Re: Secret Santa 2021 - Story collection
Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2022 2:52 pm
Here's my piece for our local space enjoyer, Crafty. Merry (very belated) Christmas and happy (very belated) New Year, Crafty.
Prompt: A story that takes place (at least partially) at Yamaku which includes someone in love, someone in trouble, someone who knows more than they want to.
White christmas, not for everyone
The feeling of something moving next to me wakes me up. Slowly opening my eyes, the first thing I see is Suzu’s blue messy hair, as she stretches with a yawn. This is a blessed sight; she’s too cute when she’s the most vulnerable.
Caressing with my fingertips over her lower back, I look at her with a big smile on my lips. She quivers, turning to me, kissing my forehead when she sees I’m awake.
“Good morning, sweetheart.”
“Good morning, babe.”
“You turned your back on me last night.” She says with a pout, faking indignation before smiling.
“As if I can control myself when I’m dreaming. Blame your lovely sundress, not me.” I answer with a serious tone before bursting into laugher.
Since the beginning of the week, Suzu is sleeping in my room, and luckily for me, she doesn’t take too much space. However, I wouldn’t say that I sleep well.
Suzu’s narcolepsy causes frequent nighttime awakenings, because she has realistic nightmares that scare her, or because she has trouble breathing. She does her best to be discreet at night, but I always try to reassure her before she goes back to sleep.
“I’m gonna shower; you wanna come?” She asks, even if she already knows the answer.
“You’re really asking me if I want to shower with my hot girlfriend? I would never say no.”
She takes a spare towel, and we head towards the bathroom. It’s quite early, so the hallway is empty; a quiet atmosphere prevails, which is something I learned to like about this place.
Once in the bathroom, I quickly undress and throw myself in the shower. It takes some endless seconds before the hot water runs over my skin. I breathe a sigh of relief, and can’t do anything else than waiting for her. She takes her time, but she eventually joins me in the shower.
She clinches her body against mine, resting her head on my breasts. Breathing a sigh of relief, she wraps her arms around my waist.
I don’t know how long we stay there, doing nothing else than enjoying the hot water and each other’s warmth. It’s not something we do regularly, but we still enjoy doing it when we can.
Putting shampoo on her hair, I gently stroke her hair, which ends with a ridiculous result that makes me laugh; her hairdo makes no sense. She does the same with my upper body, giving me a warm sensation, and it takes a lot of efforts to resist the urge to press her against the wall and kiss her.
We soap each other, Suzu doing it more innocently than I do, like anything she does. She’s my exact opposite, innocent in every thing she does, a calm and girly girl, that could spend long hours on reading or doing things I wouldn’t have the patience for. Despite that, she’s the one I love.
“I love you, Suzu.”
“I love you too, you dummy.” She says, on tiptoes, kissing my forehead. “Don’t you want to make love, by any chance? I mean, it’s your signature call when you say that you love me when I’m naked.”
“I would say that I’m trying my best to resist the urge right now.”
“If you wait until tonight, I’ll give you a pleasant surprise.” Her saucy voice tone says everything, which motivates me to wait.
“After breakfast, I’ll check on Hisao; you wanna come?” I ask, concerned about his state of mind.
He must have had a terrible week; he had another argument with Emi about a subject she doesn’t want to talk about if she’s not the one who starts the conversation. I don’t know if he talked to her since the argument, but if he wants to reconcile with her, he must do so.
“Yeah, I think we need to pay him a visit; it would give him something else to focus on.” I knew she would accept, but asking her if she wants to come was polite.
We eventually finish our shower and come back to my room. After dressing up, I take a spare bandage, but she takes it from me. She slowly wraps my bandage around my hand, with a religious care.
Since we’re dating, she insists on doing it as often as possible. I don’t know why she wants to do that, and she even does it better than I do. Maybe it’s one of her ways to show me she cares about me, but her love for me is a sufficient proof for me.
Once we’re ready, we’re heading to the cafeteria, my stomach reminding me I have eaten nothing since last night. I pray we won’t have to wait for too long to grab something to eat; the place can be pretty busy sometimes. When we reach it, I’m pleasantly surprised there is almost nobody here. It only takes less than two minutes to grab some food, a bowl of rice, eggs and some greens for me, and the same for Suzu, with an extra soup on the side.
Finding an empty table, we take a seat and quietly begin our breakfast.
………………………………………………
The boys’ dorm is much more lively than the girls’ dorm when we left it. The hallway is busy with students and parents; a lot of students are leaving to spend the Christmas holidays with their families. We try to make our way between the students, their parents and the many luggages that clutter the path.
I’m kind of jealous; these kids seem thrilled to come back home for the holidays. The only one who waits for me at home is my sister, and it kills me to leave her alone with our parents.
They spend their time yelling at each other; they don’t really care about us. I’m used to it, but my sister is way younger than me, and I hate the fact that they can’t even think like adults and can’t even give some stability to my little sister. I know they can’t stand each other anymore, but it would be a sign of maturity to calm down, just to give some peace to my sister.
The perspective of finding a job after my diploma, even the most boring one, to give some stability and peace to her, helps me to endure this situation. Haruka deserves better than that, and the least I can do for her is to be a reassuring figure for her. It’s a lot of responsibilities, and I will learn to be responsible the hard way.
We head towards room 119, and once in front of the door, I knock twice. As expected, there’s no answer. I knock once again, and eventually, we hear footsteps coming to the door.
A sight I expected greets us. Hisao is standing there, in front of us, in his pajamas, with large dark circles under his eyes, messy hair and pasty skin. It looks like he didn’t even leave his room since the argument, and I wouldn’t be surprised if it was actually the case.
“Hi, hotshot; what’s up?”
“Hi, Miki, hi, Suzu.” He loudly yawns, his body language only confirms what I thought. “I’ve been better.”
“Get dressed, we’re going to the Shanghai.” Suzu looks as surprised as him, maybe because she was thinking we would just check on him. But, seeing the poor state he is in right now, there’s no way I’ll let him mope around.
“You know, you don’t need me if you want to go there.” He says, showing no will to come with us.
“Oh, come on Hisao, don’t tell me you have something more important to do today.” I retort, moping around won’t do him any good.
“I’m fine here; I’m glad you’re concerned about my well-being, but I don’t feel like strolling around today.” His bored voice tone only gives me one choice.
“Did I stutter? I’m giving you five minutes. If you’re not ready after these five minutes, I’ll come here, and I don’t care if you’re butt naked.” It may sound imperative, but it’s for his sake.
“All right, all right…” He sighs, sounding more defeatist than anything else.
He closes the door, leaving us in the hallway. I hope for his sake that he didn’t go back to bed.
“Don’t you think you were a little rough with him?” Suzu asks, and she may be right, but I don’t want him to stay alone like that.
“He’ll thank us for this later, trust me.”
Less than five minutes later, he comes out of his room, wearing the most boring winter outfit I’ve ever seen. Brown coat and sweater, white scarf and gloves, black trousers and brown leather boots. I knew he had no sense of style, but he could have at least tried. However, he’s coming with us, that’s something, so I won’t complain about his outfit.
Once outside, I can’t help but running in the snow in the school’s gardens. It’s probably childish, but it brings back nice memories, when my parents were still loving parents and they were playing with me in the snow. I don’t know why everything changed, but we can’t go back.
I don’t care about what others are thinking; I do what I want to do, and this is something I like to do during winter. Sometimes, Suzu joins me, and she also has fun. It’s all that matters, the judgment of others doesn’t affect us.
While we head towards the Shanghai, Hisao says nothing, and it seems he’s still not happy to come with us.
“Cheer up, hotshot! Don’t tell me you don’t want to see our lovely Yuuko. You know it will thrill her to see her star student.” I banter, giving him a nudge.
“It would have been better if I had the choice to come with you.” He answers, not liking my little joke.
I don’t want to argue with him, not during Christmas Eve. It doesn’t matter if he thinks it’s useless to bring him with us; he’s my friend, the least I can do for him is to try to cheer him up.
For the rest of the way, we remain silent, except for Suzu, that complains about the icy wind. A few minutes later, we finally reach the Shanghai, and once we pushed the door, Yuuko rushes to us, exaggeratedly bowing before realizing it’s only us.
She leads us towards a free space before apologizing because she has to take care of customers.
“Nothing beats a warm teahouse during winter.” I say, breathing a sigh of relief while we sit down.
Yuuko doesn’t keep us waiting for too long, and directly takes our order.
“A cup of your strongest black coffee, please.” I wouldn’t have expected anything else from Suzu.
“A cup of black coffee with vanilla extract, and a big slice of Black Forest cake, please, Yuuko.” I ask with a smile.
“Same for me, without the vanilla, please.” Weak, Hisao, weak. You’re not supposed to copy me.
She bows once again and leaves to prepare our order. If Emi was there with us, she would kill me because of my order. Even if we’re rivals, she still takes a great care about what I’m eating and how I practice. Maybe to humiliate me even more when she wins a race.
Less than five minutes later, Yuuko comes back with our order, staring at Hisao during the entire process. “You look defeated, Hisao.”
“I had a horrible week, yeah.” He sighs, drinking a bit of his coffee. “We had another argument, and I don’t think Emi wants to see me right now.”
“You didn’t talk to her since the argument?” Yuuko asks, surprised. He simply nods, which makes me sigh, a loud sigh I’m not even ashamed of.
They had words, and they decided not to talk to each other? They’re really smart, it would definitely do them good. He was dumb to talk to her about a subject she doesn’t like and permanently saying he wants to help her. On the other hand, she was dumb to yell at him for that; he just wants to do what he thinks is the best for her.
They have to talk to each other; I don’t think she would like to lose him, so they have to talk about this situation, otherwise this whole situation will last forever.
“You should talk to her; avoiding her because of an argument would make things worse.” She says, and she’s right.
“Do you think Emi would listen to me? She’s stubborn.”
Suzu and I stay quiet, just sipping our coffees; we don’t want to interfere in their discussion. “She is stubborn, but so are you, Hisao. Emi knows you’re there for her, that you want to help her. But the more you tell her, the more it will irritate her.” The only thing I can do is to nod; Yuuko is right, even if she always thinks her advice is stupid.
“It’s not like she ever asks for anything.” He replies, sighing even more.
“Because it will happen when she really needs it. She knows you’re there for her, but you know she rather faces her problems by herself. Give her time, and she will come to you when she will need it.” She pauses, and her expression shows she’s lost in her thoughts.
I would have thought hearing it from Yuuko would be enough for him to understand, but it seems it did nothing. When it doesn’t go his way, Hisao won’t listen, and he becomes extremely stubborn. Even I had lost the will to argue with him when he acts like that.
“Emi doesn’t like when you tell her what to do, or that you repeat the same things over and over. When she was at the hospital, she refused, for a long time, to do her re-education, because she thought it was an order from the nursing staff.”
Wait, Emi, someone who takes a religious care of her health and well-being, refused to do something that important? It doesn’t sound like her at all. Suzu and Hisao look as surprised as I am, and I can’t blame them; for me, Emi wouldn’t act like that at all.
“Even her mother has failed to make her understand she has to do that, for her sake. It took her a long time to cope with her situation, and she finally did her re-education, because she wanted to make her father proud.” She finally adds, and when she sees our shocked expression, she blushes, looks at her feet and eventually rushes at the counter, saying that she shouldn’t have said that.
We remain silent, especially me, because of these shocking news. I thought I knew Emi, and this just proves to me I didn’t. The only thing that breaks the silence is us occasionally sipping a bit of our beverages.
When I take a bite of my cake, I can’t help but sigh in satisfaction. This cake is my favorite dessert, and I never miss an occasion to take a slice of this chocolate-infused heaven. Even during the darkest days, a simple slice of that cake would brighten my life.
Hisao’s expression has changed; he’s not bothered to be there anymore, but he seems to be lost in thoughts. But it’s better than nothing; if he understood what Yuuko tried to tell him, it would surely fix things between them. I just hope they won’t be dumb as much as they were, because I don’t want to see my friends sad because of a couple’s quarrel.
When we are done, we still stay there for a bit, enjoying the pleasant warmth of the place. I could stay there all day long, but I’m not sure Suzu and Hisao would like to do nothing else than staying there for no reason.
Eventually, we leave the Shanghai and we head for the city center. There is a place I want to go to, an arcade that is only a few blocks away. This was a place where I used to go a lot during my first year at Yamaku; I went there less during the second year because I had met Suzu. We really became friends during the second part of the second year, and now, I just can’t imagine my life without her.
“Cheer up, hotshot. What’s better than spending a wintry afternoon with two hot girls?” I ask, giving him a nudge.
“I know something better that only concerns you.” Suzu replies with a serious face but a really saucy voice tone.
“Babe, this isn’t something you should say when young ears are around.” I can only fake an outraged expression before bursting into laugher.
The city’s streets are lively, full of couples and families carrying gifts or food for the Christmas’ dinner. When I see these kids with their parents, I can’t help but feeling a bit of jealousy. I would love to be in their shoes, even for a single day. Even Suzu offered me to help me on that side, but they are so stubborn it would waste our time to make them understand they have to change.
We walk in silence, slowly making progress while trying to make our way through the crowd. Some people lightly collide with us, but they apologize, so I won’t make a big deal out of this. Suddenly, a change in Suzu’s way of holding my hand tells me we have to do a break, right now. I don’t even have to ask her what happens; I already know what it means.
“Hisao, break time; she needs it.” I say, holding Suzu’s arm and leading her towards a bench. As soon as we sit down, her head falls on my shoulder. “That was a closed one.”
Every time I’m hanging out with her and she’s about to have a narcolepsy outbreak, I try my best to find a safe place. She has already fallen asleep alone outside, and obviously, sometimes, she hurts herself. So, if I can provide her a safe place to sleep when she has an outbreak, it’s the least I can do for her.
“I think I will never get used to that.” He whispers, even if it’s useless, because he can’t wake her up.
“I got used to it quickly. As long as I’m with her when it happens, she’s safe. When she’s alone, that’s a different story.”
“I don’t think I could deal with something like that…” His answer reminds me what I initially thought when Suzu told me about her condition. I can’t blame him for that.
“It’s what I initially thought. Despite that, I’m here for her; when I sleep with her, I have to comfort her when she wakes up with a start, terrified by a realistic nightmare, or because she has trouble breathing. I have to deal with her frequent nighttime awakenings, which explains why I’m often sleeping during the morning classes. I always try to find activities that wouldn’t be dangerous for her if she has an outbreak. Trust me, if I could otherwise, I would do it. But I love her; she’s my girlfriend, and I will help her with everything.” I answer, stroking her hair with my hand. I would never complain about anything I do for her; she’s too precious for me.
I just wish her expression would be serene; it really hurts me when I see her expression when she has an outbreak, and if I can appease her with my presence when it happens, it’s all that matters to me.
We stay there, quiet; the silence being only broken by the noises Suzu often makes when she sleeps. Some people look at us strangely, probably because they didn’t expect to see a teenager sleeping on a bench during a wintry afternoon. I can’t really blame them, but I hate these looks; I already have a lot of them because of my missing hand, and I don’t want anyone to look at her like that.
“If Emi doesn’t want to do anything tonight, do you have a backup plan?” I ask, curious about anything he could say.
“I mean, Hanako is alone, so I’ll probably do something with her.”
I totally forgot about Hanako. Lilly is in Ninohe with her girlfriend for the holidays, Akira is in Scotland, and Hanako is alone. If there is a person who doesn’t deserve to be alone for Christmas, it’s Hanako. For a long time, I thought she was a weird girl, and Hisao was the first one, apart from Lilly, who knew how to talk to her and how to soothe her.
Since Lilly has a girlfriend, she spends a little less time with her, but Hanako has gradually opened herself to others, and she even joined the newspaper club, which would have been unimaginable before. I’m glad she joined our little clique, and I always make sure she enjoys the time she spends with us.
“You’re right; she doesn’t deserve to be alone at this time of the year.”
Suzu is still sleeping, making weird noises as she usually does. There’s nothing we can do but wait until she wakes up, which never happens before she sleeps at least twenty minutes. We have nothing important planned, so waiting until she wakes up doesn’t bother me at all, but I don’t know what Hisao thinks about it, but since he’s with us, he has no other choice.
It almost takes her thirty minutes, since she has fallen asleep, to wake up. She slowly opens your eyes, but she can’t move at all. Every time when she wakes up from an outbreak, it paralyzes her body for a few seconds until she’s able to move again.
“Rise and shine, babe; we’ll have some fun.” I say, kissing her on the forehead. Stretching, she eventually gets up and asks where we’re going. “It’s a surprise; don’t spoil the surprise for Hisao.” I got his attention, perfect.
Now, Hisao shows more enthusiasm, which is better. If he was sulking all afternoon, I would have told him to go back to Yamaku to talk once and for all with Emi, to sort it all out. We want to spend a good time with him, and not see him moping around for some dumb reason.
A few minutes later, we eventually reach the arcade, and a huge smile appears on Hisao’s lips. I hit the nail on the head; it seems he likes arcades as much as I do. It’s the first time I come here with Suzu and someone else, and I really wonder why I didn’t do that before.
At the counter, I take some change for everyone; this place is quite cheap, so it won’t impact my budget that much. The first machine that attracts my attention is a fighting game, one of my favorites. Few of the regulars here have beaten me to this game, and Hisao will have to face me.
“You’re ready to get smacked?”
“I’m used to this kind of place, you know? And it’s a fighting game, the type of games I used to play a lot, so what would happen?” He challenges me with a smug face, but that just makes me burst out laughing.
“There are only a few people that are regulars here that beat her at this game, you know?” Suzu answers, with pride in her voice and her eyes. But he doesn’t seem to believe what she says, probably because he thinks she’s my girlfriend and what she would say about me would always be subjective.
I put a coin in the machine, and an upbeat rock guitar riff greets us on the character selection screen. I give him some time to select his character, and he selects a character with short pink hair, a blue jacket, and a sword behind his back. That’s a wise choice; this character has an excellent move and skill set, but it won’t measure up against my favorite character.
I’m faking hesitation when I choose my character, but I eventually choose a character with short but spiky black hair, an orange and blue suit, and blue boots. He doesn’t realize it, but he has already lost. And for maximum Machiavellianism, I will offer him time to learn how to fight with his character, only to see his smug expression fading away when he will realize he will never win.
When the fight begins, I give him time to discover the controls of the game and the different attacks of his character. And, as expected, when he attacks me, it’s only beginner moves, low attacks and energy beams. He doesn’t even use the sword, which is really powerful with the right combos. I just have to teleport behind him to dodge his energy beams and to start my combos.
I finish every combo with an energy beam, and even if I give him some opportunities to dodge some things, he never succeeds. Winning the fight is quite easy, but he still has the audacity to say that it was just luck. If you really want to think that, Hisao, let me destroy any hope you could have.
For the second fight, he chooses a green-skinned character with little antennas on his head and a purple suit. It’s still a powerful character, but it won’t change anything. Even with the weakest character of the game, the wife of the main character with spiky hair, I already know I will win.
The fight is like the previous one, even if my combos are way slower than with the previous character. I still win, even if I took more damages than the previous fight. And for the third and last fight, I win, once again, which erases that smug smile on his face. The best thing he could do was to make damages equivalent to one third of my life bar, which wasn’t that bad, to be honest.
“You’re not a poor player, even if I literally took the worst character for the second fight. But to be honest, you had no chance during the first one because I took the most powerful one. Maybe, with training, you’ll be able to beat me one day.” I joke while nudging him.
“I’ll beat you next time; don’t worry about that.” He answers, with the most serious expression I’ve ever seen on his face.
In the back of the arcade, there is a dancing machine I really want to try with Suzu. It’s not that complicated, so it should be quite safe for her. She likes to dance, and she’ll probably have fun, even if it’s not the thing she’s used to. She doesn’t know that, but I’m currently learning to dance, and once I’ve learned enough, I’ll dance with her, and it will be, I’m sure, a really pleasant surprise for her.
When she sees the machine, Suzu’s eyes shine with joy; she definitely can’t wait to try it. And I already know it will be kinda difficult to beat her on that game, because she’s way better than me. I just hope I won’t embarrass myself in front of her and Hisao.
I put a coin in the machine, and Suzu already selects a song in one of the highest difficulty settings. Okay, she just wants to crush me in front of our friend; I deserve it a bit, anyway. If you want to be too cocky, you will always end up being punished, eventually.
The countdown starts, and the song begins, with a really fast pace, maybe a bit too fast for me, but Suzu follows the pace easily. And I’m the one who’s supposed to be a high-paced runner. I miss a lot of steps; my combo never goes up than twenty, while she’s scoring a lot. How can she keep up with such a pace, the arrows on the screen are scrolling way too fast?
I’m sweating like crazy, and she’s doing that like this is nobody’s business. Suzu never fails to surprise me by doing things I never thought of. This song never ends, and the pace is still going faster, to a point I can’t even follow it, even if I try my hardest. But eventually, the song finally ends, and Suzu laughs when she sees how red and heavily breathing I am. When I see the score, I look at my feet; she is way ahead, with four millions more points than me.
Even Hisao is laughing, but in my shoes, he would have already given up a while ago. His heart condition would never have put up with it. I try to catch my breath, still wondering how such a little thing can do that without sweating at all. Is she training for that for a long time, just to embarrass me in front of our friend? No, it can’t be; she’s not that Machiavellian.
When I’m able to breathe correctly, I ask for a rematch, but with an easier song. I just can’t loose like that. When the song starts, the pace is way easier to follow, and for once, my feet go on the right arrows. Even if it’s an easier song, Suzu still seems to have fun, and it’s all that matters to me.
Sometimes, the song goes faster, and it’s quite difficult to keep my combo, but somehow, I still keep it. She’s moving with ease, as if she did that for years, while I’m still struggling to do that properly, but I’m scoring, so it doesn’t really matter if my moves are clean or not.
Surprisingly, when it comes to turning on myself, it’s way easier than the rest of the moves; I don’t know why, maybe because it doesn’t require a lot of precision. I have to admit, it’s way funnier, because I can finally score a bit, and I’m not embarrassing myself. The last part of the song is more difficult than I expected, and unfortunately, my feet aren’t fast enough to follow the pace. Which goes to show that, even if you’re sporty, you can fail at a rhythm game.
Once again, she beat me, with a huge margin. What did I expect? It’s not the type of game I’m used to play, so there was no way I could beat her. But, as long as she has fun, I don’t care if I’m embarrassing myself, even if I don’t like to admit that.
“I don’t know why, but the result was kinda predictable.” Hisao jokes, nudging me with a smug face.
“Don’t worry, you’ll go through it too. And I’ll let you suss out what just happened to you.” I pat his shoulder, because he will understand he should have shut up really soon.
I let Hisao choose a machine for our next game, and he has chosen a racing game with two bikes on a split screen. If he chose that for me, I will spank him, I don’t care. But, luckily for him, he asks Suzu to choose the bike she wants. Good job, Hisao, you just avoided a painful death; I’m proud of you.
He puts a coin in the machine and selects the circuit, choosing a map in Tokyo’s city center. Not something very original, I have to admit, we can see such maps in a lot of these games. I won’t complain about that; there are some things that are very common in games, even so, they work very well.
When the race begins, Hisao starts up faster than Suzu, but I believe in her, and his head start won’t last long. At least, this is what I’m hoping for; Suzu knows how to surprise me, after all. But, somehow, Hisao keeps his head start, and Suzu can’t catch up with him, even if she tries her hardest. It looks like he’s used to play it, given how well he drives, and luckily for me, I’m not playing against him.
On the second lap, she comes closer, but not enough to overtake him. She still has a chance, and if she wins, she’ll deserve it. But she still has to make a lot of efforts if she wants to win. On the last curve of the second lap, Hisao crashes his bike into the wall, wasting precious seconds, enough to give Suzu the opportunity to overtake him. Now, she has to keep her little advantage, but it’s definitely something she can do.
The last lap is a tight race, Hisao dangerously coming back, to the point they are nearly side by side on the last part of the track. I cheer for her, knowing she can beat him, and that’s what she eventually does, crossing the finish line one second before him.
I cheer for her when she wins, my pride being visible in my eyes. It would be an understatement to say I’m proud of her, no matter what she does. She’s the best thing I got, and I would never leave her.
“Congrats, babe; you deserved that.” I say, patting her head, which makes her chuckle. “You did well, Hisao, though. But there’s a game you could win; follow me.”
I have an idea; there are several punching ball machines in a corner of the arcade, and he should be better than us at such a game. For many people, he would look rather plain, but he has a nice build. It’s a shame he didn’t join the track club; he would do just fine, even with his heart condition.
I convinced this blonde girl with burn scars to join the club, but I failed with him, and I saw this as a personal failure. He’s running from time to time to keep in shape, but that’s it. That’s something, but if he had joined the club, I could spend more time with him.
“A punching ball machine, seriously? That’s what you found to let me win?” He says, feigning indignation. “So, be it.”
I put a coin in the machine, selecting the three players mode. We have only one shot, so I tell Suzu to punch as hard as she can, even if I know she won’t make a big score, given her lack of strength.
She punches as hard as she can, and the score goes up to 640. Not bad for such a fragile thing, I know people who got lower scores than that. When my turn comes, I take my time studying the machine and thinking about the best way to hit it. I also punch as hard as I can, making a score of 760. If Hisao makes a lower score, I win, but it’s highly unlikely.
He also takes his time, but he looks really confident. And he’s right, I know him enough to know he won’t disappoint me on that matter. After a short time of reflection, he punches the machine, making the highest score, with a score of 850. I expected nothing less from him, and his eyes shine with satisfaction.
“Nice one, hot shot; I expected nothing less from you.”
“Choosing such a game to let me win is a weak move, though.” He jokes, punching my shoulder with more force than I expected.
“We did that for your manliness, though.”
He just booed at me, pretending to be harmed by what I just said. “You wanna try something else?”
“Nah, I’m done; it was fun.” He answers, and I get the same answer from Suzu.
“As long as you had fun, it’s all that matters.”
Before we leave the arcade, he buys us some snacks from a vending machine, giving Suzu a chocolate bar with peanuts, a dark chocolate bar with orange for me, and some fruit candies for him. If Emi was with us, she would kill us.
Once outside, the icy wind is a blessing compared to how overheated the arcade was. But Suzu doesn’t seem to enjoy it at all, given how much she’s shivering. Stuffing my chocolate bar in my mouth, I wrap my arm around her to bring her a bit of warmth.
“In the end, you had a good idea to force me to come, Miki.” He admits, and I know it takes a lot of effort from him to admit he was wrong.
“When I said you’ll thank me later, I know what I’m talking about. Just listen to me a bit.”
That being said, it’s Hisao we’re talking about, and given how stubborn he is, admitting than someone else than him was right is kinda difficult for him. When he admits I was right, it’s a personal victory, because it doesn’t happen often.
We’re slowly making our way back to Yamaku, the idea of preparing myself for my date with my girlfriend sweeping other thoughts away. I just hope he won’t screw things up when he’ll talk to Emi.
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I reach the restaurant before Suzu, and even if the chilly wind makes me shiver, I don’t go inside the restaurant, because I want to be there when she reaches it. For her, I have made an effort, wearing a winter kimono, make-up and a purse, where my gift for her is hidden. This is the most girly outfit I’ve ever worn, and to be fair, I like it, but it’s not something I would wear daily.
This kimono was the last gift my parents ever gave me; it may be a second hand, I love it and take a great care of it. We never had a lot of money, and I should be grateful they’re paying for the school, even though I have almost no respect for them anymore. I respect them because they sent me to this school, but for everything else, I almost hate them.
A track team mate helped me with my hairdo and my make-up, and she did an excellent job. With such a hairdo and make-up, I definitely look like another girl, and I like that, even if it’s not something I would often do; too much work.
It takes a few minutes before Suzu appears across the street, and the vision she already gives me is wonderful. She’s extremely cute, even in her pajamas, but in such an attire, it’s a heavenly vision. She takes her time, coming closer with a slow pace, but the wait worths all.
I can't help but look at her with pride as she reaches me; she’s lovely with this candy pink kimono, and she even cared to comb her hair in a fancy way. And in her case, it’s way more difficult, since her hair is a mess.
“You look stunning, babe.”
“Not as much as you.” She says, kissing my forehead on her tiptoes.
We enter the restaurant, and I instantly realize why I never go to such a fancy place. We definitely don’t belong here, businessmen, ladies of the upper class; everyone here looks so formal when we are just teenagers trying to have a good time.
But the waiter who greets us at the entrance doesn’t feel surprised to see us, even if we don’t really belong to such a place. After checking our reservation, he leads us to a table for two, while wishing us a pleasant evening when we sit down. Suzu looks very surprised, and I can’t blame her; it’s a high-class establishment, and she does not know how difficult it was for me to make a reservation for us here.
“Tell me, how did you manage to book?” She asks, her surprised look hasn’t vanished.
“I’ve been trying for three months. Three months, with several calls a week. I’m still surprised they accepted the reservation, though.” I answer, finally telling her the truth about it. Trying to keep a secret away from her for three months when it involves our couple was more difficult than I expected.
“And why didn’t you tell me?”
“You don’t want me to tell you what is your gift, too?” I chuckle, poking her forehead with my fingers. “The whole point of a surprise is that you don’t know about it, babe.”
She’s faking indignation, but I can see gratitude in her eyes, and such a vision would make me do anything for her. My savings will go up in smoke, but it’s our first Christmas Eve together, and I wanted to make it special. And unlike some other couples, I don’t expect her to do anything in return just because I did that.
We didn’t wait a long time before the same waiter comes back to bring us the menu. Suzu tells the price of the items aloud, but I immediately spank her hand, telling her to take everything she wants, regardless of the cost. I can’t stand to see her to deprive herself of certain things on the pretext that I come from a modest family. She’s my girlfriend; I don’t worry about the cost when I’m with her.
Her choices are a piece of salmon for the first course, a piece of beef Wellington with side vegetables and pieces of truffles for the main course, and a strawberry pie with white chocolate for the dessert. Even in a fancy restaurant, her choices are casual, except for the truffles. I’ll have a piece of bluefin tuna for the first course, a pike fillet with side rice and vegetables for the main course, and a black forest cake for the dessert. Nothing too fancy, but I can’t go wrong with such a meal.
Our waiter takes our order, and with a quick bow, head towards the kitchens. Looking around, there are some young looking people, just like us, but wearing clothes we will never afford. Another reminder that we don’t belong here.
“Do you think he talked to her?”
“If he’s not dumb, he did, yeah. But we’re talking about Hisao and Emi; they are both extremely stubborn, and you can’t make them understand when they are wrong. I just hope he was smarter than her.” I answer, sighing; they can be pretty tedious when they act like that.
“I mean, I understand they can argue; we also do it sometimes, but not during the winter holidays; it’s supposed to be a festive period.”
“I know, babe, but you know, sometimes people don’t choose when they argue. The only thing we can do is to hope that they talked to each other, and that Emi has stopped pouting for a stupid reason.” Knowing Emi, it would be a waste of time, but I still have hope for them, sometimes.
Our first course doesn’t take too long to be served, and when I see our pieces of fish, I expected something bigger, but in such a place, the amount doesn’t matter, quality comes first. I take a bite of my piece of tuna, and as soon as it reaches my tongue, I understand why this place is always full. This is the best piece of tuna I’ve ever tasted, and it’s only the first course.
Suzu is clearly enjoying her fish too, given her expression and the little sounds of satisfaction she does. In another restaurant, I wouldn’t be that discreet, but here, I have to make an effort if I don’t want to be kicked out. Eating this piece of fish with my usual eating pace would be a sacrilege, and I’m eating way slower than usual. I never thought a piece of bluefin tuna would taste that good, even if I’m already used to such a taste.
“How did they make it so good when it looks like your usual piece of fish?” Suzu asks, with genuine surprise in her voice.
“I mean, it’s an upper-class establishment, babe. If it wasn’t good, I would wonder why people would still come here.”
It doesn’t take us too much time to finish our first course, and to kill time before the waiter gives us our main course after taking our dishes, I eat some bread. It’s obvious we’ll have to wait longer to get our next dish, but I don’t want to give her gift before the dessert, it would spoil the surprise.
A couple comes in, four ladies come out, a delicate procession of members of the upper-class is unfolding before our eyes. I can’t help but feel jealous; their outfits are magnificent and their behavior is flawless. Lilly would definitely belong here, and sometimes, I wonder if her parents really accept her relationship with a middle-class girl.
“Would you have still dated me if I was like them?” I ask Suzu while wondering about the girl I could have been if I were a member of a rich family.
“No.” She simply answers, but when I look at her with a curious look, she elaborates. “The Miki I love is a runner, a carefree girl that doesn’t care about what other people think about her, with her kindness, and even her incorrect behavior sometimes. The Miki who attracted me is you; I wouldn’t care about your upper-class counterpart.” She says, smiling and delicately fondling my hand.
Sometimes, I tell myself that I don’t deserve her, but at the same time, I feel glad she chose me. She could have chosen anyone, but I’m the one she chose. And I don’t think she realizes the impact she had on my life. Explaining her with the right words would be quite difficult for me; I’m not good at it.
After a bit of wait, our main course comes, and I just can’t wait starting eating. Pike has always been one of my favorite fishes, but for some reason, I can never find some, except in rare cases. And as soon as I can find some, it’s always quite expensive, so it’s more of a festive meal for me than anything else.
When I take a bite of my fish, childhood memories rush back into my mind. My parents were a lovely couple; I was playing with my sister in the garden during a late summer afternoon while Mom was cooking dinner, my uncle parking his car in front of the gate… When I was young, when we were receiving family, it was always a moment I cherished. I’ve lost so much, and I would give everything to live a moment like that again.
I can’t repress a nostalgic smile; Suzu notices it and can’t help herself but ask why.
“When we were receiving family, my mother used to cook pike of fishes like that. It was a carefree time of my life, something I would like that Haruka knows.” I sigh; each time I think about her, I feel guilty because she’s alone at home with them.
“Cheer up, sweetheart; you will soon be able to take her with you.” Suzu knows how to cheer me up, even with the simplest words.
Three people in the same house, like a small family, those who matter most to me. She would probably not mind if my sister lives with us, even if we would have to adapt a bit. But the idea of allowing her to leave this toxic atmosphere makes me able to hold out.
I don’t want to break the mood, so I quickly wipe my thoughts away, and I just focus on enjoying my meal with my girlfriend. It could be weird for many people, but I find her cute when she eats. To be fair, it’s extremely rare when I don’t find her behavior or actions cute.
The vegetables are excellent, the delicate sauce which accompanies them adds a sweet taste, making, with the fish, the most subtle dish I’ve ever tasted. The price of this dish is fully justified, and even if I couldn’t afford such a thing more than twice a year, I don’t feel ripped at all.
“Can I try your fish?” Suzu suddenly asks, looking at my dish with a curious look.
I don’t answer, but I simply bring a piece of fish to her mouth. She takes her time to bite it, as if she was analyzing every nuance of the fish’s taste. But given her expression, she doesn’t like it, her disgusted face is highly amusing.
“How can you eat that? That’s definitely not good.”
“My dear Suzu Suzuki, your palate isn’t fine enough to appreciate such a masterpiece. And since you like natto, you ain’t one to talk.” I poke her nose with my fingers, as a kind of banter.
“You’re one to talk, you eat offals.” She’s faking indignation, but I can understand people could hate offals.
“Hey! Offals are very good for runners! Okay, it looks and can taste weird, but it’s incredibly nutritious.” I can’t believe I need to justify myself because I sometimes eat something that is good for me.
We quietly finish our main course, the waiter taking our dishes a few minutes later, asking us if everything was fine, a question to which we answer with a kind yes.
This is a perfect time, before the dessert, to give Suzu her gift. Casually taking my purse, I take out the little box wrapped in a pink gift wrap. I don’t have the time to say anything because she does the same thing.
“Merry Christmas, babe.” I say, putting her gift in front of her.
“Merry Christmas, sweetheart.” She answers, doing the same thing.
I let her unwrap her gift first, and when she opens the box, her eyes shine with awe. A silver necklace with an orchid, the first flower I’ve ever bought her and also her favorite flower, comes out, and a little ring with the same orchid accompanies it.
Her beaming smile tells me I was successful when I bought her this ensemble. “Thank you, sweetheart; it’s magnificent.” She cheers with one of the most sincere gratitude I’ve ever seen.
I slowly unwrap my gift, wondering what she may have taken. It’s also a box of similar size to hers, but the distinct color and texture tell me she went to a jewelry I never went to.
There is a silver bracelet with our both names on it, and the date from which we started dating, and a cute heart-shaped necklace with our names on it. It looks really feminine, and even if it looks like something I never thought I would wear daily, it’s way too cute to stay on a desk. Time to be more feminine, I guess.
“Thank you so much, babe; this is wonderful. You shouldn’t have…” She can see I’m really glad she did that; I love this ensemble.
“Initially, I thought it wouldn’t be your style, but in the end, I thought it would look good on you.”
“Back in the days, I would have definitely seen this as being too feminine for me. But since I’ve known you, I don’t know, I like that kind of thing more and more. And I don’t care about what the other may think, I’ll wear this ensemble all the time. This is the best gift I’ve ever been given.” I reply; my smile and my eyes don’t lie, I’m really grateful she gave me such a wonderful gift.
A year ago, I never thought I would date Suzu, and that she would become so important in my life. Being her girlfriend changed me in so many ways. I knew who I wanted to be with, knew what I wanted to do with my life… Suzu, with her kindness, her care, her little attentions, changed the girl I was. I was self-centred, running was my obsession, and the only thing I wanted to do was to find a job, even the most boring one, just to give my sister an opportunity to leave my parents’ control to live a better life.
I cared about my friends, simply. When Suzu came into my life, I never thought I would care about anyone as much as I care about Haruka. To say I’m not glad she changed my behavior to that degree would be a lie; I’m really proud to be her girlfriend, and above all, to be the girl I am, thanks to her. And I would never be grateful enough to her for that. The only thing I can do is to be there for her as much as she is for me. And she will never know how much I love her.
Prompt: A story that takes place (at least partially) at Yamaku which includes someone in love, someone in trouble, someone who knows more than they want to.
White christmas, not for everyone
The feeling of something moving next to me wakes me up. Slowly opening my eyes, the first thing I see is Suzu’s blue messy hair, as she stretches with a yawn. This is a blessed sight; she’s too cute when she’s the most vulnerable.
Caressing with my fingertips over her lower back, I look at her with a big smile on my lips. She quivers, turning to me, kissing my forehead when she sees I’m awake.
“Good morning, sweetheart.”
“Good morning, babe.”
“You turned your back on me last night.” She says with a pout, faking indignation before smiling.
“As if I can control myself when I’m dreaming. Blame your lovely sundress, not me.” I answer with a serious tone before bursting into laugher.
Since the beginning of the week, Suzu is sleeping in my room, and luckily for me, she doesn’t take too much space. However, I wouldn’t say that I sleep well.
Suzu’s narcolepsy causes frequent nighttime awakenings, because she has realistic nightmares that scare her, or because she has trouble breathing. She does her best to be discreet at night, but I always try to reassure her before she goes back to sleep.
“I’m gonna shower; you wanna come?” She asks, even if she already knows the answer.
“You’re really asking me if I want to shower with my hot girlfriend? I would never say no.”
She takes a spare towel, and we head towards the bathroom. It’s quite early, so the hallway is empty; a quiet atmosphere prevails, which is something I learned to like about this place.
Once in the bathroom, I quickly undress and throw myself in the shower. It takes some endless seconds before the hot water runs over my skin. I breathe a sigh of relief, and can’t do anything else than waiting for her. She takes her time, but she eventually joins me in the shower.
She clinches her body against mine, resting her head on my breasts. Breathing a sigh of relief, she wraps her arms around my waist.
I don’t know how long we stay there, doing nothing else than enjoying the hot water and each other’s warmth. It’s not something we do regularly, but we still enjoy doing it when we can.
Putting shampoo on her hair, I gently stroke her hair, which ends with a ridiculous result that makes me laugh; her hairdo makes no sense. She does the same with my upper body, giving me a warm sensation, and it takes a lot of efforts to resist the urge to press her against the wall and kiss her.
We soap each other, Suzu doing it more innocently than I do, like anything she does. She’s my exact opposite, innocent in every thing she does, a calm and girly girl, that could spend long hours on reading or doing things I wouldn’t have the patience for. Despite that, she’s the one I love.
“I love you, Suzu.”
“I love you too, you dummy.” She says, on tiptoes, kissing my forehead. “Don’t you want to make love, by any chance? I mean, it’s your signature call when you say that you love me when I’m naked.”
“I would say that I’m trying my best to resist the urge right now.”
“If you wait until tonight, I’ll give you a pleasant surprise.” Her saucy voice tone says everything, which motivates me to wait.
“After breakfast, I’ll check on Hisao; you wanna come?” I ask, concerned about his state of mind.
He must have had a terrible week; he had another argument with Emi about a subject she doesn’t want to talk about if she’s not the one who starts the conversation. I don’t know if he talked to her since the argument, but if he wants to reconcile with her, he must do so.
“Yeah, I think we need to pay him a visit; it would give him something else to focus on.” I knew she would accept, but asking her if she wants to come was polite.
We eventually finish our shower and come back to my room. After dressing up, I take a spare bandage, but she takes it from me. She slowly wraps my bandage around my hand, with a religious care.
Since we’re dating, she insists on doing it as often as possible. I don’t know why she wants to do that, and she even does it better than I do. Maybe it’s one of her ways to show me she cares about me, but her love for me is a sufficient proof for me.
Once we’re ready, we’re heading to the cafeteria, my stomach reminding me I have eaten nothing since last night. I pray we won’t have to wait for too long to grab something to eat; the place can be pretty busy sometimes. When we reach it, I’m pleasantly surprised there is almost nobody here. It only takes less than two minutes to grab some food, a bowl of rice, eggs and some greens for me, and the same for Suzu, with an extra soup on the side.
Finding an empty table, we take a seat and quietly begin our breakfast.
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The boys’ dorm is much more lively than the girls’ dorm when we left it. The hallway is busy with students and parents; a lot of students are leaving to spend the Christmas holidays with their families. We try to make our way between the students, their parents and the many luggages that clutter the path.
I’m kind of jealous; these kids seem thrilled to come back home for the holidays. The only one who waits for me at home is my sister, and it kills me to leave her alone with our parents.
They spend their time yelling at each other; they don’t really care about us. I’m used to it, but my sister is way younger than me, and I hate the fact that they can’t even think like adults and can’t even give some stability to my little sister. I know they can’t stand each other anymore, but it would be a sign of maturity to calm down, just to give some peace to my sister.
The perspective of finding a job after my diploma, even the most boring one, to give some stability and peace to her, helps me to endure this situation. Haruka deserves better than that, and the least I can do for her is to be a reassuring figure for her. It’s a lot of responsibilities, and I will learn to be responsible the hard way.
We head towards room 119, and once in front of the door, I knock twice. As expected, there’s no answer. I knock once again, and eventually, we hear footsteps coming to the door.
A sight I expected greets us. Hisao is standing there, in front of us, in his pajamas, with large dark circles under his eyes, messy hair and pasty skin. It looks like he didn’t even leave his room since the argument, and I wouldn’t be surprised if it was actually the case.
“Hi, hotshot; what’s up?”
“Hi, Miki, hi, Suzu.” He loudly yawns, his body language only confirms what I thought. “I’ve been better.”
“Get dressed, we’re going to the Shanghai.” Suzu looks as surprised as him, maybe because she was thinking we would just check on him. But, seeing the poor state he is in right now, there’s no way I’ll let him mope around.
“You know, you don’t need me if you want to go there.” He says, showing no will to come with us.
“Oh, come on Hisao, don’t tell me you have something more important to do today.” I retort, moping around won’t do him any good.
“I’m fine here; I’m glad you’re concerned about my well-being, but I don’t feel like strolling around today.” His bored voice tone only gives me one choice.
“Did I stutter? I’m giving you five minutes. If you’re not ready after these five minutes, I’ll come here, and I don’t care if you’re butt naked.” It may sound imperative, but it’s for his sake.
“All right, all right…” He sighs, sounding more defeatist than anything else.
He closes the door, leaving us in the hallway. I hope for his sake that he didn’t go back to bed.
“Don’t you think you were a little rough with him?” Suzu asks, and she may be right, but I don’t want him to stay alone like that.
“He’ll thank us for this later, trust me.”
Less than five minutes later, he comes out of his room, wearing the most boring winter outfit I’ve ever seen. Brown coat and sweater, white scarf and gloves, black trousers and brown leather boots. I knew he had no sense of style, but he could have at least tried. However, he’s coming with us, that’s something, so I won’t complain about his outfit.
Once outside, I can’t help but running in the snow in the school’s gardens. It’s probably childish, but it brings back nice memories, when my parents were still loving parents and they were playing with me in the snow. I don’t know why everything changed, but we can’t go back.
I don’t care about what others are thinking; I do what I want to do, and this is something I like to do during winter. Sometimes, Suzu joins me, and she also has fun. It’s all that matters, the judgment of others doesn’t affect us.
While we head towards the Shanghai, Hisao says nothing, and it seems he’s still not happy to come with us.
“Cheer up, hotshot! Don’t tell me you don’t want to see our lovely Yuuko. You know it will thrill her to see her star student.” I banter, giving him a nudge.
“It would have been better if I had the choice to come with you.” He answers, not liking my little joke.
I don’t want to argue with him, not during Christmas Eve. It doesn’t matter if he thinks it’s useless to bring him with us; he’s my friend, the least I can do for him is to try to cheer him up.
For the rest of the way, we remain silent, except for Suzu, that complains about the icy wind. A few minutes later, we finally reach the Shanghai, and once we pushed the door, Yuuko rushes to us, exaggeratedly bowing before realizing it’s only us.
She leads us towards a free space before apologizing because she has to take care of customers.
“Nothing beats a warm teahouse during winter.” I say, breathing a sigh of relief while we sit down.
Yuuko doesn’t keep us waiting for too long, and directly takes our order.
“A cup of your strongest black coffee, please.” I wouldn’t have expected anything else from Suzu.
“A cup of black coffee with vanilla extract, and a big slice of Black Forest cake, please, Yuuko.” I ask with a smile.
“Same for me, without the vanilla, please.” Weak, Hisao, weak. You’re not supposed to copy me.
She bows once again and leaves to prepare our order. If Emi was there with us, she would kill me because of my order. Even if we’re rivals, she still takes a great care about what I’m eating and how I practice. Maybe to humiliate me even more when she wins a race.
Less than five minutes later, Yuuko comes back with our order, staring at Hisao during the entire process. “You look defeated, Hisao.”
“I had a horrible week, yeah.” He sighs, drinking a bit of his coffee. “We had another argument, and I don’t think Emi wants to see me right now.”
“You didn’t talk to her since the argument?” Yuuko asks, surprised. He simply nods, which makes me sigh, a loud sigh I’m not even ashamed of.
They had words, and they decided not to talk to each other? They’re really smart, it would definitely do them good. He was dumb to talk to her about a subject she doesn’t like and permanently saying he wants to help her. On the other hand, she was dumb to yell at him for that; he just wants to do what he thinks is the best for her.
They have to talk to each other; I don’t think she would like to lose him, so they have to talk about this situation, otherwise this whole situation will last forever.
“You should talk to her; avoiding her because of an argument would make things worse.” She says, and she’s right.
“Do you think Emi would listen to me? She’s stubborn.”
Suzu and I stay quiet, just sipping our coffees; we don’t want to interfere in their discussion. “She is stubborn, but so are you, Hisao. Emi knows you’re there for her, that you want to help her. But the more you tell her, the more it will irritate her.” The only thing I can do is to nod; Yuuko is right, even if she always thinks her advice is stupid.
“It’s not like she ever asks for anything.” He replies, sighing even more.
“Because it will happen when she really needs it. She knows you’re there for her, but you know she rather faces her problems by herself. Give her time, and she will come to you when she will need it.” She pauses, and her expression shows she’s lost in her thoughts.
I would have thought hearing it from Yuuko would be enough for him to understand, but it seems it did nothing. When it doesn’t go his way, Hisao won’t listen, and he becomes extremely stubborn. Even I had lost the will to argue with him when he acts like that.
“Emi doesn’t like when you tell her what to do, or that you repeat the same things over and over. When she was at the hospital, she refused, for a long time, to do her re-education, because she thought it was an order from the nursing staff.”
Wait, Emi, someone who takes a religious care of her health and well-being, refused to do something that important? It doesn’t sound like her at all. Suzu and Hisao look as surprised as I am, and I can’t blame them; for me, Emi wouldn’t act like that at all.
“Even her mother has failed to make her understand she has to do that, for her sake. It took her a long time to cope with her situation, and she finally did her re-education, because she wanted to make her father proud.” She finally adds, and when she sees our shocked expression, she blushes, looks at her feet and eventually rushes at the counter, saying that she shouldn’t have said that.
We remain silent, especially me, because of these shocking news. I thought I knew Emi, and this just proves to me I didn’t. The only thing that breaks the silence is us occasionally sipping a bit of our beverages.
When I take a bite of my cake, I can’t help but sigh in satisfaction. This cake is my favorite dessert, and I never miss an occasion to take a slice of this chocolate-infused heaven. Even during the darkest days, a simple slice of that cake would brighten my life.
Hisao’s expression has changed; he’s not bothered to be there anymore, but he seems to be lost in thoughts. But it’s better than nothing; if he understood what Yuuko tried to tell him, it would surely fix things between them. I just hope they won’t be dumb as much as they were, because I don’t want to see my friends sad because of a couple’s quarrel.
When we are done, we still stay there for a bit, enjoying the pleasant warmth of the place. I could stay there all day long, but I’m not sure Suzu and Hisao would like to do nothing else than staying there for no reason.
Eventually, we leave the Shanghai and we head for the city center. There is a place I want to go to, an arcade that is only a few blocks away. This was a place where I used to go a lot during my first year at Yamaku; I went there less during the second year because I had met Suzu. We really became friends during the second part of the second year, and now, I just can’t imagine my life without her.
“Cheer up, hotshot. What’s better than spending a wintry afternoon with two hot girls?” I ask, giving him a nudge.
“I know something better that only concerns you.” Suzu replies with a serious face but a really saucy voice tone.
“Babe, this isn’t something you should say when young ears are around.” I can only fake an outraged expression before bursting into laugher.
The city’s streets are lively, full of couples and families carrying gifts or food for the Christmas’ dinner. When I see these kids with their parents, I can’t help but feeling a bit of jealousy. I would love to be in their shoes, even for a single day. Even Suzu offered me to help me on that side, but they are so stubborn it would waste our time to make them understand they have to change.
We walk in silence, slowly making progress while trying to make our way through the crowd. Some people lightly collide with us, but they apologize, so I won’t make a big deal out of this. Suddenly, a change in Suzu’s way of holding my hand tells me we have to do a break, right now. I don’t even have to ask her what happens; I already know what it means.
“Hisao, break time; she needs it.” I say, holding Suzu’s arm and leading her towards a bench. As soon as we sit down, her head falls on my shoulder. “That was a closed one.”
Every time I’m hanging out with her and she’s about to have a narcolepsy outbreak, I try my best to find a safe place. She has already fallen asleep alone outside, and obviously, sometimes, she hurts herself. So, if I can provide her a safe place to sleep when she has an outbreak, it’s the least I can do for her.
“I think I will never get used to that.” He whispers, even if it’s useless, because he can’t wake her up.
“I got used to it quickly. As long as I’m with her when it happens, she’s safe. When she’s alone, that’s a different story.”
“I don’t think I could deal with something like that…” His answer reminds me what I initially thought when Suzu told me about her condition. I can’t blame him for that.
“It’s what I initially thought. Despite that, I’m here for her; when I sleep with her, I have to comfort her when she wakes up with a start, terrified by a realistic nightmare, or because she has trouble breathing. I have to deal with her frequent nighttime awakenings, which explains why I’m often sleeping during the morning classes. I always try to find activities that wouldn’t be dangerous for her if she has an outbreak. Trust me, if I could otherwise, I would do it. But I love her; she’s my girlfriend, and I will help her with everything.” I answer, stroking her hair with my hand. I would never complain about anything I do for her; she’s too precious for me.
I just wish her expression would be serene; it really hurts me when I see her expression when she has an outbreak, and if I can appease her with my presence when it happens, it’s all that matters to me.
We stay there, quiet; the silence being only broken by the noises Suzu often makes when she sleeps. Some people look at us strangely, probably because they didn’t expect to see a teenager sleeping on a bench during a wintry afternoon. I can’t really blame them, but I hate these looks; I already have a lot of them because of my missing hand, and I don’t want anyone to look at her like that.
“If Emi doesn’t want to do anything tonight, do you have a backup plan?” I ask, curious about anything he could say.
“I mean, Hanako is alone, so I’ll probably do something with her.”
I totally forgot about Hanako. Lilly is in Ninohe with her girlfriend for the holidays, Akira is in Scotland, and Hanako is alone. If there is a person who doesn’t deserve to be alone for Christmas, it’s Hanako. For a long time, I thought she was a weird girl, and Hisao was the first one, apart from Lilly, who knew how to talk to her and how to soothe her.
Since Lilly has a girlfriend, she spends a little less time with her, but Hanako has gradually opened herself to others, and she even joined the newspaper club, which would have been unimaginable before. I’m glad she joined our little clique, and I always make sure she enjoys the time she spends with us.
“You’re right; she doesn’t deserve to be alone at this time of the year.”
Suzu is still sleeping, making weird noises as she usually does. There’s nothing we can do but wait until she wakes up, which never happens before she sleeps at least twenty minutes. We have nothing important planned, so waiting until she wakes up doesn’t bother me at all, but I don’t know what Hisao thinks about it, but since he’s with us, he has no other choice.
It almost takes her thirty minutes, since she has fallen asleep, to wake up. She slowly opens your eyes, but she can’t move at all. Every time when she wakes up from an outbreak, it paralyzes her body for a few seconds until she’s able to move again.
“Rise and shine, babe; we’ll have some fun.” I say, kissing her on the forehead. Stretching, she eventually gets up and asks where we’re going. “It’s a surprise; don’t spoil the surprise for Hisao.” I got his attention, perfect.
Now, Hisao shows more enthusiasm, which is better. If he was sulking all afternoon, I would have told him to go back to Yamaku to talk once and for all with Emi, to sort it all out. We want to spend a good time with him, and not see him moping around for some dumb reason.
A few minutes later, we eventually reach the arcade, and a huge smile appears on Hisao’s lips. I hit the nail on the head; it seems he likes arcades as much as I do. It’s the first time I come here with Suzu and someone else, and I really wonder why I didn’t do that before.
At the counter, I take some change for everyone; this place is quite cheap, so it won’t impact my budget that much. The first machine that attracts my attention is a fighting game, one of my favorites. Few of the regulars here have beaten me to this game, and Hisao will have to face me.
“You’re ready to get smacked?”
“I’m used to this kind of place, you know? And it’s a fighting game, the type of games I used to play a lot, so what would happen?” He challenges me with a smug face, but that just makes me burst out laughing.
“There are only a few people that are regulars here that beat her at this game, you know?” Suzu answers, with pride in her voice and her eyes. But he doesn’t seem to believe what she says, probably because he thinks she’s my girlfriend and what she would say about me would always be subjective.
I put a coin in the machine, and an upbeat rock guitar riff greets us on the character selection screen. I give him some time to select his character, and he selects a character with short pink hair, a blue jacket, and a sword behind his back. That’s a wise choice; this character has an excellent move and skill set, but it won’t measure up against my favorite character.
I’m faking hesitation when I choose my character, but I eventually choose a character with short but spiky black hair, an orange and blue suit, and blue boots. He doesn’t realize it, but he has already lost. And for maximum Machiavellianism, I will offer him time to learn how to fight with his character, only to see his smug expression fading away when he will realize he will never win.
When the fight begins, I give him time to discover the controls of the game and the different attacks of his character. And, as expected, when he attacks me, it’s only beginner moves, low attacks and energy beams. He doesn’t even use the sword, which is really powerful with the right combos. I just have to teleport behind him to dodge his energy beams and to start my combos.
I finish every combo with an energy beam, and even if I give him some opportunities to dodge some things, he never succeeds. Winning the fight is quite easy, but he still has the audacity to say that it was just luck. If you really want to think that, Hisao, let me destroy any hope you could have.
For the second fight, he chooses a green-skinned character with little antennas on his head and a purple suit. It’s still a powerful character, but it won’t change anything. Even with the weakest character of the game, the wife of the main character with spiky hair, I already know I will win.
The fight is like the previous one, even if my combos are way slower than with the previous character. I still win, even if I took more damages than the previous fight. And for the third and last fight, I win, once again, which erases that smug smile on his face. The best thing he could do was to make damages equivalent to one third of my life bar, which wasn’t that bad, to be honest.
“You’re not a poor player, even if I literally took the worst character for the second fight. But to be honest, you had no chance during the first one because I took the most powerful one. Maybe, with training, you’ll be able to beat me one day.” I joke while nudging him.
“I’ll beat you next time; don’t worry about that.” He answers, with the most serious expression I’ve ever seen on his face.
In the back of the arcade, there is a dancing machine I really want to try with Suzu. It’s not that complicated, so it should be quite safe for her. She likes to dance, and she’ll probably have fun, even if it’s not the thing she’s used to. She doesn’t know that, but I’m currently learning to dance, and once I’ve learned enough, I’ll dance with her, and it will be, I’m sure, a really pleasant surprise for her.
When she sees the machine, Suzu’s eyes shine with joy; she definitely can’t wait to try it. And I already know it will be kinda difficult to beat her on that game, because she’s way better than me. I just hope I won’t embarrass myself in front of her and Hisao.
I put a coin in the machine, and Suzu already selects a song in one of the highest difficulty settings. Okay, she just wants to crush me in front of our friend; I deserve it a bit, anyway. If you want to be too cocky, you will always end up being punished, eventually.
The countdown starts, and the song begins, with a really fast pace, maybe a bit too fast for me, but Suzu follows the pace easily. And I’m the one who’s supposed to be a high-paced runner. I miss a lot of steps; my combo never goes up than twenty, while she’s scoring a lot. How can she keep up with such a pace, the arrows on the screen are scrolling way too fast?
I’m sweating like crazy, and she’s doing that like this is nobody’s business. Suzu never fails to surprise me by doing things I never thought of. This song never ends, and the pace is still going faster, to a point I can’t even follow it, even if I try my hardest. But eventually, the song finally ends, and Suzu laughs when she sees how red and heavily breathing I am. When I see the score, I look at my feet; she is way ahead, with four millions more points than me.
Even Hisao is laughing, but in my shoes, he would have already given up a while ago. His heart condition would never have put up with it. I try to catch my breath, still wondering how such a little thing can do that without sweating at all. Is she training for that for a long time, just to embarrass me in front of our friend? No, it can’t be; she’s not that Machiavellian.
When I’m able to breathe correctly, I ask for a rematch, but with an easier song. I just can’t loose like that. When the song starts, the pace is way easier to follow, and for once, my feet go on the right arrows. Even if it’s an easier song, Suzu still seems to have fun, and it’s all that matters to me.
Sometimes, the song goes faster, and it’s quite difficult to keep my combo, but somehow, I still keep it. She’s moving with ease, as if she did that for years, while I’m still struggling to do that properly, but I’m scoring, so it doesn’t really matter if my moves are clean or not.
Surprisingly, when it comes to turning on myself, it’s way easier than the rest of the moves; I don’t know why, maybe because it doesn’t require a lot of precision. I have to admit, it’s way funnier, because I can finally score a bit, and I’m not embarrassing myself. The last part of the song is more difficult than I expected, and unfortunately, my feet aren’t fast enough to follow the pace. Which goes to show that, even if you’re sporty, you can fail at a rhythm game.
Once again, she beat me, with a huge margin. What did I expect? It’s not the type of game I’m used to play, so there was no way I could beat her. But, as long as she has fun, I don’t care if I’m embarrassing myself, even if I don’t like to admit that.
“I don’t know why, but the result was kinda predictable.” Hisao jokes, nudging me with a smug face.
“Don’t worry, you’ll go through it too. And I’ll let you suss out what just happened to you.” I pat his shoulder, because he will understand he should have shut up really soon.
I let Hisao choose a machine for our next game, and he has chosen a racing game with two bikes on a split screen. If he chose that for me, I will spank him, I don’t care. But, luckily for him, he asks Suzu to choose the bike she wants. Good job, Hisao, you just avoided a painful death; I’m proud of you.
He puts a coin in the machine and selects the circuit, choosing a map in Tokyo’s city center. Not something very original, I have to admit, we can see such maps in a lot of these games. I won’t complain about that; there are some things that are very common in games, even so, they work very well.
When the race begins, Hisao starts up faster than Suzu, but I believe in her, and his head start won’t last long. At least, this is what I’m hoping for; Suzu knows how to surprise me, after all. But, somehow, Hisao keeps his head start, and Suzu can’t catch up with him, even if she tries her hardest. It looks like he’s used to play it, given how well he drives, and luckily for me, I’m not playing against him.
On the second lap, she comes closer, but not enough to overtake him. She still has a chance, and if she wins, she’ll deserve it. But she still has to make a lot of efforts if she wants to win. On the last curve of the second lap, Hisao crashes his bike into the wall, wasting precious seconds, enough to give Suzu the opportunity to overtake him. Now, she has to keep her little advantage, but it’s definitely something she can do.
The last lap is a tight race, Hisao dangerously coming back, to the point they are nearly side by side on the last part of the track. I cheer for her, knowing she can beat him, and that’s what she eventually does, crossing the finish line one second before him.
I cheer for her when she wins, my pride being visible in my eyes. It would be an understatement to say I’m proud of her, no matter what she does. She’s the best thing I got, and I would never leave her.
“Congrats, babe; you deserved that.” I say, patting her head, which makes her chuckle. “You did well, Hisao, though. But there’s a game you could win; follow me.”
I have an idea; there are several punching ball machines in a corner of the arcade, and he should be better than us at such a game. For many people, he would look rather plain, but he has a nice build. It’s a shame he didn’t join the track club; he would do just fine, even with his heart condition.
I convinced this blonde girl with burn scars to join the club, but I failed with him, and I saw this as a personal failure. He’s running from time to time to keep in shape, but that’s it. That’s something, but if he had joined the club, I could spend more time with him.
“A punching ball machine, seriously? That’s what you found to let me win?” He says, feigning indignation. “So, be it.”
I put a coin in the machine, selecting the three players mode. We have only one shot, so I tell Suzu to punch as hard as she can, even if I know she won’t make a big score, given her lack of strength.
She punches as hard as she can, and the score goes up to 640. Not bad for such a fragile thing, I know people who got lower scores than that. When my turn comes, I take my time studying the machine and thinking about the best way to hit it. I also punch as hard as I can, making a score of 760. If Hisao makes a lower score, I win, but it’s highly unlikely.
He also takes his time, but he looks really confident. And he’s right, I know him enough to know he won’t disappoint me on that matter. After a short time of reflection, he punches the machine, making the highest score, with a score of 850. I expected nothing less from him, and his eyes shine with satisfaction.
“Nice one, hot shot; I expected nothing less from you.”
“Choosing such a game to let me win is a weak move, though.” He jokes, punching my shoulder with more force than I expected.
“We did that for your manliness, though.”
He just booed at me, pretending to be harmed by what I just said. “You wanna try something else?”
“Nah, I’m done; it was fun.” He answers, and I get the same answer from Suzu.
“As long as you had fun, it’s all that matters.”
Before we leave the arcade, he buys us some snacks from a vending machine, giving Suzu a chocolate bar with peanuts, a dark chocolate bar with orange for me, and some fruit candies for him. If Emi was with us, she would kill us.
Once outside, the icy wind is a blessing compared to how overheated the arcade was. But Suzu doesn’t seem to enjoy it at all, given how much she’s shivering. Stuffing my chocolate bar in my mouth, I wrap my arm around her to bring her a bit of warmth.
“In the end, you had a good idea to force me to come, Miki.” He admits, and I know it takes a lot of effort from him to admit he was wrong.
“When I said you’ll thank me later, I know what I’m talking about. Just listen to me a bit.”
That being said, it’s Hisao we’re talking about, and given how stubborn he is, admitting than someone else than him was right is kinda difficult for him. When he admits I was right, it’s a personal victory, because it doesn’t happen often.
We’re slowly making our way back to Yamaku, the idea of preparing myself for my date with my girlfriend sweeping other thoughts away. I just hope he won’t screw things up when he’ll talk to Emi.
…………………………….
I reach the restaurant before Suzu, and even if the chilly wind makes me shiver, I don’t go inside the restaurant, because I want to be there when she reaches it. For her, I have made an effort, wearing a winter kimono, make-up and a purse, where my gift for her is hidden. This is the most girly outfit I’ve ever worn, and to be fair, I like it, but it’s not something I would wear daily.
This kimono was the last gift my parents ever gave me; it may be a second hand, I love it and take a great care of it. We never had a lot of money, and I should be grateful they’re paying for the school, even though I have almost no respect for them anymore. I respect them because they sent me to this school, but for everything else, I almost hate them.
A track team mate helped me with my hairdo and my make-up, and she did an excellent job. With such a hairdo and make-up, I definitely look like another girl, and I like that, even if it’s not something I would often do; too much work.
It takes a few minutes before Suzu appears across the street, and the vision she already gives me is wonderful. She’s extremely cute, even in her pajamas, but in such an attire, it’s a heavenly vision. She takes her time, coming closer with a slow pace, but the wait worths all.
I can't help but look at her with pride as she reaches me; she’s lovely with this candy pink kimono, and she even cared to comb her hair in a fancy way. And in her case, it’s way more difficult, since her hair is a mess.
“You look stunning, babe.”
“Not as much as you.” She says, kissing my forehead on her tiptoes.
We enter the restaurant, and I instantly realize why I never go to such a fancy place. We definitely don’t belong here, businessmen, ladies of the upper class; everyone here looks so formal when we are just teenagers trying to have a good time.
But the waiter who greets us at the entrance doesn’t feel surprised to see us, even if we don’t really belong to such a place. After checking our reservation, he leads us to a table for two, while wishing us a pleasant evening when we sit down. Suzu looks very surprised, and I can’t blame her; it’s a high-class establishment, and she does not know how difficult it was for me to make a reservation for us here.
“Tell me, how did you manage to book?” She asks, her surprised look hasn’t vanished.
“I’ve been trying for three months. Three months, with several calls a week. I’m still surprised they accepted the reservation, though.” I answer, finally telling her the truth about it. Trying to keep a secret away from her for three months when it involves our couple was more difficult than I expected.
“And why didn’t you tell me?”
“You don’t want me to tell you what is your gift, too?” I chuckle, poking her forehead with my fingers. “The whole point of a surprise is that you don’t know about it, babe.”
She’s faking indignation, but I can see gratitude in her eyes, and such a vision would make me do anything for her. My savings will go up in smoke, but it’s our first Christmas Eve together, and I wanted to make it special. And unlike some other couples, I don’t expect her to do anything in return just because I did that.
We didn’t wait a long time before the same waiter comes back to bring us the menu. Suzu tells the price of the items aloud, but I immediately spank her hand, telling her to take everything she wants, regardless of the cost. I can’t stand to see her to deprive herself of certain things on the pretext that I come from a modest family. She’s my girlfriend; I don’t worry about the cost when I’m with her.
Her choices are a piece of salmon for the first course, a piece of beef Wellington with side vegetables and pieces of truffles for the main course, and a strawberry pie with white chocolate for the dessert. Even in a fancy restaurant, her choices are casual, except for the truffles. I’ll have a piece of bluefin tuna for the first course, a pike fillet with side rice and vegetables for the main course, and a black forest cake for the dessert. Nothing too fancy, but I can’t go wrong with such a meal.
Our waiter takes our order, and with a quick bow, head towards the kitchens. Looking around, there are some young looking people, just like us, but wearing clothes we will never afford. Another reminder that we don’t belong here.
“Do you think he talked to her?”
“If he’s not dumb, he did, yeah. But we’re talking about Hisao and Emi; they are both extremely stubborn, and you can’t make them understand when they are wrong. I just hope he was smarter than her.” I answer, sighing; they can be pretty tedious when they act like that.
“I mean, I understand they can argue; we also do it sometimes, but not during the winter holidays; it’s supposed to be a festive period.”
“I know, babe, but you know, sometimes people don’t choose when they argue. The only thing we can do is to hope that they talked to each other, and that Emi has stopped pouting for a stupid reason.” Knowing Emi, it would be a waste of time, but I still have hope for them, sometimes.
Our first course doesn’t take too long to be served, and when I see our pieces of fish, I expected something bigger, but in such a place, the amount doesn’t matter, quality comes first. I take a bite of my piece of tuna, and as soon as it reaches my tongue, I understand why this place is always full. This is the best piece of tuna I’ve ever tasted, and it’s only the first course.
Suzu is clearly enjoying her fish too, given her expression and the little sounds of satisfaction she does. In another restaurant, I wouldn’t be that discreet, but here, I have to make an effort if I don’t want to be kicked out. Eating this piece of fish with my usual eating pace would be a sacrilege, and I’m eating way slower than usual. I never thought a piece of bluefin tuna would taste that good, even if I’m already used to such a taste.
“How did they make it so good when it looks like your usual piece of fish?” Suzu asks, with genuine surprise in her voice.
“I mean, it’s an upper-class establishment, babe. If it wasn’t good, I would wonder why people would still come here.”
It doesn’t take us too much time to finish our first course, and to kill time before the waiter gives us our main course after taking our dishes, I eat some bread. It’s obvious we’ll have to wait longer to get our next dish, but I don’t want to give her gift before the dessert, it would spoil the surprise.
A couple comes in, four ladies come out, a delicate procession of members of the upper-class is unfolding before our eyes. I can’t help but feel jealous; their outfits are magnificent and their behavior is flawless. Lilly would definitely belong here, and sometimes, I wonder if her parents really accept her relationship with a middle-class girl.
“Would you have still dated me if I was like them?” I ask Suzu while wondering about the girl I could have been if I were a member of a rich family.
“No.” She simply answers, but when I look at her with a curious look, she elaborates. “The Miki I love is a runner, a carefree girl that doesn’t care about what other people think about her, with her kindness, and even her incorrect behavior sometimes. The Miki who attracted me is you; I wouldn’t care about your upper-class counterpart.” She says, smiling and delicately fondling my hand.
Sometimes, I tell myself that I don’t deserve her, but at the same time, I feel glad she chose me. She could have chosen anyone, but I’m the one she chose. And I don’t think she realizes the impact she had on my life. Explaining her with the right words would be quite difficult for me; I’m not good at it.
After a bit of wait, our main course comes, and I just can’t wait starting eating. Pike has always been one of my favorite fishes, but for some reason, I can never find some, except in rare cases. And as soon as I can find some, it’s always quite expensive, so it’s more of a festive meal for me than anything else.
When I take a bite of my fish, childhood memories rush back into my mind. My parents were a lovely couple; I was playing with my sister in the garden during a late summer afternoon while Mom was cooking dinner, my uncle parking his car in front of the gate… When I was young, when we were receiving family, it was always a moment I cherished. I’ve lost so much, and I would give everything to live a moment like that again.
I can’t repress a nostalgic smile; Suzu notices it and can’t help herself but ask why.
“When we were receiving family, my mother used to cook pike of fishes like that. It was a carefree time of my life, something I would like that Haruka knows.” I sigh; each time I think about her, I feel guilty because she’s alone at home with them.
“Cheer up, sweetheart; you will soon be able to take her with you.” Suzu knows how to cheer me up, even with the simplest words.
Three people in the same house, like a small family, those who matter most to me. She would probably not mind if my sister lives with us, even if we would have to adapt a bit. But the idea of allowing her to leave this toxic atmosphere makes me able to hold out.
I don’t want to break the mood, so I quickly wipe my thoughts away, and I just focus on enjoying my meal with my girlfriend. It could be weird for many people, but I find her cute when she eats. To be fair, it’s extremely rare when I don’t find her behavior or actions cute.
The vegetables are excellent, the delicate sauce which accompanies them adds a sweet taste, making, with the fish, the most subtle dish I’ve ever tasted. The price of this dish is fully justified, and even if I couldn’t afford such a thing more than twice a year, I don’t feel ripped at all.
“Can I try your fish?” Suzu suddenly asks, looking at my dish with a curious look.
I don’t answer, but I simply bring a piece of fish to her mouth. She takes her time to bite it, as if she was analyzing every nuance of the fish’s taste. But given her expression, she doesn’t like it, her disgusted face is highly amusing.
“How can you eat that? That’s definitely not good.”
“My dear Suzu Suzuki, your palate isn’t fine enough to appreciate such a masterpiece. And since you like natto, you ain’t one to talk.” I poke her nose with my fingers, as a kind of banter.
“You’re one to talk, you eat offals.” She’s faking indignation, but I can understand people could hate offals.
“Hey! Offals are very good for runners! Okay, it looks and can taste weird, but it’s incredibly nutritious.” I can’t believe I need to justify myself because I sometimes eat something that is good for me.
We quietly finish our main course, the waiter taking our dishes a few minutes later, asking us if everything was fine, a question to which we answer with a kind yes.
This is a perfect time, before the dessert, to give Suzu her gift. Casually taking my purse, I take out the little box wrapped in a pink gift wrap. I don’t have the time to say anything because she does the same thing.
“Merry Christmas, babe.” I say, putting her gift in front of her.
“Merry Christmas, sweetheart.” She answers, doing the same thing.
I let her unwrap her gift first, and when she opens the box, her eyes shine with awe. A silver necklace with an orchid, the first flower I’ve ever bought her and also her favorite flower, comes out, and a little ring with the same orchid accompanies it.
Her beaming smile tells me I was successful when I bought her this ensemble. “Thank you, sweetheart; it’s magnificent.” She cheers with one of the most sincere gratitude I’ve ever seen.
I slowly unwrap my gift, wondering what she may have taken. It’s also a box of similar size to hers, but the distinct color and texture tell me she went to a jewelry I never went to.
There is a silver bracelet with our both names on it, and the date from which we started dating, and a cute heart-shaped necklace with our names on it. It looks really feminine, and even if it looks like something I never thought I would wear daily, it’s way too cute to stay on a desk. Time to be more feminine, I guess.
“Thank you so much, babe; this is wonderful. You shouldn’t have…” She can see I’m really glad she did that; I love this ensemble.
“Initially, I thought it wouldn’t be your style, but in the end, I thought it would look good on you.”
“Back in the days, I would have definitely seen this as being too feminine for me. But since I’ve known you, I don’t know, I like that kind of thing more and more. And I don’t care about what the other may think, I’ll wear this ensemble all the time. This is the best gift I’ve ever been given.” I reply; my smile and my eyes don’t lie, I’m really grateful she gave me such a wonderful gift.
A year ago, I never thought I would date Suzu, and that she would become so important in my life. Being her girlfriend changed me in so many ways. I knew who I wanted to be with, knew what I wanted to do with my life… Suzu, with her kindness, her care, her little attentions, changed the girl I was. I was self-centred, running was my obsession, and the only thing I wanted to do was to find a job, even the most boring one, just to give my sister an opportunity to leave my parents’ control to live a better life.
I cared about my friends, simply. When Suzu came into my life, I never thought I would care about anyone as much as I care about Haruka. To say I’m not glad she changed my behavior to that degree would be a lie; I’m really proud to be her girlfriend, and above all, to be the girl I am, thanks to her. And I would never be grateful enough to her for that. The only thing I can do is to be there for her as much as she is for me. And she will never know how much I love her.