Hanako's Broken Heart Club

[Xanatos]

So... after 10 months, Kyra and I broke up tonight. I want to say things ended well, but I don't know... She's going to be moving away and despite me wanting to follow her, I know that she's going to be busy with college and setting up a new life. I was afraid that I might not be a part of her future... and I want to say that I really just want her to be happy.


I want to say, but I know I can't...

Who's Kyra? Need a refresher course. ^_^;

[Wanderingheartache]

So... after 10 months, Kyra and I broke up tonight. I want to say things ended well, but I don't know... She's going to be moving away and despite me wanting to follow her, I know that she's going to be busy with college and setting up a new life. I was afraid that I might not be a part of her future... and I want to say that I really just want her to be happy.


I want to say, but I know I can't...

Who's Kyra? Need a refresher course. ^_^;

Kyra, the girl who helped me get through the bullshit that I'd been put through since January... the girlfriend I used to gush about who likes cardfight vanguard and who I took on a date to an arcade. She's the girl my friend Naomi introduced me to and she's the girl who's going to Chicago for college... the one who helped make my familial bonds stronger.


She's now my ex... and it's painful

[OtakuNinja]

It's been a while, but I just want to give you guys an update on what I wrote July 31st 2012.

I was at a convention last week and met a nice girl who changed my life. This change led to me acting a bit different to the girl I wrote about a year ago, ultimately ending with a very nice evening/night with a movie and lots of cuddling. c:

[Sea]

It's been a while, but I just want to give you guys an update on what I wrote July 31st 2012.

I was at a convention last week and met a nice girl who changed my life. This change led to me acting a bit different to the girl I wrote about a year ago, ultimately ending with a very nice evening/night with a movie and lots of cuddling. c:

Nicolas Cage approves of this development

[Xanatos]

So... after 10 months, Kyra and I broke up tonight. I want to say things ended well, but I don't know... She's going to be moving away and despite me wanting to follow her, I know that she's going to be busy with college and setting up a new life. I was afraid that I might not be a part of her future... and I want to say that I really just want her to be happy.


I want to say, but I know I can't...

Who's Kyra? Need a refresher course. ^_^;

Kyra, the girl who helped me get through the bullshit that I'd been put through since January... the girlfriend I used to gush about who likes cardfight vanguard and who I took on a date to an arcade. She's the girl my friend Naomi introduced me to and she's the girl who's going to Chicago for college... the one who helped make my familial bonds stronger.


She's now my ex... and it's painful

Ah, well...It happens. You move on and find another.

[Wanderingheartache]

if only it were as simple as merely "moving on and finding another"...


Anyway, I'm trying not to be hung up about it. She's a good person... if we cross paths again I know that I have a really good friend in her.

[wazuzu]

if only it were as simple as merely "moving on and finding another"...


Anyway, I'm trying not to be hung up about it. She's a good person... if we cross paths again I know that I have a really good friend in her.

It is that simple. It's you who makes a big deal out of it.
Let's think for a second. Now, you broke up already. There's no reason in trying to fix the thing that didn't manage to work at first place, so I am assuming you can't be together again. So, you have 2 options now: you can eat yourself from the inside, constantly thinking about them times with her and stuff, about what your relationship might have been, etc, doing all kinds of kicking yourself in the nuts and sticking to the past (which is gone now), OR you can accept that, accept her decision and move on for yourself. The decision is yours in the end, but the result is always that simple and obvious, at least I've never seen other ones in my life, and I've seen some shit.

[YZQ]

Life is how seriously (or lightly) you treat things around you. Do the appropriate treatment, and things become easier.

[Wanderingheartache]

Wazuzu, that's the thing... we were working really well but the distance was going to be difficult. I feel it would have still worked out in the end if we had stayed together... every shot at happiness comes with sacrifices, I've known for a while that everything I had done was blind leaps of faith with no definite guarantee that we'd be together for as long as we were. I had planned on taking a huge gamble and following her to Chicago despite knowing full well there may be nothing out there for me and that I may end up stuck and alone there anyway. It isn't that I haven't "accepted" her decision either...


I don't believe anything is ever simple and "obvious" when it comes to these matters... I don't believe people can be simply replaced. I know a lot of people who believe that everything in their life is interchangeable, I am not one of those people. I feel that certain things fall into place in my life, whether or not I'm grasping at them is irrelevant... but when a piece is missing (or never found) then that section is forever empty. I know, "that's not a good way to live"... but that's how I am and I cannot bring myself to be the type of person who just keeps juggling people and hobbies for the sake of fitting in or being selfish.



I've already admitted it was going to be a hard road to travel alone... but I'll keep advancing forward, this world will not consume me.

[OtakuNinja]

It's been a while, but I just want to give you guys an update on what I wrote July 31st 2012.

I was at a convention last week and met a nice girl who changed my life. This change led to me acting a bit different to the girl I wrote about a year ago, ultimately ending with a very nice evening/night with a movie and lots of cuddling. c:

Nicolas Cage approves of this development
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Now I have that annoying movie theme stuck in my head again... >.< (Romantic Chaos)

Wazuzu, that's the thing...

I'll save this post. :'3

[YZQ]

That post reminds me of what Shizune might be thinking about herself.

[Xanatos]

Wazuzu, that's the thing... we were working really well but the distance was going to be difficult. I feel it would have still worked out in the end if we had stayed together... every shot at happiness comes with sacrifices, I've known for a while that everything I had done was blind leaps of faith with no definite guarantee that we'd be together for as long as we were. I had planned on taking a huge gamble and following her to Chicago despite knowing full well there may be nothing out there for me and that I may end up stuck and alone there anyway. It isn't that I haven't "accepted" her decision either...


I don't believe anything is ever simple and "obvious" when it comes to these matters... I don't believe people can be simply replaced. I know a lot of people who believe that everything in their life is interchangeable, I am not one of those people. I feel that certain things fall into place in my life, whether or not I'm grasping at them is irrelevant... but when a piece is missing (or never found) then that section is forever empty. I know, "that's not a good way to live"... but that's how I am and I cannot bring myself to be the type of person who just keeps juggling people and hobbies for the sake of fitting in or being selfish.



I've already admitted it was going to be a hard road to travel alone... but I'll keep advancing forward, this world will not consume me.

If it was working so well and you think it still could have worked, why didn't you take the gamble?

And it is still that simple. You either move on and find another or move on alone. Beliefs are pretty much irrelevant in determining which way it goes. If you eventually stumble across someone who can replace that missing piece, it won't matter that you don't believe people can be replaced because you just found a replacement anyway.

And as for the world...The dirt has dibs on consuming most of us (and fire has dibs on many of the rest) so the world will have to go wanting.

[Erenussocrates]

No scraping names? Well, what about saying "I love you so much I would go back in time and kill my other self to be with you"?

Well, nah. I wouldn't kill my other self if I could go back in time. I would enter inside my other self's mind, take control of my other self, and totally fuck with her all the way throughout the end, instead of actually loving her. That's what I think.
And no. I love my scars. Each and every one of them.

[Sea]

No scraping names? Well, what about saying "I love you so much I would go back in time and kill my other self to be with you"?

Well, nah. I wouldn't kill my other self if I could go back in time. I would enter inside my other self's mind, take control of my other self, and totally fuck with her all the way throughout the end, instead of actually loving her. That's what I think.
And no. I love my scars. Each and every one of them.

Well that's . . . kinda f**ked up.

[Wanderingheartache]

I do still plan on taking the huge gamble... but at the moment I am currently unemployed and penniless, I live with my parents until I can get back on my feet. She was okay with everything and supported me...

And I stand by what I said, it isn't as simple as that... I am not the kind of person who can force replacements where they do not belong.