Xanatos wrote:FeroxAnima wrote:Dream wrote:Same here. I don't really trust my family, so that's part of the reason why i don't tell them. I have no friends either.
Rather similar to my situation, I suppose.
KS is really special for me (like it is for many people around here), and my friends and family are the kind who wouldn't really give it a chance, nor let the fact that I do slide.
Simply put, I don't trust them. I'm afraid they'll... ruin it for me, somehow. And I don't want to risk that.
I've been spending a pretty long while thinking how to phrase this, but I just can't find the right words.
I hope you some of you can relate and thus understand what I mean
If I'm understanding this, your basic point is "My family are dicks".
LOL, that's a way to put it XD
Nah, seriously though, my family are (relatively XD) fine.
Wow, I'm finding it amazingly hard to put this into words.
I've already written and deleted this like 5 times, each time with a bunch of extra lines when compared to the time before it xP
I'll try to summarize some of it:
It all comes down to their conceptual fixation (best term I could find for this in English; I hope it works).
They won't even try to understand your opinion if it differs from theirs; they'll simply rule it out.
This leads to them seeing things I see as very important as lesser, and even when I do tell them how important they are to me, they basically dismiss it.
It's amazingly frustrating.
The reason I really don't think it'd fair of me to call any of them dicks, is that they do it completely unconsciously.
I tried to talk to my mom about this, just asked her to let me tell her how I feel... but I can't have any sort of deep conversation with her (because deep conversation often includes philosophies, which include opinions, which include contradicting opinions - which leads to fights with her. It always gets to the point where she says "shut up" - and the conversation is just... over).
So even if I tell them what KS means to me, they won't understand, which is fine. But what's
not fine is that they won't actually
try to understand. They won't respect my feelings because they don't feel them theirselves.
And so I'll reveal to them a certain vulnerable spot of myself and they, thinking it's not as personal as it is, will jokingly mock it and
my feelings in a way that goes kind of badly with my heavy confidence issues.
I totally failed to explain it, sorry.
I can barely put it into words in my native language, and it's even harder in English.
