Forgetful [Updated: Remembrance]
Posted: Mon Aug 24, 2009 12:33 am
Something random I decided to write, I hope you enjoy.
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Everything's so monotonous, it's the same thing over and over again. "It's this, and that, and this, and that..." I say to myself in a slightly peeved manner as I toss random things to their respective areas, some just hitting the floor. The rattle of a bottle of pills rolling on the floor catches my ear, but I was too busy getting ready to investigate it. I brushed the bottle into the side of the dresser, causing it to ricochet off and hit the wall before rolling into the middle of the carpet. I shake my head for a few seconds, looks like I'm wearing bed head today, but I spot a brush so it ruins my plan. I give my hair a few strokes and make my way into another day.
Class again.
It's the same damn thing. Did I already say that? Now I'm getting predictable.
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Nothing seems to change, nothing seems to feel like everything's just running together like a series of crappy shows on those weekends where you have nothing to do. It seems like when I walk out of my bedroom, everything fast forwards to class simply because nothing of note manifests that whole several minutes on the way there. Nothing seems to seep more and more into my vocabulary - like some kind of cancer. I need some change, or else I'm going to go crazy. Could I try to stop taking my medicine? That would lighten things up again. Maybe I could see him again. He made things a lot more exciting... to say the least.
"I'd like to introduce a new student," I hear from the teacher, Mr. Muto as he brings in a boy. He doesn't seem to have any glaring indication that he has anything wrong with him, just like I do, it seems. Pity, I would've liked another female - I seem to get along better with them anyway. Wait, why the hell am I being picky? I rarely try to conversate with the people here anyway... for reasons that I myself cannot seem to understand. Am I that anti-social? I should make a goal to be more of a conversationist this school year.
"... I hope to get along with you all," I hear as my mental rambling made me miss the entire introduction, goddamnit.
"Well Hisao, you can work with Shizune and Misha, here's the assignment," Mr. Muto says as he hands Hisao the paper and Misha approaches him.
Oh, he's working with the Class Rep and her assistant. That's nice...
I continue to stare off into space towards Hisao's direction, "Something new..."
"...Kiyoshi? Snap out of it," I hear from my usual partner, Rui. Like every student here they have some kind of issue. Rui's issue was that her right eye was missing - covered up with an eyepatch. On top of that, her lower left leg was completely gone - replaced with a prosthetic piece that connected her to the remains of her calf up to her kneecap.
"Huh?" I say stupidly, I should've pretended like I was thinking about the assignment like I usually do.
"You know I need your help with this, so stop daydreaming and help!" she says scoldingly at me. All I could do was smile.
"We do have another person, you know. A team of three isn't just you and me..." I smile triumphantly, I managed to pull off a witty comment that rhymed.
Rui looked at me disapprovingly, "Yeah, but all he does is mumble to himself about a 'Geass' or whatever. He keeps writing the letter 'C' all over our papers whenever we ask him to help as well. Stop being so stubborn already," she says, crossing her arms.
I acquiesce to her demands and get to work. Not so surprisingly, we get done fairly quickly ahead of everyone else, besides the new guy Hisao's group, who finished a little bit before us. I have to say I'm intrigued.
Rui fidgeted in her desk, "Kiyoshi... umm..." she began. I turned my head from looking at Hisao's group to meet her eyes, "Hmm?" I inquire without much concern in my tone or body language.
"Are you interested in that guy Hisao..?" she almost seems nervous to even ask such an easy question.
"Yeah, I guess you could say that. He's pretty sharp, on top looking like there's nothing wrong with him."
Rui's eyes widened, turning away blushing, "I... I didn't think that you were like that..."
I immediately pick up on what she's talking about.
"Wait wait waaaait, not like that. I mean he seems like a cool guy I'd like to get to know."
"But you didn't even listen to his introduction."
"Yeah I did," I lied.
"What's his favorite sport?" Rui said, crossing her arms.
"... Well it seems that you're more observant than you look, Ms. Manase." Rui turned away from me with a 'Hmph', looks like she doesn't like me calling her by her last name. Does that mean she likes me addressing her like a friend? Wait, why the hell am I even thinking about our relationship?
Suddenly, the scream of the bell wakes my thought-ridden brain from purgatory and I rise to follow after Hisao. I hear Rui mutter something to me about lunch, but I didn't hear it.
I brush off my uniform and follow after HIsao. After a few brisk steps, I catch up with him,
"Hey, Hisao right?", I call out to him.
Hisao turned, looking at me without any glaring change in demeanor.
"That's right. You're in my class, aren't you?"
"Yeah, my name's Kiyoshi. Kiyoshi Hitayame. It's nice to meet you. It's been a while since we got a new student, so I just wanted to welcome you properly."
Hisao smiled, seems like he's warmed up to me.
"Likewise, Hisao Nakai's my full name - but you probably knew that from my embarrassing intro."
"To tell the truth, I was spacing out while deciding to be more social this year so I missed all of it," I said, rubbing the back of my head in shame while laughing weakly. Hisao laughed with me.
"Good, then I can start a clean slate with y--"
"Hicchan~!" I hear piercing the air behind me. I turn around and not much to my surprise, it's Misha in all of her energetic demeanor approaching us with Shizune tailing her.
"Oh, hey you two," Hisao says.
Shizune starts making handsigns.
"Hicchan, you wanna have lunch with us? Wahahahaha~!" Misha translated.
Shizune smiled expectantly at Hisao. Combined with Misha's pleading eyes, I could tell Hisao was deadlocked.
I smiled at Hisao, patting him on the shoulder, "I'll see you later, Hisao." Hisao looked at me with a somewhat troubled face, "Yeah... we'll talk later."
I walked off as Hisao was dragged away by Shizune and Misha off to lunch.
I don't know if I was even in any position of inviting some guy to talk at lunch - I was feeling extremely tired for some reason. Maybe this has something to do with that whole 'change' thing I wanted in my life. If change just makes me want to nap during lunch, then maybe change isn't the right word to be wishing on.
I left the campus and made my way over to the dorms. The nurses that I passed seemed to have an extremely cautious and remorseful look on their face whenever I looked at them. What's their deal? They must still be hung up on that accident Seems like my life getting more interesting could be more than I could handle for one day. Maybe I should just skip the rest of the day? I bet I could coerce one of the nurses into writing a note since they seem so afraid. I make my way into the boy's dorm and find my room. It was quiet, peaceful, much better than the school during lunch. I feel much heavier than usual, what's wrong with me? I sluggishly motion over towards my bed and fall into it. I left the door open but I don't mind - there's no one who would come looking for me--
I heard the door creak, and a soft voice whisper into the dim room,
"...Kiyoshi?"
It was Rui. Why the hell is she in the boy's dorm? Moreover, why the hell was she looking for me?!
"Rui? What the hell are you doing in the boy's dorm? Isn't there a rule against this or something?"
"Oh shut up, I just wanted to see if you were okay."
"That's very kind of you, mother," I throw back playfully.
Rui's face turned red, and she snapped back, "Well, fine! I guess if you're dying then don't expect me to lift a finger!"
What the hell is her problem? What's with all the aggression?
"There's no need to get mad, I was just joking."
Rui looked at me through the dim lighting with an "I'm going to kill you for calling me your mother" look on her face.
I chuckled nervously, trying to lift myself up from the bed. Slowly but surely, I rose from the bed and walked up to her. I was within arm's length of her when suddenly she shoved a box into my stomach, knocking the wind out of me.
"Gack! ... wait, what's this..?"
"You never seem to bring your own, and you don't buy lunch or anything."
Taking a closer look at it, it's a boxed lunch.
"Wait, why are you..."
"I tried to ask you if you wanted to have lunch with me, but you rushed off so I didn't get the chance."
This is strange, since the beginning of school, Rui and I haven't done anything together, not even lunch. Why start now? I looked up at Rui, her eye was shining a brilliant blue, coupled with her chestnut hair made her an attractive combination. I raised my eyebrow at the bombardment of thoughts that crossed my mind. Her lip quivered, finding something to say. I took hold of the box, causing her to flinch.
"Are you... okay?" I asked.
Rui started blushing even harder. She motioned closer towards me, closing the distance between us. She didn't make eye contact.
"I... I..." she stuttered.
I stood there, dumbfounded, what the hell was going on? I placed the box lunch on the desk conviently placed within arm's length.
"I mean... I..." she continued to have trouble speaking. Where'd this sudden change come from? Did she keep it inside for this long? I really am thick.
"I-I really tried hard on it... y-y... you better eat it all or I won't forgive you..." she muttered, looking up and me with a hypnotic gaze. I felt myself place my hands on her hips. She made a gasping sound, looking down on herself, "I umm.. I..."
My body was feeling abnormally fatigued, maybe I shouldn't have had that breakfast from that one guy. Never again will I purchase breakfast sandwiches from a corner.
"I promise I won't waste any o--"
Rui pressed her body against me, wrapping her arms around my waist. Her chest was soft, heaving into me, her breath was warm and inviting. "Sorry, I must be acting weird..." she said, placing her hand over her eyepatch as she pulled away from me. I smiled at her, "Don't worry about it, I'm feeling kind of weird today too."
The air around us started to feel oppressive. I felt like I needed to say something. But what? This is all very confusing. Rui backed away towards the door, "Well, I guess I should leave you to it, I'll see you back in class," she said as she walked back out and disappeared out of sight. I fell back on the bed, suddenly feeling a great relief as I close my eyes.
I sighed. What the hell was with Rui? Does she like me or something? Things really are changing. Hopefully it's for the better.
"Man, that was... dangerous," I say.
"... I'll say. It looks like she wanted you badly."
A voice answered my comment.
"... what?" I say as I open my eyes, that immediately locked onto the origin of the voice, the ceiling. There was a man laying on the ceiling in a suit with a hat.
"It's been a while," the man says, with his emerald eyes flashing in the darkness as he brushed his blond hair to the side.
Now I know why I was feeling weird. I remember throwing a bottle of pills on the ground this morning. I turn my head to the side to look at the bottle on the floor.
It was my medication.
"... Shit, I didn't take it this morning."
The man on the ceiling smirked.
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Everything's so monotonous, it's the same thing over and over again. "It's this, and that, and this, and that..." I say to myself in a slightly peeved manner as I toss random things to their respective areas, some just hitting the floor. The rattle of a bottle of pills rolling on the floor catches my ear, but I was too busy getting ready to investigate it. I brushed the bottle into the side of the dresser, causing it to ricochet off and hit the wall before rolling into the middle of the carpet. I shake my head for a few seconds, looks like I'm wearing bed head today, but I spot a brush so it ruins my plan. I give my hair a few strokes and make my way into another day.
Class again.
It's the same damn thing. Did I already say that? Now I'm getting predictable.
KnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledgeKnowledge.
Nothing seems to change, nothing seems to feel like everything's just running together like a series of crappy shows on those weekends where you have nothing to do. It seems like when I walk out of my bedroom, everything fast forwards to class simply because nothing of note manifests that whole several minutes on the way there. Nothing seems to seep more and more into my vocabulary - like some kind of cancer. I need some change, or else I'm going to go crazy. Could I try to stop taking my medicine? That would lighten things up again. Maybe I could see him again. He made things a lot more exciting... to say the least.
"I'd like to introduce a new student," I hear from the teacher, Mr. Muto as he brings in a boy. He doesn't seem to have any glaring indication that he has anything wrong with him, just like I do, it seems. Pity, I would've liked another female - I seem to get along better with them anyway. Wait, why the hell am I being picky? I rarely try to conversate with the people here anyway... for reasons that I myself cannot seem to understand. Am I that anti-social? I should make a goal to be more of a conversationist this school year.
"... I hope to get along with you all," I hear as my mental rambling made me miss the entire introduction, goddamnit.
"Well Hisao, you can work with Shizune and Misha, here's the assignment," Mr. Muto says as he hands Hisao the paper and Misha approaches him.
Oh, he's working with the Class Rep and her assistant. That's nice...
I continue to stare off into space towards Hisao's direction, "Something new..."
"...Kiyoshi? Snap out of it," I hear from my usual partner, Rui. Like every student here they have some kind of issue. Rui's issue was that her right eye was missing - covered up with an eyepatch. On top of that, her lower left leg was completely gone - replaced with a prosthetic piece that connected her to the remains of her calf up to her kneecap.
"Huh?" I say stupidly, I should've pretended like I was thinking about the assignment like I usually do.
"You know I need your help with this, so stop daydreaming and help!" she says scoldingly at me. All I could do was smile.
"We do have another person, you know. A team of three isn't just you and me..." I smile triumphantly, I managed to pull off a witty comment that rhymed.
Rui looked at me disapprovingly, "Yeah, but all he does is mumble to himself about a 'Geass' or whatever. He keeps writing the letter 'C' all over our papers whenever we ask him to help as well. Stop being so stubborn already," she says, crossing her arms.
I acquiesce to her demands and get to work. Not so surprisingly, we get done fairly quickly ahead of everyone else, besides the new guy Hisao's group, who finished a little bit before us. I have to say I'm intrigued.
Rui fidgeted in her desk, "Kiyoshi... umm..." she began. I turned my head from looking at Hisao's group to meet her eyes, "Hmm?" I inquire without much concern in my tone or body language.
"Are you interested in that guy Hisao..?" she almost seems nervous to even ask such an easy question.
"Yeah, I guess you could say that. He's pretty sharp, on top looking like there's nothing wrong with him."
Rui's eyes widened, turning away blushing, "I... I didn't think that you were like that..."
I immediately pick up on what she's talking about.
"Wait wait waaaait, not like that. I mean he seems like a cool guy I'd like to get to know."
"But you didn't even listen to his introduction."
"Yeah I did," I lied.
"What's his favorite sport?" Rui said, crossing her arms.
"... Well it seems that you're more observant than you look, Ms. Manase." Rui turned away from me with a 'Hmph', looks like she doesn't like me calling her by her last name. Does that mean she likes me addressing her like a friend? Wait, why the hell am I even thinking about our relationship?
Suddenly, the scream of the bell wakes my thought-ridden brain from purgatory and I rise to follow after Hisao. I hear Rui mutter something to me about lunch, but I didn't hear it.
I brush off my uniform and follow after HIsao. After a few brisk steps, I catch up with him,
"Hey, Hisao right?", I call out to him.
Hisao turned, looking at me without any glaring change in demeanor.
"That's right. You're in my class, aren't you?"
"Yeah, my name's Kiyoshi. Kiyoshi Hitayame. It's nice to meet you. It's been a while since we got a new student, so I just wanted to welcome you properly."
Hisao smiled, seems like he's warmed up to me.
"Likewise, Hisao Nakai's my full name - but you probably knew that from my embarrassing intro."
"To tell the truth, I was spacing out while deciding to be more social this year so I missed all of it," I said, rubbing the back of my head in shame while laughing weakly. Hisao laughed with me.
"Good, then I can start a clean slate with y--"
"Hicchan~!" I hear piercing the air behind me. I turn around and not much to my surprise, it's Misha in all of her energetic demeanor approaching us with Shizune tailing her.
"Oh, hey you two," Hisao says.
Shizune starts making handsigns.
"Hicchan, you wanna have lunch with us? Wahahahaha~!" Misha translated.
Shizune smiled expectantly at Hisao. Combined with Misha's pleading eyes, I could tell Hisao was deadlocked.
I smiled at Hisao, patting him on the shoulder, "I'll see you later, Hisao." Hisao looked at me with a somewhat troubled face, "Yeah... we'll talk later."
I walked off as Hisao was dragged away by Shizune and Misha off to lunch.
I don't know if I was even in any position of inviting some guy to talk at lunch - I was feeling extremely tired for some reason. Maybe this has something to do with that whole 'change' thing I wanted in my life. If change just makes me want to nap during lunch, then maybe change isn't the right word to be wishing on.
I left the campus and made my way over to the dorms. The nurses that I passed seemed to have an extremely cautious and remorseful look on their face whenever I looked at them. What's their deal? They must still be hung up on that accident Seems like my life getting more interesting could be more than I could handle for one day. Maybe I should just skip the rest of the day? I bet I could coerce one of the nurses into writing a note since they seem so afraid. I make my way into the boy's dorm and find my room. It was quiet, peaceful, much better than the school during lunch. I feel much heavier than usual, what's wrong with me? I sluggishly motion over towards my bed and fall into it. I left the door open but I don't mind - there's no one who would come looking for me--
I heard the door creak, and a soft voice whisper into the dim room,
"...Kiyoshi?"
It was Rui. Why the hell is she in the boy's dorm? Moreover, why the hell was she looking for me?!
"Rui? What the hell are you doing in the boy's dorm? Isn't there a rule against this or something?"
"Oh shut up, I just wanted to see if you were okay."
"That's very kind of you, mother," I throw back playfully.
Rui's face turned red, and she snapped back, "Well, fine! I guess if you're dying then don't expect me to lift a finger!"
What the hell is her problem? What's with all the aggression?
"There's no need to get mad, I was just joking."
Rui looked at me through the dim lighting with an "I'm going to kill you for calling me your mother" look on her face.
I chuckled nervously, trying to lift myself up from the bed. Slowly but surely, I rose from the bed and walked up to her. I was within arm's length of her when suddenly she shoved a box into my stomach, knocking the wind out of me.
"Gack! ... wait, what's this..?"
"You never seem to bring your own, and you don't buy lunch or anything."
Taking a closer look at it, it's a boxed lunch.
"Wait, why are you..."
"I tried to ask you if you wanted to have lunch with me, but you rushed off so I didn't get the chance."
This is strange, since the beginning of school, Rui and I haven't done anything together, not even lunch. Why start now? I looked up at Rui, her eye was shining a brilliant blue, coupled with her chestnut hair made her an attractive combination. I raised my eyebrow at the bombardment of thoughts that crossed my mind. Her lip quivered, finding something to say. I took hold of the box, causing her to flinch.
"Are you... okay?" I asked.
Rui started blushing even harder. She motioned closer towards me, closing the distance between us. She didn't make eye contact.
"I... I..." she stuttered.
I stood there, dumbfounded, what the hell was going on? I placed the box lunch on the desk conviently placed within arm's length.
"I mean... I..." she continued to have trouble speaking. Where'd this sudden change come from? Did she keep it inside for this long? I really am thick.
"I-I really tried hard on it... y-y... you better eat it all or I won't forgive you..." she muttered, looking up and me with a hypnotic gaze. I felt myself place my hands on her hips. She made a gasping sound, looking down on herself, "I umm.. I..."
My body was feeling abnormally fatigued, maybe I shouldn't have had that breakfast from that one guy. Never again will I purchase breakfast sandwiches from a corner.
"I promise I won't waste any o--"
Rui pressed her body against me, wrapping her arms around my waist. Her chest was soft, heaving into me, her breath was warm and inviting. "Sorry, I must be acting weird..." she said, placing her hand over her eyepatch as she pulled away from me. I smiled at her, "Don't worry about it, I'm feeling kind of weird today too."
The air around us started to feel oppressive. I felt like I needed to say something. But what? This is all very confusing. Rui backed away towards the door, "Well, I guess I should leave you to it, I'll see you back in class," she said as she walked back out and disappeared out of sight. I fell back on the bed, suddenly feeling a great relief as I close my eyes.
I sighed. What the hell was with Rui? Does she like me or something? Things really are changing. Hopefully it's for the better.
"Man, that was... dangerous," I say.
"... I'll say. It looks like she wanted you badly."
A voice answered my comment.
"... what?" I say as I open my eyes, that immediately locked onto the origin of the voice, the ceiling. There was a man laying on the ceiling in a suit with a hat.
"It's been a while," the man says, with his emerald eyes flashing in the darkness as he brushed his blond hair to the side.
Now I know why I was feeling weird. I remember throwing a bottle of pills on the ground this morning. I turn my head to the side to look at the bottle on the floor.
It was my medication.
"... Shit, I didn't take it this morning."
The man on the ceiling smirked.