Scar Tissue- A Hanako Story (Pseudo-Complete)

[WolfStreak]

I want to say I can see where this is going, but that's what I said three chapters ago.

I don't think it was ever much of a secret.

It is to me i have no idea what is going to happen(forces self to be surprised)

[mainframe004]

Rawr... half-naked Akira.

[BlackWaltzTheThird]

Someone asked for a pic of Akira's cleavage. I couldn't help but oblige. Here's my lame ass art of Akira (attachment).

I think I can see where the story is going. I'm not entirely sure if I want to be proven wrong. So as usual, I must wait for the next installment. Happy writing!
Cheers, BlackWaltz.

[FluffandCrunch]

Someone asked for a pic of Akira's cleavage. I couldn't help but oblige. Here's my lame ass art of Akira (attachment).

I think I can see where the story is going. I'm not entirely sure if I want to be proven wrong. So as usual, I must wait for the next installment. Happy writing!
Cheers, BlackWaltz.

Glorious.
Thanks, BlackWaltzTheThird!

[FluffandCrunch]

Part Nine

I spend the rest of the day on the computer, getting only a few hours sleep before work. Like it has been the last few weeks, the routine of getting ready for work is spent in silence, the three of us just trying to keep moving. Several times I catch Lilly or Hisao looking at me as if they are about to say something, but they never do.

They don't hold each others hands as much as they used too.
I haven't seen them kiss either.

I'm scared and frightened, but there just doesn't seem to be anything that I can do to change the course of the events that are taking place. I feel adrift, lost in the current and unable to affect the outcome.

Could I possibly fix things on my own? What can I possibly do to help Hisao and Lilly? I'm the cause of most of this.
If I hadn't been so stupid and kissed Hisao....
I think about the kiss more and more as time goes on. I hate that it happened, but how can I hate something that felt so wonderful?
Thinking back, I remember the way Hisao looked at me moments before I ruined everything. He looked at me with so much admiration and love. In that moment he looked up to me and I squandered it all.

Knowing that, knowing how strong Hisao thinks I am, how can I let him down? I have to do this, I have to fix things.
Hisao believes in me.
Lilly believes in me.

I can do this.
If only for them.

I spend the work day in my office, still on the computer, looking up sites and doing research. I pay a visit to the Nurse's office over lunch and we have a very long talk which ends well.

By the time school lets out and the students head out of class for the weekend, I'm feeling a lot better than I have in a long time. I still have a pit of apprehension in my stomach, but after talking to Akira, I think I have a handle on the situation.

I walk through Yamaku's gates towards the parking lot.
Next to the car, I see Hisao and Lilly facing each other, holding each others hands and talking very quietly.
Hisao sees me approach. How they do it, I'm not sure, but they both stop talking in unison and let each other go.
"All set, Hanako?" Hisao asks.

I hesitate for a moment before I speak.
"Yes. When we get home though, there's something I'd like to talk to both of you about."
Hisao nods, but I see a little look of alarm pass through his eyes.
Lilly looks worried.
"Of course." Hisao says.

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It's much later now. We've had dinner and cleared the table and the three of us sit around a tea set with cups and steaming vanilla filling the air. The steam curls around us, the sweet aroma helping to calm me as Hisao and Lilly wait for me to speak.

What I'm about to do could change our family forever. I'm reluctant to start and I hesitate, several times trying to say the words that have been bouncing around my head, but unable to put them to tongue.
Lilly and Hisoa wait patiently for me.

[Wiosna]
"I know things have been really difficult lately. I know how much you two want a child and now that you can't have one, I see how hard you've been taking it."

Lilly shifts uncomfortably and Hisao stares down into his tea.

"We've been acting like ghosts in this house since you got the news. Avoiding each other, not looking each other in the eye. We've become too fragile and it's tearing me apart to see us like this."
I collect my thoughts, watching my reflection in the shiny tabletop.
"I want the both of you to know that you are the most important people in my life and I'll never be able to repay you for everything you've done for me."

I look up and take Lilly's hand.
"Lilly, you took care of me when I needed it. You protected me and gave me strength by just being there. You were my friend when I didn't have any. If you hadn't been around I would have wasted my entire life in a book, trying to hide from the world until it crushed me. Thanks to you, I've dealt with my issues and now I'm helping other children deal with their own, healing them the same way you healed me. Thank you so much."

I take Hisao's hand in my other.
"Hisao, Lilly protected me, but you challenged me. You started hanging out with Lilly, but you were so kind and curious about me. I didn't know what it was at first. I thought you were just interested in Lilly, but I realized that wasn't it at all. You honestly wanted to be my friend. But you didn't try to shield me from the world, you wanted to make me a part of it, help bring me into it. It's because of you that I'm as strong as I am now. Thank you, Hisao."

I hold their hands for a while, head down, silently urging myself on.
"I know this has been hard, but I owe you so much. I can't stand to see disappointment on either of your faces. You helped me so I want to help you."

I look up and squeeze their hands.
"I-I want to be your s-surrogate. I want to have your child for you."

Both Hisao and Lilly are taken aback by my statement.
Hisao is speechless.

"Hanako," Lilly says, "even if it's possible, we could never ask you to do something like this for us. It's too much of a responsibility. It's unfair to you to ask you to take on such a burden."

I shake my head.
"It is possible. I've already looked into it. I even talked to Nurse about it. Besides, you don't have to ask. That's the point. I want to do this for you. You and Hisao deserve a child and I can help give you one. I can finally repay you both for all the love you've given me. Besides, the only unfair thing would be to deny a child such wonderful parents like you."

My hands begin to tremble.

[Letting My Heart Speak]
"Which is why what I have to say next is the hardest thing I've ever done."
My throat catches and I start to cry.
"After the baby is born...I'm going to be l-leaving Yamaku and m-moving out."

If my first statement shook them, this one destroys them. Lilly and Hisao take my hands in both of their own and cling to me desperately.
"No! Hanako!"
"Hanako, why?"

"I have to!" I shout, my throat burning, tears running down my cheeks.
"I need to l-l-l-leave! I can't be around either of y-you anymore!"

I look up and my fingers are like steel traps around Lilly's hand.
"L-L-Lilly, I'm so sorry! I screwed up b-bad and I did something I shouldn't have! I betrayed your t-t-trust and I'm sorry for everything!"

Hisao look at me with a torn expression in his eyes.
"Hanako, you don't have to do this...."

I nod hard, shaking my hair loose and over my face, my bangs catching my tears, my whole body shaking uncontrollably, my lungs gasping for air.
"Yes, I do! Lilly, it was my f-fault, not Hisao's. I've been so confused about how I feel! I'm so sorry! I k-k-k-kissed Hisao! I kissed him and I liked it and I wanted more and I'm s-sorry!!!"
I can barely breathe at this point and any more words I have left are lost in my uncontrollable sobs.

Lilly waits silently for a few moments, not letting my hand go, a steady pressure around my fingers.
She sits up and leans across the table, her free hand following my arm and reaching up towards my face, holding my cheek in her soft fingers.
"Hanako, I already know."

I look up at her and see her smiling at me.
"Y-You do?"

Hisao squeezes my hand lovingly.
"Hanako, when I left that night, I drove to Yamaku right away and picked Lilly up, just like you said to. I told her everything."

I'm so confused my words are louder and angrier than I mean for them too be.
"But...neither of you s-said anything to me about it!"

Lilly smiles sadly, sitting back down and taking Hisao's other hand in her own.
"You never gave us a chance. You avoided us for so long and then with the news...we really had no time to sit down and talk to you about this properly."

I shake my head.
"But you two have been so distant! You haven't been talking, or holding hands! I haven't seen you kiss in days!"

The two of them look guilty, avoiding my eyes.
"The truth is, Hanako," Hisao finally says, "we've been confused the last few weeks as well. The kiss...it was just a part of it all. Lilly's health, the baby, it's all been piling up for a while now. We appreciate what you're offering to us, we really do. Having a child is something we both wanted so much. But with what's been going on between me and Lilly, it just isn't the right time now. We've been...talking about stuff...about the two of us and where we're going. "

Oh, God, I don't want to hear this!

"Hanako," Lilly says softly, "our relationship has changed. There's something between Hisao and myself and we both can feel it. An empty space. The kiss was a sign. Something needs to change."

"No! No, no, no, no!!!"

I throw myself over the table at the two of them, clutching at them, refusing to let them go! Everything in my life depends on the two of them!
"You can't do this! You can't break up, please no! Not because of this! I can't live without you two and I don't want you to be apart! Please! I love you! I love you both so much! I need you!"

[Sarabande from BWV1010, Musicbox]
Lilly and Hisao hold me for a minute in shocked silence.
Then they both start crying and holding me tightly.
"Hanako! That's not what we're talking about at all!"
"Hanako, how could you think such a thing!"

Lilly is holding my face and she's kissing my tears away.
"Never! Never ever, Hanako! Hisao and I would never leave you or each other!"

"Hanako," Hisao says, running his fingers through my hair, "Lilly and I aren't growing distant. We've grown...different. The empty space we talked about, it's not between the two of us. It's for you!"

I look up at him, clutching to his chest.
"F-for me?"

Hisoa looks at Lilly helplessly. He stammers and she squeezes his shoulder for support.
"Hanako, we've known for a while how you feel about us. Hisao and I stopped being so intimate because...well, we thought it would be unfair for you to see the two of us like that."

Hisao kisses my forehead and he breathes in the scent of my hair.
"Hanako, there hasn't been a time in our relationship that you haven't been a part of it. You've been with us since the very beginning. The truth is, Lilly and I can't imagine a life without you. We don't want a life without you."

I remember the words Kenji and Akira told me.

"They love you more than I can say."

What did they mean by that?

"We don't want you to be just a person in our life, Hanako," Lilly says, "We want you to be a part of this relationship. Hanako, we love you!"

The words have been said so many times, I started to forget how powerful they can be. When I hear them this time, the meaning is so different it leaves me confused and lightheaded.
"'You love me'? Wh-what do you mean?"

Hisao looks up at Lilly. He tries to say something, but his tongue catches in his throat and he holds me tighter than before.

"Hanako," Lilly says hesitantly, her blush rising, "we're saying that...well...I guess we're trying to...confess to you...."

I can't believe what I'm hearing. My heart is going a thousand miles a minute.
Hisao....
Lilly....
Love me?

"Y-you are?" I ask in a little whisper.

Hisao looks at Lilly and he smiles at me.
"Yes," they both say.

My throat catches and I feel a wracking sob rise up in my chest. I can't hold it back and I bury my face in Hisao's chest and I feel Lilly wrapping her arms around me.
The two most important people in my life say they love me!
I don't know what to think. I don't know what to say.

"I love you, too!" I shout and begin crying all over again.

We hold each other, no words or sound except our own sobs.
We hold each other for a very long time. Then Hisao lifts up my chin and he kisses me.
It's even better than the first time.
Lilly touches my face and she puts her lips on mine.
It's different, but I like it.

"Hanako," Lilly says quietly, "Hisao and I have talked about this for a while now. If it's all right with you, and you don't have to say 'yes'...well, we wouldn't mind if you...wanted to join us upstairs...."
I look at Hisao and see the agreement in his eyes.

I sit there, held by the two most wonderful people in the world. The tears in my eyes transform from sadness to joy.
Their room doesn't seem so scary anymore.

I hold the people I love close to me, basking in their warmth.
I rest my head on Hisao's chest, my face burning red.
"O-okay...I think I'd like that...."

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And that's it. I may write an Epilogue later, but that's the story I wanted to tell. Thank you all very much for reading, I greatly appreciate the comments and tips you've all left. I hope you enjoyed the ride and I can't wait to write more for you in the future.

[themocaw]

YES! SAISHUUDOKIN!

> DIES in exhilirated glee

[DelusionsOfGrandeur]

Yes, yes and more yes!

[Mahorfeus]

My reaction to this ending.

[Homeless]

That, was just.... was just, awesome.

[HacksArePro]

/claps excitedly.

[themocaw]

I'm tempted to write Hisao/Hanako/Lilly threesome porn now.

Alternatively you should do an epilogue set ten years in the future from the POV of their collective child thinking about his two mamas.

[WolfStreak]

Well i have to say he might be the anti Doomish i have been looking for to read a uplifting story after reading one of Doomish's fics.

[mainframe004]

My reaction to this ending.

[Mealforthree]

Obnoxiousness aside, M. Bison's exclamation seems to be fitting the closure of the story.

[Mirage_GSM]

That was certainly... unique...