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newnar wrote:I have been following this thread ever since it started, and though I often had urges to post replies, I really can't and I kept quiet. This post is a mistake I don't know if this is right I don't want to be alone but It like that kind of thorn where it sticks in ur thumb and it hurts like crazy to get it out Shit I can't share with you what I think I just don't want to go back to those experiences I have already numbed myself of but I know I'm just fucking bluffing myhself is it bad to bluff myself I don't want to be delusional but I think I'm delusional about my delusions I cannot run away from them but what you guys say are so true I'm a complete fucktard why am I doing this to myself I don't want to but it's really bad when I try to do something, anything about it and I don't wanna do anything anymore I'm so sick of everything I'm sick of myself I'm sick of my parents of my mates of everyone who sees me they look like they are looking at a degenerate i cant even say no when i see me in the mirror i'm not sure what i am doing when i come home everyday ever since ks my games dont hold the fire in the paper bag anymore my hand doesnt even click on the icons i used to love to click damn im spending so much on my subscriptions but i havent touched it in almost 2 months i have no idea what i am doing i need to tell myhself dont make me do things i dont want to

Beoran wrote:As for this thread being derailed, I don't mind it, but, it might be a good idea to start a new thread, if people here agree, "Hanako's Broken Hearts Club" or so, so other people can find it easier to join in. Or maybe the original poster can change this thread's name?

You're not alone.

I still do that from time to time. And one weird game I play is : Floor chess. Yes. An individual acts as one piece. Any piece. I know it sounds weird and such, but yeah, floor chess. Try to figure that out

No, it's not an indication of loneliness. It's a leftover from your childhood in which most kids try to figure out how to make the most banal activities fun. Frankly, I think the writer of the Hanako route forced this way too much by connecting it with something as loneliness.

It would be weirder if you hadn't had a quirky game or developed a weird habit in your childhood. And this can still be present even when you're an adult, because being an adult and being childlike are not mutually exclusive.

Xanatos wrote:Many played it and still do. But at the same time, it's easily an avenue for the lonely introvert as well. I myself played/play it for both reasons: Shopping is boring and I'm miserably isolated anyway so I might as well entertain myself.

aminuts wrote:It seems like I'm falling behind to bring back Hanako's 'odd behavior' at this point but I'm just curious.

I've been re-playing each routes recently and try to re-feel those feels. Well I really like this game.

While playing Hanako's, there's a scene about her playing a self made tile game.

To Hisao, it's interpreted as a odd behavior happening because of her loneliness. (Correct me if I'm wrong. English isn't my native language so...)

But, I've played that game tons of time in my childhood and mine was not full of unhappy events like that poor Hanako's.

Yet I even tried to count how many times I have stepped on colored tiles and make sure that my right foot and left foot step on them by same numbers.

I still do that from time to time. Am I really alone here? I just want to know if I'm an oddity.

Again, I really do love the game and Hanako's even one of my favorite characters. Just out of curiosity.

Don't we have at least one silly game that remains even after you are grown?

Dream wrote:I personally thought that scene and the tile game served to establish that, contrary to Hisao's initial beliefs, he and Hanako are not that different ("but while i'm thinking that, i find myself stepping carefully so as to avoid the darker tiles" or something like that) It's also a nice character exposition moment for Hanako, it's subtle but i think you can see a bit of her difficulty with the world and her almost childlike eagerness in seeing or looking for sweetness or good in the little things.