Re: The Manila Tales –A Summer-ish Series (Updated 7/24)
Posted: Thu Jul 31, 2014 11:30 am
“That which does not kill us makes us stronger.” -Friedrich Nietzsche
Previous Chapter
Chapter Ten: The Bastard’s Tale
We went back to the suite after the aquarium, where Kenji and Aunt Hana made dinner, and Satomi and Miya sorted through the baked goods to see which were still good, and try to avoid eating too many of the continually drying muffins (and persuade Miya not to make more.)
After dinner I once again found myself on the balcony. It’s not that I’m anti-social –at least I don’t think of myself as such- but I had just spent a day watching over a pre-teen girl and her attention deficit little sister, so I felt entitled to a little quiet time.
So I watched the sun set as best I could from our balcony, the light slowly receding as shadows claimed the land. If I closed my eyes and listened carefully, I could almost hear the buzz of activity from the far off slums. Even with all the tourist activity, the suburbs were slowly going to sleep, while, further out, the underworld of the slums awoke. Or at least, that’s how I imagined it.
Maybe I did read too much.
Just before the evening gave way to twilight, Miya stepped out onto the balcony, smelling so strongly of insect repellent I coughed. Apparently she hadn’t realized I was out there, because when I coughed she jumped and whirled around. It took a few moments for her to notice me, but she eventually saw me huddled in the balcony’s left corner against the building.
“Oh, that’s where you were.”
“Sorry,” I said, “I told Kenji I was going to be out here.”
Miya blinked a few times before her eyes lit up in recognition, “Oh right. I remember now.”
“I can go back inside-”
Miya smiled and dismissed my remark with a wave, “You’re fine. Don’t mind me.”
I slowly nodded, and Miya turned to look out at the suburbs, and it was only then I noticed she was holding a bulky camera, with a bag strapped to her left side. She looked out at the suburbs and slums beyond, a wistful smile on her face as the sun continued to set.
“I love this view,” she replied, “It changes every time we come here.”
“Probably because they keep demolishing, rebuilding, and expanding.”
Miya looked blankly ahead for a few moments, then nodded, “Huh, that’d do it. Kinda reminds me of my childhood.”
That statement reminded me how truly little I knew about Miya. While I had gleaned or been told a fair amount about the rest of the two families, I knew almost nothing about her beyond the extreme basics. She never really talked about her past or family, except occasionally one of her grandmothers. Despite that, she thought of me and the Nakai children as family, and, based on precedent, probably felt the same way about the other children the Setous knew.
Maybe that was why I felt compelled to look up at her while she started taking pictures, “Miya-san?”
Camera still in place, Miya looked away from her poised camera to look straight at me, “Yes?”
“Why me?”
Miya lowered her camera, looking lost in thought. She stayed like that for a while, and I started feeling guilty about distracting her from her work. Before I could verbalize my guilt, Miya plopped herself down on the balcony floor, sitting cross-legged across from me.
“Because family is important,” Miya declared, “Me, Kenji, and Hana know that. We also know how abstract family really is. Maybe abstract isn’t the right word… how do I put this… Hana had her entire family ripped away from her, and she rebuilt it out of people she loved and who loved her –Hisao, Lilly, Shizune and Misha, even the couple from the newspaper at Yamaku. Kenji’s family was never quiet there, mentally I mean, and many of them died young, or became so lost in their own minds that they may as well have. He and Hisao became close, and then he found me, and so he rebuilt his family, too.
“The idea that family is just people you’re blood related to is narrow minded and petty. Family is much more than blood –it’s a concept, one not restricted by something like DNA. Is this making any sense?”
It was rare that Miya was serious about something, but she always knew how to pick her moments. Still, she caught me off guard with her explanation, which I didn’t quite get yet.
So in response, I said, “I… I’m not sure, honestly. Sorry.”
Miya grinned and pat my head, “It’s fine. I was never good at explaining things. All I’m saying is… you had no one, and nothing. You were lost and alone in the world, handed the shittiest end of the shortest stick I could ever have imagined. You needed someone there for you, and Kenji knew that. When Kenji explained who you were and what had happened to you, I… people shouldn’t have to live through that.”
“Sometimes I wish I hadn’t,” I blurted.
Miya frowned, “Don’t talk like that. You did live through it, and now look where you are; with people who love you, care about you, and will protect you.”
I nodded, “I know. It’s just… a little overwhelming, sometimes. I’m still getting used to it.”
“Yeah, it took me some time to get used to it, too,” Miya admitted, “Three cripples, four lesbians, two orphans, and a bastard, coming together to piece what was left of their lives together into a new one. Sounds like an HBO drama or something.”
I raised an eyebrow, not at Miya’s bluntness, but at part of what she had said, “…Did you say a…?” I trailed off, unwilling to say the word.
Miya grinned and nodded, “Bastard? Yep, that’s me. When he found out my mom was pregnant, her boyfriend panicked and left. I never had a father. My mom worked double shifts as a waitress, so my grandma looked after me. Gran told Mom she should marry for both our sakes, but mom refused. She said she’d marry for love, not obligation. Takano women are a stubborn lot, so my Gran never really pushed the issue.”
“That… that had to suck, growing up,” I said.
If being the orphaned descendent of Korean war laborers was the shortest end of the shittiest stick, a single mother raising a daughter in pre twenty-first century Japan was probably a close second. Even before Them life had been hard for my parents and me. Perhaps that was why Miya had so little trouble taking me into her life; I reminded her of her own situation when she was growing up.
Miya shrugged in response to my statement, “It wasn’t so bad. Gran taught me to bake, and it wasn’t too long before I could work and help support us. That was about the time I started really getting into art, actually. When I was really young I’d use spare bits of chalk to doodle and draw. It was fun, and gave me something to focus on.
“When I was in high school I joined the art club, and they had stuff I couldn’t even think of affording at the time. I had a friend in the photography club, too, and that pretty much cemented my future. Losing myself in art helped me forget all the bad stuff and focus on the good –like those photos from the Amazon. I don’t care that I spent days in a hospital puking up my lungs and hallucinating that I was playing Chinese checkers with Harry Dresden. I remember the water, the jungle, the animals….”
Miya smiled wistfully and looked around. Twilight had given way to night, the dim glow of the suburbs and outlying areas dully piercing through the darkness, while above us the stars twinkled and winked through the black of space.
Miya looked back at me and smiled, “Well, guess I rambled on for a while there.”
“Sorry for distracting you,” I said.
Miya smiled and pat my head again, gently running her fingers through my short black hair, “You’re not a distraction. I can paint this view from memory, anyway.”
Considering how much Miya enjoyed her work, there had to be a warehouse somewhere loaded with paintings and photos. Or at least paintings and a server loaded with photo data.
Either way, I was curious enough to ask, “What do you do with all the paintings you don’t sell?”
“Storage, mostly, though I tend to give them out to friends and family… how much wall space does your dorm have?”
It took me a moment to process the seemingly random question. When I did, and started to think of the answer, the actual implications of it hit me full force. As if these people didn’t do enough for me, Miya was willing to give me a painting she worked on. To share her memories, in a way.
Instead of responding verbally, I launched myself at her, wrapping my arms around her neck and hugging her more tightly than I probably should have.
“Thank you,” I said, “For everything.”
Miya rallied quickly from my assault, gently returning my hug. As she placed one hand on my back and the other on my head she said, “You’re very welcome. Never forget: paperwork or not, you are my Little Lamb. Understood?”
I sniffed and nodded into Miya’s shoulder, “Thank you.”
Miya gently pat my back, and my stifled sobs finally burst out. A mix of sadness, anger, and joy comingled as I cried into Miya’s shoulder. It was a mix I was used to, but that never made dealing with it any easier.
Miya took my breakdown in stride, gently patting my back while I wore myself out. When I had managed to collect myself, I gently pulled away from her. Miya handed me a tissue from her camera bag, saving me the indignity of using my sleeve.
“Thank you,” I said again.
Miya smiled and nodded.
After I cleaned myself up a bit, I checked my watch, wondering just how long we had been outside. Turned out, it had been quite a while.
“I should go inside,” I said, “Sorry again for-”
Miya held up a hand to stop me, “Don’t worry about it. I was just screwing around, anyway.”
I nodded and Miya pat my head again. We both hefted ourselves up, and I headed for the sliding door. I expected Miya to follow me, but she was looking through her camera bag for something. Figuring she had something that let her take pictures at night, I said goodnight to her and went inside.
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Next Chapter
Wow, I am laying this sap on with a trowel.
Great, now I’m sober and want waffles. Good thing I have a waffle maker. And whiskey! The day is saved! WAFFLES FOR THE WAFFLE GOD! BOOZE FOR THE BOOZE THRONE!
...Traditionally the term bastard is used in reference to males, but linguistically the word itself is gender neutral, I believe. It's also traditionally a much harsher insult in Germany than the States (which invokes some serious Fridge Brilliance with Flynn from Tangled, but that's a separate tangent.)
Previous Chapter
Chapter Ten: The Bastard’s Tale
We went back to the suite after the aquarium, where Kenji and Aunt Hana made dinner, and Satomi and Miya sorted through the baked goods to see which were still good, and try to avoid eating too many of the continually drying muffins (and persuade Miya not to make more.)
After dinner I once again found myself on the balcony. It’s not that I’m anti-social –at least I don’t think of myself as such- but I had just spent a day watching over a pre-teen girl and her attention deficit little sister, so I felt entitled to a little quiet time.
So I watched the sun set as best I could from our balcony, the light slowly receding as shadows claimed the land. If I closed my eyes and listened carefully, I could almost hear the buzz of activity from the far off slums. Even with all the tourist activity, the suburbs were slowly going to sleep, while, further out, the underworld of the slums awoke. Or at least, that’s how I imagined it.
Maybe I did read too much.
Just before the evening gave way to twilight, Miya stepped out onto the balcony, smelling so strongly of insect repellent I coughed. Apparently she hadn’t realized I was out there, because when I coughed she jumped and whirled around. It took a few moments for her to notice me, but she eventually saw me huddled in the balcony’s left corner against the building.
“Oh, that’s where you were.”
“Sorry,” I said, “I told Kenji I was going to be out here.”
Miya blinked a few times before her eyes lit up in recognition, “Oh right. I remember now.”
“I can go back inside-”
Miya smiled and dismissed my remark with a wave, “You’re fine. Don’t mind me.”
I slowly nodded, and Miya turned to look out at the suburbs, and it was only then I noticed she was holding a bulky camera, with a bag strapped to her left side. She looked out at the suburbs and slums beyond, a wistful smile on her face as the sun continued to set.
“I love this view,” she replied, “It changes every time we come here.”
“Probably because they keep demolishing, rebuilding, and expanding.”
Miya looked blankly ahead for a few moments, then nodded, “Huh, that’d do it. Kinda reminds me of my childhood.”
That statement reminded me how truly little I knew about Miya. While I had gleaned or been told a fair amount about the rest of the two families, I knew almost nothing about her beyond the extreme basics. She never really talked about her past or family, except occasionally one of her grandmothers. Despite that, she thought of me and the Nakai children as family, and, based on precedent, probably felt the same way about the other children the Setous knew.
Maybe that was why I felt compelled to look up at her while she started taking pictures, “Miya-san?”
Camera still in place, Miya looked away from her poised camera to look straight at me, “Yes?”
“Why me?”
Miya lowered her camera, looking lost in thought. She stayed like that for a while, and I started feeling guilty about distracting her from her work. Before I could verbalize my guilt, Miya plopped herself down on the balcony floor, sitting cross-legged across from me.
“Because family is important,” Miya declared, “Me, Kenji, and Hana know that. We also know how abstract family really is. Maybe abstract isn’t the right word… how do I put this… Hana had her entire family ripped away from her, and she rebuilt it out of people she loved and who loved her –Hisao, Lilly, Shizune and Misha, even the couple from the newspaper at Yamaku. Kenji’s family was never quiet there, mentally I mean, and many of them died young, or became so lost in their own minds that they may as well have. He and Hisao became close, and then he found me, and so he rebuilt his family, too.
“The idea that family is just people you’re blood related to is narrow minded and petty. Family is much more than blood –it’s a concept, one not restricted by something like DNA. Is this making any sense?”
It was rare that Miya was serious about something, but she always knew how to pick her moments. Still, she caught me off guard with her explanation, which I didn’t quite get yet.
So in response, I said, “I… I’m not sure, honestly. Sorry.”
Miya grinned and pat my head, “It’s fine. I was never good at explaining things. All I’m saying is… you had no one, and nothing. You were lost and alone in the world, handed the shittiest end of the shortest stick I could ever have imagined. You needed someone there for you, and Kenji knew that. When Kenji explained who you were and what had happened to you, I… people shouldn’t have to live through that.”
“Sometimes I wish I hadn’t,” I blurted.
Miya frowned, “Don’t talk like that. You did live through it, and now look where you are; with people who love you, care about you, and will protect you.”
I nodded, “I know. It’s just… a little overwhelming, sometimes. I’m still getting used to it.”
“Yeah, it took me some time to get used to it, too,” Miya admitted, “Three cripples, four lesbians, two orphans, and a bastard, coming together to piece what was left of their lives together into a new one. Sounds like an HBO drama or something.”
I raised an eyebrow, not at Miya’s bluntness, but at part of what she had said, “…Did you say a…?” I trailed off, unwilling to say the word.
Miya grinned and nodded, “Bastard? Yep, that’s me. When he found out my mom was pregnant, her boyfriend panicked and left. I never had a father. My mom worked double shifts as a waitress, so my grandma looked after me. Gran told Mom she should marry for both our sakes, but mom refused. She said she’d marry for love, not obligation. Takano women are a stubborn lot, so my Gran never really pushed the issue.”
“That… that had to suck, growing up,” I said.
If being the orphaned descendent of Korean war laborers was the shortest end of the shittiest stick, a single mother raising a daughter in pre twenty-first century Japan was probably a close second. Even before Them life had been hard for my parents and me. Perhaps that was why Miya had so little trouble taking me into her life; I reminded her of her own situation when she was growing up.
Miya shrugged in response to my statement, “It wasn’t so bad. Gran taught me to bake, and it wasn’t too long before I could work and help support us. That was about the time I started really getting into art, actually. When I was really young I’d use spare bits of chalk to doodle and draw. It was fun, and gave me something to focus on.
“When I was in high school I joined the art club, and they had stuff I couldn’t even think of affording at the time. I had a friend in the photography club, too, and that pretty much cemented my future. Losing myself in art helped me forget all the bad stuff and focus on the good –like those photos from the Amazon. I don’t care that I spent days in a hospital puking up my lungs and hallucinating that I was playing Chinese checkers with Harry Dresden. I remember the water, the jungle, the animals….”
Miya smiled wistfully and looked around. Twilight had given way to night, the dim glow of the suburbs and outlying areas dully piercing through the darkness, while above us the stars twinkled and winked through the black of space.
Miya looked back at me and smiled, “Well, guess I rambled on for a while there.”
“Sorry for distracting you,” I said.
Miya smiled and pat my head again, gently running her fingers through my short black hair, “You’re not a distraction. I can paint this view from memory, anyway.”
Considering how much Miya enjoyed her work, there had to be a warehouse somewhere loaded with paintings and photos. Or at least paintings and a server loaded with photo data.
Either way, I was curious enough to ask, “What do you do with all the paintings you don’t sell?”
“Storage, mostly, though I tend to give them out to friends and family… how much wall space does your dorm have?”
It took me a moment to process the seemingly random question. When I did, and started to think of the answer, the actual implications of it hit me full force. As if these people didn’t do enough for me, Miya was willing to give me a painting she worked on. To share her memories, in a way.
Instead of responding verbally, I launched myself at her, wrapping my arms around her neck and hugging her more tightly than I probably should have.
“Thank you,” I said, “For everything.”
Miya rallied quickly from my assault, gently returning my hug. As she placed one hand on my back and the other on my head she said, “You’re very welcome. Never forget: paperwork or not, you are my Little Lamb. Understood?”
I sniffed and nodded into Miya’s shoulder, “Thank you.”
Miya gently pat my back, and my stifled sobs finally burst out. A mix of sadness, anger, and joy comingled as I cried into Miya’s shoulder. It was a mix I was used to, but that never made dealing with it any easier.
Miya took my breakdown in stride, gently patting my back while I wore myself out. When I had managed to collect myself, I gently pulled away from her. Miya handed me a tissue from her camera bag, saving me the indignity of using my sleeve.
“Thank you,” I said again.
Miya smiled and nodded.
After I cleaned myself up a bit, I checked my watch, wondering just how long we had been outside. Turned out, it had been quite a while.
“I should go inside,” I said, “Sorry again for-”
Miya held up a hand to stop me, “Don’t worry about it. I was just screwing around, anyway.”
I nodded and Miya pat my head again. We both hefted ourselves up, and I headed for the sliding door. I expected Miya to follow me, but she was looking through her camera bag for something. Figuring she had something that let her take pictures at night, I said goodnight to her and went inside.
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Next Chapter
Wow, I am laying this sap on with a trowel.
Great, now I’m sober and want waffles. Good thing I have a waffle maker. And whiskey! The day is saved! WAFFLES FOR THE WAFFLE GOD! BOOZE FOR THE BOOZE THRONE!
...Traditionally the term bastard is used in reference to males, but linguistically the word itself is gender neutral, I believe. It's also traditionally a much harsher insult in Germany than the States (which invokes some serious Fridge Brilliance with Flynn from Tangled, but that's a separate tangent.)