Broomhead wrote:
ONE OF US, ONE OF US.
Joking aside, it does have some of the same heavy-hitting as Hanako's route, but also some of the highs of Emi's, unlike Hanako's. Of course, that may just because I cared about her more. So, all together, you should play it once you're a little recovered from KS for mental stability.
Oh I'm much better now my friend, truly.
The problem with Hanako is that I see too much of myself in her and it hurts to be faced with painful memories this way.
It's like the story beats the shit out of your armor, then takes it off and kicks you the bloody nuts, no mercy is given.
While I've grown to like Lilly over Hanako's route I can't see much of me in her. So, if her story is good, I'll get emotional again. But probably not as much as I did with Hanako's.
Which reminds me. Since I started it I might as well finish it, right?
Life After Hanako . Day 4
(yesterday)
I thought I was doing pretty good throughout the whole day. I didn't listen to the OST once (I didn't have time to sit down long enough to do it) and while I was frequently thinking about KS and Hanako and my past, I never had my heart feeling squeezed once, nor did I felt the need to cry. I decided to go and meet up with the girl after work and go to the beach (yes, at 7pm). It was going pretty okay, until she decided it was a good idea to go and check the sunset that a bar nearby was having.
I knew it was a bad idea. Emotionally weakened like I was, I knew that being around hundreds of other people in a setting completely foreign to me, with literally no personal space whatsoever, was just asking me to retract to myself, shaking and cowering in fear, like I used to do when I was a kid. I held out for about 15 minutes, then I think I was squeazing my gin glass with a little to much force because it shattered in my hand, leaving my hand with a few deep cuts. I begged her to go away and she agreed to go for a walk, knowing full well a walk meant "let's go back to the car and get the hell out of this place". She didn't ask anything, just held my hand tightly.
When we reached the car, I cleaned my hand and we spoke for a bit. About what happened, about why I have been distant and depressed. And I told her, about a lot of things that she didn't know. About my childhood, about my anxiety attacks (or whatever the hell those were), about I hid my fears and anxieties, about the roundabout way I came up to be able to talk normally and deal with people. I cried, I told her how this game touched me like it did.
I understood that typing about these things on the internet is very different than actually talking about them in person. Specially to a person you love, someone who helped you get through your insecurities and problems. We talked a bit more what had happened at the sunset party, then it got late, I took her home and drove to my place. I was feeling alot better after crying and talking about it. It definitely helped. I even wrote a review for KS, it is in Portuguese so I doubt any of you will read it.
I went to bed a bit more optimistic.
Life After Hanako . Day 5
(Today, the final chapter)
Everything went on as usual. I listening to the OST and managed to endure Painful History, Jitter, Raindrops and Puddles without flinching or tearing up like a little bitch. Of course, over the course of my day I still thought about KS but it didn't bother me much. It definitely left me a lot more aware of who I am, and who I was.
I'm emotionally strong now to put my mask on, so talking to co-working and sometimes a little goofing around was possible.
Recovery pretty much complete, so today I'm taking on Shinzune's path. I'm a little concerned Lily's will hit me pretty bad but I'll manage it.
The End... for now.
Thanks to anyone who read all these walls of text. This little diary I made made me feel better no doubt.
I don't think I'll have to make more of these for the rest of the girls, but I was told Rin has the saddest story. We'll see.
