Re: KS: Bloodline (Act 1 Complete 8/20/12) (For real this ti
Posted: Mon Aug 20, 2012 3:12 pm
It took a while, but it's finally here. The new and improved Chapter 12. I can finally say that I've complete the first act of Bloodline. You have no idea how this makes me feel. I'm so surprised that I've been so dedicated on working on my story. Usually when I get involved with things like this, I never see them through because I feel like no one wants me to continue. But every time that I start to doubt myself I would always read the posts that you guys made supporting me and encouraging me to continue. I thank you all for that and as a reward I present to you the end of Act 1.
Note: If you read the first version, you'll see that the beginning of this chapter draws a lot of ideas from it. But worry not, about halfway through the conversation with Toshiro, you'll start to see the difference.
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Chapter Twelve: Family Bonds
I hate waking up late. Not only does it waste so much of your day, it also means that the things you are dreading will arrive that much sooner. Since I spent all of last night staring a hole into the ceiling imagining what could go wrong, I didn't manage to fall asleep until a couple hours before sunrise. Plus, to make matters worse, I slept through my alarm and didn't wake up until noon. A whole day wasted because I couldn't sleep, I hate it.
But there is one thing I hate more than waking up late when I don't want to and that's waiting for my older brother, who always manages to fail following the schedule he sets for himself. It's already two and I'm already sitting at a table in the Shanghai waiting for my brother to show himself.
I figured that my day would have become terrible after meeting with my brother, not before. That's just goes to show how much Toshiro Atoza gets on my nerves.
As children, we would always get along. We would play together and share just about everything we had. Being six years older than I am, our parents put a lot of pressure on him to live out the dreams they couldn't. He was raised to be the golden child of the family, while I was left to live however I wanted. I can still remember some nights when he and my mother would argue about his grades. He didn't mind it, he endured everything they threw at him. He considered it his brotherly duty to protect me from that.
Unfortunately, things didn't stay that way forever. As I grew older, our parents saw that I had more potential than my brother. My grades were better, my skills sharper, and my determination was boundless. After some time, they gave up on my brother and focused on me, I didn't have much say in the matter. Since I was less trouble than Toshiro, our parents didn't put such harsh restrictions on me. I didn't argue with them and they let me enjoy my life my way. It was a good system and everyone was a little happier.
He changed however, he became distant with me. The way that our parents just switched their ambitions over to me, made it seem like they disowned him. We never played after that. He became more rebellious toward our parents. He would spend nights arguing with my mother and father about how he wanted his life to be and how it wasn't fair that I got everything so easily. He considered himself a failure and he blamed me for it. He eventually left the house to live on his own.
He was still my older brother, and with all that it entails, we had to live with each other no matter what. I tried to get closer to him, but it would never work. As children we were very much alike, but as we grew older, we became opposites. Slowly, I starting giving up on our relationship and my brother just became some stranger who shared my last name.
Before I had my stroke, we made amends. We carefully tried to fix the bond we lost. He was still bitter about what my parents did but he tried his best not to show it. When we talked, we would avoid the vast amount of landmines that would set off an argument. It was tedious, but it worked. We became friends again, granted it was not the most stable to friendships but it still was one.
I can only imagine the effect my stroke had on my brother. We had made plans to go out and do something together for the first time in years. Everything came to a screeching halt after my accident and all the progress we had made was lost. The only time I can remember my brother visiting me was when he looked down on me and called me worthless. Those were the last words I remember him saying. When I got out of the hospital, my brother didn't speak to me and I never wanted to speak to him either.
He called me worthless when I was at the lowest point of my life. He came to visit me once, and the only thing he did was insult me. He might be my older brother but I see as nothing but scum. Nothing good will come from us meeting today.
"Excuse me sir, are you ready to order anything yet?" A waitress asks.
"Can I just have a glass of water? I'm still waiting for someone."
She nods her head and walks off. As she does, I take a look at the rest of the cafe. It isn't very modern looking. Compared to the other buildings that surround the area, this feel out of place.
While everything in the outside world moved forward and progressed, this place feels as if it hasn't changed in years. That's not to say that ambience is terrible. The booths are well maintained and there is nothing that looks visually unappealing. Many people speak in hushed tones and waitresses can be seen walking to and fro, taking orders, picking up places or talking with some of the customers. Generally, everyone seems to be enjoying themselves, even the people that sit alone at the bar are seemingly happy. Maybe this mood will rub off on my brother and me.
Yeah, I don't think so.
I yawn quite loudly which attracts the attention of the patrons at another booth. They're adults who seem to be talking about some important business. Their eyes linger on me for a few moments until they see that I'm not very interesting and return to their discussion.
It feels like it's been forever but I'm glad that I finally have a chance to get out of my uniform and into my regular clothes. I'm pretty sure that if I had been wearing my Yamaku uniform, those businessmen would have looked at me much longer and would have tried to discover what's wrong with me. But as long as I keep my left hand out of sight, I'm just your average teenager in a dark jeans and a red t-shirt with the design of a shield over his heart.
I chuckle a bit at my own thoughts.
Average teenager.
What a funny way to think of myself. Average. It's been a while since I've used that word for myself.
The waitress returns and places a glass of water on the table. I thank her and take a long sip. I pull out my phone to take a look at the time.
2:30 pm.
I sigh and lean back in my chair and look out the window. It's actually really sunny and beautiful outside. The storm from a few days ago has finally completely past and it's left the sky calm and clear.
Damn it world. Why did you have to make today look so wonderful if it's just going to be full of shit?
I watch people walk by for a few minutes. It's actually pretty relaxing seeing everyone go by until I see someone I recognize. A man, tanner than most but not tan enough to be considered foreign, walks past the window and heads to the front door. I look over to this man and see his short, straight black hair, dark brown eyes, and short, black beard under his chin. He's basically an older version of me with the expectation that his hair never gets curly, he's a bit bulkier than I and his left hand isn't always in a half-clenched position. He's wearing a dark blue polo, brown khakis and stupid grin on his face. He's none other than my older brother, Toshiro Atoza
After a few seconds of talking with the hostess, he is directed to my booth. When he arrives, he takes a seat looks at me up and down. "Hey little brother!" He's overly eager with me. His cheerful attitude sounds fake and forced.
Ugh, just hearing his voice is giving me a headache.
After a bit of silence on my part, I answer. "Hello Toshiro. What took you so long to get here?" Granted my tone isn't very exciting, but it's hard to act that way after he had me waiting for so long.
His smile falters a bit as he starts to scratch his chin. "Well, there was some traffic getting here and I couldn't find the cafe."
"You could have called. I'm somewhat familiar with this area."
"But where's the fun in that? Besides, it makes it easier for me to come here next time."
"Next time?" I say in a surprised, yet quiet tone.
"Yeah. I'll visit every week. Or maybe every other week. I don't want to bother you too much."
I start rubbing my temples. My headache is really starting to act up.
Toshiro looks around for a bit before addressing me. "Have you ordered anything yet?"
I shake my head and point to the menu that stands in the middle of the table. He grabs hold of it and directs all of his attention to it. I do the same with mine, but hold it up to the point where it blocks my vision of him. "This my first time coming here, so I'm not sure what to expect. It must be good though, considering that many students from Yamaku come here."
Toshiro remains quiet for a few moments, I can hear him rubbing his arm. "How's school?" His voice sounds nervous and it's obvious to me why.
This is one of the many landmines that we used to avoid when we talked before. School and grades were one of the many things that drove us apart. "It's not like you to ask about how I'm doing in my classes."
"I'm not asking about that. I know you do well in you classes, you always do." He mumbles that last part. "I want to know about your school. Are all the students there... you know?"
I set down my menu to look at him. "Are they what?"
He hesitates and tries to avoid eye contact. "You know, are they all disabled?"
"It doesn't matter. A person's disability doesn't define who they are or what their worth is."
He jumps a little and his grip on the menu tightens. He knows what I'm referring to, I'm sure of it.
A waitress comes and asks if we're ready to order. We both say yes and place our orders. He orders coffee and a turkey sandwich. I order green tea and a tuna sandwich. When she takes our menus and walks off, Toshiro turns to me. "So you do like tea. I didn't know that."
"I met someone who introduced me to it." I hesitate a bit at the thought of Midori Kagami.
"So you're making friends. That's good. You were always a bit of a loner. I was worried that you might have had a problem with other people."
"Why would that worry you?" I ask.
"I understand what it's like to have your life suddenly change. It's difficult but it becomes easier if you have friends by your side. Trust me on that one." He looks past me and stares out the window.
There was a time when he wouldn't talk to the family. It makes sense that he'd find solace with his friends. But I don't appreciate him comparing his life to mine. My stroke and his falling out aren't on the same level. He caused his problem; I never asked for mine.
We don't speak again until the waitress returns with our food. I have to admit, even with the place packed, the service is very fast. The waitress sets down my tea in front of me and as I thank her, Toshiro grabs it and moves it to my other side.
"What are you doing?" I ask once the waitress leaves.
"I'm making sure you can grab it with you good hand."
"I can grab it just fine." To prove my point, I reach for my cup with my left hand. I take a sip and put my cup down with a bit of force that rattles the table.
Toshiro watches me in silence as I perform this action. He doesn't say a word and just eats his food.
The awkwardness only grows as we start eating. Neither of us can think of anything to say and my little act of defiance didn't help start any new lines of conversation.
With our plates cleared, I try to start a conversation. "Have you talked to Mom and Dad lately?"
He fidgets a bit in his seat. "A little. They've been really busy, so they didn't have time to visit you. They're still worried though. Your accident really did a number on them."
"How so?"
"Mom was a little hysterical at first and Dad, well you know how he is. He just tried to keep his mind occupied on other things."
I take a sip of my tea. "What about you?"
"I was honestly surprised. You were always the lucky one, so I didn't know what to think about what happened to you."
I furrow my brow. Lucky? He thinks I'm lucky? Yeah, it takes luck to have a stroke.
"Don't be surprised if they don't call you anytime soon. It's what they do."
"What's that suppose to mean?" I ask.
"Nothing. I didn't mean anything by it." He waves his hand in front of his face to dismiss the notion.
There he goes again. He's comparing my life to his. We're nothing alike! Just stop doing that!
I can feel a pit growing in my stomach. The more I talk to him the more painful it becomes. It's making my head hurt and my heart rate is increasing. My breathing is becoming sporadic.
"Yaso? Are you all right?" He gets out of his seat and put his hand on my shoulder.
When I see his face, I am suddenly remind of that day in the hospital. The image is so clear, so vivid. It's almost as I'm there right now. I can see him standing at the edge of my bed. He's looking down on me and talking. He's words are mumbled but there is one word that's loud and clear. Only one: worthless.
I slap his hand away. "Don't touch me!"
"What's wrong with you?"
"S-shut up! Just stop talking."
My head is killing me. Try as I might to calm myself down, it isn't working. I keep seeing that image in my head. I keep hearing him say that word time and time again. Worthless. Worthless. Worthless!
"Yaso?" Once again he talks to me.
The pit in my stomach is unbearable, I just want to scream at him. But I can't. I have to keep it under control. I can't make a scene here. "Leave. Just go a-away!"
"What are you talking about?"
"I don't need you here! I don't WANT you here! Leave me alone!"
The can feel the gazes of the other patrons turn in our direction. It's no surprise that they're looking at us, I'm here practically shouting at my brother.
Toshiro gets out of his seat and places enough money to cover both of our meals on the table. "I don't know what's gotten into you. When you've calmed down, call me okay?"
I wordlessly nod my head and he leaves.
My head still hurts. I ask for another cup of tea in hopes that it'll help me calm down.
Just what was that? Why did my head hurt so much? Why did that image seem so real?
I close my eyes and rub my temples to help alleviate the headache. I hear a waitress come by and place a new cup of tea in front of me. She quickly cleans up the rest of the table and leaves. For some reason, however, it feels like she's still here.
I open my eyes to see where the waitress is but I don't see her. Who I do see is a face that I've only seen once before. Straight, long brown hair, mismatched eyes, one brown and the other blue. She's dressed in a violet v-neck blouse with a white shirt underneath and light grey, form-fitting pants.
The mysterious girl who no one knows anything about, Midori Kagami, stands next to me. "What a-are you doing here?"
She keeps her eyes downcast and avoids making eye contact. "The rest of the cafe is full and you were the only person that I recognized. So I was wondering, will you let me join you for a bit?"
I take a look around that cafe and notice that there are still a few open seats by the bar. "Go right ahead, I don't mind."
She nods slightly and takes the seat across from me. "Thank you. I was actually going to meet someone else here but-"
"If you want me to leave, you can just tell me outright." I bitterly interject.
"No, you don't have to go!" she hastily replies. "I don't have a right to kick you out. You were here first."
I sigh. "It's all right, I was just getting ready to leave. It's been a long day."
"Does it have to do with the person that just left?"
I flinch. It's bad enough that I made a scene, but to have someone I know witness it is worse. My stomach feels like it's in a knot and my head hurts even more at the thought of it.
I don't respond. She takes my silence as an opportunity to give a waitress her order. She only orders a cup of French Vanilla Tea. When she turns her attention back to me, she brings her hands together in front of her. "I'm sorry. I don't mean to pry, but it just seemed like he bothering you."
"He was family."
She raises her eyebrows at my word choice.
"I haven't been getting along with my family lately."
"I'm sorry to hear that, but what happened?"
I take a sip from my tea. "It's a long story."
She offers a small smile. "I don't mind listening."
I let out a dry chuckle as I take another sip. Satisfied with the taste, I slowly put the teacup back down on the table. My hand slips however, which results in the contents being spilled on the table. As the puddle of tea moves along the surface, it slowly makes its way to the edge and it falls on my pants. "Ow!" I shout as the liquid burns me
Why does it feel like I've done this before?
She quickly grabs some napkins and begins soaking up the tea that spilled. "Are you all right?"
"Yeah, I'm all right. The tea wasn't too hot."
As we clean up the mess, a waitress come by with more napkins and offers me a new cup of tea. It doesn't take long to clean up the spilt tea. By the time we finish, I start to remember why this felt familiar. It was just like that dream I had.
Too bad reality didn't follow the same path.
"What a shame." I whisper.
"Hm?"
"No, it was nothing." I say as I wave my hand in front of my face.
Midori pushes the used napkins aside and faces me. "So you were telling me about your family."
I don't see the need to talk about my family anymore, but she seem genuinely interested. There's also a familiar yet comforting air about her.
"Right," I mumble as I rub the back of my neck. "Let's just say that after my accident, my family just started to treat me differently. I was supposed to be the one that would live out his dreams and live life to the fullest. But after what happened, it just didn't seem possible anymore."
She tilts her head to the side. "That's why you came to Yamaku isn't it? To learn how to cope with what happened to you."
"They don't see it the same way. I know that Yamaku is supposed to be a place to help people like us but sometimes I think that my parents just sent me here to get rid of me. Out of sight, out of mind as they say."
She reflects on my words for a few moments. "I don't believe anyone would do that. The school might be hidden away but that doesn't mean that we're what society doesn't what to worry about."
I scoff at her claim. "You don't know my parents. My father called me a cripple and my mother was sorry I was ever born. My brother only visited me once and when he did, he called me worthless."
I can feel my head hurt again. The pit in my stomach returns as I recall my stay at the hospital. It's a painful memory that should be hidden away, not talked about openly to someone I don't even know.
Midori grips at the golden chain around her neck. "Do you hate your family?"
I pause. I've never really thought about it before. I mean, it's justifiable if I do, right?
"I don't know." I flatly state.
Midori stares at me for a few moments. Her grip on the golden chain only tightens. I can't tell what's attached to it, her hand is covering it up. "Yaso, can you keep a secret?"
I look at her and furrow my brow. "What is it?"
"Since you told me about your family. It's only fair I tell something in return."
"What are you talking about?"
She opens and closes her mouth several times as if she wants to speak. She take one deep breath after another trying to form her sentence but nothing comes out. After about her fifth breath, she finally manages to say something. "It's about me and Nakai."
What? Does she want to tell me about her improper relationship right now? I told her about my family, something personal, and she thinks that it's fair, equal, to tell me something like that!
No! I don't want to hear it!
She begins speaking again. "I know there are rumors about me and I thought it's only fair to tell you-"
"Just stop." She looks surprised as I interrupt her. "You might think that it's the right thing to do, to tell me something like that after I told you about my family, but it's not. I don't want to hear it."
"But-"
"No, I already know what you're going to say and I don't want to hear it. It's obvious, so painfully obvious that even the new guy who's only been here for a week knows about it." My tone is harsh and bitter. "I don't want to know anything, okay? Nothing!"
I already have enough to deal with. I don't want to be considered some accessory to a crime just because I knew what was going on and didn't say anything. I don't need that.
A hurt expression crosses her face and she looks down on the table. "Oh. I understand." She whispers in an almost inaudible level.
I stand up from the table. I pull out my wallet and leave enough money for my tea.
"Where are you going?" She asks without even looking at me.
"I think Ryo was right about you. You are trouble." I start to walk off. "Good bye, Kagami."
Before I exit the building I turn back to where she sits. She's shaking and her hands still are wrapped around her necklace.
I think it's better if we never talk again. It'll be easier this way.
I turn back towards the door and walk out. I take a deep breath of fresh air as it hits me, in hopes that it'll help calm my nerves. It makes little difference.
I can't believe her! I can't think of any logical reason why she would want to tell me about her and Nakai. It makes no sense. What does she want from me? I already have enough to deal with after Toshiro came, I don't need know any more unnecessary drama.
This is why I avoided people before. They start to wrap you up in the mess they make and when they fall, they drag you down as well. I should have never come to the Shanghai. I should have just stood him up and then I wouldn't have had to see her. I don't need this right now.
My headache still lingers and it's making walking a harder task then it should be. Going back to my dorm in this state isn't a good idea. I need to rest, at least until I can walk normally.
A nearby park seems like the best place to rest. It seems pretty quiet. Trees and shrubbery line the edges of the park. In the middle are a number of trees where one can take a seat under and rest. There's even a fairly large pond in the center of the area with benches along its border.
I take a seat on one of the benches beneath a group of trees that look towards the pond. Children can be seen running around, men are fishing in the pond and a family celebrates the birthday of a relative. They're having fun and sharing happiness with each other while I sit here and sulk.
I just don't understand anything. Why did Toshiro come? He didn't need to visit, I don't even want him here. What does he have to gain from coming here? Did my parents force him? Did they make him do it so they don't have to?
What about Kagami? What's she doing at the Shanghai in the first place? Why did she come to me? We don't even know each other that well. Why did she seem so interested in my family?
Family. MY family.
Do I hate my family?
I do have a reason to hate them, but I can't bring myself to admit it. It doesn't feel right to say it. What they did is unforgiveable. No one should ever be that heartless to their own family and yet, I still can't hate them, at least not completely.
My phone suddenly starts ringing. I take a look at the caller id; I don't recognize this number.
"Hello." I answer.
"Is this Yaso?" asks a female voice. The static makes it hard to tell who it is.
"Y-yes, but who's calling?"
"It's Kamiko. I want to know where you are right now." Her voice is somewhat forceful.
"I'm in the park. Why do you want to know?"
"Good, stay there. Don't you dare leave before I get there."
"Wait, why-" My phone beeps indicating the call has ended. "- do you want to know?"
Ok, that was strange. I don't remember giving her my number.
Only a few minutes of watching children play tag pass before I start hearing someone approach from behind me. As I turn to see who it is, my eyes go wide at the sight. I see Kamiko dressed in her school uniform, which is odd because we didn't have class today. What I'm more surprised at is that she's dragging Kagami towards me.
"Kamiko, what are you doing?" I ask.
She doesn't answer, preferring to stand in front of me, her hands on her hips, and her eyes locked on to mine.
"Why are you dragging around Kagami? What are you planning to-."
Suddenly a flash of white burns through my vision. I feel my head forcibly shifted to the right. I don't know what happened but the stinging sensation from my cheek explains everything. It happened so fast that I can only see the aftermath. I see Kagami covering her mouth with her hands, a shocked expression visible over them. I see Kamiko's right hand held out in front of her, in the position it took after its brief contact with my face.
It's almost as if everything in the world just stopped. No one is moving and not a word is spoken. I just don't believe it. She slapped me. No 'hello' nor any warning, just a quick slap and nothing else.
Kamiko is the first to break the endless silence. "You deserve that for what you've done, don't try to argue it." Her words are cold and serious, nothing like her usual manner of speech.
I remain silent. My mind is still trying to register what happened.
"Do you know why I did that?"
I slowly shake my head.
She rubs her right hand and sighs. "Two reasons. One, you just called her Kagami. You promised me that you wouldn't call people by their last names. You went back on your word."
"But that doesn't merit me getting slapped!" I start raising my voice but only barely manage to keep my temper under control.
"The other reason is worse!" She takes a step closer to me and pokes me in the chest. "You made her cry and you did nothing to help. You just left her there alone. I can't believe you would do such a thing. I'm disappointed in you."
True, I did do that. I know it was wrong but I didn't want to deal with the issues that Kagami would have brought to me. I already had to endure my brother, I didn't want something else thrown on me. I'm ashamed to admit that I did something like that but I had no choice.
I can't think of an appropriate response that wouldn't sound like a lame excuse. The only thing that I manage to do is break eye contact and stare at the ground beneath me.
"Apologize to her! If you don't, I'll never respect you again."
"Kamiko, please don't say things like that," Kagami quietly says.
Kamiko glares at me for what feels like hours until she turns around with a loud "Hmph!" She begins walking off as she says, "I thought more of you, Yaso. Don't talk to me until you she forgives you."
I slump back into the bench I was in before with my head hanging low.
Well, that's just great. I tried to avoid being involved in something I thought was wrong and now I'm losing all of the people I considered friends. Just once, I'd like my decisions to not come back and bite me in the ass.
This is why I preferred solitude. I could do whatever I wanted and I had no one to judge me for it.
I move my hand to my cheek. I touch it lightly and it stings. She must have put a lot of strength into that slap...
As I sit, examining my cheek. I hear someone come closer to me and sit down next to me on the bench. I look up and see Kagami's worried eyes.
"Does your cheek still hurt?" She nervously asks.
"A little bit."
She fidgets a little and grips her necklace again. "I'm sorry about what happened."
I'm surprised by her apology. "Why are you apologizing? I'm the one who yelled at you and made you cry. If anyone should apologize it's me."
She shakes her head. "If it wasn't for me, Kamiko wouldn't have hit you and she wouldn't be mad at you."
"She takes her job too seriously, she would have done that to anyone."
She shakes her head again, more violently this time. "You don't understand. She hit you specifically because of me."
"What do you mean?"
She lets out a deep breath and her hands fall to her side. I can now see what her necklace is. It's two golden rings.
"We grew up together. We're cousins but she's more like an older sister to me. I was meeting her for lunch at the Shanghai. When she found me crying, she became furious and swore to make the person responsible suffer."
"You're r-related?" My head falls into my hands. "That would explain why I never heard her talk like that before. God, I'm an idiot. She must hate me."
She giggles. "You're lucky. She actually went easy on you. I've seen her do much worse."
I cringe at the thought of it. Her slap hurt a lot, I hate to imagine what was worse.
"Don't worry. If I say that you're okay then she'll forgive you."
I sigh. I'm an idiot, aren't I. Kagami is a kind person and I snapped at her for no real reason. She was just trying to be more open to me and I shot her down. I'm a complete asshole.
"Listen," I lift my head and look into her eyes. "I'm sorry about what I said earlier. It was just that I was talking to my brother before we met and I was just mad from that. I had no reason to yell at you."
A small smile forms on her face. "It's okay. I'm at fault too. I was being too nosy and sort of pushed you to the edge."
That reminds me. "Back at the Shanghai, before I got angry, you were trying to say something weren't you? What was it?"
Her hands quickly make their way to her necklace and her cheeks crimson. "Oh that. Well, you were telling me so much about your family, I wanted to be fair and tell you about mine."
"But you mentioned Mr. Nakai." I feel my stomach twisting in a knot at the fact that I just asked about her relationship with him.
Her grip tightens on her necklace. "Yeah, I did."
Wait. She wanted to talk about her family and in doing so she mentioned Nakai. Oh good God, I'm an idiot. It all makes sense now.
"I haven't told this to anyone but it's only fair I tell you this because you were so open to me. My real name isn't Midori Kagami. It's Midori Nakai."
My stomach feels terrible now. Not because of the reason from before but for something else. Guilt and shame for rushing to a conclusion about what she wanted to tell me. "So d-does that mean that Mr. Nakai is your dad?"
She nods her head. "Both of my parents are teachers at Yamaku. That's why I don't agree with what you said about how parents leave their children at this school to forget about them. I'm here because I love my parents and I couldn't bear being apart from them."
"Both of your parents?"
"Yes, Hisao Nakai is my father and Lilly Satou is my mother."
My eyes go wide. She's Miss Satou's daughter! The one and only time I talked to Satou, I mentioned the rumor about an affair going on between Nakai and their daughter! I let my head my head fall back into my hands.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing, I just realized how wrong I was about a lot of things."
She looks down to the ground and sighs. "That stupid rumor that everyone passes around, I hate it."
"But your his daughter. Why don't you tell everyone that?"
"I can't. Yamaku Academy has rules against the children of faculty attending."
Rules against people attending? The only rule I remember that restricted admittance was the rule against people with mental disabilities. "What rule are you talking about?"
"Faculty members aren't allowed to have their children attend because of insurance reasons. There was an incident long ago when a student almost lost her life because a teacher was more focused on his son."
"But I've heard that Nakai has connections with the higher ups. Couldn't he have done something."
She shakes her head. "The best that he could do was to send me to another school like Yamaku."
"Then how are you here?"
"My parents got divorced in order to give me a reason to go by another name. They also used their connections to get some key faculty members to look the other way when certain information comes up about my history."
If that's true then the fact that she's related to two teachers should remain hidden from everyone. "Why are you telling me this?"
"Because it's fair. You told me about your family, so I had tell you about mine."
"So by that logic, if anyone told you about their past, you'll tell them about this too?"
She tilts her head to the side as if she's in deep thought. "No, I wouldn't. You're the new guy at school and you met me before you knew anything about those rumors. You were very kind and open about what has happened to you, so I thought I could be the same way," She says with a bashful smile.
"You really are trouble," I sigh. "But I think I can deal with it."
We both share a laugh. It's unbelievable how wrong I was about this girl. All the things that everyone think they know about her are wrong. She's not a girl without morals who enjoys tabooed relationships, she's just another person who has deal with what life has thrown at her.
She looks up to the sky and sighs. "The sun is going to go down soon, so I should go back." She stands up and turns to me. "Are you going to head out too?"
I shake my head. "Not just yet. I'm just going to stay here a little longer."
"Okay then." She turns and begins walking away. "Oh, before I forget. Do you remember the room where we first met?"
I nod.
"If you'd like, you could join me for lunch there." She tilts her head in a way that makes her hair hide her face. I swear she's blushing.
"I'd like that, Midori." I can't help smiling as she walks off.
I lean back into the bench and watch as the sky turns from a light blue, to orange and eventually black. I take a deep breath and enjoy the crisp night air.
The more time that passes, the more stars become visible in the night sky. I've always loved the stars. No matter how much my life changes, no matter where I go, I can always look up at the sky and watch the stars. I admire them because even though they are so far away, so small to the naked eye, they continue to shine brightly. Even when no one is watching them, they shine because they can.
I was expecting this day to be terrible. While it did have its fair share of hardships during the beginning, it hit a high point towards the end. It almost makes me forget about what happened with my brother. It's funny, my day completely turned around because of one person.
Midori Nakai. What a strange and mysterious girl. Even though she told me about her family, I really don't know anything about her. I'll admit, I'm a little curious about who she really is. As far as I can tell, she's a kind and beautiful girl who enjoys her tea.
...
I laugh at the fact that I know next to nothing about her. I guess that will come in time. I just need to have patience. A feel a smile slowly start to form when the realization hits me. It's been a long time since I've had something work towards, it's been a long time since I've gone on one of my adventures.
I stare at the stars with a wide smile on my face. You're not the only ones that can shine brightly tonight.
When I finally reach the gates Yamaku, I'm surprise to find someone standing there. It's Kamiko and now that she's seen me, she's walking towards. I feel my body tense as it remembers the last time I saw her.
She stands in front of me with her hands on her hips and her eyes locked on to mine. I hold my breath because this is just like before.
"Wahahaha~! See what did I tell you! You're perfect for the Student Council!" Her laugh catches me by surprise.
"W-what?"
"You made a girl cry and you went back to make amends. It really happened this time and you followed through. You're perfect for the council."
This girl never ceases to amaze me. My hand makes its way to my forehead. "You've got to be kidding me! It's too late to be doing this! How can you be mad at me one second and then the next you try to make me join?"
"You made up with Midori, so you're okay with me." She gives a thumbs up and a wide, toothy grin. "Now we can resume our usual thing. So are you going to join or not?"
"For the hundredth time, no!"
She puffs her cheeks and pouts. "Fine then, if you don't join then I won't show you something interesting."
I walk past her and wave behind my back. "Not interested, good night."
She runs up to me and grabs my arm. "No, wait! Don't go, come with me to the girls dorm."
Did I hear that right? Did she just run up to me and ask me to come with her to her room?
The blood starts rushing to my cheeks. "Out of all p-people, I didn't expect you would ask such a t-thing."
I've never seen a face turn red so fast. She lets go of me and jumps back. "No, I didn't mean it like that. Just shut up and come with me."
She leads me to the girls dorm and stops just outside the main entrance. She brings up one finger and holds it against her lips. "Don't make any loud noises and you should be fine."
"Fine for what?"
She doesn't answer me and walks through the door. We tiptoe down the hall without making a sound. I follow Kamiko until she stops next to a door. She points to her ear and then at the door. She moves aside to allow me to peak into to the room.
The first thing I notice is the sound of music being played in the lounge area. The sound is clear and deep, there's no stereo system that I know of that has that kind of quality. As I look deeper into the room I see someone sitting in front of a piano, swaying side to side as she hits every note of the song she's playing. It's Midori. She's playing and it seems like she's entranced by her song.
A tap on my shoulder turns my attention back to Kamiko. "Ever since we were little girls, she would always play the piano like this. This is her dream."
"Her dream? Does she want to be a concert pianist?"
She quietly laughs. "Don't be ridiculous. Midori isn't very outgoing, she'd rather die than play in front of hundreds of people. Take a look in front of her, what do you see."
I peak through the door again and try to see in front of her. I don't see anything.
"I don't get it. What am I suppose to see?"
Kamiko looks into the room and smiles. "She doesn't use sheet music. She knows that song by heart. It's Debussy's First Arabesque."
"That's incredible."
She turns back to me. "When you were younger, did you used to draw?"
"Yeah I did."
"Let me guess, you would show your parents your work of art, right?"
I nod.
"Think about that and apply it to her."
What is she getting at? I imagine a younger Midori drawing something and showing it to her parents. It seems perfectly normal until I remember who her mother is. Lilly Satou, the blind English teacher.
"She learned how to play because of her mother?"
Kamiko nods. "She wants to learn as many songs as she can before she loses her eyesight so that she can share them with her mother. She comes here in the middle of the night to practice in private."
I start moving away from the door. "If that's why she plays at night then we shouldn't be watching her."
Kamiko looks back into the lounge with a soft smile. "She's smiling, you know. She's smiling because this is the first time in years that she's played this early. She's knows that someone will see her and she doesn't care."
I look through the door again. I see Midori swaying in time with the song she's playing. She moves with a reckless abandon, smiling as every note she plays mixes together create the melody.
Kamiko starts to walk off. "Just so you know curfew's about to start soon so you'll get in trouble if you're caught here."
I pay her no heed and continue watching Midori.
She sighs contently. "Good night Yaso. Don't get in trouble." She heads down the hall and disappears when she turns the corner.
I can't take my eyes off Midori as she plays. She moves gracefully from one key to the other. Each note she plays is filled with such raw emotion, that the mixture on the sound becomes the only thing I can focus on. I can tell she's passionate about the song she's playing. The more I watch her, the more I feel like I can learn something about her.
Switching from high notes to low notes, slowing the down the rhythm and picking it up again, I watch every moment she makes as she plays her song. It's simply amazing and makes me want to get closer to her, but I don't. I stay where I am, just outside of the lounge door, for fear that I might interrupt her when she's being so honest with her emotions.
For the rest of the night, I can't get the music she played out of my head. I don't think I want to, it was beautiful and something I don't want to soon forget.
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End of Act 1
*Next Chapter*
*Sighs* I enjoyed writing this. I can't wait to get started on Act 2.
Complete Author's Notes for Act 0 and Act 1 coming soon.
Also, from this point onward, my updates are going to be slower since my summer is coming to an end. I'm a student first, everything else comes later. That's not to say that I won't be writing, just don't expect me to release chapters weekly for a long while.
Note: If you read the first version, you'll see that the beginning of this chapter draws a lot of ideas from it. But worry not, about halfway through the conversation with Toshiro, you'll start to see the difference.
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Chapter Twelve: Family Bonds
I hate waking up late. Not only does it waste so much of your day, it also means that the things you are dreading will arrive that much sooner. Since I spent all of last night staring a hole into the ceiling imagining what could go wrong, I didn't manage to fall asleep until a couple hours before sunrise. Plus, to make matters worse, I slept through my alarm and didn't wake up until noon. A whole day wasted because I couldn't sleep, I hate it.
But there is one thing I hate more than waking up late when I don't want to and that's waiting for my older brother, who always manages to fail following the schedule he sets for himself. It's already two and I'm already sitting at a table in the Shanghai waiting for my brother to show himself.
I figured that my day would have become terrible after meeting with my brother, not before. That's just goes to show how much Toshiro Atoza gets on my nerves.
As children, we would always get along. We would play together and share just about everything we had. Being six years older than I am, our parents put a lot of pressure on him to live out the dreams they couldn't. He was raised to be the golden child of the family, while I was left to live however I wanted. I can still remember some nights when he and my mother would argue about his grades. He didn't mind it, he endured everything they threw at him. He considered it his brotherly duty to protect me from that.
Unfortunately, things didn't stay that way forever. As I grew older, our parents saw that I had more potential than my brother. My grades were better, my skills sharper, and my determination was boundless. After some time, they gave up on my brother and focused on me, I didn't have much say in the matter. Since I was less trouble than Toshiro, our parents didn't put such harsh restrictions on me. I didn't argue with them and they let me enjoy my life my way. It was a good system and everyone was a little happier.
He changed however, he became distant with me. The way that our parents just switched their ambitions over to me, made it seem like they disowned him. We never played after that. He became more rebellious toward our parents. He would spend nights arguing with my mother and father about how he wanted his life to be and how it wasn't fair that I got everything so easily. He considered himself a failure and he blamed me for it. He eventually left the house to live on his own.
He was still my older brother, and with all that it entails, we had to live with each other no matter what. I tried to get closer to him, but it would never work. As children we were very much alike, but as we grew older, we became opposites. Slowly, I starting giving up on our relationship and my brother just became some stranger who shared my last name.
Before I had my stroke, we made amends. We carefully tried to fix the bond we lost. He was still bitter about what my parents did but he tried his best not to show it. When we talked, we would avoid the vast amount of landmines that would set off an argument. It was tedious, but it worked. We became friends again, granted it was not the most stable to friendships but it still was one.
I can only imagine the effect my stroke had on my brother. We had made plans to go out and do something together for the first time in years. Everything came to a screeching halt after my accident and all the progress we had made was lost. The only time I can remember my brother visiting me was when he looked down on me and called me worthless. Those were the last words I remember him saying. When I got out of the hospital, my brother didn't speak to me and I never wanted to speak to him either.
He called me worthless when I was at the lowest point of my life. He came to visit me once, and the only thing he did was insult me. He might be my older brother but I see as nothing but scum. Nothing good will come from us meeting today.
"Excuse me sir, are you ready to order anything yet?" A waitress asks.
"Can I just have a glass of water? I'm still waiting for someone."
She nods her head and walks off. As she does, I take a look at the rest of the cafe. It isn't very modern looking. Compared to the other buildings that surround the area, this feel out of place.
While everything in the outside world moved forward and progressed, this place feels as if it hasn't changed in years. That's not to say that ambience is terrible. The booths are well maintained and there is nothing that looks visually unappealing. Many people speak in hushed tones and waitresses can be seen walking to and fro, taking orders, picking up places or talking with some of the customers. Generally, everyone seems to be enjoying themselves, even the people that sit alone at the bar are seemingly happy. Maybe this mood will rub off on my brother and me.
Yeah, I don't think so.
I yawn quite loudly which attracts the attention of the patrons at another booth. They're adults who seem to be talking about some important business. Their eyes linger on me for a few moments until they see that I'm not very interesting and return to their discussion.
It feels like it's been forever but I'm glad that I finally have a chance to get out of my uniform and into my regular clothes. I'm pretty sure that if I had been wearing my Yamaku uniform, those businessmen would have looked at me much longer and would have tried to discover what's wrong with me. But as long as I keep my left hand out of sight, I'm just your average teenager in a dark jeans and a red t-shirt with the design of a shield over his heart.
I chuckle a bit at my own thoughts.
Average teenager.
What a funny way to think of myself. Average. It's been a while since I've used that word for myself.
The waitress returns and places a glass of water on the table. I thank her and take a long sip. I pull out my phone to take a look at the time.
2:30 pm.
I sigh and lean back in my chair and look out the window. It's actually really sunny and beautiful outside. The storm from a few days ago has finally completely past and it's left the sky calm and clear.
Damn it world. Why did you have to make today look so wonderful if it's just going to be full of shit?
I watch people walk by for a few minutes. It's actually pretty relaxing seeing everyone go by until I see someone I recognize. A man, tanner than most but not tan enough to be considered foreign, walks past the window and heads to the front door. I look over to this man and see his short, straight black hair, dark brown eyes, and short, black beard under his chin. He's basically an older version of me with the expectation that his hair never gets curly, he's a bit bulkier than I and his left hand isn't always in a half-clenched position. He's wearing a dark blue polo, brown khakis and stupid grin on his face. He's none other than my older brother, Toshiro Atoza
After a few seconds of talking with the hostess, he is directed to my booth. When he arrives, he takes a seat looks at me up and down. "Hey little brother!" He's overly eager with me. His cheerful attitude sounds fake and forced.
Ugh, just hearing his voice is giving me a headache.
After a bit of silence on my part, I answer. "Hello Toshiro. What took you so long to get here?" Granted my tone isn't very exciting, but it's hard to act that way after he had me waiting for so long.
His smile falters a bit as he starts to scratch his chin. "Well, there was some traffic getting here and I couldn't find the cafe."
"You could have called. I'm somewhat familiar with this area."
"But where's the fun in that? Besides, it makes it easier for me to come here next time."
"Next time?" I say in a surprised, yet quiet tone.
"Yeah. I'll visit every week. Or maybe every other week. I don't want to bother you too much."
I start rubbing my temples. My headache is really starting to act up.
Toshiro looks around for a bit before addressing me. "Have you ordered anything yet?"
I shake my head and point to the menu that stands in the middle of the table. He grabs hold of it and directs all of his attention to it. I do the same with mine, but hold it up to the point where it blocks my vision of him. "This my first time coming here, so I'm not sure what to expect. It must be good though, considering that many students from Yamaku come here."
Toshiro remains quiet for a few moments, I can hear him rubbing his arm. "How's school?" His voice sounds nervous and it's obvious to me why.
This is one of the many landmines that we used to avoid when we talked before. School and grades were one of the many things that drove us apart. "It's not like you to ask about how I'm doing in my classes."
"I'm not asking about that. I know you do well in you classes, you always do." He mumbles that last part. "I want to know about your school. Are all the students there... you know?"
I set down my menu to look at him. "Are they what?"
He hesitates and tries to avoid eye contact. "You know, are they all disabled?"
"It doesn't matter. A person's disability doesn't define who they are or what their worth is."
He jumps a little and his grip on the menu tightens. He knows what I'm referring to, I'm sure of it.
A waitress comes and asks if we're ready to order. We both say yes and place our orders. He orders coffee and a turkey sandwich. I order green tea and a tuna sandwich. When she takes our menus and walks off, Toshiro turns to me. "So you do like tea. I didn't know that."
"I met someone who introduced me to it." I hesitate a bit at the thought of Midori Kagami.
"So you're making friends. That's good. You were always a bit of a loner. I was worried that you might have had a problem with other people."
"Why would that worry you?" I ask.
"I understand what it's like to have your life suddenly change. It's difficult but it becomes easier if you have friends by your side. Trust me on that one." He looks past me and stares out the window.
There was a time when he wouldn't talk to the family. It makes sense that he'd find solace with his friends. But I don't appreciate him comparing his life to mine. My stroke and his falling out aren't on the same level. He caused his problem; I never asked for mine.
We don't speak again until the waitress returns with our food. I have to admit, even with the place packed, the service is very fast. The waitress sets down my tea in front of me and as I thank her, Toshiro grabs it and moves it to my other side.
"What are you doing?" I ask once the waitress leaves.
"I'm making sure you can grab it with you good hand."
"I can grab it just fine." To prove my point, I reach for my cup with my left hand. I take a sip and put my cup down with a bit of force that rattles the table.
Toshiro watches me in silence as I perform this action. He doesn't say a word and just eats his food.
The awkwardness only grows as we start eating. Neither of us can think of anything to say and my little act of defiance didn't help start any new lines of conversation.
With our plates cleared, I try to start a conversation. "Have you talked to Mom and Dad lately?"
He fidgets a bit in his seat. "A little. They've been really busy, so they didn't have time to visit you. They're still worried though. Your accident really did a number on them."
"How so?"
"Mom was a little hysterical at first and Dad, well you know how he is. He just tried to keep his mind occupied on other things."
I take a sip of my tea. "What about you?"
"I was honestly surprised. You were always the lucky one, so I didn't know what to think about what happened to you."
I furrow my brow. Lucky? He thinks I'm lucky? Yeah, it takes luck to have a stroke.
"Don't be surprised if they don't call you anytime soon. It's what they do."
"What's that suppose to mean?" I ask.
"Nothing. I didn't mean anything by it." He waves his hand in front of his face to dismiss the notion.
There he goes again. He's comparing my life to his. We're nothing alike! Just stop doing that!
I can feel a pit growing in my stomach. The more I talk to him the more painful it becomes. It's making my head hurt and my heart rate is increasing. My breathing is becoming sporadic.
"Yaso? Are you all right?" He gets out of his seat and put his hand on my shoulder.
When I see his face, I am suddenly remind of that day in the hospital. The image is so clear, so vivid. It's almost as I'm there right now. I can see him standing at the edge of my bed. He's looking down on me and talking. He's words are mumbled but there is one word that's loud and clear. Only one: worthless.
I slap his hand away. "Don't touch me!"
"What's wrong with you?"
"S-shut up! Just stop talking."
My head is killing me. Try as I might to calm myself down, it isn't working. I keep seeing that image in my head. I keep hearing him say that word time and time again. Worthless. Worthless. Worthless!
"Yaso?" Once again he talks to me.
The pit in my stomach is unbearable, I just want to scream at him. But I can't. I have to keep it under control. I can't make a scene here. "Leave. Just go a-away!"
"What are you talking about?"
"I don't need you here! I don't WANT you here! Leave me alone!"
The can feel the gazes of the other patrons turn in our direction. It's no surprise that they're looking at us, I'm here practically shouting at my brother.
Toshiro gets out of his seat and places enough money to cover both of our meals on the table. "I don't know what's gotten into you. When you've calmed down, call me okay?"
I wordlessly nod my head and he leaves.
My head still hurts. I ask for another cup of tea in hopes that it'll help me calm down.
Just what was that? Why did my head hurt so much? Why did that image seem so real?
I close my eyes and rub my temples to help alleviate the headache. I hear a waitress come by and place a new cup of tea in front of me. She quickly cleans up the rest of the table and leaves. For some reason, however, it feels like she's still here.
I open my eyes to see where the waitress is but I don't see her. Who I do see is a face that I've only seen once before. Straight, long brown hair, mismatched eyes, one brown and the other blue. She's dressed in a violet v-neck blouse with a white shirt underneath and light grey, form-fitting pants.
The mysterious girl who no one knows anything about, Midori Kagami, stands next to me. "What a-are you doing here?"
She keeps her eyes downcast and avoids making eye contact. "The rest of the cafe is full and you were the only person that I recognized. So I was wondering, will you let me join you for a bit?"
I take a look around that cafe and notice that there are still a few open seats by the bar. "Go right ahead, I don't mind."
She nods slightly and takes the seat across from me. "Thank you. I was actually going to meet someone else here but-"
"If you want me to leave, you can just tell me outright." I bitterly interject.
"No, you don't have to go!" she hastily replies. "I don't have a right to kick you out. You were here first."
I sigh. "It's all right, I was just getting ready to leave. It's been a long day."
"Does it have to do with the person that just left?"
I flinch. It's bad enough that I made a scene, but to have someone I know witness it is worse. My stomach feels like it's in a knot and my head hurts even more at the thought of it.
I don't respond. She takes my silence as an opportunity to give a waitress her order. She only orders a cup of French Vanilla Tea. When she turns her attention back to me, she brings her hands together in front of her. "I'm sorry. I don't mean to pry, but it just seemed like he bothering you."
"He was family."
She raises her eyebrows at my word choice.
"I haven't been getting along with my family lately."
"I'm sorry to hear that, but what happened?"
I take a sip from my tea. "It's a long story."
She offers a small smile. "I don't mind listening."
I let out a dry chuckle as I take another sip. Satisfied with the taste, I slowly put the teacup back down on the table. My hand slips however, which results in the contents being spilled on the table. As the puddle of tea moves along the surface, it slowly makes its way to the edge and it falls on my pants. "Ow!" I shout as the liquid burns me
Why does it feel like I've done this before?
She quickly grabs some napkins and begins soaking up the tea that spilled. "Are you all right?"
"Yeah, I'm all right. The tea wasn't too hot."
As we clean up the mess, a waitress come by with more napkins and offers me a new cup of tea. It doesn't take long to clean up the spilt tea. By the time we finish, I start to remember why this felt familiar. It was just like that dream I had.
Too bad reality didn't follow the same path.
"What a shame." I whisper.
"Hm?"
"No, it was nothing." I say as I wave my hand in front of my face.
Midori pushes the used napkins aside and faces me. "So you were telling me about your family."
I don't see the need to talk about my family anymore, but she seem genuinely interested. There's also a familiar yet comforting air about her.
"Right," I mumble as I rub the back of my neck. "Let's just say that after my accident, my family just started to treat me differently. I was supposed to be the one that would live out his dreams and live life to the fullest. But after what happened, it just didn't seem possible anymore."
She tilts her head to the side. "That's why you came to Yamaku isn't it? To learn how to cope with what happened to you."
"They don't see it the same way. I know that Yamaku is supposed to be a place to help people like us but sometimes I think that my parents just sent me here to get rid of me. Out of sight, out of mind as they say."
She reflects on my words for a few moments. "I don't believe anyone would do that. The school might be hidden away but that doesn't mean that we're what society doesn't what to worry about."
I scoff at her claim. "You don't know my parents. My father called me a cripple and my mother was sorry I was ever born. My brother only visited me once and when he did, he called me worthless."
I can feel my head hurt again. The pit in my stomach returns as I recall my stay at the hospital. It's a painful memory that should be hidden away, not talked about openly to someone I don't even know.
Midori grips at the golden chain around her neck. "Do you hate your family?"
I pause. I've never really thought about it before. I mean, it's justifiable if I do, right?
"I don't know." I flatly state.
Midori stares at me for a few moments. Her grip on the golden chain only tightens. I can't tell what's attached to it, her hand is covering it up. "Yaso, can you keep a secret?"
I look at her and furrow my brow. "What is it?"
"Since you told me about your family. It's only fair I tell something in return."
"What are you talking about?"
She opens and closes her mouth several times as if she wants to speak. She take one deep breath after another trying to form her sentence but nothing comes out. After about her fifth breath, she finally manages to say something. "It's about me and Nakai."
What? Does she want to tell me about her improper relationship right now? I told her about my family, something personal, and she thinks that it's fair, equal, to tell me something like that!
No! I don't want to hear it!
She begins speaking again. "I know there are rumors about me and I thought it's only fair to tell you-"
"Just stop." She looks surprised as I interrupt her. "You might think that it's the right thing to do, to tell me something like that after I told you about my family, but it's not. I don't want to hear it."
"But-"
"No, I already know what you're going to say and I don't want to hear it. It's obvious, so painfully obvious that even the new guy who's only been here for a week knows about it." My tone is harsh and bitter. "I don't want to know anything, okay? Nothing!"
I already have enough to deal with. I don't want to be considered some accessory to a crime just because I knew what was going on and didn't say anything. I don't need that.
A hurt expression crosses her face and she looks down on the table. "Oh. I understand." She whispers in an almost inaudible level.
I stand up from the table. I pull out my wallet and leave enough money for my tea.
"Where are you going?" She asks without even looking at me.
"I think Ryo was right about you. You are trouble." I start to walk off. "Good bye, Kagami."
Before I exit the building I turn back to where she sits. She's shaking and her hands still are wrapped around her necklace.
I think it's better if we never talk again. It'll be easier this way.
I turn back towards the door and walk out. I take a deep breath of fresh air as it hits me, in hopes that it'll help calm my nerves. It makes little difference.
I can't believe her! I can't think of any logical reason why she would want to tell me about her and Nakai. It makes no sense. What does she want from me? I already have enough to deal with after Toshiro came, I don't need know any more unnecessary drama.
This is why I avoided people before. They start to wrap you up in the mess they make and when they fall, they drag you down as well. I should have never come to the Shanghai. I should have just stood him up and then I wouldn't have had to see her. I don't need this right now.
My headache still lingers and it's making walking a harder task then it should be. Going back to my dorm in this state isn't a good idea. I need to rest, at least until I can walk normally.
A nearby park seems like the best place to rest. It seems pretty quiet. Trees and shrubbery line the edges of the park. In the middle are a number of trees where one can take a seat under and rest. There's even a fairly large pond in the center of the area with benches along its border.
I take a seat on one of the benches beneath a group of trees that look towards the pond. Children can be seen running around, men are fishing in the pond and a family celebrates the birthday of a relative. They're having fun and sharing happiness with each other while I sit here and sulk.
I just don't understand anything. Why did Toshiro come? He didn't need to visit, I don't even want him here. What does he have to gain from coming here? Did my parents force him? Did they make him do it so they don't have to?
What about Kagami? What's she doing at the Shanghai in the first place? Why did she come to me? We don't even know each other that well. Why did she seem so interested in my family?
Family. MY family.
Do I hate my family?
I do have a reason to hate them, but I can't bring myself to admit it. It doesn't feel right to say it. What they did is unforgiveable. No one should ever be that heartless to their own family and yet, I still can't hate them, at least not completely.
My phone suddenly starts ringing. I take a look at the caller id; I don't recognize this number.
"Hello." I answer.
"Is this Yaso?" asks a female voice. The static makes it hard to tell who it is.
"Y-yes, but who's calling?"
"It's Kamiko. I want to know where you are right now." Her voice is somewhat forceful.
"I'm in the park. Why do you want to know?"
"Good, stay there. Don't you dare leave before I get there."
"Wait, why-" My phone beeps indicating the call has ended. "- do you want to know?"
Ok, that was strange. I don't remember giving her my number.
Only a few minutes of watching children play tag pass before I start hearing someone approach from behind me. As I turn to see who it is, my eyes go wide at the sight. I see Kamiko dressed in her school uniform, which is odd because we didn't have class today. What I'm more surprised at is that she's dragging Kagami towards me.
"Kamiko, what are you doing?" I ask.
She doesn't answer, preferring to stand in front of me, her hands on her hips, and her eyes locked on to mine.
"Why are you dragging around Kagami? What are you planning to-."
Suddenly a flash of white burns through my vision. I feel my head forcibly shifted to the right. I don't know what happened but the stinging sensation from my cheek explains everything. It happened so fast that I can only see the aftermath. I see Kagami covering her mouth with her hands, a shocked expression visible over them. I see Kamiko's right hand held out in front of her, in the position it took after its brief contact with my face.
It's almost as if everything in the world just stopped. No one is moving and not a word is spoken. I just don't believe it. She slapped me. No 'hello' nor any warning, just a quick slap and nothing else.
Kamiko is the first to break the endless silence. "You deserve that for what you've done, don't try to argue it." Her words are cold and serious, nothing like her usual manner of speech.
I remain silent. My mind is still trying to register what happened.
"Do you know why I did that?"
I slowly shake my head.
She rubs her right hand and sighs. "Two reasons. One, you just called her Kagami. You promised me that you wouldn't call people by their last names. You went back on your word."
"But that doesn't merit me getting slapped!" I start raising my voice but only barely manage to keep my temper under control.
"The other reason is worse!" She takes a step closer to me and pokes me in the chest. "You made her cry and you did nothing to help. You just left her there alone. I can't believe you would do such a thing. I'm disappointed in you."
True, I did do that. I know it was wrong but I didn't want to deal with the issues that Kagami would have brought to me. I already had to endure my brother, I didn't want something else thrown on me. I'm ashamed to admit that I did something like that but I had no choice.
I can't think of an appropriate response that wouldn't sound like a lame excuse. The only thing that I manage to do is break eye contact and stare at the ground beneath me.
"Apologize to her! If you don't, I'll never respect you again."
"Kamiko, please don't say things like that," Kagami quietly says.
Kamiko glares at me for what feels like hours until she turns around with a loud "Hmph!" She begins walking off as she says, "I thought more of you, Yaso. Don't talk to me until you she forgives you."
I slump back into the bench I was in before with my head hanging low.
Well, that's just great. I tried to avoid being involved in something I thought was wrong and now I'm losing all of the people I considered friends. Just once, I'd like my decisions to not come back and bite me in the ass.
This is why I preferred solitude. I could do whatever I wanted and I had no one to judge me for it.
I move my hand to my cheek. I touch it lightly and it stings. She must have put a lot of strength into that slap...
As I sit, examining my cheek. I hear someone come closer to me and sit down next to me on the bench. I look up and see Kagami's worried eyes.
"Does your cheek still hurt?" She nervously asks.
"A little bit."
She fidgets a little and grips her necklace again. "I'm sorry about what happened."
I'm surprised by her apology. "Why are you apologizing? I'm the one who yelled at you and made you cry. If anyone should apologize it's me."
She shakes her head. "If it wasn't for me, Kamiko wouldn't have hit you and she wouldn't be mad at you."
"She takes her job too seriously, she would have done that to anyone."
She shakes her head again, more violently this time. "You don't understand. She hit you specifically because of me."
"What do you mean?"
She lets out a deep breath and her hands fall to her side. I can now see what her necklace is. It's two golden rings.
"We grew up together. We're cousins but she's more like an older sister to me. I was meeting her for lunch at the Shanghai. When she found me crying, she became furious and swore to make the person responsible suffer."
"You're r-related?" My head falls into my hands. "That would explain why I never heard her talk like that before. God, I'm an idiot. She must hate me."
She giggles. "You're lucky. She actually went easy on you. I've seen her do much worse."
I cringe at the thought of it. Her slap hurt a lot, I hate to imagine what was worse.
"Don't worry. If I say that you're okay then she'll forgive you."
I sigh. I'm an idiot, aren't I. Kagami is a kind person and I snapped at her for no real reason. She was just trying to be more open to me and I shot her down. I'm a complete asshole.
"Listen," I lift my head and look into her eyes. "I'm sorry about what I said earlier. It was just that I was talking to my brother before we met and I was just mad from that. I had no reason to yell at you."
A small smile forms on her face. "It's okay. I'm at fault too. I was being too nosy and sort of pushed you to the edge."
That reminds me. "Back at the Shanghai, before I got angry, you were trying to say something weren't you? What was it?"
Her hands quickly make their way to her necklace and her cheeks crimson. "Oh that. Well, you were telling me so much about your family, I wanted to be fair and tell you about mine."
"But you mentioned Mr. Nakai." I feel my stomach twisting in a knot at the fact that I just asked about her relationship with him.
Her grip tightens on her necklace. "Yeah, I did."
Wait. She wanted to talk about her family and in doing so she mentioned Nakai. Oh good God, I'm an idiot. It all makes sense now.
"I haven't told this to anyone but it's only fair I tell you this because you were so open to me. My real name isn't Midori Kagami. It's Midori Nakai."
My stomach feels terrible now. Not because of the reason from before but for something else. Guilt and shame for rushing to a conclusion about what she wanted to tell me. "So d-does that mean that Mr. Nakai is your dad?"
She nods her head. "Both of my parents are teachers at Yamaku. That's why I don't agree with what you said about how parents leave their children at this school to forget about them. I'm here because I love my parents and I couldn't bear being apart from them."
"Both of your parents?"
"Yes, Hisao Nakai is my father and Lilly Satou is my mother."
My eyes go wide. She's Miss Satou's daughter! The one and only time I talked to Satou, I mentioned the rumor about an affair going on between Nakai and their daughter! I let my head my head fall back into my hands.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing, I just realized how wrong I was about a lot of things."
She looks down to the ground and sighs. "That stupid rumor that everyone passes around, I hate it."
"But your his daughter. Why don't you tell everyone that?"
"I can't. Yamaku Academy has rules against the children of faculty attending."
Rules against people attending? The only rule I remember that restricted admittance was the rule against people with mental disabilities. "What rule are you talking about?"
"Faculty members aren't allowed to have their children attend because of insurance reasons. There was an incident long ago when a student almost lost her life because a teacher was more focused on his son."
"But I've heard that Nakai has connections with the higher ups. Couldn't he have done something."
She shakes her head. "The best that he could do was to send me to another school like Yamaku."
"Then how are you here?"
"My parents got divorced in order to give me a reason to go by another name. They also used their connections to get some key faculty members to look the other way when certain information comes up about my history."
If that's true then the fact that she's related to two teachers should remain hidden from everyone. "Why are you telling me this?"
"Because it's fair. You told me about your family, so I had tell you about mine."
"So by that logic, if anyone told you about their past, you'll tell them about this too?"
She tilts her head to the side as if she's in deep thought. "No, I wouldn't. You're the new guy at school and you met me before you knew anything about those rumors. You were very kind and open about what has happened to you, so I thought I could be the same way," She says with a bashful smile.
"You really are trouble," I sigh. "But I think I can deal with it."
We both share a laugh. It's unbelievable how wrong I was about this girl. All the things that everyone think they know about her are wrong. She's not a girl without morals who enjoys tabooed relationships, she's just another person who has deal with what life has thrown at her.
She looks up to the sky and sighs. "The sun is going to go down soon, so I should go back." She stands up and turns to me. "Are you going to head out too?"
I shake my head. "Not just yet. I'm just going to stay here a little longer."
"Okay then." She turns and begins walking away. "Oh, before I forget. Do you remember the room where we first met?"
I nod.
"If you'd like, you could join me for lunch there." She tilts her head in a way that makes her hair hide her face. I swear she's blushing.
"I'd like that, Midori." I can't help smiling as she walks off.
I lean back into the bench and watch as the sky turns from a light blue, to orange and eventually black. I take a deep breath and enjoy the crisp night air.
The more time that passes, the more stars become visible in the night sky. I've always loved the stars. No matter how much my life changes, no matter where I go, I can always look up at the sky and watch the stars. I admire them because even though they are so far away, so small to the naked eye, they continue to shine brightly. Even when no one is watching them, they shine because they can.
I was expecting this day to be terrible. While it did have its fair share of hardships during the beginning, it hit a high point towards the end. It almost makes me forget about what happened with my brother. It's funny, my day completely turned around because of one person.
Midori Nakai. What a strange and mysterious girl. Even though she told me about her family, I really don't know anything about her. I'll admit, I'm a little curious about who she really is. As far as I can tell, she's a kind and beautiful girl who enjoys her tea.
...
I laugh at the fact that I know next to nothing about her. I guess that will come in time. I just need to have patience. A feel a smile slowly start to form when the realization hits me. It's been a long time since I've had something work towards, it's been a long time since I've gone on one of my adventures.
I stare at the stars with a wide smile on my face. You're not the only ones that can shine brightly tonight.
When I finally reach the gates Yamaku, I'm surprise to find someone standing there. It's Kamiko and now that she's seen me, she's walking towards. I feel my body tense as it remembers the last time I saw her.
She stands in front of me with her hands on her hips and her eyes locked on to mine. I hold my breath because this is just like before.
"Wahahaha~! See what did I tell you! You're perfect for the Student Council!" Her laugh catches me by surprise.
"W-what?"
"You made a girl cry and you went back to make amends. It really happened this time and you followed through. You're perfect for the council."
This girl never ceases to amaze me. My hand makes its way to my forehead. "You've got to be kidding me! It's too late to be doing this! How can you be mad at me one second and then the next you try to make me join?"
"You made up with Midori, so you're okay with me." She gives a thumbs up and a wide, toothy grin. "Now we can resume our usual thing. So are you going to join or not?"
"For the hundredth time, no!"
She puffs her cheeks and pouts. "Fine then, if you don't join then I won't show you something interesting."
I walk past her and wave behind my back. "Not interested, good night."
She runs up to me and grabs my arm. "No, wait! Don't go, come with me to the girls dorm."
Did I hear that right? Did she just run up to me and ask me to come with her to her room?
The blood starts rushing to my cheeks. "Out of all p-people, I didn't expect you would ask such a t-thing."
I've never seen a face turn red so fast. She lets go of me and jumps back. "No, I didn't mean it like that. Just shut up and come with me."
She leads me to the girls dorm and stops just outside the main entrance. She brings up one finger and holds it against her lips. "Don't make any loud noises and you should be fine."
"Fine for what?"
She doesn't answer me and walks through the door. We tiptoe down the hall without making a sound. I follow Kamiko until she stops next to a door. She points to her ear and then at the door. She moves aside to allow me to peak into to the room.
The first thing I notice is the sound of music being played in the lounge area. The sound is clear and deep, there's no stereo system that I know of that has that kind of quality. As I look deeper into the room I see someone sitting in front of a piano, swaying side to side as she hits every note of the song she's playing. It's Midori. She's playing and it seems like she's entranced by her song.
A tap on my shoulder turns my attention back to Kamiko. "Ever since we were little girls, she would always play the piano like this. This is her dream."
"Her dream? Does she want to be a concert pianist?"
She quietly laughs. "Don't be ridiculous. Midori isn't very outgoing, she'd rather die than play in front of hundreds of people. Take a look in front of her, what do you see."
I peak through the door again and try to see in front of her. I don't see anything.
"I don't get it. What am I suppose to see?"
Kamiko looks into the room and smiles. "She doesn't use sheet music. She knows that song by heart. It's Debussy's First Arabesque."
"That's incredible."
She turns back to me. "When you were younger, did you used to draw?"
"Yeah I did."
"Let me guess, you would show your parents your work of art, right?"
I nod.
"Think about that and apply it to her."
What is she getting at? I imagine a younger Midori drawing something and showing it to her parents. It seems perfectly normal until I remember who her mother is. Lilly Satou, the blind English teacher.
"She learned how to play because of her mother?"
Kamiko nods. "She wants to learn as many songs as she can before she loses her eyesight so that she can share them with her mother. She comes here in the middle of the night to practice in private."
I start moving away from the door. "If that's why she plays at night then we shouldn't be watching her."
Kamiko looks back into the lounge with a soft smile. "She's smiling, you know. She's smiling because this is the first time in years that she's played this early. She's knows that someone will see her and she doesn't care."
I look through the door again. I see Midori swaying in time with the song she's playing. She moves with a reckless abandon, smiling as every note she plays mixes together create the melody.
Kamiko starts to walk off. "Just so you know curfew's about to start soon so you'll get in trouble if you're caught here."
I pay her no heed and continue watching Midori.
She sighs contently. "Good night Yaso. Don't get in trouble." She heads down the hall and disappears when she turns the corner.
I can't take my eyes off Midori as she plays. She moves gracefully from one key to the other. Each note she plays is filled with such raw emotion, that the mixture on the sound becomes the only thing I can focus on. I can tell she's passionate about the song she's playing. The more I watch her, the more I feel like I can learn something about her.
Switching from high notes to low notes, slowing the down the rhythm and picking it up again, I watch every moment she makes as she plays her song. It's simply amazing and makes me want to get closer to her, but I don't. I stay where I am, just outside of the lounge door, for fear that I might interrupt her when she's being so honest with her emotions.
For the rest of the night, I can't get the music she played out of my head. I don't think I want to, it was beautiful and something I don't want to soon forget.
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End of Act 1
*Next Chapter*
*Sighs* I enjoyed writing this. I can't wait to get started on Act 2.
Complete Author's Notes for Act 0 and Act 1 coming soon.
Also, from this point onward, my updates are going to be slower since my summer is coming to an end. I'm a student first, everything else comes later. That's not to say that I won't be writing, just don't expect me to release chapters weekly for a long while.