Re: Emotional Attachment to KS
Posted: Tue Feb 14, 2012 5:27 am
I think a number of us have invested a lot of emotion and desire over the past 5 years into this game. I confess coming aboard sometime in 2009 when I heard about the game (I made a joke to some associates that this was probably going to be a tasteless story and Rin would give foot jobs. How glad I was to be wrong.) and deciding it would be worth a bit of a wait.
I played through everyones route and found the introductions (I d/l'd act 1 when it came out) to be quaint to say the least. I didn't care much for Bacon-tans route at first. I still don't too terribly. Especially when Bacon was better off in ANOTHER ROUTE than her own. (I use Bacon endearingly of course, I do't hate her like I do little miss lemons. But I didn't go fanboyish on her either).
If anything, Shizunes route was to the point and when played through at the time reminded me of myself in a certain way. Calculating, down to earth, sees the needs of the many, yet tends to be playful as well.
However, the emotional attachment, if you can call a sense of kinsmanship that, came only after playing Shiz's route really. Yes, it wasn't as much a heartstrings pulling route as Lillies and it wasn't a mindfuck like Rins, but it was to the point. It had JUST enough of a twist that I couldn't help but to smile at it.
When I say kinship, I am of course referring to the fact that the hearing is going for me. At 26, that's kind of worrying. I know why of course, exposure to loud noises and blasting my head with static and loud tones in order to do my job (RF Engineering). Perhaps in a few years I will be deaf, at the rate that it's going (Right now, mostly tinnitus and the inability to hear single conversations in loud environments or when people aren't looking directly at me, that kind of thing, best explanation beyond the feeling like someones got pillows over my ears) that's entirely probable. I look at Shizune as kind of that model, not an ideal figure really, but she didn't let herself get down about it. She doesn't define it as part of her life. Why should I?
When I came to that understanding, my mind was a bit blown. It was a slight shift in the self I hadn't felt since Kana Imouto (Live life without regrets and enjoy each moment, live in the present, so to speak) nor since I graduated basic training (Overcoming intense obstacles, growing a little as a person) nor since I was promoted to Sergeant (Embodying leadership, being willing to put others first and sacrificing of the self for the greater good and needs of others). Hers was a sort of shift to being able to live vicariously through others enjoyment, and being able to be strong willed to the point that no matter the obstacle, the self will inevitably overcome it.
That, I think, is the extent of my emotional feelings. Granted, I played the game through and through, mostly because I like completing what I started, but I've only replayed shizunes route. Her route made me accept the possibly inevitable, and learn a little about the culture I'll end up being a part of. Like it or not.
Her route made me order some books that were a departure from my usual skeptical and critical thinking based, geology based, and theoretical based (I find SETI and Einstein Rosenburg bridges, AKA wormholes, the most likely means of achieving long distance travel and find myself fascinated by the plausibility of their existence despite no direct evidence of them...yet) books. Yes, that's right, I ordered a book or two about Deaf culture. To say the least, the less dry modern day Deaf culture books are the more enjoyable ones. The history of how Sign language came to be accepted is a bit on the dry side, but helped me to understand Shizunes Dad a little better.
I wanted to get that out of the system. Right about now, I just enjoy reading the posts on the forums and unfortunately, I forgot my account information for my old name, You know... everything. But wanted to share my thoughts for the first time in...well 3 years.
Emotional attachment?
That's fair.
I played through everyones route and found the introductions (I d/l'd act 1 when it came out) to be quaint to say the least. I didn't care much for Bacon-tans route at first. I still don't too terribly. Especially when Bacon was better off in ANOTHER ROUTE than her own. (I use Bacon endearingly of course, I do't hate her like I do little miss lemons. But I didn't go fanboyish on her either).
If anything, Shizunes route was to the point and when played through at the time reminded me of myself in a certain way. Calculating, down to earth, sees the needs of the many, yet tends to be playful as well.
However, the emotional attachment, if you can call a sense of kinsmanship that, came only after playing Shiz's route really. Yes, it wasn't as much a heartstrings pulling route as Lillies and it wasn't a mindfuck like Rins, but it was to the point. It had JUST enough of a twist that I couldn't help but to smile at it.
When I say kinship, I am of course referring to the fact that the hearing is going for me. At 26, that's kind of worrying. I know why of course, exposure to loud noises and blasting my head with static and loud tones in order to do my job (RF Engineering). Perhaps in a few years I will be deaf, at the rate that it's going (Right now, mostly tinnitus and the inability to hear single conversations in loud environments or when people aren't looking directly at me, that kind of thing, best explanation beyond the feeling like someones got pillows over my ears) that's entirely probable. I look at Shizune as kind of that model, not an ideal figure really, but she didn't let herself get down about it. She doesn't define it as part of her life. Why should I?
When I came to that understanding, my mind was a bit blown. It was a slight shift in the self I hadn't felt since Kana Imouto (Live life without regrets and enjoy each moment, live in the present, so to speak) nor since I graduated basic training (Overcoming intense obstacles, growing a little as a person) nor since I was promoted to Sergeant (Embodying leadership, being willing to put others first and sacrificing of the self for the greater good and needs of others). Hers was a sort of shift to being able to live vicariously through others enjoyment, and being able to be strong willed to the point that no matter the obstacle, the self will inevitably overcome it.
That, I think, is the extent of my emotional feelings. Granted, I played the game through and through, mostly because I like completing what I started, but I've only replayed shizunes route. Her route made me accept the possibly inevitable, and learn a little about the culture I'll end up being a part of. Like it or not.
Her route made me order some books that were a departure from my usual skeptical and critical thinking based, geology based, and theoretical based (I find SETI and Einstein Rosenburg bridges, AKA wormholes, the most likely means of achieving long distance travel and find myself fascinated by the plausibility of their existence despite no direct evidence of them...yet) books. Yes, that's right, I ordered a book or two about Deaf culture. To say the least, the less dry modern day Deaf culture books are the more enjoyable ones. The history of how Sign language came to be accepted is a bit on the dry side, but helped me to understand Shizunes Dad a little better.
I wanted to get that out of the system. Right about now, I just enjoy reading the posts on the forums and unfortunately, I forgot my account information for my old name, You know... everything. But wanted to share my thoughts for the first time in...well 3 years.
Emotional attachment?
That's fair.