Re: Freaks and Friends
Posted: Fri Oct 04, 2013 9:35 pm
Freaks and Friends
Part 9
“Hey, wait up,” I hear as I exit the classroom. Turning to look, I see Suzu walking towards me. For some reason, she's wearing gym clothes now.
“Umm... weren't you wearing pajamas earlier?” I ask once she's catches up with me.
“I was,” she says. “They made me change.”
“Hold up for a second,” I say and circle around her. “Okay. We're good now,” I add once she's finally on the side I can see out of. “I thought you said they were lax on the dress-code.”
“Shows what I know, right?” she shrugs. “Teacher told me I had to go home and change into something that at least resembled a school uniform”
“So, you decided to change into gym clothes?”
“Not quite. Somebody in class offered to let me use their gym clothes and teacher said it was okay, so I went with that,” she says. Looking at her, it seems a bit obvious that these aren't hers. The shirt and shorts appear a size or two too big. “I got a few odd looks during the day but it beat making the trek back to the dorms.”
“It sounds like you had an eventful day,” I say, more for the sake of saying something.
“Oh, It gets worse. They've got me sitting next to Miura this year,” Suzu has to stop for a moment as her mouth stretches in a yawn that's so large it looks painful. “Excuse me. Anyway, have you met her yet? Miki Miura?”
“Sorry. I don't even know who that is,” I say to her.
“Dark skinned, one hand, runs track,” when it becomes obvious from my expression that I'm still clueless, she continues. “Let's just say she's not my favorite person in the world,” Suzu stops walking and blinks several times, going so far as to put her hands over her eyes and rub them. “God, I need to get some sleep. Let's just put it this way, if you put me and her together, you'd still have enough energy left over for four or five people.”
“What is it with the people on track here anyway? Me and Tana ran into another girl from the track team earlier and she seemed to have a bit of an attitude herself,” I say, remembering the short girl I say Rin with.
“Sounds like, Emi. When you say 'ran into,' do you mean that literally? She's got a bad habit of doing that to people,” Suzu asks with a half grin.
“Nothing like that. We talked for a little bit and I noticed Tana and Emi didn't seem to get along. She said something about there being some problems between her and Hachisame, but didn't go any further into it. Any idea what that's about?” I ask.
“I do, but Tana explains it better,” she says. As we finish walking down the stairs and are about to exit the building, Suzu stops and sits on the benches near the door. “Give me just a minute here. I missed my midday nap so I'm wasted. You can go along if you want to.” F or a minute I sit there uncomfortably silent. I still haven't figured out how things really work here. Am I supposed to leave her sitting here? What if she passes out? Do I wake her up, call for help, or just let her lay there? In the end, I decide to wait. I don't think I could just leave her there and walk off. If something happened, I'd feel horrible about it.
It feels like eternity as I sit there debating what to do, but it really couldn't have been more than a few minutes until Suzu stands back up. “Well, better get going,” she says. “I've got videogames to play.” There's a sloppy, almost drunk smile on her face. As she gets up to walk, it looks more like she's dragging herself forward and limply stumbling along than anything.
“I thought you said you needed some sleep?” I ask.
“Hey, those games aren't going to play themselves, right?” she smiles back.
The whole time we're walking back, I can't help but worry that she's going to just collapse on me. Finally we get to Time Warp's room. Suzu steps past me to pound on the door. We both wait a little bit before knocking again. It's actually the door next to hers that opens.
“She isn't here,” Hachisame says sticking her head out the door. A person in a wheelchair managed to beat me back to the dorms. It's actually kind of sad, really. “Something about the computer club. I wasn't paying attention," she continues.
“That sucks. I was hoping to get back to my game. Well, if she's not in, then I'll catch you later,” Suzu says and begins to walk off. “Maybe I'll take that nap after all... or maybe after dinner.”
“I didn't see you during lunch today,” I say to Hachisame. Crap. That sounded far too needy. I'm not really that starved for company, am I?
“Oh yeah. Right. Sorry about that. We usually eat in the empty classroom by the stairs. I should have said something about that. My fault. So … umm … give me a minute to change out of my uniform and we can hang out or something.” That sounds like as good an idea as any. I take the opportunity to go back to my room and change out of my school clothes as well, switching them out for a pair to beige shorts and a purple t-shirt, draping my uniform over a chair in my room. I only manage to bump into three different things in the process.
I also decide that Hachisame beating me back to the dorms had more to do with me staying to talk to the teacher and resting with Suzu than just being pathetically slow.
When I get back her door is wide open, still, I knock before she gestures inviting me in. Her room is blue. Almost everything seems to be different shades of blue. There's also no bed. Instead she has a large futon in the corner of her room. It strikes me as being oddly traditional, an effect that's somewhat ruined by the fact that her sheets and pillows are just tossed onto it, making no attempt at trying to be neat.
Hachisame is wearing a sea-green T-shirt with a thick blanket on her lap covering her legs. “So, how was your first day at Cripple High?” she asks. I cringe. There's a barely contained smile on her face that tells me she was purposely trying for a reaction. I wonder if she got the one she was expecting?
“It was different,” I say. “Not bad but ...” I trail off not knowing how to finish the sentence. “I'm apparently in a class for blind kids.”
“You didn't know that? Well, you know what they say right?” she asks.
“What do they say?” she pauses a bit as I ask the question and gets a strange look on her face.
“Something about a one eyed king in the valley of blind people. I forget how it goes exactly. You know the one I'm talking about,” she shrugs. Being reminded of my own deformity does very little to improve my mood, regardless of the more light heart-ed tone she obviously meant it as.
“And how was your day?” I ask as a quick attempt at changing the subject.
“You know, just another day,” she says. Well, that didn't go anywhere, still there's something else I'm curious about, something I've been staring at since I entered the room.
“There's a dead fish on your wall,” I say pointing to a particular decoration she has hanging up. “Why is there a dead fish on your wall?”
“Oh, that!” she says, showing even more enthusiasm than is normal for her. “I caught that when I was a little girl. It's a Spanish mackerel, a Japanese seerfish. My dad had it stuffed and mounted for me, which is awesome. You want to hear something really crazy? I actually used to talk to it when I was feeling down, but that was when I was really young,” she laughs. “I was a stupid kid.”
Hachisame goes on telling me various stories that all seem to revolve around fishing, swimming, or boating and it would bore me to tears if it wasn't for the unusual amount of enthusiasm she puts into telling them. I mostly just listen, chiming in briefly here an there in places where she obviously wants some kind reaction. Still, it's something to do, and she does provide refreshments. It's actually rather nice just sitting here and talking with her, even if she is the one doing most of the talking. It makes me feel almost normal again, especially after being stuck in a class full of blank eyed people all day. Maybe we don't have any interests in common, but she's so lively and open that it's hard not to enjoy her company.
Two of those cardboard boxes of juice with the straw in them later, the door to her room slowly opens. Time Warp walks in and seems to freeze into place as she tilts her head looking around the room. It takes me a moment to realize that she doesn't see things in real time so she'd have to adjust to any sudden changes more slowly.
“Hello, Hachisame” she says cheerfully. I'm still not sure if she's even registered I'm here yet or not.
“You know, you're supposed to knock,” Hachisame says in mock anger. “What if I was in here doing naked stuff?” Hachisame turns and smiles me at, “wait for it...wait for it,”
“Then I could take pictures and have some great blackmail material... if, you know, I didn't suck at photography,” she chuckles.
“Umm.. but I'm here...” I add in awkwardly.
“Fine. Me and Patch could be doing naked stuff together,” she says. Two thoughts cross my mind as she says this. One is feeling insulted at being called Patch, the other is embarrassment.
“Hey--” I start.
“Look at her blushing. We've got a prude here,” Hachisame laughs loudly. “Hey, prude, look! Boobies!” Hachisame says as she lifts her shirt and flashes her bra at me.
“Then I'd have really good blackmail material,” Time warp continues, oblivious to our more recent exchange. By now my face is really red and it only takes a moment for Time Warp to join Hachisame in laughing at me.
I give them a minute for it to die down before continuing, “I'm not a prude, and what's with the Patch comment?”
“I'm trying out nicknames for you. Like it?” Hachisame says. I tilt my head slightly and catch Time Warp rolling her eyes, but the problem with her is that you simply can't tell what part of anything she's reacting to.
“No,” I say firmly.
“Popeye?”
“No.”
“Lucky?”
“No.”
“Uno.”
I'm not even sure what that means, but just to be safe, “no.”
“Blinky?”
“Summers?” Time Warp chimes in.
We both stop and look at her.
“You probably aren't going to get that,” she says.
“Just … no nicknames, okay?” I say softly.
“Alright. I get you,” Hachisame says in a much softer tone than I'm used to from her. “Did you have any nicknames your old friends used to call you? Maybe we could use one of those.”
I did have a nickname before, but it wasn't exactly one I liked. I once acquired the nickname 'Red' due to an unfortunate menstrual accident, but I'm not sharing that one. Honestly, the Summers nickname wouldn't be a bad one but I have the feeling that there's some reference I'm not getting.
“You're going to ask me about mine, aren't you?” Time Warp says. “I tease her about not liking it, but it's all in fun.” Actually this is the first time I've really given it thought that her nickname would be insulting. It's a relief to know that she's not going to take offense to it.
“Actually there is one thing I wanted to ask you about,” I say to Time Warp. It might be a mistake, but I'm going to go for it. “Suzu said that you could explain why you all and Emi don't get along.”
“It's because she's an annoying bitch,” Hachisame says. She doesn't say any more. The look on her face seems to indicate she's waiting for Tana to say something.
“Think of the people here like books. Some people are your inspirational self help books. That's Emi. 'You can do it if you really try hard.' Then there are people like us. We're more like, 'The Little Engine that Couldn't and was Perfectly Okay with That.' Some of us, Me, Hachisame, Suzu, Rin, we're not going to get a normal life. This school is the only time we're really ever going to fit in. After we leave, we're back to being sideshow attractions.” After finishing her morbid serious statement she smiles cheerfully and shrugs, “But what'cha gonna do about it, right?”
“It sure as hell beats the alternative,” Hachisame says.
“What's that?” I ask. Hachisame just smiles, clicks her teeth and points at Tana.
Tana holds out her arm, palm facing upwards. Before I can ask what she means by that, she takes her other hand and makes a slashing gesture over her wrist, complete with voiced sound effect.
That's... depressing.
What they say, it makes a lot of sense. For the rest of my life, I'm going to be that girl missing an eye, but at the same time I remember what my class representative said about them having unpopular views. I wonder how many other people here share their view point, and the ones that don't, how many of them are just in denial?
Tana smiles wider than I've seen her smile before. “Don't dwell on it. I don't. Might as well live for the moment, right?”
Part 9
“Hey, wait up,” I hear as I exit the classroom. Turning to look, I see Suzu walking towards me. For some reason, she's wearing gym clothes now.
“Umm... weren't you wearing pajamas earlier?” I ask once she's catches up with me.
“I was,” she says. “They made me change.”
“Hold up for a second,” I say and circle around her. “Okay. We're good now,” I add once she's finally on the side I can see out of. “I thought you said they were lax on the dress-code.”
“Shows what I know, right?” she shrugs. “Teacher told me I had to go home and change into something that at least resembled a school uniform”
“So, you decided to change into gym clothes?”
“Not quite. Somebody in class offered to let me use their gym clothes and teacher said it was okay, so I went with that,” she says. Looking at her, it seems a bit obvious that these aren't hers. The shirt and shorts appear a size or two too big. “I got a few odd looks during the day but it beat making the trek back to the dorms.”
“It sounds like you had an eventful day,” I say, more for the sake of saying something.
“Oh, It gets worse. They've got me sitting next to Miura this year,” Suzu has to stop for a moment as her mouth stretches in a yawn that's so large it looks painful. “Excuse me. Anyway, have you met her yet? Miki Miura?”
“Sorry. I don't even know who that is,” I say to her.
“Dark skinned, one hand, runs track,” when it becomes obvious from my expression that I'm still clueless, she continues. “Let's just say she's not my favorite person in the world,” Suzu stops walking and blinks several times, going so far as to put her hands over her eyes and rub them. “God, I need to get some sleep. Let's just put it this way, if you put me and her together, you'd still have enough energy left over for four or five people.”
“What is it with the people on track here anyway? Me and Tana ran into another girl from the track team earlier and she seemed to have a bit of an attitude herself,” I say, remembering the short girl I say Rin with.
“Sounds like, Emi. When you say 'ran into,' do you mean that literally? She's got a bad habit of doing that to people,” Suzu asks with a half grin.
“Nothing like that. We talked for a little bit and I noticed Tana and Emi didn't seem to get along. She said something about there being some problems between her and Hachisame, but didn't go any further into it. Any idea what that's about?” I ask.
“I do, but Tana explains it better,” she says. As we finish walking down the stairs and are about to exit the building, Suzu stops and sits on the benches near the door. “Give me just a minute here. I missed my midday nap so I'm wasted. You can go along if you want to.” F or a minute I sit there uncomfortably silent. I still haven't figured out how things really work here. Am I supposed to leave her sitting here? What if she passes out? Do I wake her up, call for help, or just let her lay there? In the end, I decide to wait. I don't think I could just leave her there and walk off. If something happened, I'd feel horrible about it.
It feels like eternity as I sit there debating what to do, but it really couldn't have been more than a few minutes until Suzu stands back up. “Well, better get going,” she says. “I've got videogames to play.” There's a sloppy, almost drunk smile on her face. As she gets up to walk, it looks more like she's dragging herself forward and limply stumbling along than anything.
“I thought you said you needed some sleep?” I ask.
“Hey, those games aren't going to play themselves, right?” she smiles back.
The whole time we're walking back, I can't help but worry that she's going to just collapse on me. Finally we get to Time Warp's room. Suzu steps past me to pound on the door. We both wait a little bit before knocking again. It's actually the door next to hers that opens.
“She isn't here,” Hachisame says sticking her head out the door. A person in a wheelchair managed to beat me back to the dorms. It's actually kind of sad, really. “Something about the computer club. I wasn't paying attention," she continues.
“That sucks. I was hoping to get back to my game. Well, if she's not in, then I'll catch you later,” Suzu says and begins to walk off. “Maybe I'll take that nap after all... or maybe after dinner.”
“I didn't see you during lunch today,” I say to Hachisame. Crap. That sounded far too needy. I'm not really that starved for company, am I?
“Oh yeah. Right. Sorry about that. We usually eat in the empty classroom by the stairs. I should have said something about that. My fault. So … umm … give me a minute to change out of my uniform and we can hang out or something.” That sounds like as good an idea as any. I take the opportunity to go back to my room and change out of my school clothes as well, switching them out for a pair to beige shorts and a purple t-shirt, draping my uniform over a chair in my room. I only manage to bump into three different things in the process.
I also decide that Hachisame beating me back to the dorms had more to do with me staying to talk to the teacher and resting with Suzu than just being pathetically slow.
When I get back her door is wide open, still, I knock before she gestures inviting me in. Her room is blue. Almost everything seems to be different shades of blue. There's also no bed. Instead she has a large futon in the corner of her room. It strikes me as being oddly traditional, an effect that's somewhat ruined by the fact that her sheets and pillows are just tossed onto it, making no attempt at trying to be neat.
Hachisame is wearing a sea-green T-shirt with a thick blanket on her lap covering her legs. “So, how was your first day at Cripple High?” she asks. I cringe. There's a barely contained smile on her face that tells me she was purposely trying for a reaction. I wonder if she got the one she was expecting?
“It was different,” I say. “Not bad but ...” I trail off not knowing how to finish the sentence. “I'm apparently in a class for blind kids.”
“You didn't know that? Well, you know what they say right?” she asks.
“What do they say?” she pauses a bit as I ask the question and gets a strange look on her face.
“Something about a one eyed king in the valley of blind people. I forget how it goes exactly. You know the one I'm talking about,” she shrugs. Being reminded of my own deformity does very little to improve my mood, regardless of the more light heart-ed tone she obviously meant it as.
“And how was your day?” I ask as a quick attempt at changing the subject.
“You know, just another day,” she says. Well, that didn't go anywhere, still there's something else I'm curious about, something I've been staring at since I entered the room.
“There's a dead fish on your wall,” I say pointing to a particular decoration she has hanging up. “Why is there a dead fish on your wall?”
“Oh, that!” she says, showing even more enthusiasm than is normal for her. “I caught that when I was a little girl. It's a Spanish mackerel, a Japanese seerfish. My dad had it stuffed and mounted for me, which is awesome. You want to hear something really crazy? I actually used to talk to it when I was feeling down, but that was when I was really young,” she laughs. “I was a stupid kid.”
Hachisame goes on telling me various stories that all seem to revolve around fishing, swimming, or boating and it would bore me to tears if it wasn't for the unusual amount of enthusiasm she puts into telling them. I mostly just listen, chiming in briefly here an there in places where she obviously wants some kind reaction. Still, it's something to do, and she does provide refreshments. It's actually rather nice just sitting here and talking with her, even if she is the one doing most of the talking. It makes me feel almost normal again, especially after being stuck in a class full of blank eyed people all day. Maybe we don't have any interests in common, but she's so lively and open that it's hard not to enjoy her company.
Two of those cardboard boxes of juice with the straw in them later, the door to her room slowly opens. Time Warp walks in and seems to freeze into place as she tilts her head looking around the room. It takes me a moment to realize that she doesn't see things in real time so she'd have to adjust to any sudden changes more slowly.
“Hello, Hachisame” she says cheerfully. I'm still not sure if she's even registered I'm here yet or not.
“You know, you're supposed to knock,” Hachisame says in mock anger. “What if I was in here doing naked stuff?” Hachisame turns and smiles me at, “wait for it...wait for it,”
“Then I could take pictures and have some great blackmail material... if, you know, I didn't suck at photography,” she chuckles.
“Umm.. but I'm here...” I add in awkwardly.
“Fine. Me and Patch could be doing naked stuff together,” she says. Two thoughts cross my mind as she says this. One is feeling insulted at being called Patch, the other is embarrassment.
“Hey--” I start.
“Look at her blushing. We've got a prude here,” Hachisame laughs loudly. “Hey, prude, look! Boobies!” Hachisame says as she lifts her shirt and flashes her bra at me.
“Then I'd have really good blackmail material,” Time warp continues, oblivious to our more recent exchange. By now my face is really red and it only takes a moment for Time Warp to join Hachisame in laughing at me.
I give them a minute for it to die down before continuing, “I'm not a prude, and what's with the Patch comment?”
“I'm trying out nicknames for you. Like it?” Hachisame says. I tilt my head slightly and catch Time Warp rolling her eyes, but the problem with her is that you simply can't tell what part of anything she's reacting to.
“No,” I say firmly.
“Popeye?”
“No.”
“Lucky?”
“No.”
“Uno.”
I'm not even sure what that means, but just to be safe, “no.”
“Blinky?”
“Summers?” Time Warp chimes in.
We both stop and look at her.
“You probably aren't going to get that,” she says.
“Just … no nicknames, okay?” I say softly.
“Alright. I get you,” Hachisame says in a much softer tone than I'm used to from her. “Did you have any nicknames your old friends used to call you? Maybe we could use one of those.”
I did have a nickname before, but it wasn't exactly one I liked. I once acquired the nickname 'Red' due to an unfortunate menstrual accident, but I'm not sharing that one. Honestly, the Summers nickname wouldn't be a bad one but I have the feeling that there's some reference I'm not getting.
“You're going to ask me about mine, aren't you?” Time Warp says. “I tease her about not liking it, but it's all in fun.” Actually this is the first time I've really given it thought that her nickname would be insulting. It's a relief to know that she's not going to take offense to it.
“Actually there is one thing I wanted to ask you about,” I say to Time Warp. It might be a mistake, but I'm going to go for it. “Suzu said that you could explain why you all and Emi don't get along.”
“It's because she's an annoying bitch,” Hachisame says. She doesn't say any more. The look on her face seems to indicate she's waiting for Tana to say something.
“Think of the people here like books. Some people are your inspirational self help books. That's Emi. 'You can do it if you really try hard.' Then there are people like us. We're more like, 'The Little Engine that Couldn't and was Perfectly Okay with That.' Some of us, Me, Hachisame, Suzu, Rin, we're not going to get a normal life. This school is the only time we're really ever going to fit in. After we leave, we're back to being sideshow attractions.” After finishing her morbid serious statement she smiles cheerfully and shrugs, “But what'cha gonna do about it, right?”
“It sure as hell beats the alternative,” Hachisame says.
“What's that?” I ask. Hachisame just smiles, clicks her teeth and points at Tana.
Tana holds out her arm, palm facing upwards. Before I can ask what she means by that, she takes her other hand and makes a slashing gesture over her wrist, complete with voiced sound effect.
That's... depressing.
What they say, it makes a lot of sense. For the rest of my life, I'm going to be that girl missing an eye, but at the same time I remember what my class representative said about them having unpopular views. I wonder how many other people here share their view point, and the ones that don't, how many of them are just in denial?
Tana smiles wider than I've seen her smile before. “Don't dwell on it. I don't. Might as well live for the moment, right?”