Re: Monsters Like Us (KS x Monsters) Ch. 4: Shadows
Posted: Wed Feb 08, 2017 3:01 am
04: Shadows
Students in uniform trickle down the stairway like leaves down a stream. Some are carried into the gardens, towards the school building. Some turn away, onto the path to the sports fields. Others meander and settle in some spot, talking with friends in the delight of this cool morning, or waiting for others to show up.
With all of the green at its greenest this time of year, the uniform jackets, trousers, and skirts blend into the leaves and landscape, and into one another. I could see how it would be difficult to pick out anyone if my eyesight was bad. It almost looks like a kind of camouflage. I wonder if that was intentional.
This school isn't just a secluded monk training ground, it's also a ninja academy! They must have a special student club for that. You probably have to find it first before you can join. Very sneaky, as expected of ninjas.
But my eyesight is fine, and as I look, I notice little things here and there: different lengths of hair, and different styles, and little accessories with their own sizes and shapes and colors. There are different lengths of skirts, all the same vernal green, and legs adorned with socks and leggings of all lengths or left bare in the breeze.
And, of course, there are the most obvious differences. A fellow ninja slinks around the edge of the crowd with an empty sleeve folded up and pinned to their shoulder, and for a moment, I wonder which of us is worse off. I don't like the thought. I try to get rid of it, to push it away and find something else to think about, but that doesn't really work, does it? Trying not to think about something means you're thinking about it. I can't pretend I didn't hear myself. You can't disguise thoughts like that.
The sight of a classmate catches my attention; she rolls out of the girls' dorm building, waving to other friendly faces, turning away from the stairway and me before I can get my hand up to wave. She takes the longer way around, towards the gentle wheelchair ramp, and sets off with as much pep as her wheels can carry.
It makes me wonder how I look in the crowd. My most obvious difference is hidden as long as I'm wearing trousers. Everyone says I walk normally, but I'm sure you could see it if you watched closely, or if you knew what to look for. I can certainly feel it.
I become intensely conscious of my sock and the dull pain beneath it. Kneeling and checking my shoelaces one more time, I look under the sock and find that yes, there's still a bruise, and yes, it's still sore.
It's just a bruise, I tell myself. It will clear up on its own, like it never happened, but for the time being, the evidence of this morning's near-miss is branded onto my skin. Once upon a time, I might have told myself I'd imagined it. A dream monster did it, reached right out of my pillow and grabbed me! I barely lived long enough to wake up! That excuse might have worked then; not so much now.
Now, they'd probably call in everything with claws, teeth, and tails for a nightmare lineup and ask me which monster did it.
Anyway, it doesn't really hurt when I move it, but I can't ignore the soreness wrapping around my ankle. At least I can cover it up. Has this happened to anyone else? Watching people go by now, this morning feels like it happened forever ago.
They're not here. They don't come here. There are places they won't go; familiar rumours roll through my head, but they don't make me feel better. Rather, I'm reminded of the past few mornings and their shadows behind trees, the shapes laying in grass between flowering bushes. They're there, but not here, as if the buildings of the school have become safe zones and beyond that is now a wilderness where they roam.
Has anyone else met that serpent monster, or that rabbit-thing girl? How many of us have bruises hidden under our uniforms? Or has anyone gotten that close? Why did I go onto that field after everything I've heard? I find myself rubbing at my hair again and stuff the hand into a pocket.
My eyes pick out Ken as soon as he emerges from the dormitory doors, and he's not alone. Hiro is with him, school bag slung behind his shoulders, and the other hand gripping firmly to his walking cane. They head directly towards me. Sometimes it's funny seeing Ken and Hiro next to each other. You can easily tell which of them is the active one, not that Hiro doesn't have a reason. It's actually not very funny.
"Hey man! Thought you'd be here," Ken says.
"Morning, guys," I say. "Am I that predictable?"
"Dude, you're a machine."
I've heard that one more than once.
Coming to a stop, Hiro slides his bag from around his shoulder onto the handle of his walking cane, and leans onto it wearily. His hair has been combed neatly, and his shirt has been tucked in; what the hell happened to him?
"Ken, that's not very nice," Hiro says.
"What?"
Hiro gives Ken an extended second to think about what he's done, but Ken waits patiently for an explanation. I know what Hiro's getting at because I'm familiar with the joke. I think I was the first one to make it.
"Hey, I didn't mean it that way," Ken says. "I wasn't talking about Ichirou's leg."
"That's what it sounded like," Hiro says, fighting off a yawn.
"But it's not what I meant."
"Guys, don't worry about it," I say. "It was a joke."
Hiro rubs his eye and blinks dazedly a few times. He gives a little more weight to his cane, and his school bag dangles like a heavy fruit on a wind-lilted branch.
"Okay," he says, "but just be careful saying stuff like that."
Hiro's advice almost goes unnoticed; not because I'm not listening, but because it's so obvious. He might as well had reminded us not to play in the road.
"It's really not a big deal," I say.
"Not to you, I know," Hiro says, "but the year is still new, right? There are new kids out here. First-years, and transfer students."
Ken and I turn and look around at the dorms and the growing crowd of spring ninjas. I've seen a few faces I don't recognize this morning... not that I know everyone at the school, but even the nameless faces become familiar after seeing them enough. There are clubs, cliques, and couples, but not a lot of names beyond my classmates. I remind myself that that's another thing I want to change this year. We're in our third week now, and... I haven't done very well in that regard, have I?
Sanae, the sweet serpent. Nao, the frowny rabbity-thing. Two more names find a place for themselves as they dash through my head. That's one small success, isn't it?
The sounds of chatter are gradually overtaking the conversing trees.
"The day's about to start soon," I say.
"Isn't it already started?" Ken asks, looking around.
"It's almost time for class," Hiro says, checking his watch. "And technically the day starts at sunrise."
"That's an Ichirou-day," Ken says.
"Haha. It is, isn't it?" I say.
Hiro takes the lead and we add ourselves to the current of students. Taking one side, Ken falls in behind me as I follow Hiro's gradual descent. My prosthesis straightens swiftly with every other step, prepared for the next but expecting a somewhat faster pace, and I keep one hand held firm on the stone railing. It's a good opportunity to slow down and relax for a moment before everything gets started for the day, and I try to meter my breaths to the rhythm of my steps. Soon enough, though, we reach the bottom and turn towards the gardens and the school building. Hiro yawns.
"Nice weather," he says.
"Yeah."
"So dude, how was it this morning?" Ken asks.
I knew this was coming. I knew either Ken or Hiro was going to ask me that, yet I don't have anything ready to say. I'm still trying to figure it out, I suppose. The soreness in my ankle reminds me again of what happened. The thoughts feel familiar as they roll around in my head, but it's still a weird, uncomfortable feeling.
"Meet any girls?"
"You could say that," I say.
"Any cute ones?"
"You'd love 'em. Athletic types."
"Oooh. How many limbs--"
Hiro's groan cuts through Ken's words like a revving chainsaw.
"I swear, if you finish that sentence, I will smack you in the kneecaps with my cane," Hiro avows.
"That's bad for the cane..." I say.
"The cane!? What about my knees?" Ken says.
"...so I'll kick his ass with my steel toe for you."
"He-hey now!"
"Careful," Hiro says, "Ken's ass shatters expectations."
"And girls' hearts," I add.
"Oh my god you guys," Ken whines.
We end our attack on Ken before he gets the wrong idea. I guess he's still sore about that. Heh. Hiro's cane swings with a little more pep and swagger than before; he's clearly enjoying this little victory.
"Seriously though, you guys wouldn't do that," Ken affirms.
"Of course not, Ken," I say.
This prosthesis was made for walking, not kicking.
"Why wouldn't we?" Hiro asks, his voice wafting with both honest curiosity and a little invitation.
"'Cause I know you guys," Ken says confidently.
I don't know what to say to that. Anything that'd come out of my mouth would sound awkward. Instead my thoughts are thrown back in time; I suppose Ken would have a good idea of me after we've seen each other almost every day over the past year-and-change. It's been that long, huh? I've known Hiro almost that long...
Dozens of faces flash through my thoughts, some barely remembered, some engraved for one reason or another. Most of their names have vanished, but I can recall other things... Blind, amputee, birth defect, monster. The thoughts squirm in my head.
Hiro hasn't said anything either, and the silence recaptures my attention.
"Dang dude, I should have been a poet," Ken says.
Yep, that's Ken.
"You guys have room in your club, right?"
"The soccer team wouldn't let you escape," Hiro says. "Now there's a conspiracy for you."
"Dude, you guys' club is involved in some deep stuff," Ken declares.
"The newspaper club is not as exciting as you think it is."
I think it's fun.
"Submit something, Ken. We'll find room for it," I say.
"Because room on the paper is at a premium, right?" Hiro mumbles.
The three of us settle into a familiar and comfortable rhythm, and the air is filled again with conversations pushing through the cool breeze. It really is a nice morning.
Up ahead is the bench where I saw the cat boy yesterday morning on my way to the pool. This morning, there's...
A monster with gorgeous black hair. It shines in the sunlight, as sleek and dark as a deep moonlit river. It makes quite the contrast against the clean white uniform blouse as it flows down her back and around her neck, ending in a collar of little ringlets. The same glassy jet color covers her face. Large, bulby feet clad in solid black socks peek out from beneath the longest skirt that Yamaku provides for its uniform. Her hands are also covered in black.
It's as if a living shadow is sitting amidst the gardens in uniform, but the figure isn't human. A school bag sits on the bench next to her.
Crowning the monster's head are twin black triangles flitting to and fro at the students passing by. She sweeps her head back and forth as narrow eyes scan the procession of white and green.
"That is one big cat," Ken says.
"That's, uh..." Hiro mumbles.
The monster has her attention split between the passing students and a small tablet computer in her hands. She seems to pick out someone ahead of us, following them with her eyes and ears as they pass in front of her. Then, shaking her head, she loses interest and goes back to playing on the tablet, deflating with a swift, visible sigh.
"What's she doing all the way over here?" Ken asks.
"Enjoying the gardens?" Hiro says.
As if she heard us, the monster looks down the pathway towards us.
A tinge of nostalgia hits me. The low, misleading hang of her shoulders and the funny awkwardness of her inhuman hands take me back to a memory that I can't place. Mostly, though, I think it's her eyes.
Our eyes let us see, our ears let us hear, our... something about the gods, I think. How did it go?
The monster's ears and eyes stay locked on us as we come closer and closer. I wait for her to lose interest again, but she doesn't look away.
Students in uniform trickle down the stairway like leaves down a stream. Some are carried into the gardens, towards the school building. Some turn away, onto the path to the sports fields. Others meander and settle in some spot, talking with friends in the delight of this cool morning, or waiting for others to show up.
With all of the green at its greenest this time of year, the uniform jackets, trousers, and skirts blend into the leaves and landscape, and into one another. I could see how it would be difficult to pick out anyone if my eyesight was bad. It almost looks like a kind of camouflage. I wonder if that was intentional.
This school isn't just a secluded monk training ground, it's also a ninja academy! They must have a special student club for that. You probably have to find it first before you can join. Very sneaky, as expected of ninjas.
But my eyesight is fine, and as I look, I notice little things here and there: different lengths of hair, and different styles, and little accessories with their own sizes and shapes and colors. There are different lengths of skirts, all the same vernal green, and legs adorned with socks and leggings of all lengths or left bare in the breeze.
And, of course, there are the most obvious differences. A fellow ninja slinks around the edge of the crowd with an empty sleeve folded up and pinned to their shoulder, and for a moment, I wonder which of us is worse off. I don't like the thought. I try to get rid of it, to push it away and find something else to think about, but that doesn't really work, does it? Trying not to think about something means you're thinking about it. I can't pretend I didn't hear myself. You can't disguise thoughts like that.
The sight of a classmate catches my attention; she rolls out of the girls' dorm building, waving to other friendly faces, turning away from the stairway and me before I can get my hand up to wave. She takes the longer way around, towards the gentle wheelchair ramp, and sets off with as much pep as her wheels can carry.
It makes me wonder how I look in the crowd. My most obvious difference is hidden as long as I'm wearing trousers. Everyone says I walk normally, but I'm sure you could see it if you watched closely, or if you knew what to look for. I can certainly feel it.
I become intensely conscious of my sock and the dull pain beneath it. Kneeling and checking my shoelaces one more time, I look under the sock and find that yes, there's still a bruise, and yes, it's still sore.
It's just a bruise, I tell myself. It will clear up on its own, like it never happened, but for the time being, the evidence of this morning's near-miss is branded onto my skin. Once upon a time, I might have told myself I'd imagined it. A dream monster did it, reached right out of my pillow and grabbed me! I barely lived long enough to wake up! That excuse might have worked then; not so much now.
Now, they'd probably call in everything with claws, teeth, and tails for a nightmare lineup and ask me which monster did it.
Anyway, it doesn't really hurt when I move it, but I can't ignore the soreness wrapping around my ankle. At least I can cover it up. Has this happened to anyone else? Watching people go by now, this morning feels like it happened forever ago.
They're not here. They don't come here. There are places they won't go; familiar rumours roll through my head, but they don't make me feel better. Rather, I'm reminded of the past few mornings and their shadows behind trees, the shapes laying in grass between flowering bushes. They're there, but not here, as if the buildings of the school have become safe zones and beyond that is now a wilderness where they roam.
Has anyone else met that serpent monster, or that rabbit-thing girl? How many of us have bruises hidden under our uniforms? Or has anyone gotten that close? Why did I go onto that field after everything I've heard? I find myself rubbing at my hair again and stuff the hand into a pocket.
My eyes pick out Ken as soon as he emerges from the dormitory doors, and he's not alone. Hiro is with him, school bag slung behind his shoulders, and the other hand gripping firmly to his walking cane. They head directly towards me. Sometimes it's funny seeing Ken and Hiro next to each other. You can easily tell which of them is the active one, not that Hiro doesn't have a reason. It's actually not very funny.
"Hey man! Thought you'd be here," Ken says.
"Morning, guys," I say. "Am I that predictable?"
"Dude, you're a machine."
I've heard that one more than once.
Coming to a stop, Hiro slides his bag from around his shoulder onto the handle of his walking cane, and leans onto it wearily. His hair has been combed neatly, and his shirt has been tucked in; what the hell happened to him?
"Ken, that's not very nice," Hiro says.
"What?"
Hiro gives Ken an extended second to think about what he's done, but Ken waits patiently for an explanation. I know what Hiro's getting at because I'm familiar with the joke. I think I was the first one to make it.
"Hey, I didn't mean it that way," Ken says. "I wasn't talking about Ichirou's leg."
"That's what it sounded like," Hiro says, fighting off a yawn.
"But it's not what I meant."
"Guys, don't worry about it," I say. "It was a joke."
Hiro rubs his eye and blinks dazedly a few times. He gives a little more weight to his cane, and his school bag dangles like a heavy fruit on a wind-lilted branch.
"Okay," he says, "but just be careful saying stuff like that."
Hiro's advice almost goes unnoticed; not because I'm not listening, but because it's so obvious. He might as well had reminded us not to play in the road.
"It's really not a big deal," I say.
"Not to you, I know," Hiro says, "but the year is still new, right? There are new kids out here. First-years, and transfer students."
Ken and I turn and look around at the dorms and the growing crowd of spring ninjas. I've seen a few faces I don't recognize this morning... not that I know everyone at the school, but even the nameless faces become familiar after seeing them enough. There are clubs, cliques, and couples, but not a lot of names beyond my classmates. I remind myself that that's another thing I want to change this year. We're in our third week now, and... I haven't done very well in that regard, have I?
Sanae, the sweet serpent. Nao, the frowny rabbity-thing. Two more names find a place for themselves as they dash through my head. That's one small success, isn't it?
The sounds of chatter are gradually overtaking the conversing trees.
"The day's about to start soon," I say.
"Isn't it already started?" Ken asks, looking around.
"It's almost time for class," Hiro says, checking his watch. "And technically the day starts at sunrise."
"That's an Ichirou-day," Ken says.
"Haha. It is, isn't it?" I say.
Hiro takes the lead and we add ourselves to the current of students. Taking one side, Ken falls in behind me as I follow Hiro's gradual descent. My prosthesis straightens swiftly with every other step, prepared for the next but expecting a somewhat faster pace, and I keep one hand held firm on the stone railing. It's a good opportunity to slow down and relax for a moment before everything gets started for the day, and I try to meter my breaths to the rhythm of my steps. Soon enough, though, we reach the bottom and turn towards the gardens and the school building. Hiro yawns.
"Nice weather," he says.
"Yeah."
"So dude, how was it this morning?" Ken asks.
I knew this was coming. I knew either Ken or Hiro was going to ask me that, yet I don't have anything ready to say. I'm still trying to figure it out, I suppose. The soreness in my ankle reminds me again of what happened. The thoughts feel familiar as they roll around in my head, but it's still a weird, uncomfortable feeling.
"Meet any girls?"
"You could say that," I say.
"Any cute ones?"
"You'd love 'em. Athletic types."
"Oooh. How many limbs--"
Hiro's groan cuts through Ken's words like a revving chainsaw.
"I swear, if you finish that sentence, I will smack you in the kneecaps with my cane," Hiro avows.
"That's bad for the cane..." I say.
"The cane!? What about my knees?" Ken says.
"...so I'll kick his ass with my steel toe for you."
"He-hey now!"
"Careful," Hiro says, "Ken's ass shatters expectations."
"And girls' hearts," I add.
"Oh my god you guys," Ken whines.
We end our attack on Ken before he gets the wrong idea. I guess he's still sore about that. Heh. Hiro's cane swings with a little more pep and swagger than before; he's clearly enjoying this little victory.
"Seriously though, you guys wouldn't do that," Ken affirms.
"Of course not, Ken," I say.
This prosthesis was made for walking, not kicking.
"Why wouldn't we?" Hiro asks, his voice wafting with both honest curiosity and a little invitation.
"'Cause I know you guys," Ken says confidently.
I don't know what to say to that. Anything that'd come out of my mouth would sound awkward. Instead my thoughts are thrown back in time; I suppose Ken would have a good idea of me after we've seen each other almost every day over the past year-and-change. It's been that long, huh? I've known Hiro almost that long...
Dozens of faces flash through my thoughts, some barely remembered, some engraved for one reason or another. Most of their names have vanished, but I can recall other things... Blind, amputee, birth defect, monster. The thoughts squirm in my head.
Hiro hasn't said anything either, and the silence recaptures my attention.
"Dang dude, I should have been a poet," Ken says.
Yep, that's Ken.
"You guys have room in your club, right?"
"The soccer team wouldn't let you escape," Hiro says. "Now there's a conspiracy for you."
"Dude, you guys' club is involved in some deep stuff," Ken declares.
"The newspaper club is not as exciting as you think it is."
I think it's fun.
"Submit something, Ken. We'll find room for it," I say.
"Because room on the paper is at a premium, right?" Hiro mumbles.
The three of us settle into a familiar and comfortable rhythm, and the air is filled again with conversations pushing through the cool breeze. It really is a nice morning.
Up ahead is the bench where I saw the cat boy yesterday morning on my way to the pool. This morning, there's...
A monster with gorgeous black hair. It shines in the sunlight, as sleek and dark as a deep moonlit river. It makes quite the contrast against the clean white uniform blouse as it flows down her back and around her neck, ending in a collar of little ringlets. The same glassy jet color covers her face. Large, bulby feet clad in solid black socks peek out from beneath the longest skirt that Yamaku provides for its uniform. Her hands are also covered in black.
It's as if a living shadow is sitting amidst the gardens in uniform, but the figure isn't human. A school bag sits on the bench next to her.
Crowning the monster's head are twin black triangles flitting to and fro at the students passing by. She sweeps her head back and forth as narrow eyes scan the procession of white and green.
"That is one big cat," Ken says.
"That's, uh..." Hiro mumbles.
The monster has her attention split between the passing students and a small tablet computer in her hands. She seems to pick out someone ahead of us, following them with her eyes and ears as they pass in front of her. Then, shaking her head, she loses interest and goes back to playing on the tablet, deflating with a swift, visible sigh.
"What's she doing all the way over here?" Ken asks.
"Enjoying the gardens?" Hiro says.
As if she heard us, the monster looks down the pathway towards us.
A tinge of nostalgia hits me. The low, misleading hang of her shoulders and the funny awkwardness of her inhuman hands take me back to a memory that I can't place. Mostly, though, I think it's her eyes.
Our eyes let us see, our ears let us hear, our... something about the gods, I think. How did it go?
The monster's ears and eyes stay locked on us as we come closer and closer. I wait for her to lose interest again, but she doesn't look away.