First of all, hello to everybody
maybe it's gonna be a little tl;dr, so I thank in advance those who will have the patience to read.
A friend of mine suggested me the game and I gave it a try. After some play I managed to get the Lilly's path, which is pretty fortunate considering she's the girl I was interested in.
Long story short, went through her route, arrived at the dinner part and initially, going as I would have, I chose to tell about the letter, saving the game before the decision...BUT after 1 minute, don't know why, I just thought "hmmm, wait, talking about your previous relationships (even though the one with Iwanako could hardly be considered like one) on a date with the one you've fallen in love it's not very...nice/polite/good" and I went back and chose not to tell Lilly about it.
The friend who introduced me to the game had kinda explained me the structure of it, even though he said only later about the "choices influencing the endings".
So I went through the route, arrived at the departure of Lilly and by then I was really hoping to have not made some mistake, to have not made a bad choice....but as soon as she left, when Hisao remained with Hanako, I saw the credits rolling....and I cried...for a good 10/15 minutes...
I went on google to see the pattern and as soon as I saw about the letter I cursed...I cursed to myself for being such an idiot. Obviously immediately after that I loaded the saving and made the good choice, but even so I was (and still kinda am) destroyed by the remorse of my mistake....
I really wanna thank 4 Leaf Studio for making this game, because it's really...huge...and in a good way, but now I just feel crushed.
Yeah, I know it's only a game, but the atmosphere, my situation irl (not one of the best atm) and the fact of being home alone for some days just managing to sleep, work and play the game helped a lot to boost the emotions. I literally have never been (this is also my first VN) so involved, neither in a book or a film, at this level... I could never imagine I could "fall in love" with a fictional character....
The problem is that after "failing" her route I just feel disappointed....disappointed by myself as a human being (don't worry guys, not taking it to the levels of suicide or such stuff
), disappointed that I wasn't able to keep Lilly...yeah, in some little space in my head I hear a voice saying "your first instictive choice was right!", but the burden of the mistake is just huge.
I know that in some days my brain is gonna wake up and say "hey, it's all a story, don't you worry", but now that this thing is so fresh in my head that makes me sad...
Now I'm just being overwhelmed by the emotions and the feeling of disappointment towards myself and Lilly, overwhelmed by the guilt of my mistake...
Soon I'm gonna start another route, even though I think it won't be the same. Lilly was just...I don't know, I got involved maybe a little too much :/
Sorry about my "whining", it's just that this game just took me by surprise and...I didn't expect these feels....thanks for anybody who's read all this and that can help me clear my head a little bit
It's only used for that sprite because Hanako is the only character hiding burn scars behind her hair.
