Boy does it feel like I've walked a mile in your shoes. only real difference was I was the one taking care of younger siblings/ relatives and my dad found the girl and that caused further family division. besides that you and I seem to have walked similar paths in life. I feel for you, I'm betting that even if you feel okay with it now, were were some dark lonely times back then that definitely sucked. *brohug*Shadowstalk wrote:Hello everyone. I am quite new to this forum, as you can see, but I look forward to posting here and I feel I should introduce myself.
At a young age, my parents split up, which was no big deal to me. Life went on as my sister and I went back and forth from houses. No big deal. My father, who is incredibly kind though, had a problem. Drinking was his major flaw. He got arrested for DUIs several times and lost his license. I don't think he's getting it back for the rest of his life. Note, that I was very young, 7 or 8, when this happened. I just thought Daddy had friends from the taxi company that would drive me to school. This did not damage my life though, not as much as my mother who pounced on the opportunity at least.
My mother is a drunken bitch. I'll say it. I do not love her, nor do I want to see her. She drank herself to sleep every night. She also gained full custody over me for a time because she claimed my father was an unfit parent. She found a boyfriend that came off as nice to a young boy. He seemed nice, appealing and sweet to my mother. She was happy with him, so I was happy with him. He seemed to like me back. I wish I could say the same for my sister. They constantly got into spats whenever she was home from college, which was not much. My mother, who was still constantly drunk, took her boyfriend's side in every single argument. Her boyfriend was beginning to use her and split the family up. On Christmas a few years ago, he said "It's either me or her." My mother obviously sided with him, as usual. My sister fled to my father's house and lives there to this day.
Life without seeing her as much engulfed me. I couldn't possibly deal with it. My sister was more of a mother to me than my actual mother. I became depressed. When Halo Reach came out, I logged 240 hours in the first month due to the fact I was so lonely without her. I never thought of killing myself or anything of that sort, but I just felt so empty, like a robot. I had no purpose, no desire. Just a shell.
Eventually, I decided I needed to escape them. They wanted to have this magical life together. Who was I to "intrude"(even though my mother should be caring for me first over her disgusting boyfriend)? A few days after my birthday in April a few years ago, I left that house, never to come back.
I was constantly barraged with phone calls, asking for me to come back, but I never would. In school, my grades improved, despite the fact that they were already high. I pursued baseball and basketball more seriously. Hell, last year I pitched in the State tournament and gave up one run in 5 innings. My social life improved somewhat I guess. I was no longer lonely due to the fact that my mother and her boyfriend were drop dead drunk and I didn't have money for a taxi, like my father did. I gained friends and felt good.
I've came to playing Katawa Shoujo over the past month and its helped me realize a few important things. Most importantly, I'll always assist those who need help, follow my heart, and understand love and when it's needed. It's made me a better person and enlightened me almost. I want to help people and be that friend that some people desperately need. I'll constantly browse here and give advice to those in need.
KS does seem to bring out the best in people who actually get into the game. I dont know of many who tried it and liked it that didn't feel better off or that they wanted to better others afterward. I hope you and your sister are still in touch, it's a shame to lose a sibling to something like that, let alone a parent.
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For those of you who read my previous post about my friend Sonya, and her recent struggles I just want to give an update. She and I have talked it over, and despite me finding a place near to her and a job, she wants me to stay here and not come. She would have said yes if she didn't feel she could cope, and she knows I'm only a phone call and a day's trek away from being at her side should she need me, but for now she wants time to try and put herself back together on her own. She's promised me she'll let her mother watch the kids as often as she feels she needs and that she'll call me or one of her girlfriends if she just needs to vent. It's hard for me to be optimistic about this situation, considering how close it hits to home for me, but if anyone can bounce back from this, I trust she can.