Closing the distance // A Rin Fic (Part 2)
Posted: Wed Oct 17, 2018 7:49 am
Just finished re-reading Rin's route. I think there should be more, so I'm making some more. Rin is quite hard to write, so constructive criticism would be appreciated. Remember that it's bad luck to comment on art in progress. Maybe the risk is acceptable to you.
More parts to come.
Part 1 (This post)
Part 2
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It’s strange.
Usually I’d spend my free time reading. Immersing myself in a different world. More recently I’ve taken to using my short bursts of free time to practice.
Another line here. A stroke there. A picture forms. A simple one, sure, but passable. It’s my first time using two point perspective like this.
The train rumbles slightly as it passes over a small bump. I briefly cast my eyes out of the cabin, but the sky is dark. Small pinpoints of light poke from the black, but it’s not enough to really see anything beyond dark amorphous shapes speeding by me.
Luckily the train is almost empty besides the couple sat behind me, chatting idly about what they’re going to do when we arrive. I add another line carefully. Ballpoints aren’t ideal for this kind of work, but it’s all I have with me.
I briefly worry. I’ve left Rin in the care of Miki and Suzu from my class since both Emi and I are returning home for the break. I hope nothing has gone wrong yet.
I’m only going to be home for a week or so, hopefully that’s a short enough time span that I can get back before they’re driven mad.
I shake my head, banishing the thoughts as the train pulls into the station. Bright lights shine into the carriage from the city despite the hour. It’s a good thing whoever invented curtains did that, otherwise it’d be hell living in a city like this.
I gather my bags, brace against the cold and leave the train. Luckily my destination isn’t too far from the station, so within fifteen minutes or so I’m stood on a familiar road, looking at a familiar house.
Yet it seems foreign.
Slightly foreign, anyway. Not enough to stop me from knocking, and letting myself in when nobody answers.
“I’m home.”
I call into the house. There’s no response. Walking into the front room, I see my mother, asleep and wrapped up in a blanket on the sofa, the TV still blaring to nobody.
I guess she must have tried to stay up after work to welcome me back. To be honest I’m surprised there’s no party arranged, she sounded pretty excited when I said I’d be coming back for a bit.
Sound stirs in the kitchen, and I wander over to investigate. Staring into the fridge is my father. He casts his eyes over to me, then back to the fridge, then double takes.
“Ah, Hisao.”
“Hi, dad.”
He stands up straight and closes the fridge with a thump. A few steps later and he’s wrapped his arms around me tightly. At least for a split second, before his grip loosens a little.
“Great to have you back.”
“Good to be back.”
After a few minutes, drinks have been made and mum has been woken. Predictably, she freaks out, both angry at dad for not keeping her up and excited to see me back. The next hour or so is spent chit chatting about the past few months, and everything that’s happened with me.
My seemingly random choice to join the art club. My friendship with Rin and Emi. The art exhibition. Of course I remove some of the stuff I’d rather my parents not know about; the smoking, sex and one sided shouting match I’d had with Rin.
Of course, my strange course towards art interests them. I show off some of my better works. They’re still nowhere near Rin, or really anyone else from the art club that makes an effort, but they’re still the best I can do. Two or three sheets of paper are added to the gallery on the fridge.
After I run the story of my past few months dry, we agree that it’s well past the time for bed and agree to speak more after they finish work tomorrow.
I step into my room, and feel weird. It’s exactly as I left it last I was here, as if nobody had entered this room since I last did. Yet here I stand, a completely different person. Would I put up these posters now? Would I choose this colour for the walls? These decorations?
I shrug to myself, and fall into this bed for the first time in a long while.
---
I swing open the door and step inside. The familiar smell of art; paints and paper fill my nose. I have some pens with me from Yamaku, but apparently all the lounging I’ve been doing the past few days has worked up an appetite for watercolours.
The small shop is arranged logically, a section dedicated to each medium, housing everything you’d need to create something. Upon taking in all the tools before me, I realise that I kind of don’t know what I need.
There’s a whole assortment of brushes, paints and papers. At Yamaku I just grabbed whatever was there, or used whatever somebody got for me. I didn’t even know paper thickness was a thing that made a difference at all, yet here I am comparing two sheets of paper to one another and trying to decide what’s better.
Eventually I decide, going for whatever seems closest to what I’ve used in the past. My total makes me wince just a little, I hadn’t realised paints could be so expensive. Either way, my stuff is placed in a bag and handed to me in exchange for a few notes, and I turn to leave the shop.
I’m stopped in my tracks when I bump into somebody as I turn.
“Ah, sorry about that.”
My apology is polite and mechanical as I’m mostly focused on my heartbeat. Sounds fine? Whoever I bumped into hasn’t responded yet. I turn my attention to the situation at hand now I’m sure I’m not going to drop dead.
Long black hair falls from underneath a cap, framing a face that I can only describe as shocked. More shocked than should be normal for bumping into someone in a cramped art store.
“Hisao?”
“Iwanako?”
A second of silence passes.
“How are you?” I’m the first to speak.
“I’m… I’m okay!” She hesitates to respond. Her eyes trace my figure, as if to confirm I’m really stood in front of her.
“I didn’t recognise you.” She chuckles awkwardly, her eyes now fixed on a shelf stocked with oil paints to my left.
Another second of silence passes. This one is much more awkward.
“So what brings you to the art shop? I didn’t think you were that arty.”
“I’m not, really. My sister needed some pens.” She laughs again, but it’s not sincere.
Silence falls again. My brain automatically calls up the last time I saw Iwanako in the hospital. It’s a painful memory filled with what-if’s and if-only’s.
“Well hey, since we’re both in town, want to grab a coffee?” My brain surprises me and rushes the words past my mouth before I can really think about them. She squirms in place for a few seconds, clearly unsure about her answer.
“It’s-It’s cool if you’re busy, I just thought…” I grasp at anything to pull me out of this situation. Thanks brain, look what you did.
Surprisingly, though, she accepts. A determined nod of her head cuts through the awkwardness that was building.
“That’d be nice, I think.”
---
“So what did you get?” She asks, motioning to the bag of supplies sat on the table.
“Just some watercolour stuff.” I sip at my coffee.
Basic smalltalk. The path one must take to reach the more interesting points of conversation.
“What for?”
“Painting watercolour paintings?”
Her mouth pulls up into a small but strained smile.
“I didn’t know you were the kind of person to do art.”
“I wasn’t. I joined the art club at Yamaku on a whim.”
“Well it’s good that you found something that you enjoy.”
I nod. It is good.
“How about you? Still in the literature club?”
She nods. Luckily we’ve found common ground, and share some thoughts on some books we’ve both read. It’s still pretty awkward, there’s a pretty big elephant in the room.
“Did you get my letter? To be honest I wasn’t expecting one from you.”
“I did. It was good to know that you settled in okay.”
“While we’re on the topic, I guess I should apologise.”
She seems confused, but doesn’t stop me.
“Sorry about everything that happened. I know it couldn’t have been easy for you, how I acted in the hospital.”
Her face tightens as she purses her lips, an expression of sadness crossing her face.
“You don’t have to apologise for that…”
“But I want to.”
She’s stunned for a moment.
“I had a lot of time to think about it, and I like to think that I’ve changed since then. Hopefully you’ll accept my apology.”
“You have changed. I didn’t recognise you in the art store because of that, I think.”
I raise an eyebrow.
“When I last saw you… Well you’re completely different now. Like you’ve got purpose now.”
“You’ve put on a bit of weight, too.” She jokes, puffing out her cheeks.
“Well I’ve been eating Emi sized lunches.” I shake my head. The awkwardness has been dispelled, along with the elephant. The rest of our chat is much more natural. I share stories of Emi and Rin, while she shares stories of my old friends and what they’ve been up to.
She’s a little uncomfortable when I speak about the things that I’ve become accustomed to, a runner without legs, a painter with no arms, but that fact we’re talking about it at all is amazing when you think about what happened between us.
Our conversation is interrupted when Iwanako’s phone alerts her that somebody else needs her attention. We say our goodbyes and part ways, and I’d be lying if I said I’m not happy. Glad that Iwanako recovered like I did, glad that that part of my life is truly put to rest.
---
“Hello.”
“Hi, Rin.”
The familiar art classroom surrounds me, the old battered desks have been pushed to the side, presumably to make more space for the chaos in the center of the room. Rin is in the center of a large circle of paints, easels and brushes. She’s covered in familiar splashes of paint.
“How was your week?”
“Adequate. Miki isn’t very good at putting bras onto other people.”
I feel like I could have done without that piece of information, but whatever. She places her brush down and faces me, her eyes scanning my figure.
“Do you wear a lot of sweater vests?” Her mouth pulls into a slight smile.
“I guess so?” I had forgotten I wasn’t wearing my uniform. She seems to find it somewhat funny that I do. “What’s wrong with sweater vests?”
She shrugs.
“Have you been painting all week?”
“Yes. And no. I slept and ate, too.”
I breath a silent sigh of relief. With nothing to add, I walk over to Rin and take a look at the painting she’s working on. Rather than the frenetic, schizophrenic abstract style she usually uses, it’s much more classical.
There are still clear signs that this is a Tezuka original, as the buildings lining the road bulge and bend, their walls coloured with harsh oranges and yellows. That said, it’s incredible that I can even tell that this is a road with buildings lining it knowing Rin’s usual style.
It’s strange that Rin would paint something so classical. I mean, it’s still very abstract, but for Rin this is much too… normal. Rin watches impassively as my brain churns up the painting in front of me.
“Why the change in style?” I already know I’m not going to be able to figure out what’s going on in her head by just thinking about it, we already did that once.
“I was wondering that too.” She tilts her head, analysing the painting.
“I think I was wondering yesterday, too. If I could do it.”
“If you could paint more normal things?”
“Yes.” Her eyes are locked on the painting.
“Well it’s definitely much more normal than your usual work. I can tell what it is.”
“That’s not good. Or maybe it is.” She frowns, her eyebrows furrowing ever so slightly.
“Well the goal was to see if you could paint in a different style. I think you accomplished it.”
Her impassive eyes pause for a moment, as though she hadn’t realised that until I said it.
“You’re right. I think. Also, bad luck.” Her mouth pulls up into a small smile.
“I was commenting on you, not the painting.”
She pauses again, surely thousands of thoughts running through her head.
“Still bad luck.”
“How come?”
“Me from yesterday is different to me now, like this painting was different yesterday. In progress.”
“I see.” This, surprisingly, makes some sense. I guess it’s a good thing that I can pull some sense out of some of the things Rin says, or maybe it just means I’m descending into madness. Either way, I’m hungry from the travelling.
“Have you eaten today?” I ask, and she pauses, giving her answer a lot of thought.
“Yes, but I can again.”
“I’d like to.”
“Great.” With that, Rin stands from her seat, slips on her sandals and follows me out of the art room. The cafeteria isn’t running over the break, so I guess we’ll have to go elsewhere. Vending machine food is an option, I’m sure Rin wouldn’t complain, but I’m feeling like having something nice.
“Is the Shanghai okay with you?”
“Sure.”
---
“Welcome!” Yuuko greets us as we enter. The Shanghai is mostly deserted, only a few idle conversations can be heard.
“Hello.” “Hi, Yuuko. Table for two, please.”
We’re quickly directed to a window seat, where Rin and I seat ourselves in the light of the soon to set sun. The familiar smell of the Shanghai is nice, a reminder that I’m truly back at Yamaku. I’ve only been here once with Rin, but she didn’t seem to dislike it. Yuuko returns shortly to take our orders.
“Coffee and a sandwich for me, please.”
“Chocolate milk. And a straw, please.”
Luckily Yuuko is prepared for this request after the last time we were here, and rockets off to prepare our order. We both sit in silence for a few moments, simply staring out of the window at the orange streets. Rin is first to break the comfortable silence.
“How was home?” I’m a little startled by such a frank question from her, but more than happy to answer.
“It was good, relaxing. I met an old… friend, too.” Rin simply raises an eyebrow.
“Someone I knew before I had my accident.”
“Are they still the same?” Her eyebrow stays raised.
“No, they’ve changed since then.” Rin doesn’t respond. In fact she takes quite a while to respond.
“You’re smiling.”
“Huh?” I instantly become self conscious.
“You’re smiling.” Rin’s expression doesn’t really tell me what she means by pointing this out, but the fact she noticed must mean something.
“I guess I am.”
“That’s good. Smiles are good. Like when Emi eats lunch.” She says this with a small smile of her own.
More parts to come.
Part 1 (This post)
Part 2
---
It’s strange.
Usually I’d spend my free time reading. Immersing myself in a different world. More recently I’ve taken to using my short bursts of free time to practice.
Another line here. A stroke there. A picture forms. A simple one, sure, but passable. It’s my first time using two point perspective like this.
The train rumbles slightly as it passes over a small bump. I briefly cast my eyes out of the cabin, but the sky is dark. Small pinpoints of light poke from the black, but it’s not enough to really see anything beyond dark amorphous shapes speeding by me.
Luckily the train is almost empty besides the couple sat behind me, chatting idly about what they’re going to do when we arrive. I add another line carefully. Ballpoints aren’t ideal for this kind of work, but it’s all I have with me.
I briefly worry. I’ve left Rin in the care of Miki and Suzu from my class since both Emi and I are returning home for the break. I hope nothing has gone wrong yet.
I’m only going to be home for a week or so, hopefully that’s a short enough time span that I can get back before they’re driven mad.
I shake my head, banishing the thoughts as the train pulls into the station. Bright lights shine into the carriage from the city despite the hour. It’s a good thing whoever invented curtains did that, otherwise it’d be hell living in a city like this.
I gather my bags, brace against the cold and leave the train. Luckily my destination isn’t too far from the station, so within fifteen minutes or so I’m stood on a familiar road, looking at a familiar house.
Yet it seems foreign.
Slightly foreign, anyway. Not enough to stop me from knocking, and letting myself in when nobody answers.
“I’m home.”
I call into the house. There’s no response. Walking into the front room, I see my mother, asleep and wrapped up in a blanket on the sofa, the TV still blaring to nobody.
I guess she must have tried to stay up after work to welcome me back. To be honest I’m surprised there’s no party arranged, she sounded pretty excited when I said I’d be coming back for a bit.
Sound stirs in the kitchen, and I wander over to investigate. Staring into the fridge is my father. He casts his eyes over to me, then back to the fridge, then double takes.
“Ah, Hisao.”
“Hi, dad.”
He stands up straight and closes the fridge with a thump. A few steps later and he’s wrapped his arms around me tightly. At least for a split second, before his grip loosens a little.
“Great to have you back.”
“Good to be back.”
After a few minutes, drinks have been made and mum has been woken. Predictably, she freaks out, both angry at dad for not keeping her up and excited to see me back. The next hour or so is spent chit chatting about the past few months, and everything that’s happened with me.
My seemingly random choice to join the art club. My friendship with Rin and Emi. The art exhibition. Of course I remove some of the stuff I’d rather my parents not know about; the smoking, sex and one sided shouting match I’d had with Rin.
Of course, my strange course towards art interests them. I show off some of my better works. They’re still nowhere near Rin, or really anyone else from the art club that makes an effort, but they’re still the best I can do. Two or three sheets of paper are added to the gallery on the fridge.
After I run the story of my past few months dry, we agree that it’s well past the time for bed and agree to speak more after they finish work tomorrow.
I step into my room, and feel weird. It’s exactly as I left it last I was here, as if nobody had entered this room since I last did. Yet here I stand, a completely different person. Would I put up these posters now? Would I choose this colour for the walls? These decorations?
I shrug to myself, and fall into this bed for the first time in a long while.
---
I swing open the door and step inside. The familiar smell of art; paints and paper fill my nose. I have some pens with me from Yamaku, but apparently all the lounging I’ve been doing the past few days has worked up an appetite for watercolours.
The small shop is arranged logically, a section dedicated to each medium, housing everything you’d need to create something. Upon taking in all the tools before me, I realise that I kind of don’t know what I need.
There’s a whole assortment of brushes, paints and papers. At Yamaku I just grabbed whatever was there, or used whatever somebody got for me. I didn’t even know paper thickness was a thing that made a difference at all, yet here I am comparing two sheets of paper to one another and trying to decide what’s better.
Eventually I decide, going for whatever seems closest to what I’ve used in the past. My total makes me wince just a little, I hadn’t realised paints could be so expensive. Either way, my stuff is placed in a bag and handed to me in exchange for a few notes, and I turn to leave the shop.
I’m stopped in my tracks when I bump into somebody as I turn.
“Ah, sorry about that.”
My apology is polite and mechanical as I’m mostly focused on my heartbeat. Sounds fine? Whoever I bumped into hasn’t responded yet. I turn my attention to the situation at hand now I’m sure I’m not going to drop dead.
Long black hair falls from underneath a cap, framing a face that I can only describe as shocked. More shocked than should be normal for bumping into someone in a cramped art store.
“Hisao?”
“Iwanako?”
A second of silence passes.
“How are you?” I’m the first to speak.
“I’m… I’m okay!” She hesitates to respond. Her eyes trace my figure, as if to confirm I’m really stood in front of her.
“I didn’t recognise you.” She chuckles awkwardly, her eyes now fixed on a shelf stocked with oil paints to my left.
Another second of silence passes. This one is much more awkward.
“So what brings you to the art shop? I didn’t think you were that arty.”
“I’m not, really. My sister needed some pens.” She laughs again, but it’s not sincere.
Silence falls again. My brain automatically calls up the last time I saw Iwanako in the hospital. It’s a painful memory filled with what-if’s and if-only’s.
“Well hey, since we’re both in town, want to grab a coffee?” My brain surprises me and rushes the words past my mouth before I can really think about them. She squirms in place for a few seconds, clearly unsure about her answer.
“It’s-It’s cool if you’re busy, I just thought…” I grasp at anything to pull me out of this situation. Thanks brain, look what you did.
Surprisingly, though, she accepts. A determined nod of her head cuts through the awkwardness that was building.
“That’d be nice, I think.”
---
“So what did you get?” She asks, motioning to the bag of supplies sat on the table.
“Just some watercolour stuff.” I sip at my coffee.
Basic smalltalk. The path one must take to reach the more interesting points of conversation.
“What for?”
“Painting watercolour paintings?”
Her mouth pulls up into a small but strained smile.
“I didn’t know you were the kind of person to do art.”
“I wasn’t. I joined the art club at Yamaku on a whim.”
“Well it’s good that you found something that you enjoy.”
I nod. It is good.
“How about you? Still in the literature club?”
She nods. Luckily we’ve found common ground, and share some thoughts on some books we’ve both read. It’s still pretty awkward, there’s a pretty big elephant in the room.
“Did you get my letter? To be honest I wasn’t expecting one from you.”
“I did. It was good to know that you settled in okay.”
“While we’re on the topic, I guess I should apologise.”
She seems confused, but doesn’t stop me.
“Sorry about everything that happened. I know it couldn’t have been easy for you, how I acted in the hospital.”
Her face tightens as she purses her lips, an expression of sadness crossing her face.
“You don’t have to apologise for that…”
“But I want to.”
She’s stunned for a moment.
“I had a lot of time to think about it, and I like to think that I’ve changed since then. Hopefully you’ll accept my apology.”
“You have changed. I didn’t recognise you in the art store because of that, I think.”
I raise an eyebrow.
“When I last saw you… Well you’re completely different now. Like you’ve got purpose now.”
“You’ve put on a bit of weight, too.” She jokes, puffing out her cheeks.
“Well I’ve been eating Emi sized lunches.” I shake my head. The awkwardness has been dispelled, along with the elephant. The rest of our chat is much more natural. I share stories of Emi and Rin, while she shares stories of my old friends and what they’ve been up to.
She’s a little uncomfortable when I speak about the things that I’ve become accustomed to, a runner without legs, a painter with no arms, but that fact we’re talking about it at all is amazing when you think about what happened between us.
Our conversation is interrupted when Iwanako’s phone alerts her that somebody else needs her attention. We say our goodbyes and part ways, and I’d be lying if I said I’m not happy. Glad that Iwanako recovered like I did, glad that that part of my life is truly put to rest.
---
“Hello.”
“Hi, Rin.”
The familiar art classroom surrounds me, the old battered desks have been pushed to the side, presumably to make more space for the chaos in the center of the room. Rin is in the center of a large circle of paints, easels and brushes. She’s covered in familiar splashes of paint.
“How was your week?”
“Adequate. Miki isn’t very good at putting bras onto other people.”
I feel like I could have done without that piece of information, but whatever. She places her brush down and faces me, her eyes scanning my figure.
“Do you wear a lot of sweater vests?” Her mouth pulls into a slight smile.
“I guess so?” I had forgotten I wasn’t wearing my uniform. She seems to find it somewhat funny that I do. “What’s wrong with sweater vests?”
She shrugs.
“Have you been painting all week?”
“Yes. And no. I slept and ate, too.”
I breath a silent sigh of relief. With nothing to add, I walk over to Rin and take a look at the painting she’s working on. Rather than the frenetic, schizophrenic abstract style she usually uses, it’s much more classical.
There are still clear signs that this is a Tezuka original, as the buildings lining the road bulge and bend, their walls coloured with harsh oranges and yellows. That said, it’s incredible that I can even tell that this is a road with buildings lining it knowing Rin’s usual style.
It’s strange that Rin would paint something so classical. I mean, it’s still very abstract, but for Rin this is much too… normal. Rin watches impassively as my brain churns up the painting in front of me.
“Why the change in style?” I already know I’m not going to be able to figure out what’s going on in her head by just thinking about it, we already did that once.
“I was wondering that too.” She tilts her head, analysing the painting.
“I think I was wondering yesterday, too. If I could do it.”
“If you could paint more normal things?”
“Yes.” Her eyes are locked on the painting.
“Well it’s definitely much more normal than your usual work. I can tell what it is.”
“That’s not good. Or maybe it is.” She frowns, her eyebrows furrowing ever so slightly.
“Well the goal was to see if you could paint in a different style. I think you accomplished it.”
Her impassive eyes pause for a moment, as though she hadn’t realised that until I said it.
“You’re right. I think. Also, bad luck.” Her mouth pulls up into a small smile.
“I was commenting on you, not the painting.”
She pauses again, surely thousands of thoughts running through her head.
“Still bad luck.”
“How come?”
“Me from yesterday is different to me now, like this painting was different yesterday. In progress.”
“I see.” This, surprisingly, makes some sense. I guess it’s a good thing that I can pull some sense out of some of the things Rin says, or maybe it just means I’m descending into madness. Either way, I’m hungry from the travelling.
“Have you eaten today?” I ask, and she pauses, giving her answer a lot of thought.
“Yes, but I can again.”
“I’d like to.”
“Great.” With that, Rin stands from her seat, slips on her sandals and follows me out of the art room. The cafeteria isn’t running over the break, so I guess we’ll have to go elsewhere. Vending machine food is an option, I’m sure Rin wouldn’t complain, but I’m feeling like having something nice.
“Is the Shanghai okay with you?”
“Sure.”
---
“Welcome!” Yuuko greets us as we enter. The Shanghai is mostly deserted, only a few idle conversations can be heard.
“Hello.” “Hi, Yuuko. Table for two, please.”
We’re quickly directed to a window seat, where Rin and I seat ourselves in the light of the soon to set sun. The familiar smell of the Shanghai is nice, a reminder that I’m truly back at Yamaku. I’ve only been here once with Rin, but she didn’t seem to dislike it. Yuuko returns shortly to take our orders.
“Coffee and a sandwich for me, please.”
“Chocolate milk. And a straw, please.”
Luckily Yuuko is prepared for this request after the last time we were here, and rockets off to prepare our order. We both sit in silence for a few moments, simply staring out of the window at the orange streets. Rin is first to break the comfortable silence.
“How was home?” I’m a little startled by such a frank question from her, but more than happy to answer.
“It was good, relaxing. I met an old… friend, too.” Rin simply raises an eyebrow.
“Someone I knew before I had my accident.”
“Are they still the same?” Her eyebrow stays raised.
“No, they’ve changed since then.” Rin doesn’t respond. In fact she takes quite a while to respond.
“You’re smiling.”
“Huh?” I instantly become self conscious.
“You’re smiling.” Rin’s expression doesn’t really tell me what she means by pointing this out, but the fact she noticed must mean something.
“I guess I am.”
“That’s good. Smiles are good. Like when Emi eats lunch.” She says this with a small smile of her own.