I do admit, emotions in general confuze me, like not being able to put a label on what I am feeling. Most times, it sometimes feels as though I don't feel much of anything at all. So when I do feel things, it can be confuzing to me. Kinda like, I wonder what people would call this feeling I am having now? Is it saddness, depressed, something completly different.People have told me on other forums that my posts are long, sometimes even "Too long". ^_^;******* Wrote: Damn son... You write really long posts. I can get a general understanding of you from reading them, and yes, I read it all
Anyway, glad to see that this game touched you just as much, if not more than it did me.
You actually somewhat remind me of Rin, in that way. When she goes on and on with her talking, it's a bit hard to understand, but the general feeling is still there.
Just popping by to say hello, or something like that. If this game's taught me anything, I think it's to not give up. I'm not even entirely sure, but I know that I can't ever truly give up after this. I doubt you'd need this advice, but it's a good reminder!
Have a good Saturday/Sunday!
I do tend to think that maybe Rin is one who is one who shares the same mindset as me. Maybe that is why I partially on a partial subconscious level decided to choose her last. Maybe like, somehow looking into a mirror but instead of it reflecting me, it reflected Rin which is like, some form of reflection.
I thank you for saying hello and whatnot. I am glad you found and find my posts interesting. I already know that it is never wise to give up. Always give as much as you can. Not even 100% but more then that if you think you have the ability too. Even so, if said amount 100% or more is not good enough, sometimes there is nothing one can do but accept that fact. One should not beat themselves up over that which they simply can't change, as that in itself makes things harder on the person. For me, while I did mention in my latest reply, I wonder how I would react of if I would have the ability/willpower/strength to go on if something horrible happened, I do tend to think I would push on no matter what. And even maybe life as I could, even if say as one idea I mentioned would be where if I were paralyzed from the neck down. I am sure there are ways to live ones life. Yeah, I would probably be saddened by the fact I would be incapable of doing nothing from a physical standpoint, but at the same time, maybe hold out hope that perhaps down the line, say, there would be a fix for said problem, wait things out. I would probably be saddened by the fact if say, a family member or someone had to take care of me 24/7 (My mom even was joking with aspects of the full body paralasis, maybe to try make me not nervous for the neck surgery despite already not being as such), but I would hope they would know that my inner strength and resolve would not shatter or break and I would not wish to give up.
For me, I do tend to pretty much live in the present. Living in the past makes you incapable of growing into something more then you are and can "freeze you" in that time. But I also realize looking too far ahead in the future may not be that good either, as events within the present and near coming present are always changing. So, sometimes, it may indeed be best to live in the here and now. YOu don't stress about things in the past, and, you don't end up adding stress because of things you thought would happen in the future that didn't.
For me, I thought I would be one that would say, get a job fixing computers up. I took classes for em and stuff. They were fun & interesting. I am not upset that I don't have a job in computers. I am happy that I was able to learn what I did and that it still can be used from time to time to help others if they need it.
Hell, just recently I help my next door Neighbor Lilly/Lily (Unsure how her name is spelled) remove this damnedable things that is a "Insert OS name here" Security etc (insert year here" fake antivirus thingy. That nasty one that makes your computer almost unusable and want your credit card info. I managed to delete it from her computer and get it back to normal.
My friend who spent some time at my apartment managed to get it and I spent some time removing it from his computer, and then later, mine got the same thing, almost two nights in a row. So, despite the fact that my gaol of a tech job was not met, I am happy with the knowledge that the event of learning what I did was not wasted as it still has some uses, no matter how rare they may come along.
I am sure that you will not be one to give up, but I also tell you that you should not be saddened or angred by the fact if say, a goal of the future you set for yourself doesn;t come to pass for whatever reason it may be. Sometimes the experiances and things you learn towards that goal may have uses later on that you won't know of until the future that in turn eventually becomes the present.
I wonder if this is something kinda like, words of wisdom ir inspiration or something. You think it would be good maybe to post some of this, maybe on the board I have made a bunch of replias to, maybe see if it can somehow help others? What are your thoguhts? Part of me thinks it could be good, but at the same time, I wonder just how many people would absorb that info and not try to contradict it or something.
Man, it seems a lot of times my head does fee weird, perhaps similar to how Rin does. It is indeed like a feeling that has no words. And indeed the simple act of adding a label to it can change it into something different. Kinda why I personally try not to think too much about labels & try to make them not affect me so much. OF course, on the flipside, society seems so hellbent on labeling everything to make it fit within the collective mindset of what may be deemed as "Normal". I don't like words like "Normal" or "Abnormal" because that is also something that is subjective to every individsual.
Anywho, thanks for the PM. Sorry for any typos. Brain seems too odd feeling to bother to really check. ^_^
Gonna test and see if I can post links to my posts in that thread to make it easier on everyone.
http://ks.renai.us/viewtopic.php?f=13&t ... =15#p66311
http://ks.renai.us/viewtopic.php?f=13&t ... =30#p66825
I think that is all, unless I missed one or two that I somehow manasged to do in a lot less then normal. So, yeah. Read and tell me your thgouhts on the subject if ya want. Part of me is curious on your thoguhts of the subject. Later all.