stopping a potential heart attack and wanting to punch him for stopping Hanako.
Ha:“I-I’m so sorry, I’ll be going...”
Hi:“Uh actually could you stay? I need to talk to you about uh...”
Nu:“There’s a chair in my office if you want to sit down. I just need to check a couple things.”
Ha:“O...okay.”
She shuffles out of the room, looking more worried than usual. I have to remember to apologize later.
Nu:“Nice girl, are you going out with her?”
Hi:“N-no, I-I mean not yet, er no that's... ugh”
Nu:“Complicated eh? Sorry for bringing it up. Bit of good news though: looks like it wasn’t a heart attack.”
Hi:“What happened then?”
Nu:“I believe you fainted.”
Hi:“Fainted? You’re kidding me.”
Nu:“What happened just before you blacked out?”
Hi:“Uh...just the one thing I can think of. You can’t tell anyone right doctor patient stuff right?”
Nu:“Within certain limits, yes.”
Hi:“Something uh... broke and I kissed Hanako.”
Nu:“Broke?”
Hi:“It was like my body started moving on its own.”
Nu:“Oh. One of those, not quite as bad as I thought. Though judging from a minute ago, that could’ve been dangerous if it went on for too long.”
Hi:“Dangerous... kissing a girl is dangerous? And what is one of those?”
Nu:“If we change your medication a bit I think I can make sure you don’t... or rather that she doesn’t accidently cause an episode if you go farther.”
Farther? After kissing her once I felt like I’ve committed a crime and he’s talking about doing that?! and what the hell is one of those?!
Nu:“Sorry, sorry. I guess guys your age don’t talk about that kind of thing yet huh?”
I don’t think guys your age are that open either.
Hi:“Could I talk to Hanako now?”
Cause I really don't want to hear whatever you're coming up with.
Nu:“Alright, I’ll make the changes to your prescription and you can pick them up tomorrow morning. Just try not to do anything to aggravate your heart.”
His smile as he walks out... there’s a couple feelings all crumpled up in me, anger, embarrassment, and the intense urge to do something stupid... again.
Ha:“Are you... okay?”
Hanako slips in and moves the closest chair over.
Hi:“Yeah, apparently I just fainted.”
Ha:“Fainted? F-from...”
Hi:“Uh yeah, I’m really sorry about that.”
Ha:“Sorry?”
Hi:“I’m not sure why I did that. I mean I can’t believe that.”
Ha:“Wh-why? D-do you regret-”
Alarm bells are ringing in my head, if I don’t find a way out of this now, Hanako’s going to hate me.
Hi:“No- I mean I don’t regret kissing you, I regret uh...”
Ha:“Wh-what do you regret?”
Hi:“Grabbing you like that, you tried to stop me and uh... I’m sorry.”
Not helping, I still feel horrible about it.
Ha:“Th-then why did you?”
Hi:“I don’t have a clue; it felt like I was watching a movie or something. I had zero control over my body.”
Ha:“Th-then you didn’t want to-”
More alarm bells, this has got to be one of the worst love confessions in history, right up there with the last one I was involved in.
Hi:“N-no, before that I was trying to-”
The words all bunch up in my throat, I can hear my pulse quicken slightly. I look around for a pad of paper. If I can’t say it maybe I can at least write... wow a written
confession, I really do sound like a criminal now.
Hi:“Could you get me a piece of paper?”
She gets up, takes a notebook and pen out of a bag sitting near my bed and hands them to me. I flip to an empty page an attempt to write it out. Five seconds later I
scratch it out and try again. I repeat this process several more times until the pages looks like random scribbling.
Nu:“Actually Hisao, I think I have everything I need here so I can give you the new stuff tonight- something wrong?”
Hi:“Damn it damn it damn it!”
He walks over, checks the instruments and takes a glance at my unreadable chicken scratch and appears to have a moment of inspiration.
Nu:“Hisao, I hope I’m not stepping outside my bounds but as a medical professional, but since this seems to be causing you physical problems I hope you’ll forgive me. Miss Ikezawa, It is of my opinion as a medical professional and as a man that this guy is in love with you.”
.... He didn’t just... he did.... the nurse just...WHAT THE HELL?!
My head falls back on the pillow, I can’t say anything, I can’t move. My entire body has gone limp from shock and I doubt Hanako is doing much better.
Nu:“Uh... I guess I’ll just let both of you sleep here tonight...”
I hear a thump on the bed down near my waist followed by mumbling that sounds a little like ‘he loves me’ repeated several times before I black out again.
A (Relatively) Bad Day
Dinner and Defeat
Emi's Ensalvement: CH1 CH2 CH3 CH4 CH5
Painful Choices: CH1 CH2 CH3 Lilly End Hanako End
A Demon's Visit: CH1 CH2 CH3
Flurries, a Flower, and crazy Females: CH1 CH2 CH3 CH4 CH5 CH6
Don't ask how I came up with this one, it's pretty much just a random thought that occurred to me while working on something else that I tried to write out.
#1 a (relatively) bad day
Ha:“L-Lilly do you want another cup of tea?”
Li:“No, I have to *beep* ah perfect timing, I’m having dinner with my sister.”
Hi:“Need us to do anything?”
Li:“Just make sure you clean up when you are ready to leave.”
Hi:“Got it, see you tomorrow, say hi to your sister for us.”
Li:“Play nice with each other now.”
She left without making a sound leaving Hanako and I to clean up.
Hi:“Anything you want to do?”
Ha:“N-not really.”
She turns around and begins cleaning the tea cups.
Okay Hisao do it now, the conditions are as good as they're going to get.
Hi:“Uh Hanako-”
Ha:“What is it?”
What comes out is a bunch of nonsense consisting of me stuttering, uh’s and er’s. Damn it man just say it!
Ha:“Is... is something wrong?”
She turns around which only causes me to shut my mouth. Not only is she now worried but she's giving me those eyes that have been turning my legs to mush for the past few weeks.
Ha:“If...if I can help-”
Hi:“No, don’t worry about it Hanako.”
I walk over to the corner and begin hitting my head against the wall. Why the hell can’t I just spit it out?!
Ha:“I-I’m sorry Hisao, b-but if it’s important enough for you to start hitting yourself... then I want to know.”
That’s the whole damned problem isn’t it? If I could say it I wouldn’t be trying to give myself a concussion.
Ha:“C-could you please at least stop trying to injure yourself.”
She manages to get me turned around and I get a close up view of her entire face. I’ve become used to the scarring awhile back ad it doesn’t even faze me anymore.
Unfortunately at about the same time I became really attracted to her, so I still end up averting my eyes so I didn’t turn into a blabbering idiot. This time however, I have no chance to do so, her eyes apparently have magnets embedded in them, every time I try to look away my entire body resists.
Ha:“I’ll... I’ll help anyway I can if you just-”
She stops midsentence. My arms have apparently gained their own mind and have wrapped themselves around her.
Ha:“H-Hisao? Wh-what are you doing”
The comment is almost entirely lost on me. By the time she finishes saying it, my body is on autopilot; well either that or I’m just stopped caring. Her eyes open wide, deer caught in the headlights wide, as my body moves in and or lips connect. I can feel her pushing against my chest, not enough to actually move me or make me think my heart's in danger.
After what seems like a few minutes the arms drop, or that’s what I think happens. I can only feel the pressure stop on my chest and I can’t feel her hands anywhere else. At some point afterwards I release her, step back and open my eyes to a much fuzzier world. Some unbidden instinct tells me to drop to my knees, at the same time I can feel my body fill up with guilt.
Hi:“I’m sorry Hanako, really really...”
Right about then my vision goes black.
I notice one thing as I wake up, I’m definitely on my back, and it’s not how I remember being positioned when I blacked out. I keep my eyes shut for fear of seeing that ceiling again, that room. I can hear the familiar beep of the heart machine, no dripping of an IV tube though, that’s good. I can feel all my limbs too, that means no anesthetic. Okay, time for confirmation. Bland room, hospital curtains, it doesn't smell the same though. I right myself to get a better view.
Ha:“H-Hisao?”
Hanako’s head pokes through the curtain and she... what I’ll forgivingly call a hug. I can tell my heart’s speeding up, not just from the blood pounding in my veins, but from the steady beep turning into a rapid fire.
Nu:“Could you please refrain from agitating the patient Miss Ikezawa?”
The nurse’s voice makes Hanako snap upright. I’m torn between thanking the nurse from stopping a potential heart attack and wanting to punch him for stopping Hanako.
Ha:“I-I’m so sorry, I’ll be going...”
Hi:“Uh actually could you stay? I need to talk to you about uh...”
Nu:“There’s a chair in my office if you want to sit down. I just need to check a couple things.”
Ha:“O...okay.”
She shuffles out of the room, looking more worried than usual. I have to remember to apologize later.
Nu:“Nice girl, are you going out with her?”
Hi:“N-no, I-I mean not yet, er no that's... ugh”
Nu:“Complicated eh? Sorry for bringing it up. Bit of good news though: looks like it wasn’t a heart attack.”
Hi:“What happened then?”
Nu:“I believe you fainted.”
Hi:“Fainted? You’re kidding me.”
Nu:“What happened just before you blacked out?”
Hi:“Uh...just the one thing I can think of. You can’t tell anyone right doctor patient stuff right?”
Nu:“Within certain limits, yes.”
Hi:“Something uh... broke and I kissed Hanako.”
Nu:“Broke?”
Hi:“It was like my body started moving on its own.”
Nu:“Oh. One of those, not quite as bad as I thought. Though judging from a minute ago, that could’ve been dangerous if it went on for too long.”
Hi:“Dangerous... kissing a girl is dangerous? And what is one of those?”
Nu:“If we change your medication a bit I think I can make sure you don’t... or rather that she doesn’t accidently cause an episode if you go farther.”
Farther? After kissing her once I felt like I’ve committed a crime and he’s talking about doing that?! and what the hell is one of those?!
Nu:“Sorry, sorry. I guess guys your age don’t talk about that kind of thing yet huh?”
I don’t think guys your age are that open either.
Hi:“Could I talk to Hanako now?”
Cause I really don't want to hear whatever you're coming up with.
Nu:“Alright, I’ll make the changes to your prescription and you can pick them up tomorrow morning. Just try not to do anything to aggravate your heart.”
His smile as he walks out... there’s a couple feelings all crumpled up in me, anger, embarrassment, and the intense urge to do something stupid... again.
Ha:“Are you... okay?”
Hanako slips in and moves the closest chair over.
Hi:“Yeah, apparently I just fainted.”
Ha:“Fainted? F-from...”
Hi:“Uh yeah, I’m really sorry about that.”
Ha:“Sorry?”
Hi:“I’m not sure why I did that. I mean I can’t believe that.”
Ha:“Wh-why? D-do you regret-”
Alarm bells are ringing in my head, if I don’t find a way out of this now, Hanako’s going to hate me.
Hi:“No- I mean I don’t regret kissing you, I regret uh...”
Ha:“Wh-what do you regret?”
Hi:“Grabbing you like that, you tried to stop me and uh... I’m sorry.”
Not helping, I still feel horrible about it.
Ha:“Th-then why did you?”
Hi:“I don’t have a clue; it felt like I was watching a movie or something. I had zero control over my body.”
Ha:“Th-then you didn’t want to-”
More alarm bells, this has got to be one of the worst love confessions in history, right up there with the last one I was involved in.
Hi:“N-no, before that I was trying to-”
The words all bunch up in my throat, I can hear my pulse quicken slightly. I look around for a pad of paper. If I can’t say it maybe I can at least write... wow a written
confession, I really do sound like a criminal now.
Hi:“Could you get me a piece of paper?”
She gets up, takes a notebook and pen out of a bag sitting near my bed and hands them to me. I flip to an empty page an attempt to write it out. Five seconds later I
scratch it out and try again. I repeat this process several more times until the pages looks like random scribbling.
Nu:“Actually Hisao, I think I have everything I need here so I can give you the new stuff tonight- something wrong?”
Hi:“Damn it damn it damn it!”
He walks over, checks the instruments and takes a glance at my unreadable chicken scratch and appears to have a moment of inspiration.
Nu:“Hisao, I hope I’m not stepping outside my bounds but as a medical professional, but since this seems to be causing you physical problems I hope you’ll forgive me. Miss Ikezawa, It is of my opinion as a medical professional and as a man that this guy is in love with you.”
.... He didn’t just... he did.... the nurse just...WHAT THE HELL?!
My head falls back on the pillow, I can’t say anything, I can’t move. My entire body has gone limp from shock and I doubt Hanako is doing much better.
Nu:“Uh... I guess I’ll just let both of you sleep here tonight...”
I hear a thump on the bed down near my waist followed by mumbling that sounds a little like ‘he loves me’ repeated several times before I black out again.