Hanako's Broken Heart Club

[Hadokant]

@Beoran: Honestly i just wish it was just a nightmare that i could awake from. I still try to slap myself sometimes. I would be lieing if i said i beleive this

[dunkelfalke]

Edit: as for the second part of your story, again, it souns like something that only happens in fiction,
so that must be rough.

Sometimes life is indeed stranger than fiction.

[Shilver]

Very sorry to hear about that Hadokant. It's a strange story indeed, and I hope it all works out for you in the end.

[Paul Atreides]

Into each heart some tears must fall. But some day the sun will shine

I've got my stuff, but i convince myself about it.

[scorptatious]

Damn Hadokant. Your story hit me pretty hard. I don't really know what kind of advice I can give you.

All I can say is that I hope things turn out much better for you in the future. Peace bro.

[Hadokant]

Thanks
The only reason that i'm not going mentaly insane is that i could admit it and the fact that she is still alive and healthy. Just has no memories

[Exbando]

Thanks you guys
Doing hanako's route with her made me cry so hard.
Although there was one positive thing said in this the thing she said as she woke up
" i see (my name), two sets of shelfs and two ironning boards.
Nurses: WHO ARE YOU CALLING IRONNING BOARD
Girl: i-i'm sorry
*puppy dog eyes*
Nurses: it's okay we are all ironning boards
Me in tears of joy and laughter: *facepalm*
also i heard the song: fate repeated from the tales of destiny 2 soundtrack so good music to listen too for
sad stories

I would think that if she remembers your name, then she would eventually remember more, right? I'm not an expert, but that seems to make sense.

I'm still trying to get my thoughts together about the next part of my story, but for now, I want to say that this song has been bothering me for quite some time, but I can't figure out why. The lyrics just really get to me.

[Shilver]

I think I know what you mean about that song. There's something about it that just 'clicks'. Maybe it's because I love hardcore music (and Slipknot being one of the bands), but it's a good song to chill too.

[Beoran]

Hadokant, I can oonly feebly add to all this that I hope your cloud will have a bright sver lining. Even if she does not remember you, I hope you will be able to make many beautiful new memories with her too.

Shilver, I like to listen to powermetal sometimes to perk me up. Stratovarius with Power of this world, Rhapsody and Emeral Sword, etc. That's helps to shout out your feelings.

[MoogleDee]

To everyone, I'm still reading everything in this thread; nothing said is falling on deaf ears, so to speak.

And the rest of this is for me, because now that I think about it, I've never collected all the silly shit that's happened in my relationships in one place so I'll probably copy/paste it into a private blog post or something.

this space will be edited and filled in with STUFF when I'm done typing it out. I'm moving from my desktop to my puny laptop in bed so I can think and type comfortably.

edit: okay this is turning out to be stupidly long, like... 1300+ words long. I'm about 2/3 done but I need to get some sleep. I think I'll just have a link offsite to this light novel I'm writing instead of posting it here. This is all I have for now. I'm sorry it's so wordy, but this is the only way I can really explain things. For me, it's not worth putting into words unless I give it the full attention and detail it needs.

[dunkelfalke]

Shilver, I like to listen to powermetal sometimes to perk me up. Stratovarius with Power of this world, Rhapsody and Emeral Sword, etc. That's helps to shout out your feelings.

Spoken like a true norwegian

On a less happy note, that woman - my ex fiancee - still haunts me a lot, especially in the dreams. I try to let it go and move on, but I've been failing that for years. Been sleeping especially bad, dreaming of her hurting me again and again.

[Beoran]

Hmmm, maybe you have to do some kind of ritual to let your subconsious know it's really over. The subconscious is far more affected by emotions and that's
where rituals come in. For example, it could be something simple like writing "Farewell!" on the back of a photo of her and posing it to her.

Are you still angry at her? If so it might be best to try and forgive her. I did so too. at one stage in my life I said to myself: "I forgive all those who hurt me before, because they were ignorant too." . That helped me get rid of much anger I had before that.

[dunkelfalke]

Angry? That doesn't even begin to describe it.
Unfortunately I am a very resentful person, so I never truly forgive something

I have got no contact with her, though. One day (before finally solving some financial stuff that was left between us) she just disappeared, moved to another town and stopped answering the phone.

[Daitengu]

Shilver, I like to listen to powermetal sometimes to perk me up. Stratovarius with Power of this world, Rhapsody and Emeral Sword, etc. That's helps to shout out your feelings.

Spoken like a true norwegian

On a less happy note, that woman - my ex fiancee - still haunts me a lot, especially in the dreams. I try to let it go and move on, but I've been failing that for years. Been sleeping especially bad, dreaming of her hurting me again and again.

I've actually became the master of my dreams. I got tired of fear and sadness in my dreams. I mean I had to deal with it in my waking state anyway, so I think I can give you some tips on that.

First trick: Observe yourself. not just look at, but feel as well. For me I tend to feel a bit off or look different. Sometimes the mind's eye pan's even around like a camera more than realistically. This usually get me to realize I'm dreaming even if I don't 'think' it.

Second trick: once realization sets in, you can experiment with yourself and your surroundings. Turning into light/shadow/steel, flying, changing the landscape, etc.

Third trick: Nothing in your dream matters, so you can do what you want. Sometimes this idea creates some weird moments in my dreams lol. Like Talking it out with Jason instead of running for your life, or turning in to a mech, summon down lightning to fry stuff... lol


These tricks tend to take practice, but I haven't had a bad dream in years, even though I've been depressed until recently.

[dunkelfalke]

you mean lucent dreaming? i always wake up once i realise that it is all just a dream.