No offense, but particularly I got pissed to your "former brother" and to your mother. One is not supposed to be drinking while in pregnancy period.
Write here whenever you want. There is no one that is superior nor inferior over another here. Disabilities nor diseases don't matter to any of us. You could just P.M me or anybody else who is willing to listen if you had any particular problems or if you just feel lonely. I can call you brother as well, if you will.
@Surreal-mind, I know that it might not make you feel any better, but allow me to say that you are not the only one who feels like a cursed one. I too, exactly feel like that my bloodline is cursed. I have problems with females, and according to the stories they told, my father had problems with females as well, and my grandfather had his own kind of problems, you see. Though, my curse seems to be kinda different than yours, but don't everyone have their own "curses" in their lives anyway? Well, so, I don't even wanna have a child even if I manage to get some perfect love with the help of some twisted fate. It's a big responsibility. I will end my bloodline. There's no need create an another problem child who suffers in the future, who carries the same cursed blood. The best I could do would be just adopting some kid.
Pull yourself together man. Life still goes on. Whenever you pull the strength off to tell what happened, you could just type here, to us.
@Xiious, like you said, there really are many people who have problems with females here, eh?

@Micijayah, was she that Lilly? :p Though, I would advice that you better not give any wrong ideas to somebody else regarding relationships.

@Kouryuu, don't worry. It's not like everybody should be emotional and stuff every second. I'm sure that everybody else have their moods just like you. Even if not, I know that I have mine..
@Total Destruction, forgive my curiosity, but where were you from, dude? :p