I can understand this, but I had this constant wonder of maybe another one even being better. I got Emi first, then did Hanako, then Shizune, then Rin, then Lilly. I actually liked all of them (albeit there were a few slow parts in Shizunes... I still really liked pieces out of it). In the end I'm glad I did all of them because I realized that there are pieces out of every heroine and route that I admire and really like.Titus wrote:I think there are many people here who wont so easily give up their favorite route because it might be changing history or something to them, thinking their heroine character would be the best possible outcome for Hisao.
I wonder if it's related to what I felt when I would come to the realization finding someone just like your favorite characters from here in real life seems next to impossible. I feel ya though bud, I don't know if I'd say I'm depressed about it (or as deeply as you say you are)... but I'm feeling pretty mixed and rough from playing through. I guess since I'm new to animes/VNs/etc. and still in the closet about liking those things so much I end up feeling worse just for the fact that I'm letting something like them make me feel so bizarre. Share more thought you have on what you said, maybe it'll help me figure out what's up with me too.Cobalt wrote:I don't think i'll be ready to play another route until a month or so from now, but for different reasons than most of you; Playing through Emi's path, which is really one of the most uplifting stories i've ever read, sent me straight into emotional turmoil, I finished it last night (I got the good end), and I felt really happy, but now i'm feeling really depressed again, it doesn't make any sense, I got a happy ending that made me feel good, and now i'm depressed for no apparent reason. So I think i'll only be able to play another route after I piece myself together again, and feel like i'm ready to take on the emotional stress that the game inevitably gives you.
Very well, maybe pouring my guts out on here will help some.ForLackofaBetterName wrote:I wonder if it's related to what I felt when I would come to the realization finding someone just like your favorite characters from here in real life seems next to impossible. I feel ya though bud, I don't know if I'd say I'm depressed about it (or as deeply as you say you are)... but I'm feeling pretty mixed and rough from playing through. I guess since I'm new to animes/VNs/etc. and still in the closet about liking those things so much I end up feeling worse just for the fact that I'm letting something like them make me feel so bizarre. Share more thought you have on what you said, maybe it'll help me figure out what's up with me too.Cobalt wrote:I don't think i'll be ready to play another route until a month or so from now, but for different reasons than most of you; Playing through Emi's path, which is really one of the most uplifting stories i've ever read, sent me straight into emotional turmoil, I finished it last night (I got the good end), and I felt really happy, but now i'm feeling really depressed again, it doesn't make any sense, I got a happy ending that made me feel good, and now i'm depressed for no apparent reason. So I think i'll only be able to play another route after I piece myself together again, and feel like i'm ready to take on the emotional stress that the game inevitably gives you.
This, a thousand times this. The feeling of knowing you want something different, knowing you want a change, but have no goddamn idea what it is, it's just --Cobalt wrote:Lastly, i'm feeling really weird, it's like something is bothering me to the extent of making me feel completely dejected, but I have absolutely no idea what it could be. Or like i've become inspired to change my way of living to something better, but with no way to change it.
But I could easily be misinterpreting this, all I know is that it feels bad, bro.
myshoesarebrown wrote:This, a thousand times this. The feeling of knowing you want something different, knowing you want a change, but have no goddamn idea what it is, it's just --Cobalt wrote:Lastly, i'm feeling really weird, it's like something is bothering me to the extent of making me feel completely dejected, but I have absolutely no idea what it could be. Or like i've become inspired to change my way of living to something better, but with no way to change it.
But I could easily be misinterpreting this, all I know is that it feels bad, bro.
A Humbled Fan wrote:myshoesarebrown wrote:This, a thousand times this. The feeling of knowing you want something different, knowing you want a change, but have no goddamn idea what it is, it's just --Cobalt wrote:Lastly, i'm feeling really weird, it's like something is bothering me to the extent of making me feel completely dejected, but I have absolutely no idea what it could be. Or like i've become inspired to change my way of living to something better, but with no way to change it.
But I could easily be misinterpreting this, all I know is that it feels bad, bro.
I had that feeling. I ended up figuring oh what it was about a week after I finished. It'll come to you!
Wanting more is one of the feelings i feel, i can understand what you mean.Hctap wrote:I think the feeling about this VN is the fact that it ends.
The degree that we're drawn into the girls lives, and the amount of emotional investment we've put into it means that it's almost like a death of a loved one when the story is complete.
I haven't completed it yet (only got Lilly's path to go), and I STILL feel guilty when Emi (who's path I followed when I first played) chastises me for not going down to the track.
It's a story that gets under your skin, like all good stories do.
Can I take this opportunity to thank the Guys at 4 Leaf Studios for making such a thing of wonder... When's the next one?
Koppov wrote:First VN I have played, I didn't even know you can have different paths. Thought Emi's path is only one as it was so long and detailedly written. Can't be more paths, right? It was free, for god sake. I had in back of my mind there might be "bad" and "good" ending while playing through, but it would be with Emi either way. I didn't think the decisions affected how the story continues much at all, I thought it only made you choose different side path but it would return to same path after few screens. So it was bit of a surprise to me. It's better that way though, I didn't choose the path depending on what girl I wanted to know better by initial expression, I just made the natural decisions in order to make Hisao continue going to school without any problems.
Now I don't feel like seeing those other paths, it feels like cheating on Emi. I can't deny Emi's the type of energetic girl who I'd wish to partner with, to add counter-weight to my traits that are much more withdrawn and emotionless, but hopefully offer her traits that she lacks, like calmness, rational thought, humor and protection and perhaps in process creating a "full" or something. Rin felt uncomfortably familiar, which I didn't want to even admit, but reading here a little bit I probably only saw the surface. I thought the writer made Rin typical artsy, non-sensible kind of side character, who you couldn't get to know better, which I thought was all too predictable choice of design.
I'm now a little depressed and think how self-centered it all is. Initially I approached Katawa Shoujo as a quick fap material, all the while thinking how horny those Japanese guys must be for making these. It changed though and I didn't even want too see any eroge material after a while, when I got to that point they felt very off for me. I haven't watched really any pornography since, and I think I will keep it that way. I'm left with longing for partner like Emi, though, perhaps pretty stupid, but can't deny it. I just want to take care of someone that emotional, pure and full of energy. Perhaps I'll return to look into the other paths, but it feels forced and I don't even know how to trigger those other paths, I don't want to think about how to trigger paths.
This is one reason I'm glad I ended up doing Lilly's route last, since Hanako seems to gain independence in a way that seems unlikely outside of Lilly and Hanako's routes. I mean, none of the characters really need Hisao in a white-knight sense, but all the good endings have a pretty big and mostly positive influence on Hisao and the current girl. Which makes undoing all that to do someone else's route seem kinda sad, in a way...AlphaAscalon wrote:It's kinda funny, I've played a bunch of VN's and for the first time I'm feeling apprehensive about going down another path. I'm thinking weird crap like how will Hanako ever be happy if someones not there for her.......If Hanako's writer reads this I want you to know that I thank you for giving me this wonderful treasure.
- Rykn
Same thing. Been a week already, havent finished the game yet, and havent felt any heeds for doing it anymore. Its as if one of the many aspects of becoming a better person thanks to KS was to stop fapping (like it was wrong; but you get the picture).Koppov wrote:It changed though and I didn't even want too see any eroge material after a while, when I got to that point they felt very off for me. I haven't watched really any pornography since, and I think I will keep it that way.