I posted here 3 or 4 times trying desperately to get over with my crush. Now I think I already done it, It feels great. How I can do it? I got a new one.
Well, I knows her in weird way in weird place in weird times. I enrolled in free tutoring session in last weekend held by a food corperation (for new,young customers. Of course) It is crowded by thousands of High school students, and here she is. Happened to sit next to me, She showed interest in sheet of my school. Have few conversations with me and introduce herself. I am quite sure that no normal people will be overly-friendly to anyone in such situation. But I am very grateful. She is very freindly to me, to the point that I think she is friendly than any classmate I knew for 2 1/2 years and perhap any "normal" people who talks to me. She even bought an snack for me and refuse when I want to pay my part. So we spend time studying things from 8AM to 6PM.
That night, I crying with weirdest mood I ever cry. I smile, happy... while crying. It's weird. As we both study in Saturday and Sunday. In Sunday morning I felt like I'm late just because she said she will come around the same time so every delay in travel makes me nervous, and despite Sunday the session is filled far slower than Saturday and I can be considered moderately early. I still feel... late. I desperately looking for her, with distinctive French braid/plait with brown ribbon, and finally found her around 1PM. She asked me where I have been and let me sit near her. Even we didn't talks much because we are studying Chemistry. and that's last time we meet. We will very unlikely to meet again until we are at university, hopefully the same one.
I feels she is more like a friend than anyone I found at school. So I think from Saturday's night that if we meet in university again. I want to be her boyfriend, or congratuate anyone whoever her boyfriend is if sh have one. She tells me that herself and her mother are often hospitalized as her mother got heart problem and her as "accident". Judging from strange smell in her breath. I quite not take it. If I do get another chance. I will not screw up again.
I want another chance. Maybe I just found one.
I want to make Thai Translation of KS alone and protesting with this signature.
Unofficially Demanding. Temporary even-more malfunctioned in English Grammar.
Introducing one of the few thread of it's kind that bring the world together. Wait, Whatever then.