Re: The Foreigner
Posted: Sat May 05, 2012 3:01 pm
Happy Cinco de Mayo everyone.
Chapter 10: Rain
I open my eyes to the faint light of my alarm clock greeting my eyes. I take notice of the time, 6:00 AM, I don't mind waking up this early, in fact, it is pretty normal for me, I've always been an early riser, and I notice that there is a slight patter on coming from the window, the patter of rain.
I sit up in bed and stretch, the stub of my leg brushing the comforter still feels odd, and I get annoyed with myself for allowing it to bother me, I can't do anything about it, so why bother myself about it? How ironic is it that I can't follow my own advice? I let the past bother me almost every day, it is incredibly frustrating.
I get up and go across the room on one foot, not requiring crutches for a small trip, and grab an new pair of clothes, listening to the soothing rhythm induced by the calming precipitation throwing itself at the window of my room, and I can't help but let a small smile show itself on my features, I truly do love rain and the cold it ushers along with it.
I hobble across the hall and twist the knob of the bathroom door to gain entrance to the faculties, and thankfully no one is in there, and hopefully Kenji won't barge in again.
I head across the tiled floors and turn the knobs of the bath, allowing the water to flow from the faucet and into the waiting tub.
As the tub fills to the brim with cold water, I set my clean clothes on the sink counter and strip out of my current ones, still with a little difficulty, as I am still not used to changing while balancing on only one leg.
I quickly bathe and throw on my clothes, ready to start the day with a few songs on my acoustic and then take a walk through the rain, I just hope the downpour lasts long enough for me to enjoy it.
I exit the bathroom and head into my room, where I deposit my worn clothes in the closet with another pair of clothes that need washed. I am wearing something more casual than the school uniform as there is no school today, just a pure black T-shirt, cargo jeans, Tennis shoes, and a dark grey sweat jacket. I pick up my guitar and position myself on the bed, getting comfortable and ready to play, my leg starting to hurt from hopping place-to-place.
I briefly consider what to play, what was I in the mood for? Something somber, but not really depressing, something inspiring but not really upbeat. Sort of like rain, relaxing and somber, but at the same time being a somewhat inspiring. That settles it, I know what to play.
I position my all of my fingers, other than my thumb, on the appropriate areas of the guitar, hovering over the strings, ready to strum the chords I desire.
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After playing a handful of songs, I look out the window and notice it is still raining. Good, I didn't spend too much time on the guitar and miss out on a walk through the rainfall.
I put the guitar back to where it was previously, I grab my crutches and lean into them, giving my leg a rest from it having to support me on its own as the crutches, my arms and shoulders take the burden of supporting my weight.
I swing my arms forward with every step, bringing myself closer to the exit of the dormitories, closer to the promised rain. As I go through the bland, unimaginative halls, I only encounter two of people, probably due to the fact it is only 6:30 AM, most people will still be enjoying their sleep right now, but I don't mind getting up early, and the enticing opportunity to enjoy the morning rain and chill easily drew me out of my slumber.
I reach the doors and give a slight, awkward push, to open it, and am welcomed by the sound of the gentle rain. I step outside the cover of the building and feel the morning chill as well as the touch of soft, newly-fallen water on my skin. It is truly relaxing. I start my walk, briskly making my way down the paved path, through the school grounds.
I keep going for about ten minutes when I see the track, I actually haven't been there yet and am a little curious as to what is there. I expect nothing other than a track, small stadium, and more than likely a storage shed or something similar, but it is always best to thoroughly survey the area you are in, so I shift my course in the direction of the track.
As I approach the track field, I notice a small blur moving along the track, while its not moving fast enough for me to normally not make it out, the darkness and static-mesh effect of the rain interferes with my vision. Was someone running this early, in the rain no less? It doesn't make much sense, but then again I am walking through the cold and rain because I enjoy it, maybe whoever it is has the same thought as me.
I arrive at the track and once the blur gets closer to me on the current lap it is on, as it gets closer, it gets cleared and I can make out details. It is definitely human, although the legs do have a very odd shape. I can make out two pig-tails and a body of small build, but that is about it.
I stand still and watch as the blur stops in front of me, going from high speeds to a complete stop in a very short amount of time. But she, as I can see it is a she, doesn't appear to be breathing heavily, and I can't tell if there is sweat on her, due to the pouring rain. I can see now she has large, dark grey eyes and light-coloured hair, she appears to be wearing a short-sleeved shirt and a very small pair of shorts, not exactly the best clothes for cold, rainy weather. But what catches my eye the most are the prosthetic legs. Her legs below the knee are replaced by plastic and metal, made for running judging from their design. I can't help but feel a brief pang of jealousy at the artificial legs, she still had far more motor abilities than I, and she lost both of her legs. That jealousy is immediately replaced by guilt for thinking something like that, but that too is shoved out of the way.
She comes up with a slight grin on her face, eyes clearly alight with energy despite the rain casting a static-mesh-like effect on her face and the darkness of the early morning.
"Hi there! I didn't expect anyone to show up this early, are you here to run?" She asks.
I am dumbfounded by her words. Run? Didn't she notice my crutches? "Uhh, no, I can't exactly run..." I trail off awkwardly, not sure how to respond.
She frowns for a moment, then apparently sees my crutches for the first time, and her face darkens in color, blushing. "Oh, I'm sorry! I didn't notice." She apologizes hastily, still looking embarrassed.
I actually chuckle some at her expense, "It's fine, I forgive you, though if you don't mind me asking, why are you running in the rain with those on?" I motion towards her running clothes, which you would only see on warm, rain-less days.
"These?" She asks, looking confused for a moment before noticing what she is actually wearing, "I didn't notice, I was too busy running."
I almost question her about why she would just go running in whatever she is wearing, but decide against it. It really isn't my business.
"Do you do this every morning? Alone?" I ask, genuinely curious.
"Yes, I do this every morning, I need to keep up my girly figure you know?" After she says this, she winks in a playful manner, "Hisao usually runs with me though, if you know him. But I guess he can't stand the rain," Her grin widens some, "I'll need to punish him for that!" I can't help but smile a little, she is definitely a friendly person.
"Well, don't let me interrupt you, go back to your running." I say.
"I will, but before you go, my name is Ibarazaki Emi, yours?"
I almost hesitate, not sure if I want to go throwing my name around just yet, it has only been a few days since my lapse in strength to the pit. But I decide to give it anyway, it's common courtesy, especially if that person gives you their name, "It's Polk Benjamin, Ben for short."
Her eyes widen some at the revelation of my name, damn it seems as if she got word of what happened, not that I'm surprised. She recovers quickly and her smile holds true again, "By Ben! I'll see you later!" She calls over her shoulder as she blasts off down the track again at speeds I could never hope to achieve, even when I had full use of my legs.
I turn around and leave the track, heading back towards the dorms, I've had enough of the rain for now, the soaking cold rain was starting to soak through my clothes. I can't help but wonder at Emi, she is running around the track at 7:00 in the morning and in clothes that aren't at all suited for the weather, and the fact she can run so fast with her prosthetics, though I suppose in one way or another, they actually help her improve her running speed.
I arrive at the door to the dormitories and am a little reluctant to go in, as much as I like not having a cold, I also want to continue to enjoy the weather. I decide that I don't really have much to do in my room anyway, so I just head to the main building, going back to the gutair room, getting to enjoy a few more minutes of the rain in the process.
I make my way through the halls and eventually end up where I want to, and enter. The gutair and amp are still there, remaining as pristine as ever. I sit down and wait a little while, I need to let me dry off some so I can play without the risk of electrocuting myself.
Once I seem dry enough, I pick up the guitar plug it in and start playing.
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About an hour later I stop and put the gutair up, having my fill for now.
I peel myself out of the seat with my crutches and stand up, ready to depart. I head to the door and open it, and without really thinking about it, head towards the chess room, partially because I have nothing else to do, and partially because I hope Hisao, Lilly, or Hanako are in there.
It takes me a moment to remember which direction it is when I come to a crossroads, but I generally am pretty good at remembering paths and directions, so the hesitation doesn't last long before I am off again.
The sound of rain is still present and continues to relax me, letting my usually active and buzzing mind wind down for a bit, and the only thing that interrupts the calming drops of precipitation are a few sounds making their way through the halls from different areas of the school and the sound of my crutches' impact against the tiled floor.
After a minute or two I find myself in front of the door labeled "Chess Club". Once in front of the door, I knock on the door and moment comes a few seconds later.
"Come in." The voice was composed, dainty, and calm, it is easily recognized as Lilly's.
I apply pressure to the door and it creaks slightly on its un-oiled hinges as it opens, and I am greeted by the sight of Lilly sitting straight-backed in the same chair she sat in yesterday, with a glass of what I believe is tea sitting in front of her, I know it has at least some in it as steam is still rising from it, but that is it, there isn't anyone else in the room.
"Hello, Lilly, it's Ben, I hope I'm not interrupting." I say, greeting her.
"Oh, hello Ben, no, you aren't interupting anything important, would you like some tea?" She replies.
I almost take up her offer, but reasoning tells me that she just brewed some, as her cup is still steaming, and I don't want to inconvenience her by having her make tea right after she just made some, "No thank you, I'm fine for now."
"Very well than." She replies, and then gestures toward the general direction of the chair in front of her, "please, sit down."
That offer, I do take her up on and sit down into the rigid, yet somehow comfortable chair.
"I never got around to asking you this, but how are you settling in here at Yamaku?" Lilly questions.
I seriously take the question into consideration, it could be a loaded one, possibly a way to lead her into inquiring about what happened on Wednesday, but it doesn't seem to suit her personality, so I decide to give her the benefit of the doubt, "Other than what happened earlier this week, which I'm pretty sure you've heard about, I'm fine, for the most part."
She doesn't press the issue, so I assume I was correct on guessing prying wasn't a big factor in her nature.
"That's good, and, if you don't mind me asking, why did you come here, to this room?" She sounds somewhat curious, and after me dropping in uninvited, she has a right to be.
I shrug before I realize the action would go unnoticed, "I came on a whim, I decided to see if anyone was here, and possibly if I could sign up for the chess club here." The last part comes out without me thinking first, but my mind doesn't object to it, I haven't played chess in ages, and I do miss it.
"Unfortunately I'm the only one here at this time, I imagine Hisao and Hanako are doing something together, those two are piratically inseparable," I notice her smile drops a notch for about a half-second before regaining it's previous shine, but long enough for me to notice its lack of polish for a moment, if I had to guess, I'd say she feels like a bit of a third wheel in the group, it seems reasonable as Hisao and Hanako are obviously going out, "If you want to join the chess club, then I will have to asses your skills first, in other words, play a game with you, you don't have to win, just do well enough." I wonder for the first time just how she plays chess, probably the same way she does everything else in life, use senses other than sight, though that may be difficult with a game such as chess. "Can you get the board please? I believe it is in the shelf to the far right of the sink."
"Okay," is all I say as I go to retrieve the board from the location she mentioned. I open up the mentioned cabinet and sure enough, it is there. I pick it up and bring it over to the table in it's traditional, wooden case.
I put it down on the table between the two of us,"Here it is," I say, sitting down and opening up the case. Lilly nods in acknowledgement as the case soundlessly opens, apparently its hinges have been well-oiled unlike the door to the room. I pull the board out and it is a standard one, but the pieces look a little different. I can still see what they are, but they have small deformities here and there, mostly just on the top of the figures. I make the connection that each figure type has their own bumps and ridges on the top, pawns having their own, bishops having their own, etc..., that seems to be how blind people can play chess and tell piece from piece.
I set up the board for the both of us and let her go first as she has the white pieces and I have the black ones, white always goes first.
The game goes on for about fifteen minutes before I have one bishop, three pawns, both knights, my queen, and my king left, meanwhile Lilly only has her king and two pawns left. Her dainty fingers feel around the board, looking for a way out of my trap, despite the fact I will eventually get her king with my superior numbers and higher-grade pieces, but she smiles in defeat realizing there is no way out of my checkmate. "That was a good game." She says, her tone friendly. She seems to take defeat in stride, I'm glad, I've played against my fair share of sore losers in the game before.
"Good game." I reply, my tone similar to hers, giving the game-ending phrase used in almost any medium of entertainment, but they weren't just out of unofficial protocol, she was a good chess player, and I did enjoy that, I haven't played against a decent player in a long time.
Just as I am putting the board and pieces back into the box, "Welcome to the club," comes Lilly's ever pleasant voice, "but don't get too overconfident, I'm the worst in the group, Hisao and Hanako are both far better than I am."
I smile at the prospect of a good challenge, "Thank you for the welcome, and I'll try and keep myself from getting cocky." actual enthusiasm making its way into my voice for the first time in what felt like years, and probably actually has been years.
Chapter 10: Rain
I open my eyes to the faint light of my alarm clock greeting my eyes. I take notice of the time, 6:00 AM, I don't mind waking up this early, in fact, it is pretty normal for me, I've always been an early riser, and I notice that there is a slight patter on coming from the window, the patter of rain.
I sit up in bed and stretch, the stub of my leg brushing the comforter still feels odd, and I get annoyed with myself for allowing it to bother me, I can't do anything about it, so why bother myself about it? How ironic is it that I can't follow my own advice? I let the past bother me almost every day, it is incredibly frustrating.
I get up and go across the room on one foot, not requiring crutches for a small trip, and grab an new pair of clothes, listening to the soothing rhythm induced by the calming precipitation throwing itself at the window of my room, and I can't help but let a small smile show itself on my features, I truly do love rain and the cold it ushers along with it.
I hobble across the hall and twist the knob of the bathroom door to gain entrance to the faculties, and thankfully no one is in there, and hopefully Kenji won't barge in again.
I head across the tiled floors and turn the knobs of the bath, allowing the water to flow from the faucet and into the waiting tub.
As the tub fills to the brim with cold water, I set my clean clothes on the sink counter and strip out of my current ones, still with a little difficulty, as I am still not used to changing while balancing on only one leg.
I quickly bathe and throw on my clothes, ready to start the day with a few songs on my acoustic and then take a walk through the rain, I just hope the downpour lasts long enough for me to enjoy it.
I exit the bathroom and head into my room, where I deposit my worn clothes in the closet with another pair of clothes that need washed. I am wearing something more casual than the school uniform as there is no school today, just a pure black T-shirt, cargo jeans, Tennis shoes, and a dark grey sweat jacket. I pick up my guitar and position myself on the bed, getting comfortable and ready to play, my leg starting to hurt from hopping place-to-place.
I briefly consider what to play, what was I in the mood for? Something somber, but not really depressing, something inspiring but not really upbeat. Sort of like rain, relaxing and somber, but at the same time being a somewhat inspiring. That settles it, I know what to play.
I position my all of my fingers, other than my thumb, on the appropriate areas of the guitar, hovering over the strings, ready to strum the chords I desire.
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After playing a handful of songs, I look out the window and notice it is still raining. Good, I didn't spend too much time on the guitar and miss out on a walk through the rainfall.
I put the guitar back to where it was previously, I grab my crutches and lean into them, giving my leg a rest from it having to support me on its own as the crutches, my arms and shoulders take the burden of supporting my weight.
I swing my arms forward with every step, bringing myself closer to the exit of the dormitories, closer to the promised rain. As I go through the bland, unimaginative halls, I only encounter two of people, probably due to the fact it is only 6:30 AM, most people will still be enjoying their sleep right now, but I don't mind getting up early, and the enticing opportunity to enjoy the morning rain and chill easily drew me out of my slumber.
I reach the doors and give a slight, awkward push, to open it, and am welcomed by the sound of the gentle rain. I step outside the cover of the building and feel the morning chill as well as the touch of soft, newly-fallen water on my skin. It is truly relaxing. I start my walk, briskly making my way down the paved path, through the school grounds.
I keep going for about ten minutes when I see the track, I actually haven't been there yet and am a little curious as to what is there. I expect nothing other than a track, small stadium, and more than likely a storage shed or something similar, but it is always best to thoroughly survey the area you are in, so I shift my course in the direction of the track.
As I approach the track field, I notice a small blur moving along the track, while its not moving fast enough for me to normally not make it out, the darkness and static-mesh effect of the rain interferes with my vision. Was someone running this early, in the rain no less? It doesn't make much sense, but then again I am walking through the cold and rain because I enjoy it, maybe whoever it is has the same thought as me.
I arrive at the track and once the blur gets closer to me on the current lap it is on, as it gets closer, it gets cleared and I can make out details. It is definitely human, although the legs do have a very odd shape. I can make out two pig-tails and a body of small build, but that is about it.
I stand still and watch as the blur stops in front of me, going from high speeds to a complete stop in a very short amount of time. But she, as I can see it is a she, doesn't appear to be breathing heavily, and I can't tell if there is sweat on her, due to the pouring rain. I can see now she has large, dark grey eyes and light-coloured hair, she appears to be wearing a short-sleeved shirt and a very small pair of shorts, not exactly the best clothes for cold, rainy weather. But what catches my eye the most are the prosthetic legs. Her legs below the knee are replaced by plastic and metal, made for running judging from their design. I can't help but feel a brief pang of jealousy at the artificial legs, she still had far more motor abilities than I, and she lost both of her legs. That jealousy is immediately replaced by guilt for thinking something like that, but that too is shoved out of the way.
She comes up with a slight grin on her face, eyes clearly alight with energy despite the rain casting a static-mesh-like effect on her face and the darkness of the early morning.
"Hi there! I didn't expect anyone to show up this early, are you here to run?" She asks.
I am dumbfounded by her words. Run? Didn't she notice my crutches? "Uhh, no, I can't exactly run..." I trail off awkwardly, not sure how to respond.
She frowns for a moment, then apparently sees my crutches for the first time, and her face darkens in color, blushing. "Oh, I'm sorry! I didn't notice." She apologizes hastily, still looking embarrassed.
I actually chuckle some at her expense, "It's fine, I forgive you, though if you don't mind me asking, why are you running in the rain with those on?" I motion towards her running clothes, which you would only see on warm, rain-less days.
"These?" She asks, looking confused for a moment before noticing what she is actually wearing, "I didn't notice, I was too busy running."
I almost question her about why she would just go running in whatever she is wearing, but decide against it. It really isn't my business.
"Do you do this every morning? Alone?" I ask, genuinely curious.
"Yes, I do this every morning, I need to keep up my girly figure you know?" After she says this, she winks in a playful manner, "Hisao usually runs with me though, if you know him. But I guess he can't stand the rain," Her grin widens some, "I'll need to punish him for that!" I can't help but smile a little, she is definitely a friendly person.
"Well, don't let me interrupt you, go back to your running." I say.
"I will, but before you go, my name is Ibarazaki Emi, yours?"
I almost hesitate, not sure if I want to go throwing my name around just yet, it has only been a few days since my lapse in strength to the pit. But I decide to give it anyway, it's common courtesy, especially if that person gives you their name, "It's Polk Benjamin, Ben for short."
Her eyes widen some at the revelation of my name, damn it seems as if she got word of what happened, not that I'm surprised. She recovers quickly and her smile holds true again, "By Ben! I'll see you later!" She calls over her shoulder as she blasts off down the track again at speeds I could never hope to achieve, even when I had full use of my legs.
I turn around and leave the track, heading back towards the dorms, I've had enough of the rain for now, the soaking cold rain was starting to soak through my clothes. I can't help but wonder at Emi, she is running around the track at 7:00 in the morning and in clothes that aren't at all suited for the weather, and the fact she can run so fast with her prosthetics, though I suppose in one way or another, they actually help her improve her running speed.
I arrive at the door to the dormitories and am a little reluctant to go in, as much as I like not having a cold, I also want to continue to enjoy the weather. I decide that I don't really have much to do in my room anyway, so I just head to the main building, going back to the gutair room, getting to enjoy a few more minutes of the rain in the process.
I make my way through the halls and eventually end up where I want to, and enter. The gutair and amp are still there, remaining as pristine as ever. I sit down and wait a little while, I need to let me dry off some so I can play without the risk of electrocuting myself.
Once I seem dry enough, I pick up the guitar plug it in and start playing.
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About an hour later I stop and put the gutair up, having my fill for now.
I peel myself out of the seat with my crutches and stand up, ready to depart. I head to the door and open it, and without really thinking about it, head towards the chess room, partially because I have nothing else to do, and partially because I hope Hisao, Lilly, or Hanako are in there.
It takes me a moment to remember which direction it is when I come to a crossroads, but I generally am pretty good at remembering paths and directions, so the hesitation doesn't last long before I am off again.
The sound of rain is still present and continues to relax me, letting my usually active and buzzing mind wind down for a bit, and the only thing that interrupts the calming drops of precipitation are a few sounds making their way through the halls from different areas of the school and the sound of my crutches' impact against the tiled floor.
After a minute or two I find myself in front of the door labeled "Chess Club". Once in front of the door, I knock on the door and moment comes a few seconds later.
"Come in." The voice was composed, dainty, and calm, it is easily recognized as Lilly's.
I apply pressure to the door and it creaks slightly on its un-oiled hinges as it opens, and I am greeted by the sight of Lilly sitting straight-backed in the same chair she sat in yesterday, with a glass of what I believe is tea sitting in front of her, I know it has at least some in it as steam is still rising from it, but that is it, there isn't anyone else in the room.
"Hello, Lilly, it's Ben, I hope I'm not interrupting." I say, greeting her.
"Oh, hello Ben, no, you aren't interupting anything important, would you like some tea?" She replies.
I almost take up her offer, but reasoning tells me that she just brewed some, as her cup is still steaming, and I don't want to inconvenience her by having her make tea right after she just made some, "No thank you, I'm fine for now."
"Very well than." She replies, and then gestures toward the general direction of the chair in front of her, "please, sit down."
That offer, I do take her up on and sit down into the rigid, yet somehow comfortable chair.
"I never got around to asking you this, but how are you settling in here at Yamaku?" Lilly questions.
I seriously take the question into consideration, it could be a loaded one, possibly a way to lead her into inquiring about what happened on Wednesday, but it doesn't seem to suit her personality, so I decide to give her the benefit of the doubt, "Other than what happened earlier this week, which I'm pretty sure you've heard about, I'm fine, for the most part."
She doesn't press the issue, so I assume I was correct on guessing prying wasn't a big factor in her nature.
"That's good, and, if you don't mind me asking, why did you come here, to this room?" She sounds somewhat curious, and after me dropping in uninvited, she has a right to be.
I shrug before I realize the action would go unnoticed, "I came on a whim, I decided to see if anyone was here, and possibly if I could sign up for the chess club here." The last part comes out without me thinking first, but my mind doesn't object to it, I haven't played chess in ages, and I do miss it.
"Unfortunately I'm the only one here at this time, I imagine Hisao and Hanako are doing something together, those two are piratically inseparable," I notice her smile drops a notch for about a half-second before regaining it's previous shine, but long enough for me to notice its lack of polish for a moment, if I had to guess, I'd say she feels like a bit of a third wheel in the group, it seems reasonable as Hisao and Hanako are obviously going out, "If you want to join the chess club, then I will have to asses your skills first, in other words, play a game with you, you don't have to win, just do well enough." I wonder for the first time just how she plays chess, probably the same way she does everything else in life, use senses other than sight, though that may be difficult with a game such as chess. "Can you get the board please? I believe it is in the shelf to the far right of the sink."
"Okay," is all I say as I go to retrieve the board from the location she mentioned. I open up the mentioned cabinet and sure enough, it is there. I pick it up and bring it over to the table in it's traditional, wooden case.
I put it down on the table between the two of us,"Here it is," I say, sitting down and opening up the case. Lilly nods in acknowledgement as the case soundlessly opens, apparently its hinges have been well-oiled unlike the door to the room. I pull the board out and it is a standard one, but the pieces look a little different. I can still see what they are, but they have small deformities here and there, mostly just on the top of the figures. I make the connection that each figure type has their own bumps and ridges on the top, pawns having their own, bishops having their own, etc..., that seems to be how blind people can play chess and tell piece from piece.
I set up the board for the both of us and let her go first as she has the white pieces and I have the black ones, white always goes first.
The game goes on for about fifteen minutes before I have one bishop, three pawns, both knights, my queen, and my king left, meanwhile Lilly only has her king and two pawns left. Her dainty fingers feel around the board, looking for a way out of my trap, despite the fact I will eventually get her king with my superior numbers and higher-grade pieces, but she smiles in defeat realizing there is no way out of my checkmate. "That was a good game." She says, her tone friendly. She seems to take defeat in stride, I'm glad, I've played against my fair share of sore losers in the game before.
"Good game." I reply, my tone similar to hers, giving the game-ending phrase used in almost any medium of entertainment, but they weren't just out of unofficial protocol, she was a good chess player, and I did enjoy that, I haven't played against a decent player in a long time.
Just as I am putting the board and pieces back into the box, "Welcome to the club," comes Lilly's ever pleasant voice, "but don't get too overconfident, I'm the worst in the group, Hisao and Hanako are both far better than I am."
I smile at the prospect of a good challenge, "Thank you for the welcome, and I'll try and keep myself from getting cocky." actual enthusiasm making its way into my voice for the first time in what felt like years, and probably actually has been years.